So…. Here is a very long chapter for everyone to enjoy.
It's possible it MIGHT be too fluffy, but with everything going on in the world, I feel like we could use some fluff, right?
Enjoy!
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"Sam, I'm going crazy," she announces as she walks into the family room, where he is sitting on the couch.
"What's wrong?" He asks as he looks up from the book he's reading.
"I want this baby out of me like yesterday," she whines as she sits down beside him and snuggles into his side.
"I know," he empathizes as he rubs her shoulder. "Are you still having the Braxton-Hicks?" He asks. She's been having them on and off for the past two days and they have yet to ease up.
"Yes," she replies, dramatically. "And I've tried everything to move this thing along, but nothing is working," she complains. "I've been exercising, eating spicy foods, drinking red raspberry leaf tea, eating pineapple and bananas and basil… I even bounced on one of those exercise balls until I felt like my legs were about to fall off! And then I read that bumpy car rides can help so I literally drove around on dirt roads for twenty minutes this morning… I even tried nipple stimulation!" she exclaims.
"What?" He asks with a laugh and an amused smile.
"Shut up!" she says as she playfully hits his chest. "I read on online that it's supposed to induce labor," she says with a laugh, fully aware at how ridiculous she sounds.
"Well, why didn't you say so? I could've helped with that," he says with a grin.
"When is she gonna come out?" Andy asks with quite a bit of exasperation. She is two days past her due date and she is all kinds of uncomfortable. All she wants is for her little girl to be born, but she's just not cooperating.
"When she's ready, I guess," Sam tells her as he massages her neck.
"Ugh!" Andy replies.
"What can I do?" Sam asks as he turns to face her and uses a hand to caress her jaw.
"Well, there's one more thing I haven't tried because I kind of need you to do it," she tells him as a smirk starts to form.
"Oh yeah?" He asks, curious.
"I need you to have sex with me. Like a lot of sex," she explains. "Right now," she adds.
"Hmm… I think I could probably do that," he agrees with a smile. "C'mon," he says as he helps her off the couch, grabs her hand and starts to lead her towards their bedroom. "So… only kind of?" He asks with a quirked eyebrow, referring to her words from a minute ago.
She lets out a laugh. "Well, the delivery guy that came by today was pretty cute… and I bet he would've done me a favor if I asked really nice," she teases. "But I figured you'd probably prefer that I wait until you got home," she smirks as they walk through the doorway and stand beside their bed.
Sam hmms as he starts to pull her shirt over her head.
"Plus I'm sure he wouldn't do as good of a job," she grins.
"Mhm," he replies, seemingly not ready to let her off the hook just yet.
That' when she circles both arms around his neck and stands on her toes to get as close as she can to him. "Love you," she tells him as she hovers on his lips.
"Love you, too," he tells her, finally giving in and presses his lips against her.
She smiles and slowly opens her eyes as he pulls away. "Now, can you please get this baby out of me?" She begs.
"I'll see what I can do," he promises.
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"Well, that was a valiant effort Swarek, but it looks like this baby just doesn't wanna come out," she tells him as she runs her hands over her belly.
He lets out a chuckle and gives her a kiss on her forehead. "I'm gonna go jump in the shower… wanna come with?" He asks as he runs his fingers through her hair.
"Always," she responds with a grin.
He returns her smile and proceeds to help her out of bed before leading her to the bathroom and assisting her with getting into the shower.
"You know… after this, we should probably do it a few more times," she suggests.
"Oh yeah?" He asks with an amused smile.
"Mhm… gotta put some in the bank since we won't be able to do it for six weeks after the baby's born," she reminds him.
"Good point," he agrees. "Plus, we're probably gonna have our hands full with the whole parenting thing for a while," he teases as he squeezes a dollop of shampoo into his hands and massages it into her scalp.
"Mhm. That too," she quips as she closes her eyes and relishes the feeling of his hands in her hair.
"Oh shit," she says a minute or so later.
"What's wrong?" He asks, the concern evident in his voice, as he pulls his hands away from her head so he can get a good look at her.
"I think my water just broke," she announces as she looks down at the shower floor.
"What? How can you tell?" He asks, also looking down at the floor.
"Because I felt it!" she exclaims at his stupid question.
"Okay, okay… let's get out of here. We have to go to hospital," he says as he reaches to turn off the water.
"Sam, wait," she says as she grabs his arm. "Can I at least wash my hair first?" She asks as she points to her head.
"Oh… oh, yeah, sorry," he apologizes as he steps around her so she can get her head under the water.
"Well, I guess if there is an ideal place for your water to break, it would be in the shower," she muses as she washes the shampoo out of her hair.
"Yeah," he agrees with a nervous laugh as he runs his fingers through his own hair. "I'm gonna go dry off," he tells her before he steps out of the shower and towels off.
"You know, I knew I should've tried sex first… you have no idea what I went through today. I had the worst heartburn of my life from all of that spicy food and I got so nauseous from that bumpy car ride and all of that bouncing… and sitting on the couch trying to stimulate your nipples while Judge Judy is on in the background just feels wrong," she tells him as she turns off the faucet and pushes the shower curtain aside.
"Mhm," he says, only half listening as he grabs her hand and helps her out of the shower before wrapping a towel around her and drying her off.
"Sam, relax… I haven't even had a real contraction yet… we have plenty of time," she assures him, covering her hand with his and giving it a squeeze.
He looks up at her and nods. "Yeah… yeah, I know… I'll just feel a lot better when we're at the hospital," he tells her.
"I know, just let me get dressed and we can go," she tells him.
And it's ten minutes later that they are in the truck and on their way to the hospital.
"Sam, slow down," Andy implores. "We have time," she adds.
He glances over at her and steps on the break. Honestly, he didn't even realize he was going so fast. He's a little bit lost in his own world right now. His mind is spinning and he has no idea how to make it stop.
"Are you freaking out?" She wonders.
"No," he responds, a little too quickly.
"Okay," she says with a roll of her eyes, obviously not believing him for a second.
He quickly glances over at her again before grabbing her hand, interlocking their fingers and bringing it to his lips. "Sorry," he tells her as he rests their hands on the center console. "I'm just a little anxious," he admits.
"What do you have to be anxious about? I'm the one about to give birth," she reminds him with a chuckle.
"I know," he agrees. "You scared?" He asks, briefly peeking over at her and soothingly rubbing the back of her hand with his thumb.
"Yeah," she nods. "But you'll be there," she adds with a smile.
"Yeah, I will," he responds with a smile. "I love you," he tells her.
"Love you, too," she tells him.
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"God, this really sucks," she complains once her contraction is over and she's finally loosened her grip on Sam's hand.
"I know," Sam replies as he gives her hand a reassuring squeeze and pushes her hair out of her face. Seeing her in this much pain… it's pretty much torture for him. He just really wants it to be over already, but the doctor left maybe five minutes ago and he said she still had a ways to go.
"Lie down with me?" She asks as she scoots to the side of the hospital bed in order to make room for him.
"Okay," he responds as he gets up onto the bed. She immediately moves back over to him and rests her head on his chest as he wraps an arm around her.
"You need to distract me," she informs him as she starts to draw lazy patterns on his chest.
"Okay…" he begins, trying to figure out how to go about doing that. His normal methods of distraction are kind of out of the question right now, so…
"Tell me a story," she requests, seemingly picking up on his uncertainty.
"What kind of story?" He wonders as she interlocks their fingers.
"Our story," she replies as her lips turn upward.
He smiles as he uses his other hand to play with her hair. "Well… it all started when this incredibly overeager rookie tackled me in an alley and gave me a particularly friendly pat down," he begins with a smirk.
"You know, I think I remember it starting a little differently," she muses.
"Nope. That's exactly how it went down," he maintains. "And despite my pleading with her not to arrest me, she cuffed me and threw me in the back of the cruiser," he adds.
"Oh because if someone you thought was a murder suspect asked you not to arrest them, you'd just let them go?" She retorts, incredulously.
He grins down at her, knowing that she's right, and then presses his lips against her forehead. "Anyway… when we got to the station, my cover was blown, so I obviously wasn't too happy with her and she knew it. And most rookies, they would have avoided me for at least the next six months, but not this one. No, she just busted in on me while I was changing in the locker room, called me out for being an ass, and forced me to help her," he continues.
"And I'm sure you loved that." Andy quips.
"Actually… I kind of did," he admits. "I was… intrigued," he explains.
"Oh yeah?" She asks, tilting her head up to meet his eyes.
"Yeah," he says as he places a kiss on her temple. "That's why I asked Boyco if I could train you," he admits.
"What? You never told me that," she replies, a little bit stunned by his confession.
"Mhm… pretty sure he thought I just wanted to torture you a little and… yeah, I kind of did, but you also really impressed me," he tells her.
"Wow. Who knew?" She exclaims.
"Yeah, so anyway… when I had my first shift with this rookie, she impressed me even more… basically saved my ass," he continues.
"She did, didn't she?" Andy reminisces with a grin.
"Yeah… and after that, I kind of couldn't stop thinking about her," he divulges.
"Really?" She asks, surprised.
"Yeah. And that night, when everyone was at the Penny, I couldn't stop looking over at her… I mean, she was beautiful and she had the most amazing smile, but it was even more than that… something I couldn't really figure out and it was… frustrating- that this rookie was getting to me. So, I decided to head home so I could get away from her and force her out of my mind," he explains.
"I'm sure that worked well," she quips.
"Not really. She followed me into the parking lot," he tells her.
"She's kind of persistent that way, isn't she?" Andy asks with a smirk.
"Oh you have no idea," he responds with a smile, causing her to laugh out loud. "So, there we were… in the parking lot talking and she's telling me how she wasn't scared earlier because I was there and I don't know, it made me… proud," he admits.
"Well, it was true… still is," she replies, earning herself a big smile.
"And then suddenly, we were standing really close to each other and all I wanted to do was kiss her and it seemed like she wanted to kiss me, too," he continues.
"She did," she says with a nod.
"But she didn't," he reminds her.
"Well, it was her first week on the job and he was her training officer," she rationalizes.
"Yeah, so we went our separate ways that night and I continued training her and even though she drove me crazy on a regular basis, I seriously hated being partnered with anyone else," he confesses.
"So did she," she says with a smile.
"But then she started dating this arrogant detective, which is funny because she told me she didn't date cops," he continues, causing Andy to let out a sheepish smile. "And so, I kept trying to get her out of my head, but nothing worked… because, as much as I didn't want to admit it to myself, I knew she wasn't just any other rookie," he acknowledges.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah, I mean… I don't normally fix a stranger's sink while I'm hungover just because a rookie asked me to, or let them drive my truck or offer them rides… No, I only did that stuff for her," he explains as Andy shoots him a smile while he strokes the back of her hand with his thumb. "And then one night, during a blackout, she showed up at my door and kissed me. And I should've stopped her. I knew she was just upset, but I could never say no to her and honestly… I really didn't want to. So I didn't… But then the lights turned on and the detective called her and eventually she left… And yeah, after that I pretty much knew that, no matter how badly I wanted to, trying to get her out of my head was a lost cause," he admits.
"You know, you were in her head, too," she informs him. He gives her a smile and a kiss on the forehead and then they just lie there, smiling at each other for a moment, until her face starts to contort in pain and he knows she's having another contraction. "Oh shit… hold that thought," she groans as she starts to squeeze his hand. Sam continues to hold her and rub her back while reminding her to breathe until she finally relaxes and releases the tight grip she has on his hand.
"Over?" He asks.
"Yeah," she confirms as she lets out a large breath. "Each one is worse than the last," she complains.
"I know," he says as he pushes a lock of hair behind her ear.
"Okay… so, tell me what happens next," she demands.
"You know what happens next, you were there," he says with a laugh.
"I know, but I like hearing it from your perspective," she tells him with a smile.
He lets out another laugh. "Okay well… after the blackout, the rookie and I went on a very awkward trip to Sudbury and eventually, we decided that we'd try to be friends… and surprisingly enough, we really did become friends… great friends," he tells her.
"Yeah, we did," she agrees with a smile.
"Yeah, for someone who used to just be the rookie who burned me… she slowly became one of the most important people in my life… but in the back of my head, I still hoped that someday we could be more," he confesses.
"Sam…" She says, starting to get teary-eyed. Ever since they got together the first time, she's been chastising herself for all of the missed opportunities and the hurt she caused. She wasted so much time trying not to have feelings for him and in the end, she just wishes she took him off ice a long time ago.
"And when she got engaged to the detective, I thought I had really lost my chance and as much as it sucked, I resigned myself to never being anything more than just her friend. But then the detective fucked everything up and as unbelievably pissed as I was at him for hurting her, I can't deny that I was also happy about the possibility of something happening between us… but the last thing I ever wanted to be was a rebound, so I just tried to be there for her," he explains.
"You were… you always are," she tells him.
"But then a couple months later, she was again saying that she didn't want to date cops, so that was encouraging," he says sarcastically, eliciting a laugh from her. "And then I got offered this undercover job and at first, I was going to turn it down," he admits.
"You were?" She inquires with some obvious surprise.
"Yeah… and I'm not proud of this, but I started telling her about it, wanting to know how she'd react… and it's probably not fair, but it wasn't exactly the reaction I wanted… I guess I was sort of hoping that she'd be at least a little upset about it, but it didn't seem like she was, so I just thought… this woman has turned me down twice now and all she's giving me is reason after reason to think that it's just never going to happen between us… so, I figured that I couldn't turn down this opportunity just on the hope that maybe she'll eventually come around… And I thought that maybe getting away would help me finally get over her… so, I agreed to go under and I ended up leaving that same night," he says.
"Sam, of course I didn't want you to go!" she exclaims. "But what was I supposed to say? I thought it was what you wanted," she explains.
"I know," he acknowledges as he runs his fingers through her hair. "Either way, it took about an hour at the cover apartment for me to regret my decision because it didn't even take me that long to start missing her," he continues.
"She missed you too," she assures him.
"But I guess the universe had a plan for us because I ran into her at a bar a month later," he says with a smile.
"I guess it did," she agrees as she mirrors his expression.
"And then she basically propositioned me in front of my mark, which was… unexpected," he smirks, causing her to laugh out loud. "So, we went back to the cover apartment and we had an unbelievable night."
"Yeah, we really did," she says with a nod and a smile.
"But then she had to go and saying goodbye to her, it was… torturous," he conveys.
"Yeah, it was," she agrees.
"And then I spent the next three days thinking of nothing but her… I was going completely crazy. I tried to talk myself out of calling her, but eventually, I just had to see her. So, I called her and she came over and we spent another incredible night together. And then, the next morning I woke up with her in my arms and it was the best feeling in the world. And I knew that I wanted every morning to be just like that one," he declares.
"She felt the same way," she replies with a smile. He shoots her a grin and leans in to give her a quick kiss.
"So, then there were a few hiccups with the operation and I ended up in a pretty bad situation, but she saved my ass once again… And even though I had literally just spent the day being tortured and my whole body felt like absolute shit, I hadn't been that happy in a long time because that night, I got to take her home with me," he continues.
She smiles at him for a moment, but then her face turns pale and she shuts her eyes and starts to squeeze his hand again. "Ow," she cringes as he rubs her back while she breathes through the pain. He just hates seeing her like this- in pain and nothing he can do about it. He just feels so helpless. And that's really not a feeling he enjoys… especially when it comes to her.
She lets out a large breath when it's over and turns towards him. "Keep going," she urges.
"Okay… so that happiness was a bit short-lived because she left for North Bay shortly thereafter and we spent three completely terrible months apart during our suspension… and yeah, it was pretty much the worst three months of my life," he tells her.
"Yeah, for her too," she acknowledges.
"But when she got back, we were finally on the same page and I had seriously never been happier, but I had also never been more terrified… I could already feel myself falling in love with her and it was… scary… and because of that, I made some mistakes," he continues.
"We both did," she interrupts. "But I think everything worked out the way it was supposed to, you know? I mean, I feel like all of that was just something we needed to go through… because, I do think we're much closer now, don't you?" She asks.
"Yeah, we are," he agrees with a smile. "I mean, I wish we didn't have to go through it, but I'm really happy with where we are now," he tells her.
"Me too," she smiles before leaning in for a kiss. When she pulls away, she just beams at him for a moment. "That was a pretty good story."
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The moment she is born is all a blur. A nurse quickly wraps her in a pink blanket and begins to wipe her off a little while another nurse hands him a pair of scissors, calls him Daddy and asks if he wants to cut the cord. And yeah, he probably shouldn't be handling scissors with the way he's feeling right now, but he does. He cuts the cord and then the nurses take his daughter to the other side of the room to clean her up.
That's when he's back at Andy's side, placing kisses on her sweaty forehead, telling her what a great job she did and how amazing she is and how much he loves her.
And he just feels completely out of control- with all of the emotions swirling around inside of him. He simultaneously feels like he wants to do a few laps around the hospital and also just lie in bed with his arms wrapped around Andy while staring at his newborn daughter for the rest of his life.
When the nurse comes back over to them a few seconds later, the baby is tightly wrapped in a blanket and wearing a tiny pink hat with a small bow on the side. She places her in Andy's arms and tells them that she's beautiful and she looks great. And he's not sure why, but he can't help but feel proud of that.
He settles in the bed beside Andy and she immediately snuggles into him, allowing him to wrap his arm around her and kiss the top of her head. And they just spend the next few minutes in complete silence, staring down at their daughter, both trying to memorize every single inch of her.
He's still just completely blown away by all of it. It's finally beginning to dawn on him that he's actually a father now, and it feels unbelievably surreal.
He runs his thumb along her arm and then down to her tiny hand. Her skin is so soft and pink and her fingers are just so little. She looks so small and fragile and he just wants to wrap her in bubble wrap and protect her forever.
"I can't believe she's really ours," Andy says as she fidgets with the tiny pink hat on her head.
"I know," he agrees, as he continues to stare at his baby girl.
"She's pretty perfect, don't you think?" Andy comments, finally taking her eyes off their daughter and looking up at Sam's adoring eyes.
"She's completely perfect," he tells her. And they both have these big, silly grins on their faces.
"Yeah she really is," Andy agrees.
"She looks like you," Sam points out.
"You think?" She asks, as her smile widens.
"Yeah, that's the same exact face you make when you're sleeping," he tells her with a smirk.
She chuckles a bit and then they spend God knows how long just staring at their newborn daughter.
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Well, hope everyone liked that!
Anyone have any ideas for post-baby life? I'm 27 and thus, I don't have any kids, which makes coming up with those kinds of ideas kind of difficult. I only have two scenes written right now, so I definitely need some ideas. I'll take anything really- funny anecdotes, silly banter, general ideas, etc.
And don't forget to review!