This part takes place before Ciel gose to the church...Victoria has a mental breakdown.
Ash smiled lightly leading Victoria out to garden area. The snow was starting to melt. So it wasn't that cold out anymore. He spun her around slowly. "yes when are new world is complete it will be like this all the time, calm and field with happiness. With not a care in the perfect world. It will be glorious!"
Victoria smiled as Ash talked. She was so happy to be getting closer to the new world. But she was a little scared, after all the dreams she's had the last one made her terrified. Ash wouldn't really abandon her would he? No! Get those thoughts out of your head right now Victoria!
Victoria stopped to sit on the grass. "Yes and there will be many happy memories."
Ash sat down next to her. "If I have to...I'll fight the grim reapers...if it means I'm keeping you safe." Ash smiled lightly. "I want you to stay by my side..."
Victoria's heart skipped a beat. "Oh Ash..." She lowered her head "I'm so happy right now."
He turned away from her sighing lightly. Could he keep his promises, her body, that skin was hurting her, now on top of that those grim reapers where sticking there nose where it didn't belong, It upset him.
Victoria noticed Ash turning his head away, he was in deep thought.
"Ash what's wrong?", she asked.
"It's...well...please forgive me, for what I'm going to do." He looked at Victoria and pulled her veil off. He looked into her eyes and then lightly kissed her lips.
Victoria's eyes widened and then gently closed. Her heart was racing a hundred miles an hour. Was she really being kissed by an angel? She didn't want this to be a dream, if it was she didn't want to wake up from it.
Ash noticed her eyes close, she wasn't startled. It felt nice, he enjoyed it actually. In the back of his mind though he could feel rage...it was Angela's rage building. He could feel her under his skin. He pulled away from this kiss and stared at Victoria.
'What are you doing?' Angela screamed in his head.
'I...I don't know...I can't lose her Angela...'
He tried to push her thoughts away. It was giving him a headache.
"What's wrong Ash? Is it Angela?", Victoria asked realizing Angela was probaly mad right now.
"She..." Ash sighed. "I mean it would be considered odd...if Angela well...kissed someone..."
Victoria nodded slowly. I
Ash sighed. "It would wired me out too...but," he let his head drop. "it's so frustrating..."
Victoria stood up and gently held Ash's hands in her own. "Ms. Angela if you can here my I'm sorry.", she lowered her head. "But I really do have strong feelings for Ash. You...Your like a sister to me and I hope your not to mad at me."
Ash sighed lightly he could feel her. Angela took control of there body. She stood up suddenly and glared at the queen. "...I...I can't stand that you two are...Why is he falling for you? YOUR RUINING EVERYTHING!" She yelled then turned away from Victoria. She needed to get away. She unruffled her wings and took off.
"Angela wait please!", Victoria said calling after her but she couldn't catch her as she spread her wings and flew off. "Angela... I'm sorry."
Victoria began to walk back to her bedroom, her mind lost in thought as she walked up the stair. As soon as she shut her door to her bedroom she gently took off her veil and lightly touched her lips. They were still warm.
"Now this situation only got worse.", Will said fixing his glasses as he stood up from the table in Victoria's room.
Ronald was looking out the window and turned around.
Victoria froze with fear as she saw Will stand up.
"Why are you here?", she asked trying to play innocent.
Will glared at her "Don't play dumb now."
Ronald made some gestures of 'I'm sorry!'
"Case Number 00479 : Queen Victoria of England, you attempted killing yourself but extended your life by making a deal with an angel. You've helped killing many people who were not on the to die list and you also have fallen in love with the very angel who saved and extended your life.", Will said reading from his book.
Victoria stood firmly. "Do you intend to kill me because I have been trying to purify this world?"
Will nodded no. "No, your death will come soon."
Ronald didn't smile, he looked so sad. Almost like he was trying to tell Victoria something but couldn't.
Victoria walked towards Will and stared at him* "Then why are you here? Are you here to taunt me that I'll die soon? I already know that I'll die eventually. But I'm not afraid because Ash will stay by my side no matter what."
Will gently leaned int, there faces barely apart. "Don't ever trust an angel you majesty. They will use you just like demons do."
Victoria trembled in fear.
"Y-your lying. Angels are the good guys not the bad guys.", she said trying not to show her fear.
"Not all angels are good.", Will said with no emotions. He pulled out his card and handed it to Victoria. "Here's my card, just in case you change your mind about purifying this world. That choice is up to you to make.", Will said turning to Ronald.
Ronald walked over to Victoria "Your majesty please rethink your deal with that angel. He's not good as Will said. There are angels who are evil too."
Victoria turned away from them, she didn't want to see there faces right now. Tears began rolling down her face.
"I... I will give your offer some thought. But I can't betray him.", she started sobbing. Even though Angela was mad at her Victoria couldn't help but feel so lost and alone right now. Pluto was gone, Drocell was probably now dead and Angela hated her.
Will and Ronald both looked at each other and exited quietly through the window.
Angela wanted to scream. How could Ash do that to her?
'how?' she demanded.
what are you talking about?' Ash asked.
'would it be normal for some one like us to both like the same person? Is it that wrong? When one person is liked more then the other?' she demanded.
'I dont understand Angela.' Ash said lightly.
'just be quite...' She sighed landing near a bridge.
"Get rid of the impure...vile unclean..." A small voice filled her ears. She turned and quickly snatched up the small puppet doll that had found it's way to her. She crushed it with her hand and dropped it off the bridge. "Yes...i will do just that..."
'you need to apologize to her...' Ash asked.
'I thought i told you to stay quite... and i don't need to apologize to a human.' Angela thought. 'I want this done with soon...i hate all the time your taking to...to get to know her...I...' She growled under her breath. Damn him...Damn them both.
She sighed. 'I will go back...but so help me if you kiss her again I'll...well I don't know yet...'
Victoria opened the balcony doors and walked out onto her balcony. By now night had fallen. She stood there with her pj's, a coat and slippers on. She kept wondering if Ash or Angela would come back tonight.
Many hours passed, Victoria began to sneeze. She knew she shouldn't be out in the cold weather, yet she wanted to say sorry to Angela. Victoria gently sat down and rested her back against the glass doors. She began to close her eyes, within a few moments she was sound asleep
Angela sighed making her way back to Victoria's palace. She could see the girl from the balcony. She was waiting for her to come back?
'Why was she waiting for me?' Angela questioned confused. She slowly made her way into the palace.
'She's very trusting...' Ash said lightly.
'Oh...' Angela walked quietly into Victoria's bedroom. She walked over to the doors and watched the young queen sleep.
Angela smirked watching the queen sleep. She had apologized in her sleep.
Slowly carefully she picked the young girl up and carried her to her bed. She laid Victoria down and pulled the sheets up so she wouldn't catch a cold.
She pulled away and then turned from the sleeping queen and walked out of the room. Shuting the door behind her.
*Victoria dreamt that Angela suddenly turned around and said 'farewell'. She then flew off, Victoria ran after her but couldn't keep up. Victoria fell in a field of dead rose. Then curled up in a ball crying.
Victoria curled up in a ball and her dream began to turn into a pure nightmare. As she lay there curled up she heard footsteps. She jumped up. 'No...', she said seeing the black figure approaching her.
Sebastian smiled at the Victoria. "I told you did i not...they would leave you..."
He smirked darkly showing off his fangs. "look around my lady, do you not realize the harm they are doing to you?"
Sebastian smiled touching the girls chest again. "It would have been so much easier if you'd have just killed yourself..." He smiled handing her a dagger from mid air. "What do you say?"
Victoria held the dagger in her hands, she thought about it for a moment. It would just be easier to be gone, then she wouldn't feel the pain in her chest she feels now. Victoria dropped the dagger to the ground. 'I can't... I care for both Angela and Ash too much. You don't understand love demon. You never will.', she said staring at Sebastian.
"Can i not?" He smirked lightly. "Hmm maybe you are right..." The demon sighed. "You are not as weak as i thought you where...for now I'll leave you be, I will be back though, my offer will still stand in this world." He smiled as the shadows slowly enveloped him. He disappeared leaving Victoria all alone in her world.
Victoria broke down crying. Why? Why was this happening to her? Why did everyone she loved in her life either leave her all alone or die?
Angela sighed lightly changing her clothing. There where other outfits she'd love to wear...she'd save those for later though. She changed back into Ash's outfit.
"I'm allowing you control...if you kiss her though..." She twitched lightly letting Ash take control again. He stood there for a moment. Then slowly he sat on his own bed. 'I cant kiss her...but you can?' He sighed to himself, before plopping down on the bed. Why was he so tired...
"No...I have to make sure she's ok..." Ash forced himself up. He couldn't sleep now. He walked into the queens room. She was having a nightmare...He sat by her bedside and slowly quietly began to sing to her.
He smiled watching the girls sleep. He couldn't keep his eyes open. He fell asleep in the chair next to Victoria's bed.
Victoria's eyes fluttered open, she sighed and turned over to see Ash sleeping in the chair. She smiled in relief. He did come back. But in the darkness of Victoria's heart she felt sad. Like Will said, she would die soon. Victoria gently slipped out of bed and quickly got dressed into a small lilac dress and quietly left the room. She made her way downstairs and into the rose garden.
Ash rubbed his eyes slowly and stretched his arms. He's fallen asleep in the chair...again. He sighed still half asleep he looked around the queens room. Victoria's bed was empty.
"What..." He shot up from the chair and ran out of the room. "Victoria!" He called out running down the stairs.
Victoria walked into the forest next to the rose garden. She found the clearing easily and gently sat down in the middle of it. She was lost deep in thought.
"So I'm going to die soon. I should enjoy each and everyday until my life comes to an end.", she said closing her eyes and soaking up the sun in the middle of the clearing. She sighed, "I wonder if Angela hates me now forever." Victoria looked down at her hands. 'Will I be able to stay with Ash? I'm so scared that we might be torn apart. What if Sebastian comes to kill Ash? Will I be able to protect him? Maybe I should take Will's offer. No don't think like that Victoria. If you truly love and care for someone you must stay be there side no matter what. I just don't want to lose Ash like I did my late husband.', she thought to herself in her mind. She felt like she was losing her mind.
Ash panicked. What happened to her. Those damn grim reapers, they couldn't have killed her...could they have? He ran into the rose garden. She wasn't here.
"Victoria!" he yelled, spinning on his heels he ran to the fountain area. Not there either.
Maybe...he spun running to the burnt ground where the kings tomb once was..."Victoria!" he called out.
she wasn't there. He fell to his knees. Where was she... She could be hurt or dead. " it's all my fault..."
Victoria heard a voice calling her name from her madness, she opened her eyes and stood up looking around.
"Who's calling me?", she said as she began to walk back towards the rose garden.
When she came into view she saw a man dressed in white, his back was facing her. It couldn't be...
"Ash?", Victoria said coming out of the forest slightly into view.
"Victoria?" Ash spun around. "Your...your ok." He watched her for a moment, Something was off. "My lady...are you ok?" He asked slowly.
Victoria was about to run away from him. She could tell that being with him was hurting both him and Angela. Maybe it's true what Will said, a human and an angel aren't meant to be.
Victoria slowly began to back away into the forest again.
"Victoria...?" Ash slowly took a step to her. His hand reaching out to her. "What happened..." He took another slow step. "...after Angela left..."
Victoria shook her head* "I-I can't, I'm so sorry.", she said sobbing. Tears rolling down her face. "I realized it now... that I only cause you and Angela pain and suffering. I'm not fit to help you purify this world."
She took more steps back ready to run after she finished talking.
"I... I just... I just want you to be happy. You and Angela both.", Victoria said turning to run away.
Ash watched her run. Should he chase after her...She had run away from him. It would be easy to catch her. She was only human after all.
'Dammit Angela...this is all your fault...' He thought.
'Not really...you had to fall in love with her...I say let her run.' Angela smiled darkly.
'She's going to hate me...' Ash sighed. He ran after her with ease.
Victoria ran as fast as she could until she reached the clearing again. She stopped to catch her breath. What was she thinking running from him? She was trying to set him free but she knew that she couldn't leave his side, no matter how much she cared for him. She couldn't leave him. Victoria slowly turned around and waited for Ash to come.
Ash slowed down running and watched the queen from the forest. He had done this to her. Slowly he walked out into the clearing. He was breathing slowly. She looked so lost. "My lady...?" He called out to her.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Ash, Angela. This is all my fault.", Victoria said crying. She gently hid her face in her hands. "I'm so... so sorry."
Ash cautiously walked up the her. Holding his hands out. He didn't want her to run again. "It's...its not your fault..." he slowly took Victoria's hands and removed them from her face. "it my fault..."
Victoria shook her head. "No! It's not your fault! It's mine all mine! If I had only died with my late husband, then you and I would have never met and I wouldn't be causing you all this grief and pain. But I'm so grateful to have met you both, I don't want to be apart from you but at the same time I want you two to be happy!", she said holding Ash's hands.
Ash sighed lightly. Then he took a deep breath. "My lady, We came to you for help, And yes Angela has her jealous streak in her, but I've learned to deal with her. She dose have a nasty way to hurt people's feelings...and it hurts me with what she might have told you...Please...please forgive me..."
He took another breath "I don't know what I'd do with out you now...I've spent so much time with you and...my heart tells me to stay with you...But if I'm hurting you...i will leave if you say so..."
Victoria gently touched Ash's face. "Please... don't leave.", she paused for a moment. "I forgive you, and Angela too.", Victoria smiled softly. "Please I want the two of you to stay by my side. I'd be heartbroken if you two left me all alone. Is that okay...Ash?", she asked looking into Ash's eyes.
"Yes...I will never leave you, my lady." He slowly let go of her hands and bowed to her. "I will help you carve out your new world."
Victoria smiled happily. She couldn't ask for more.
"Thank you.", she said softly.
Ash rose slowly. She was smiling now. But what if she broke down again. What would happen. Was she going crazy because of the skin. "My lady, forgive me for asking, but i think i can fix what might be causing you your pain."
He looked down at her chest. His eyes stared underneath the fabric that skin was rotting away. It could be the reason for her behavior. Why she was acting the way she was.
Victoria looked down and saw the skin beginning to rot away. Victoria screamed in horror, "AAAAHHH!", she began to panic and tore half her dress off looking at her body in shock. "Oh my gosh! This is like my dream! He was right! That demon was right! This isn't happening!", she said holding her head with her hands. She got so worked up and emotional she fainted from the exhaustion of her mind and her rotting.
Ash caught her in his arms. he carefully maneuvered his arms out of his jacket and draped it over Victoria's body. He sighed to himself. why had he mentioned it...of all the times... when she was so unstable. He slowly made his way back to the castle he maid sure Victoria's viel was in place, before going back inside. He slowly walked into the queens room and carefully placed her on the bed.
Victoria slowly began to come back.
"W-what happened?", she asked looking over at Ash. "Ash what happened?"
"You fainted...my lady..." He said slowly, he was looking in her closet for a nightgown. Her dress she was wearing was torn up. "You...your husbands skin is rotting...slowly but it's rotting..." He pulled a nightgown out of the closet. "I could try to fix it, if you'd like, i can do it once..."
"Oh I'm so sorry for fainting...", she said smiling and nodding. "Please fix me Ash."
Ash placed the gown on her bed. "Yes my lady." He replayed nodding. Could he fix it though. The rot was already taking place...He paused. Slowly he removed the rest dress from the rotten skin, then ran his hands across the skin.
'Please...' he thought. 'let me take the pain away...slow down the process...' His hand felt warm.
'Please...take it all away, the doubt, the worry, all of it...i can't see her like that again' His hands got cold. He held her shoulders.
"Please give me your pain..." He could for a moment feel it, the worry the doubt. It made him dizzy. He let go of her shoulders quickly. It hurt...
Victoria felt better, there wasn't anymore pain in her shoulder. Only a little in her heart. She gently touched Ash's hand, "Are you going to be okay Ash?"
Ash nodded. "I'm fine my lady..." He shook his head trying to get the thoughts away from him. "How do you feel?" He helped Victoria get into her nightgown.
"Much better.", she said smiling at him. "Um do you mind if I talk with Angela? I'd like to say sorry to her personally."
Ash paused hesitant for a moment. But nodded sighing letting Angela take control .Angela smiled at Victoria. "Yes...?"
Victoria gently grabbed Angela's hand and let her sit on the bed beside her. "Angela I wanted to say that I'm so sorry. I never meant to make you upset yesterday. Please forgive me?"
Angela glared at Victoria for a moment. What was she up to? Then she turned her face away from the queen she was still mad."I...I don't know..."
Victoria gently squeezed Angela's hand. "You don't have to forgive me if you don't want to. I won't dislike you.", she said smiling. "I could never hate you Ms. Angela. You've always been so kind to me since we met. Even if you hate me forever I'll always care for you."
"I know you cant. Your so trusting..." Angela sighed lightly pulling her hand away from Victoria's. "I shouldn't be so emotionally attached to you, I mean I know most of is Ash's...love...But I don't like it." She placed her head on the queens shoulder.
Victoria gently wrapped her arms around Angela. "What your feeling right now Angela is affection. You care for me just as I care for both you and Ash. I'm hoping that we can be friends, maybe even sisters as long as your okay with it.", she said gently brushing her hair.
"Friends would be nice..." Angela sighed placing her head on Victoria's shoulder. "sisters though..." She shook her head. "Not so much...i mean i already have Ash...I don't think i need any more family members...Ash is enough for me..." She chuckled lightly.
Victoria giggled with her. "I'm glad your laughing. Okay then friends we shall be then."
"Friends..." Angela nodded. "...i...I apologize for leaving you all alone, it's not my place to meddle in Ash's affairs...If he loves you...then i should be ok with it..." She nodded her head trying to reassure herself. "I apologize for some other things too, but i have something to tell you..."
Victoria kept brushing Angela's hair softly.
"What is it? You can tell me anything Angela. Were friends after all."
"I did what you asked me...Mr and misses Phantomhive...I've made them one..." Angel sighed happily, the brushing was nice.
Victoria remembered so long ago when she asked that favor, she smiled and held back the tears*
"Thank you so much Ms. Angela.", Victoria said as she continued to brush her hair softly.
"They are at the church now. The abandon one that Ciel was asked to investigate, I hope he likes seeing them again..." She smiled lightly.
"I'm sure he'll be happy to be reunited with his parents once again. After all he even made a contract with a filthy demon to avenge them.", Victoria said softly.
"Oh...I should over see this in person..." Angela smiled lightly. "I will return later my lady...I promise." She smiled light kissing the queens hand. She turned and walked out of the room to change.
Victoria nodded then smiled. "Be safe.", she said before Angela left the room. Victoria gently fell asleep on the bed.
Victoria...ah poor girl. I feel bad for her...this ch. makes me cry.