By the time I woke up I was still in someone's arms but now I heard talking. "I told you he will not let go!" the voice above me hisses. "Not very likely."

the other says. "Tristan, InuYasha why argue. Ask him I believe he is now awake. Right child?" Sesshomaru asks. Blinking my eyes at the light I look

around and see InuYasha and Sesshomaru behind of me. Looking in front of me I see Tristan "hey." I tell him. He looks at me while letting go of me.

Sighing I back up and stand with the help of InuYasha. "you ok kid?" he asks. "yeah, just too much comfort in one day." I tell him. My voice sounds

strange even to me. "We are going back to the village to pack our things. Do you think you will be mentally ready to leave at sun set?" Sesshomaru

tells/asks me. I agree and we are making our way back to the others. "Kagome not back yet?" I ask them. "no" is the answer. She must be spending

time with her father. My uncle? When we arrive Koga is yelling about too many humans and their staring. "You know Koga if you weren't so strange

looking no one would stare." I yell to him. He gives me a right look and smiles. "glade to see your back. Did everything go well?" he asked slowly like it

would break. Nodding I continue to move closer. Sesshomaru and InuYasha are looking for Rin and packing while Koga, Tristan and I sit outside Kaedes

hut. Looking at Koga I can see he is fidgeting " Koga is something wrong?" I whisper. He jumps up and runs his hand through his hair. "Ah, sport you

remember almost a month ago I told you I was um…" he starts to say but stops. About a month ago he told me something? "His heat is very close."

Tristan tells me while looking at Koga. "Oh that right! I forgot. What will happen?" I ask him. "well, a lot of strong dominant demons will be drawn to

me." he answers my question. "that can't be good for us can it?" I ask them. Tristan looks at Koga and then at me. "he should be fine. This is not his

first heat it wont be too bad." Tristan assures me. "good! We'll just have to turn all the suitors away!" I tell Koga. Laying back in the grass I see the sun

is resting on the mountains. "sunset." I whisper. "We're ready to leave." Sesshomaru drawls now standing above my head. Rin and I climb onto Kirara

and we take off. I know Kagome will be upset we left without a good bye but she will live. The moon is now high in the sky and Rin has long since fallen

asleep. Looking down at her I see how beautiful she really is. Sleeping with a small smile I pull her closer as if she will disappear. My own mind is ready

for sleep but I will not allow myself.

Vision begin:

"So beautiful Rin!" a voice drawls. Her thirteen year-old ace turns red as she spins showing everyone how beautiful she really is. "really Neal?" she asks

the young boy. "would I lie to you my dear?" Neal asks her sexily. Growling is heard when he moves closer to her. "Guys relax. Neal and I have a deal.

Right Neal?" future me asks with a glare. "Of Corse, Gabriel." he assures them stepping away from her. Rin runs over and throws her arms around

future me. "G-Chan! Your back for my party?" she asks sweetly. "wouldn't miss it Rin. Not for the wor-" future me tries to assure but falls forward. Rin

jumps back and screams "blood! Lord Sesshomaru he's bleeding." she yells at Sesshomaru. "calm down Rin." Sesshomaru tells her. "what happened?"

InuYasha asks. Looking up future me says "our troubles our not over with HIM!"

Vision End:

Jerking back I wake Rin "what hap' n G-Chan?" she asks drowsily. I just hold her closer and hope she falls asleep. A few minutes later my wish is

granted when I hear soft snoring. The others are looking tired but none of them want to be the one to say it. "Guys I need to rest." I call out quietly. I

see all four of them relax and stop. "if you must." Sesshomaru drawls. "I must." I assure with a little laugh. We make camp by an old oak tree for the

night. Rest is not welcomed to me. The others are asleep but I can't seem to do so now. I think about my vision, Neal? A picture of a tall blood red

haired male with ice blue eyes comes to mind. A demon or human? 'Demon, son' I hear a male voice drawl. Looking to the water I see the outline of a

man. 'no need to be frightened.' he tells me. Laughing "not afraid of you." I assure him. 'No?' he chuckles. "your voice sounded like the laughing I heard

when mom Yuri came to visit." I tell him. 'Yuri, is worried about you.' he tells me seriously. 'she believes you are still bothered by that human man.' he

looks me in the eyes. "I have for a long while gotten over what he did to me, BUT I will never get over what he did Liana." I tell him solemnly. He nods

his head, 'I told her you were strong. Soon your body will change a bit. You will not get any taller but you will look very different. Be ready, son' he tells

me disappearing. 'YOU went to see OUR son without me!' I hear mom Yuri yell at her lover. Chuckling I lean back and call for sleep.

Dream begin:

That same body I see every now and again is standing in front of me. His arms are gripping my shoulders trying to bring me closer? Or further away.

"Gabriel, I can't" he whispers. "why not now. You seemed so willing before." I tell him sharply regretting it dearly when he jerked away. Grabbing his

wrist I pull him close slowly not wanting him to shatter this time. "sorry" I whisper. I can feel his body remain stiff. "sorry, I try to keep what I think to

myself. For some reason it just came out." I try to explain to him what happened. "what's my name?" he whispers pushing back a little.. "I-I don't

know…" I tell him truthfully. I watch his face contract in pain "you forgot?" he tells me. I can only nod my head when I see his eyes bright with tears.

"who do you want me to be?" he asks getting out of my arms. "I don't know." I tell him. "cant you be you while I be me?" I ask quietly. He smiles and

shakes his head. "when you know who you want me to be, that is when I will be me." he keeps backing up. "wait! Is this a vision or just my messed up

mind. Do you remember this?" I call to him. "this is your mind. I am someone you need but don't know it yet. So I guess I am not real yet." he tells me

disappearing from sight. I lean back and come face to face with mom Yuri. "what do you need mom?" I ask. She smiles and snuggles into my side.

'soon everything will be clear. He is a dream but a real dream. A future but not. Your mind brings him here for your peace and yet you deny him. You

make him what he is. You push him away like you do everyone. Stop keeping them at arms length. They will start to notice your mood swings. Lord

Sesshomaru already has noticed how strange you are. He wont say anything worry not.' she tells me and we both fall into a peaceful silence. 'Lover,

come rest with us.' mom Yuri yells out. 'alright love. Only because you two look so comfy.' he tells us. All three of us lay in the grass with me tucked in

the middle. I start to fall asleep when mom Yuri sings to me.

Dream end:

Sitting up I notice everyone looks ready to leave. "ready?" InuYasha asks us. Everyone nods their heads and prepares to leave. "Rin?" I call her name

quietly hoping to not draw the others attention. "yes, G-Chan?" she asks looking at me. Swallowing I feel my throat contract "I-I ah, I love you." I tell

her quietly. Its quiet for a long while and I fear to open my eyes but I still do. I look down at her and she's smiling brightly with tears in her eyes. "I love

you too, G-Chan!" she yells. Laughing I wrap my arms around her and let my tears fall with her. If the others noticed the said nothing so I crossed it off

as not needing to be said.

'Love you!'