My dearest Simon
I never imagined that things could turn out this way and I am sorry that they have. I never imagined I would be saying goodbye like this. I am sorry that my decision will cause you much grief. I know that this is your child too, and I am so sorry that I have taken it away from you, I am sorry that I took away your chance at being a father. You mean the world to me, you mean everything to me, and I love you more than anything or anyone and much more than what words could ever say. But I know that I never deserved someone as good as you, you deserve better than me. I am so sorry that everything ended this way. I never wanted things to turn out this way, but I cannot handle this any longer. And I am so sorry that I was not strong enough to handle it. I am sorry that I have let you down. So sorry for all the pain I have caused you. I am sorry that we will not be able to spend each day with each other, growing up and watching our child grow too. Please know that I love you and will love you even after I am gone.
All my love now and forever
Jeanette xxxxxxxxxxx
Dear Alvin and Theodore
You two have always been the greatest friends I have ever known and I love you both. I am sorry that I had to leave this way. I am sorry that you will never know your niece or nephew. I am sorry that I have let you down. Please look after Simon, I am sorry for the pain I have put him through. I am sorry for the pain I have put others through. Please know that I love you both very much.
Love Jeanette xxx
Dear Dave
You have been like a father to me. I owe you much, both from a career point of view and personally. I cannot imagine a better man to take that role of father on. I am sorry that I had to do this. I am sorry for taking away your opportunity to be a grandfather. I am sorry to have let you down. I am sorry for all the pain I have caused your son, and for the pain I have put others through. I am so sorry for everything. Please know that I love you all dearly.
Love Jeanette xxx
My dearest sisters
I was so very lucky to have you both as sisters, anyone would be lucky tohave you both. You have both been amazing and I am so sorry to have put you through all this. So sorry that I was not strong enough to continue, so sorry that I have let you down this way. I am sorry that I will not be able to grow up with you, but I know that you both will grow up and achieve so many amazing things. I am sorry that I will not be there to see you achieve them. I love you both so much, always remember that. I love you
All of my love
Jeanette xxxxxxxxxxx
Dear Ms Miller
To you I am forever grateful. You raised me as a baby and I have always been proud to call you my mother and I will always be thankful for everything you have done for me. I love you so much. I know that I have disappointed you with my actions and for that I am eternally sorry. I am sorry. So very sorry for all the pain I have put you through. I just want you to know that I love you.
All of my love
Jeanette xxxxxxxxxxx