Oh my god I am beyond happy. I have 200 reviews for this story. That is way more than I expected. Thank you all for reading my story and I have a very important announcement.

IMPORTANT: this will be the last chapter.

That is all thank you.

EPOV

"What do you mean I can't see her anymore," I shouted as I turned on my heel to look at Carlisle. "Edward, you're a new born vampire. If you see her chances are you won't be able to resist and you may kill her."

The words knocked the breath out of me.

"No, I won't do that to her," I said but I knew that in the back of my mind the chances were very high.

"Edward, I'm so sorry," Alice said as she placed a hand on my shoulder. I shook her off and opened the door. It was funny because it seemed like it would at least take 5 men to open but it only took me a flick of the wrist

I walked out the room and to a long narrow hallway. I had no idea where I was but then I caught something.

It smelled sweet and powerful and my throat burned even more. I followed my senses to where the smell led and I was outside. Thick heavy trees surrounded me but did not throw off the smell. It was still there.

I followed and I was surprised at how fast I was running. I had never felt anything like this before and I loved it.

I came across a deer and then everything seemed to change. My senses went wild and my throat burned. Then I attacked. I happened all too fast by the time I had realized what had happened the deer was dead in my arms and my throat was calmed. I touched my hand to my lips to find blood.

I stared at my hand horrified at what I had just done. Imagine smelling that again a hundred times stronger I heard Carlisle's thoughts and looked up to find him leaning against a tree trunk.

"I couldn't resist. I smelled the blood and I wanted it. So much more than I wanted anything before," I said trying to explain to him. "It will always be like that but soon you'll learn to control yourself. It's okay you followed on instinct and it was natural. But if you care for Bella you will stay away from her," he told me and I looked down at the lifeless deer in my hand.

If I went to see Bella, will I be holding her in my arms like this too? Lifeless and pale with her blood on my lips?

I couldn't bear the thought. I cringed away from it and nodded. "I will," I said and my heart was fully broken to remain like that for all eternity.

It was a good thing to because what I was about to do next would have surely killed me.

BPOV

I walked into the house mail in my hands. I threw my keys on the kitchen table as I took a seat. I hadn't heard anything from Alice for a week now and I was beginning to get worried. She promised she would keep me updated on how Edward was doing but so far I hadn't heard anything.

I skimmed through the mail noticing they were all just bills. Then something caught my eye. It was a plain white envelope with my name scribbled in pen on top of it.

That was it just my name. It had no stamp, no return address, not even my address. So that meant it was delivered personally. I looked at the envelope and flipped it over in my hands over and over again.

Something inside me told me I didn't want to open it but I ignored it and tore it open. Inside was a folded up piece of paper. I eyed it and began to unfold it.

It was a letter written in beautiful neat handwriting.

As I read the letter I began to cry. My eyes fogged which made it hard to finish and by the time I was done the paper was tear soaked.

I knew it. This was just too good to be true. I crumpled the letter and threw it away. I would be happy if I never had to see the heartbreaking liar again.

He was nothing but a lie.

As much as I wanted to believe that I hated him I couldn't. Somehow I knew this couldn't be true and maybe one day I would be able to confront him. Maybe I would see him again and learn the reason behind my broken heart.

Maybe that was the reason I went back and picked up the letter from the trash.

EPOV

"You ready Edward," Alice asked.

"Do you think she'll understand? Maybe one of theses days?" I asked knowing if anyone knew the answer to it would be her. "Maybe, someday," she said and I smiled a sad smile.

"I don't think Jasper likes his new 'power,'" Alice chuckled using air quotes. Jasper had the ability to feel your emotions and change your own. I chuckled knowing he mustn't be too happy with me.

Rose and Emmett did join us surprisingly. We were there only family and they didn't want to let us go. "Where are we even headed anyway?" I asked her and she shrugged.

"I have no idea, I guess well just have to wait and see. I'm not psychic you know" she said with a wink and walked away leaving me alone in the thick forests.

The letter was the hardest thing I had ever had to do. And to watch Carlisle deliver it for me nearly cause me to collapse in pain and Bella wouldn't even know that. She wouldn't even know how much I still loved her and always would. She would always be my first and only love and that would never change.

Hopefully one of these days she would understand and maybe I would see her again. Maybe I would get to tell her how much I loved her and hold her again.

Yeah, and maybe my heart would beat again. It was never going to happen. I walked away from the sunless little town that would always hold my true moment of happiness and toward my family.

I had finally had one in the end, but I lost my love. I guess you just really couldn't have your cake and eat it too.

I guess life just wasn't meant to end in happily ever after.

Bella,

I cannot deny the joy and happiness you brought to my life. You made me see in a whole new way and you taught me that it was okay to be loved and love others. But there was a reason I never wanted to let you in my life and it was because I was sure I was going to bring you pain. I could handle all the pain in the world but for me to bring such a person as you pain well it makes me a monster.

I know I said I wouldn't leave you but I guess I just lied, for it has come for me to go. You may hate me for years to come and I wouldn't expect you to forgive me but I am sorry. I played with your emotions. I guess it was just puppy love for me and I'm sorry if it was something so much stronger to you.

I will not ask you to remember me, because I wouldn't want you to. You may feel pain and hurt at first but you'll move on and get over me. You'll find another love and they'll love you back with something so much stronger than what I had for you. Trust me when I say you will be loved, someday.

I'm sorry I will never be there for you and I'm sorry I will never be able to see the family that we once talked about. But you will share a future with somebody out there and they will be the luckiest man in the world to have the love of a person as special as you. Most importantly they will deserve your love more than I ever did.

In the end I guess I never should have met you. I never should have leaded you on and I never should have told you I loved you. But as much as I should I will never regret those things. I hope someday you'll understand this and learn not to hate me but I'll understand if you don't. Rest assured that I am healing well and will live. Be safe, Bella, for me for Charlie. I truly am sorry.

Sincerely, Edward

Okay people don't kill me okay because this story is going to end on a happy note but it will be in the sequel. Yes I am doing a sequel to this story and I will let you know when it is up. I promise to get it up as soon as I can but let me look into the plot line a little bit. Review and tell me how you liked the end of the story.

Lots of love Twilightholic-Tanya