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Okay I got the impression that some people got a little confused. Will clarify everything, my bad.

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APOV

I didn't know why but I had the feeling this was going to turn out...complicated. Maybe my subconscious was picking up subtle future vibes. It had happened before now. I felt discomfort, caution, like when the Volturi were coming, a dark creepy sense of foreboding. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe I was just anxious about altering our already perfect life. Because however much we tried to convince ourselves; this was a big deal. It was a large complication.

Jasper came and sat next to me on the balcony. He could sense my worry, "Do you want to talk about it?" He really wouldn't mind if I said I didn't. He never doubted my feelings for him of course, if I didn't always feel like talking he understood.

I hesitated. I almost said no automatically, when I didn't know I tended not to concern people just for the sake of making myself feel better. But this was Jasper, maybe it was time to take a leaf out of Bella and Edward's book. Sure they fought, but they always came out of an argument stronger than they went in. Unpleasant things shouldn't be avoided. I checked on the girls playing in the woods. I could hear them distantly yelling, my sharp eyes tracked their shapes as they moved through the trees. I dropped my voice, "I don't know exactly what to say. How to explain it?"

It was so complicated. It wasn't just seeing the future; it was seeing many futures, all of which were possible. Now they weren't. We had made our choice to come here, because in every other future I could see or get a glimpse of, there was no evidence of Jacob Black. He was just gone. If he wasn't with us his future became lost.

He nodded, "Future issues? I can imagine that might be hard to put into words."

I settled for just airing my thoughts, "I don't know if coming here was a good idea. This future was one of the least distinct. It normally means that..."

"There are lots of big decisions to be made. And not simple ones I guess."

"That's the thing. Big decisions change everything, and without being able to constantly monitor the changes caused by the little ones it's hard to know what's right."

Jasper reached out and took my hand, "I think seeing half the story now and again, is worse than not seeing anything, " he paused, "Though it's better in some ways too."

I couldn't disagree with that. Especially not the second part. I couldn't deny that I was still delighted to have even this limited access, "It does set me on edge though."

"Do you think Bella and Edward are wrong? Do you think we should look more closely?" He thought we should, I knew that. But I was pretty much on Bella's side here.

"Not necessarily, but maybe. Bella's just concerned. If she's honest, she's been glad of excuses to delay our return to Forks. She's been having fun for the first time in a long time, why would she want that to stop?" She had confided in me her reluctance, and I knew she was worried about Edward. She didn't want him to think she was siding with Jake. She had almost asked me to look, she had wanted to, but she was afraid of what I might see. So was I.

But our biggest concern was exposing the girls to anymore random visions. What if I saw something terrible? What if I kept looking and actually saw what might happen to Jacob? It didn't seem right.

"You know, the only times I've felt anything but joy from her, have been when she's been thinking of her obligations to Jake. It makes her feel guilty," a frown crossed Jasper's face, we all felt protective of Bella as the newest full vampire amongst us, "I don't like it."

"That's what I mean Jazz. If we hadn't looked, the odds are that he would have been out of our lives for good. Nothing against the guy, you know that. But what if those paths led somewhere great? Somewhere when we weren't tied down by fear and guilt?"

"Once we knew we had no choice, we couldn't take the risk of those paths ending with something bad. Like Jacob Black dead. Maybe that's the reason he wasn't in the other futures."

I sighed, the girls were digging somewhere to the north east, they were about twelve feet down. They were having fun, "That's what I mean. We looked, and now we're stuck here. Maybe sometimes it really is just better not to know. Wow, I can't believe I'm the one saying that, but I am. "

Jasper squeezed my fingers gently, "Don't think like that, your gift has saved us all at some time. It brought you and me together. I know that sometimes you see things you don't want to see, but if that's the price, it's well worth it. Isn't it?"

Jasper leant forward and kissed me gently, "Thanks Jazz. I think I needed to hear that."

The smile that lit up his face was breathtakingly beautiful. Too few people got to see it, "I know."

He kissed me again and I heard the girls heading back to the house at their usual leisurely pace. They emerged from the trees covered head to toe in mud. I smiled as I remembered the image from my vision. The excitement. "Aunt Alice! Aunt Alice we found a newt!"

They had lived in a jungle populated with crocodiles and enormous snakes, and they were still fascinated by a newt? Kids were weird...and fantastic.

I sighed but my amusement was disappearing. I was going to have to tell them now. This was my part. Edward and Bella would be back from the airport soon with Jake. I had to prepare them.

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RenesmeePOV

We both sat on my bed and I took Cadence's hand and told her that she didn't have to be worried. Jake was a friend, he cared about me and mom and he'd like her too. She met my eyes, "Then why are you nervous? I can tell Ren. I've never seen you like this before." I had tried to cover my reaction when Alice had explained. I didn't want anyone to think I wasn't glad I was going to see Jake, I was.

It just wasn't that simple. I was a little nervous and it was hard to hide things from Cadie. She was my best friend after all. We'd been living in each other's minds since we'd met. I hadn't seen Jake in a long time and sometimes my memories were hard to reconcile with what I knew. Jake had been mom's best friend before she had become a vampire. He was extended family, but he loved me very much. He had always been trusted to take care of me just like Rosalie and Alice and the others. Now it confused me.

It was odd; I knew that Jake's pack were the natural enemies of vampires. Despite these issues, when the Volturi had become a threat he had tolerated the presence of many who killed humans regularly. I knew it was to ensure my safety. It seemed like a lot to expect from a 'good family friend'.

I got the impression that there were expectations where Jake was concerned. I just didn't know what they were. Dad seemed irritated with him sometimes, but he had not said anything about him to me. I had asked mom once and she had shrugged it off. I accepted what she had said at the time, but looking back...maybe she just didn't want to tell me. She worried about me. Not that I wanted her to stop too much. She was my mom after all, it was her job.

The unanswered questions and theories that got weirder with time conspired to make me nervous. I needed to try and get it under control. My friend needed me to be the calm one.

I smiled, "I promise, everything will stay the same, except that we have someone else who'll play any game we can come up with." That was pretty much the most dominate factor of Jake, his eagerness to please.

I hadn't let go of her hand. I caught a flash of something, she was feeling insecure. She was...jealous? I blinked in surprise, she looked at my face and saw the shock, "Cadie, you don't have to be jealous," she tried to pull her hand away but I held on.

She was scared. What if, when my old friend got here I didn't need her anymore? He probably wasn't some weirdo who woke up screaming when she dreamt of her mother. He could turn into a wolf! How cool was that? Why would he want to hang out with her?

I didn't want to listen anymore, "Cadie, don't be ridiculous. Nothing's gonna change between us, you are my best friend and I love you." I hugged her tightly.

"I love you too, and I don't like to think of us not being together. Since I met you all, every day has been better than the one before. I don't want it to change."

"Hush, nothing's going to change. Tomorrow's going to be even more fun than today."

Her voice was barely a whisper, "But what if he really doesn't like me?"

I remembered asking that same question once before. Jake had tried to tell me that everyone would like me. Mom had told me the truth; I went with that, "So what if he doesn't? I do, and I don't care if he doesn't."

She sniffled a little and hugged me back, "Sorry, I'm stupid."

I kissed the top of her head, and wondered if she would get as tall as I was getting, "You're not stupid. You're just still getting used to being with us, we're family now. You're not going to get replaced. Promise." I wiped the tears from her cheeks and heard feet coming up the stairs.

Rose knocked gently on the door, "You okay in there ladies? Jasper's picking up some sad vibes."

"Come in Aunt Rose," she pushed the door open and smiled gently at us both, sat cross legged on my bed.

"Everything okay?" She wriggled between us and put an arm around each of us.

I nodded curling into her side, "Just nervous about Jake. Cadie's never met a shape shifter and I've not seen him for a long time."

Rosalie nodded, "Well, I hope you warned her about the smell."

The serious look on her face had us giggling; Aunt Rose always knew what to say.

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We sat in the living room, everyone was there. Carlisle had taken a day off from the hospital he had started work at. Cadence sat next to me on the sofa holding my hand. We had developed the habit of staying in contact unless there was a reason not to and now I was telling her about what we were going to do tomorrow. I wanted to keep her calm. If she got scared she might bolt. It hadn't happened for a long time. Then again she hadn't been this stressed for a long time.

If we wanted Alice said she would take us shopping, or maybe to a spa. We had never been to one before, it was something we had just never got round to. Mom and my aunts didn't need to be maintained so they didn't think about it much, but they did enjoy spending time in Jacuzzis and the like. They liked the warmth.

Maybe we wouldn't do either, maybe we would do something else. But just talking about it was calming for both of us. She asked if we could try a massage. Why not? Could be fun.

I could hear the familiar sound of my dad's car. They would be here in less than two minutes. I kept telling Cadie that it was okay, that everything was going to be fine. I wished that I could feel more sure myself. I was feeling even more nervous now; it was like tightness in my chest. I didn't really understand the feeling. It was new to me.

We were the only ones sitting. The rest of the family stood completely still, waiting. It was sometimes weird how much like statues they could all look. There was no movement when we heard the car pull up either, a sure sign that they were waiting for a verdict. A reaction from Jake perhaps? Why? Did he not want to be here or something?

We heard the car doors opening and closing. I could hear Jake's heart thumping rapidly. Maybe he was nervous too. I heard his feet bounce quickly up the stairs towards the front door and reconsidered. He was clearly just anxious to see us...me. I knew. He wanted to see me.

I couldn't say why I was aware of it at that moment more than any other, but it just hit me. Jake was not here for any other reason, not really. He here to be with me. Cadence squeezed my hand, I wasn't thinking clearly. She just sensed my distress, I was panicked. If I was human I would probably be shaking with fright.

I took a deep breath. I could do this; I didn't even know why I was so scared. There was nothing to be afraid of. Jacob would never do anything to upset me. He loved me. Oh god he loved me? He loved me? It just felt like there was a huge weight on my back and it was almost crushing me. I didn't feel threatened. I wasn't afraid of Jake physically; some instinct told me there was nothing to fear. No danger there. But...he loved me?

How had I not seen it before? There had been nothing obvious of course, it had never been said. But now it seemed obvious. Maybe I was just getting old enough to recognise it for what it was. He looked at me like I was the answer to his prayers, his salvation, everything. Maybe that was why I hadn't realised it was strange. Mom and dad looked at me like that all the time. But they looked at each other that way too. I had never felt this trapped before. "Ren? What's wrong?" Cadie's voice was the barest whisper but of course everyone in the room heard it. Cadie was trying to calm me. It would be over soon. It would be fine. It helped.

Heads all snapped round to stare at me? Jake's steps didn't slow, he wasn't listening. I heard dad's steps speed up and mom's join in, I heard dad's voice, "Something's wrong with Renesmee."

Their steps sped up further, closing the distance between them and Jake as he reached the door. Barely a second had passed when the door opened and a huge form filled the doorway. Everyone's heads swivelled back to the door at the sound. Mom and dad were behind him looking concerned, my father locked onto my face the second he saw me. I nodded slightly to him. I made an effort to calm my thoughts. Cadence, Dad, I'm okay. I'm sorry. I just freaked out for a second there. Dad did not look convinced.

Yeah right.

I ignored her but gripped her hand tighter. Jake was smiling at me. The expression lit up his handsome face. But there was something deeper. Had he been ill? He looked...drained somehow, exhausted. Like he hadn't had a decent night's sleep for weeks. I was instantly concerned for him, but there appeared to be no need. He looked so happy, "Hello Nessie."

I smiled, trying not to let any of the timidity show in my voice, "Hey Jake, we've missed you."

He let out a laugh like a bark and bounded across the room and scooped me up in his arms. "I can't believe you're here." He sounded as though he was crying as he crushed me to his chest.

His arms felt hot around me. It had been a long time since I'd felt skin warmer than my own and it was a little uncomfortable. As he'd picked me up he had wrenched my hand from Cadie's and without her calming words in my head I started to feel panicked again. The intensity of his words and voice added to it, "I've missed you so much my Nessie."

Suddenly I was gripped by an overwhelming urge to free myself and I started to struggle. Dad was there in a second, "Jake let her go, you're scaring her."

As my father tried to take me, Jake tried to stop him. I knew it was instinctive, like reaching for a falling object. If someone tried to take something, you tried to stop them. But in my state of panic I cried out and tried to shove him away. "Get off. Let me go!"

Jake reacted instantly to my voice and yielded me up, "I'm sorry Nessie, and I didn't mean to scare you."

Dad let me down and I stared up, way up. I didn't mean to snap at him, I really didn't. He looked so hurt and I didn't want to add to it, but I was angry and embarrassed. I had had a tantrum like a spoiled child and it was humiliating, "Then don't just pounce on me Jacob. I'm not a doll for you to play with."

Jake looked as though I had slapped him. His mouth dropped open but he didn't say anything. I spun on my heel to face Cadie and seized her hand. She followed as I strode through the back door out on to the veranda. We won't go farther than the stream dad. Just give me a minute. Love you.

My father wouldn't follow us. He always tried to respect my privacy, they all did. Cadie went with me willingly. Just before we were out of hearing range I heard Emmett let out a wry chuckle, "Well, she got her mother's temper."

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A/N Okay, I hope this clarified any questions. They decided to go to New Hampshire, their idea so long ago, because when Alice and Cadence were practising they saw possible futures. There were several options, none very specific, but in all but one of these Jacob played no part. Edward asked Bella what she wanted to do and she said that she thought they should follow the path that included Jake even though it was murky. Her main concern being that nothing but death would keep Jacob away from Renesmee forever.

They've stopped practising for a while because they're concerned about exposing the girls to anything unpleasant. Bear in mind, they didn't know how Jake was going to react to this news, there was a chance he was going to flip out like he did the last time.

Traceybuie-Well, she cares but she doesn't seem all that impressed right now huh? He is behaving like a bit of a freak.

gnrclln-don't worry, Bella's learning. I didn't want to jump to it too fast but I promise she is starting to get it. Maybe she's letting go a little. Fully letting herself be what she is yadda yadda yadda. After all, it's a hell of a transition. Stay with her, she's getting there lol.

Improvgirl01-they'll learn to work together soon. First few years of marriage are always the worst ; )