Chapter 14

Me: See, told you it was here

Fang: See we never lie

Me+Fang: (exchange looks) (crack up laughing)

Me: Well, anyway. Enjoy the chapter

Dear Esme,

I hope you know I love you, if you don't know then you are either oblivious or stupid. I want you to know that I had to leave Forks, both times. If I knew you were still here when I left I certainly would have stayed with you, you are just like a mother to me and you always will be.

I am going back to the Volturi. I am going back to be with Alec. I love him Esme, no matter what his job. I need you, most of all, to be okay with that. I need you to be okay with the fact that I am leaving you for him. Most of all I need you to accept that I am leaving your son for your enemy.

When I am gone I hope you will write to me, I will most likely become bored in that huge castle. If you still haven't figured out that I love you more than I could love anyone then I guess after reading this you will know. Don't shed one tear for me, whether it is an actual tear or just dry sobs; don't be upset that I could very well never see you again. I love you Esme.

My deepest love,

Isabella

By the time I had finished writing Esme's teary letter I was almost in tears. I folded the paper gently, wrote Esme on the front, set it aside and moved on to the next heart shattering letter.

Dear Carlisle,

I want to tell you that I do not, nor have I ever, considered you as a bad person, let alone a horrible vampire. You are one of the most pure people I know and also one of the most giving. You give all of your time and effort into this family, your clients and your friends. You refuse to let anyone be upset over something you can control or change, which is why you are good person.

I have to leave. I have to go back to the Volturi with Alec. I love him and he loves me, we can't be apart without our hearts shattering. You of all people in this family should know how that feels, how your heart shatters, how you need to get them back. In your case, how you can bring back those you hurt and killed.

You need to keep helping people. Not just the people who come to you as a Doctor, but everyone you see. You can try to help them in some way. Don't give up on anything. No second father should.

From the bottom of my beating heart,

Isabella

I folded this letter faster than Esme's, but just as gently. I wrote Carlisle on the front and placed it beside Esme's letter to the side of my writing space. I still had five letters left, only three I really cared about, but still five left. I got a new piece of paper, noting that the time was now 11:20am; one hour and ten minutes till Alec comes.

Dear Rosalie,

We may not have always gotten along. We may never have gotten along, but I still felt as though you cared about me, even just a tiny little bit. I always considered you as much of a sister as Alice was, and hopefully will be again. I know that your dislike for me is not as personal as I think; there is a specific reason behind your hatred for me, I just need to know what it is.

I need you to know that I am leaving to go back to the Volturi with Alec. I hope you don't hate me even more for not choosing your brother, but he isn't my true soul mate. If you ask Marcus who he thinks I have the strongest connection with he will say Alec, I know this because he has already told me. I love him just as much as you love Emmett; surely you can use your situation to relate to mine.

Though you may never accept me as one of your family, I will always include you as a part of mine. You will always be that distant older sister to me, no matter what you do or say to me.

Dearest regards,

Isabella

I folded Rosalie's letter respectively, writing her name elegantly on the front showing my love and respect for her through the print, seeing as I could not show her through my own verbal words. I placed the letter quietly beside Carlisle's as I pulled out a fresh page to write another heart shattering letter.

Dear Emmett,

I so hope you know I love you a whole heap Big Brother Bear. I will always love you as my big brother, nothing more, thankfully, and nothing less. Don't stop being your joking, fun loving and huggable self no matter what anyone says to you.

Here is some advice I need to give you before I leave. When you jump the river, don't kill the forest. When you hug a human, they will snap if you squeeze too tight. Rosalie loves you, much more than she does her hair let me tell you. I love you no matter what you look like, who you are or where you are. You will forever and always be my big brother.

If Rosalie hasn't told you by now, I am going back to Italy. I am going back to the Volturi. The only reason I am going back is to be with Alec, I love him like you love video games. I love Alec like you love Rosalie. Just keep that in mind and know I love you.

Hopefully Forever,

Your little sister Isabella

I took a little longer with Emmett's letter than the others, making sure there was nothing he could use as a dirty joke. I knew he would find something anyway but it never hut to check. I folded his letter up slowly and wrote Emmett ;D on the front in printed letters. I sat there looking at the clock for a moment, once again taking note of the time, seeing it was 11:50am. 40 minutes left.

Dear Jasper,

You have tried to kill me, several times, but I never blamed you for it. If there was ever a great need for me to blame anyone for you almost killing me I would blame Maria without blinking. Maria turned you and gave you the curse that is your bloodlust, she and her accomplices are the only ones to blame for anything you have done to hurt someone you cared about or didn't know.

Though I may not say it enough, I love you as my brother just as much as I love Emmett as my brother. I know you hardly speak to me but I know that is just because you are afraid what you say will harm me or one of your family members in some way, just know that I understand and you don't need to be afraid of hurting me anymore.

I know that you still love Alice and I know Alice still loves you, even if she is currently out of her right mind. I know the both of you love each other just as I love Alec, not that I really need to tell you considering you would have already felt my feelings toward him. He is the reason I have left, to go back to Volterra and be with him forever as a vampire just as you are with Alice.

If you even for one tiny second think that this is your fault, that you drove me away, I will hunt you down and set you straight. My leaving was no one's fault; I left of my own free will to be with Alec. I do not love Edward, I'm not really sure I ever did, but I know for sure that I love Alec. If they try to come after me, help me and stop them from coming.

Know that I love you,

Isabella

I looked over Jasper's letter a few times before folding it and writing his name on the top, setting it with the others while I grabbed the next sheet of paper to start on Alice's letter.

Dear Alice,

You lied to me. If you hadn't, I would have never left Forks to begin with. The only person you can really blame for that is yourself, and you know that too.

I know you love Jasper more than you love your own life even. I also know that even if you are currently out of your right mind at the moment, I still love you as though you were my sister.

I don't have any doubts you will know where I am headed; I have to tell you not to come after me. If you do follow after me I have an army of blood thirsty vampires that kind of want me to stay with them.

Try to get better, you have been in an asylum before and I know you can make yourself better. I also know that if you can't help yourself Carlisle will be more than willing to help you with anything you need, but you already know that too.

Don't give up,

Isabella

I re-read the short letter I would soon address to Alice and I cried. I am not afraid to admit that I cried, I cried because I was worried and I also felt upset that the shortest letter I have written was Alice's. I sighed heavily as I folded Alice's letter and wrote her name slowly on the front as I placed it carefully beside the others. I had one more letter to go. It was now 12:15, I had 15 minutes to write Edward's letter. I hesitantly grabbed a fresh sheet of paper to begin writing, here goes nothing.

Dear Edward,

I feel sorry for you. I fell sorry that you cannot move on. I feel sorry that you will keep chasing after me even though you know more than well enough that I do not love you anymore.

You know where I am going and I know you are smart enough to know that if you follow me you won't live to tell the tale. The Volturi want me to turn and they want to be the ones to turn me. The Volturi will keep me there once they have turned me and I know that perfectly well, I accept that to.

I want to be with Alec, you know that too. I know that you don't want to accept the fact that I don't love you anymore but you have to. You and Alice both need to get yourself better, Alice can help you if you can't do it on your own. If Alice can't help you, you know Carlisle would do absolutely anything to help you get better, he loves you more that you know.

I'm sorry,

Isabella.

I cried as soon as I put pen to paper and didn't stop until I finished and held the letter up to re-read it. I knew it was short but it said everything I needed to say and that's all I was worried about. I read the letter a few more times before folding it ever so slowly, writing his name three times slower, and putting it back on the desk. I stood from the desk chair and arranged the letters out on the desk in two rows, the top row had four and the bottom row had three.

I glanced over at the clock, it was 12: 28. I had two minutes. I grabbed the last few things I hadn't packed already and slung my bag over my shoulders. Looking around the room I said a silent goodbye to the Cullen's, I could very well never see them again.

"Isabella" I heard Alec say from the window wall. Time to go, finally.

Me: I am too pooped to be funny right now

Fang: Ditto

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