A/N: Hey guys! Here I am with a new chapter! I know all of you want to kill me because it's been over two months since I updated this and I want to apologize for the long wait but I've been really busy, first there were my finals then the holidays (december is the busiest month for me) then I started to look for a job and on top of all of that I was going through the worst writers block ever! I tried everything, I started writing a few one-shots trying to get over my writers block but it was still there! It took me a while to write this and I still don't really like the result but you don't deserve to be kept waiting for much longer so here it is! I hope you like and forgive me for the long wait! Read and Enjoy! Love ya! :)

Chapter 14: Without You

"I'm leaving Care, I'm going to Lima"

"What? No! You can't leave, Rach" Caroline said "Please don't leave"

"I'll come back, Care" Rachel said trying to calm Caroline "I'm not going to leave forever; I'm just leaving for a few days to clear my head"

"But…" Caroline tried to say something to convince her not to go but Rachel cut her.

"I've to do this, Care" Rachel said "I need to leave; I need to get out of here before I go crazy" Caroline nodded defeated.

"I would go with you but I can't…"

"I know, Care" Rachel said "You need to stay because the full moon is coming soon and you have to help Tyler with his first transformation" Rachel whispered the last part so Shelby wouldn't hear "I need to do this alone, I'll be back soon"

"I'll miss you, Rach" Caroline said hugging her.

"Me too" she said "Thanks for everything Care, thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most, I love you Care and tell Bonnie I love her too"

"Okay" Caroline said hugging Rachel one more time. "Promise you'll call me every day"

"I promise" she smiled

"Have a good flight then, Love you" Caroline said and smiled as Rachel got into Shelby's car.

Rachel arrived to Lima at six in the morning and her dads where waiting for her in the airport, Shelby should have called them; they were so happy to see her and told her to not be sad about her break up with Damon, that he didn't deserve her and that she was the most amazing girl in the world. Rachel smiled at them and thanked them, and that was exactly what she needed, she needed to be with her dads and feel really loved and supported. She knew Shelby, Caroline, Bonnie and Stefan loved her but it wasn't the kind of love and support her dads could give her, she missed them so much.

"Well Rach, Daddy and I need to get ready for work" Rachel's dad said as they walked into the Berry house "Why don't you go and try to get some sleep?"

"Sure dad" Rachel said "I'm a bit tired; I didn't sleep at all on the plane"

"Sleep well" Her daddy said "We'll go out to dinner tonight so you can tell us everything about your life in Mystic Falls, you didn't say much when we talked on the phone"

"Okay, see you later dad, daddy" she kissed them in the cheek and went upstairs, she stopped in front of her dads room remembering when she came with Damon, Stefan and Caroline to Lima, all that happened in those couple of days then spent here and her eyes starting filling with tears, she shook her head and went to her room. She refused to let another tear fall from her eyes, she already cried too much for a life time in the past few days and she wouldn't cry anymore, she blinked a few times and tried to get her mind out the memories of Damon.

She fell asleep faster than ever, her sleeping schedule have been really messed up since her break up with Damon because she just couldn't sleep well but now that she was in her old bed, in her old room where she mostly had happy memories, it was easy to put her head on the pillow and just sleep.

Rachel opened her eyes and was in a clearing, she knew this place. She has been here before, then she heard footsteps behind her and a pair of arms wrapped around her waist, holding her in a tight embrace and she felt like she was home. She closed her eyes and enjoyed the feeling as the lips of "the mystery man" attacked her neck, kissing, nipping, sucking and biting, earning soft little moans from her. She haven't see his face yet but deep down she knew who he was, she had the feeling of his lips in her neck and his arms around her waist printed in her mind and body. She knew she shouldn't be enjoying it after what happened between them but she couldn't find the strength to end this, it felt too good.

"Ray" he breathed against her neck "I missed you" he turned her around so she was facing him and she looked at those baby blue eyes she loved so much and lost in them. He pulled her closer and claimed her lips with his. The kiss was rough and passionate their hands were roaming all over each other's bodies wanting to get their clothes out of the way. Her shirt was off first and was soon followed by his; he kissed her one more time before moving back to her neck. "I want you" he whispered in her ear and sucked at her earlobe making her moan loudly as one of his hands started to caress her still covered breasts. She closed her eyes getting lost in the sensation and arched her back giving him more access but then all of the sudden he pulled back, she whimpered at the loss of his touch and his body pressed to hers so she opened her eyes slowly wanting to see why he stopped but what she saw left her speechless.

Elena was there too, she was gripping at his arm and leaned closer to him. Damon closed the space between them and kissed her, his hands gripping at her hips pulling her closer as she tangled her hands in his hair. Rachel wanted to say something, to do something but she couldn't move or find her voice. She was paralyzed there watching Damon and Elena kiss but then she heard other footsteps coming closer and then she saw Rose.

Rose walked towards Damon and Elena and pushed Elena aside taking Damon for her, she pulled him to her and kissed him, it was a frenzied kiss and they kissed for what seemed like forever before they started taking clothes off. Rachel could feel her eyes full with tears but she still couldn't do anything. Rose's shirt was off in a second before she started unbuckling Damon's bell and then unbuttoning his pants and he did the same with hers. He took her pants off and lifted her so she could wrap her legs around his waist.

"Damon, No!" Rachel screamed when she finally found her voice but she still couldn't move. "Don't do this" he pulled away from Rose and looked at her with an annoyed expression. He put Rose back to her feet and walked slowly towards her. "Damon…" Rachel whispered as she tried hard to fight the tears.

"Did you really think I loved you?" he asked "Were you that stupid?"

"I…"

"I don't love you, I never did" he said in the softest voice she has ever heard "I just wanted to get in your pants and I did, several times" he smirked "But it wasn't like I expected. You were a virgin, you know nothing and it was boring as hell"

"No, that's not true… why are you saying that?" she asked "You love me, I know you do"

"Oh silly girl, I don't love you. I just used you and now that I got what I wanted I can move on with my life" he said "I used you to get Elena jealous so I could finally get in her pants and now that she is jealous she'll be willing to let me fuck her"

"No…"

"Rachel, I knew you were innocent but I didn't think you were that stupid to fall for that big fat lie but then again I'm a fantastic liar so there was no way you could know. I'm not the boyfriend type and I'll never be, I just enjoy having sex with women and that's what this was about. You and Elena were a challenge, you were the most difficult to get but now that I got you, I'm sure Elena would be much easier" he smirked "Wake up silly girl, I never loved you and I never will"

Rachel woke up crying and panting, her heart was racing; she was covered in sweat and agitated. "It was just a stupid dream" Rachel sighed, she looked at the clock in her bedside table; it was one in the afternoon. She got out of bed and went to take a shower before going downstairs to make something to eat. She prepared a sandwich and went to watch TV, she had no idea what she was going to all day, she was alone at home, her friends were at school and she would have gone to see the glee club but she didn't want them to know she was in Lima or why, she knew that if Finn and Quinn knew that she was no longer dating Damon, they would have the biggest smiles in their faces and she didn't want to give them that satisfaction.

She would just wait until tomorrow that was finally Friday to call her friends and act like she's just in Lima for the weekend to visit them; she wouldn't say anything to anyone about her break up with Damon. Rachel's day passed by really uneventful, she just watched TV, listened to music and read a little until her dads came back from work.

"Hi sweetie" her dads said when they were back from work "How was your day? What did you do?"

"Nothing much, I just watched a little bit of TV, read and listened to music" Rachel said "I had a pretty uneventful day"

"Well your day is about to get better" Leroy said

"Really, why?"

"Because we are going out for dinner" Hiram said

"Yeah, we haven't done that in such a long time" Leroy said "So why don't you get ready so we can go"

"Okay" Rachel said and ran upstairs to get ready.

Almost an hour later they were in their favorite restaurant, they sat in a table in the middle of the salon and ordered their food.

"Rach, you have to tell us everything about your new life in Mystic Falls" Hiram said

"I already told you everything daddy"

"No you haven't, you have told us very few things about it, and we want to know everything" Leroy said

"Okay, what exactly do you want to know?"

"Tell us everything about School, your friends and your new life with Shelby" Hiram said

"School is good, my classmates are really nice and my favorite teacher is Mr. Saltzman" Rachel said "He's my history teacher, he's great and he's a really good friend of Shelby"

"How's having Shelby as your teacher and living with her?" Leroy asked with a bit of concern in his voice.

"It's great, she's an amazing teacher, and not many people know she's my mom because I didn't want them to treat me different for being the teacher's daughter. And she's doing a good job as a mom" Rachel smiled "She's still learning how to be a mother but I can't complain"

"That's great Rach" Hiram said "What about your friends? The ones you brought to Kurt's dads wedding?"

"My friends are amazing, Caroline and Bonnie are my best friends, they are always there for me when I need them" Rachel said "They've been my friends since my first day of school"

"They are the ones who came to Kurt's dads wedding?"

"Bonnie didn't came because she already had plans but I brought Caroline and the Salvatore Brothers, Damon and Stefan" Rachel said

"Who's the douche bag who broke your heart?" Hiram asked

"Damon is my ex-boyfriend" Rachel said sadly "Stefan is his younger brother and he's a great friend too"

"Well I hate Damon" Leroy said

"Dad you don't even know him"

"We don't have to, Rach" Hiram said "He broke our baby's heart so by default we hate him" Rachel laughed.

"Well you shouldn't because I don't hate him" Rachel said "Yeah, he broke my heart but even if I want to, I can't hate him"

"That's because you are still in love with him" Hiram said "You just need time to get over it"

"Yeah, I know" Rachel shrugged.

The rest of the dinner Rachel did everything she could to not talk about Damon again, she was supposed to be in Lima to get a break from Mystic Falls and memories of Damon but all she have done since she came back to Lima was think about it and all of that only brought her tears so she quickly changed subjects every time he came up in the conversation and she was so relieved when they finished eating and went back home.

Rachel was back in her house, in her bedroom and was getting ready to go to sleep when her phone started buzzing; she saw the name in the screen and smiled when she saw it was Caroline so she answered immediately.

"Hi Care, what's up?"

"Rach! How are you?"

"I'm good, I just came back from having dinner with my dads" Rachel said "what about you?"

"I'm just hanging out with Bonnie and Stefan in the boarding house and we decided to call you to make sure you were okay"

"Everything is great here, Care" Rachel said "Don't worry about me"

"I can't help it, you are one of my best friends and I care about you" Caroline said "When are you coming back?"

"I think I'll be back on Monday, after the full moon" Rachel said "Is everything okay with Tyler? How is he?"

"He's scare but he'll be okay, I'm going to take care of him, don't worry" Caroline said and then Rachel heard Stefan's voice in the background

"And I'm going to take care of her" Stefan said and Bonnie laughed.

"Okay" Rachel laughed

"Rachel we miss you" Bonnie said

"I miss you too guys"

"Hey guys… how is…Da…" Rachel couldn't say his name without her voice broke.

"Damon?" Caroline asked

"Yeah" Rachel said and there was a silence before Stefan answered

"He's been asking for you all day and trying to find you and I think he left you like a thousand messages on your phone" Stefan said sadly

"Is it that bad?"

"We've never seen him like this, Rach" Caroline said

"Yeah, he's acting all not-damon-like" Bonnie said "He's sad, angry and he snaps at everything and everyone"

"He's used to cover his sadness with anger, it's just easier for him to deal with it that way"

"Yeah and if he's not snapping at us, he's at the grill drinking with Alaric" Caroline said "We just don't know what to do with him"

"I'm sorry" Rachel said

"You have nothing to be sorry" Stefan said "He made a mistake and he's paying for it, he knows that but it doesn't make it less painful"

"Rach, are you okay?" Caroline asked

"Yeah, it's alright" Rachel said and there was a long and uncomfortable silence, no one had any idea of what to say now.

"So what are you going to do this weekend?" Bonnie asked trying to change the subject.

"I don't know yet, I'm going to call Kurt tomorrow and we'll see"

"Okay, send Kurt our greetings" Caroline said "Tell him to come to Mystic Falls sometime"

"I will, he'll be really happy knowing Stefan sent him his greetings" Rachel and Caroline laughed and Stefan snorted.

"Yeah, I bet" Caroline said

"Well guys I've to go, I haven't been sleeping well lately and I'm really tired" Rachel said

"We'll let you sleep then" Caroline said "Sleep well and have fun in Lima, We love you"

"I love you too guys" Rachel said and hung up.

She lay in bed for hours but she couldn't sleep, she had no idea why she asked about Damon. Yeah, a part of her wanted to know about him but the other didn't because every time she heard his name just made her want to cry, this was the worst break up ever, she thought her break up with Jesse was bad but this was much worst. She wasn't the type of girl who would stay in her room crying for days, she never was until now, she needed to get out of her sadness and she needed to do it now. Rachel eventually fell asleep but just because she was exhausted, she slept for a few hours but she didn't really rest.

The next day Rachel woke up feeling as exhausted as she felt when she went to sleep, she was sick of this, since her break up with Damon, she hadn't been eating or sleeping well, she had been sad all day and she was sick of it, she never was that type of her and she was determined to stop acting like that, she had to be the same Rachel she was if she still wanted to be a Broadway star and live in New York. Rachel got out of bed and went downstairs to find her dads making breakfast.

"Morning dad, daddy" Rachel kissed them in the cheek and made a cup of tea for her.

"Rach, we have to go on a business trip" Leroy said

"When are you leaving?" Rachel asked; she wasn't really surprised by that because they were always travelling and she spent most of the time alone.

"In a couple of hours but we have to be in the airport in less than half an hour" Hiram said "We would love to stay with you but we can't, it's really important for us to travel"

"It's okay daddy" Rachel said "Just go and have fun"

"We're going to be back by Sunday's morning so we will be here before you go back to Mystic Falls" Leroy said and Rachel nodded

"Are you going to be okay?"

"I'll be fine" Rachel said "I'll just call Kurt and Mercedes and ask them to come over for a girl's night"

"Okay, have fun" Hiram said

"You too" Rachel said and hugged them, they kissed her forehead and left.

She went back to her room and texted Kurt. "Hey Kurt, I'm in Lima for a few days. Are you free tonight?" – Rachel

"Rach! Of course I'm free for you, what do you have in mind?" – Kurt

"I was thinking of having a girl's night with you and Mercedes, what do you say?" – Rachel

"That sounds great; I'll call Mercedes and ask her, okay? Talk to you later! xo" – Kurt

"Okay, I can't wait to see you again" – Rachel

"Me either, see you later, diva" – Kurt

Rachel left her phone in her bedside table and changed into her working out clothes, she haven't work out much since she left Lima but right now she needed to do something so she wouldn't keep thinking of her boyfriend drama, she got out of her house and went for a ran, she didn't go to run often because she usually used the elliptic but this time she wanted to be out of the house, to feel the air brushing her face so she did it, she ran about five kilometers and went back home.

Rachel went directly to the bathroom, it was almost one in the afternoon when she came back and she had no idea what to do now so she decided to take a bath. She turned her iPod on, put the speakers and got into the tub. She relaxed into the hot water and the bubbles, she felt how the hot water started to relax every muscle of her body, she heard the music of her iPod in the background and she was happy that finally after all those days of sadness she was starting to feel better, the run and the hot bubble bath helped a lot and she was starting to feel like her old self again. After more than an hour Rachel got out of the tub completely relaxed and she finally felt like she had rest, she went back to her room, changed into a pair of jeans, a tank top and sneakers and went downstairs, she was on her way to the kitchen when she heard the door bell, she opened the door and her eyes widened at the sight of her unexpected visitor.

"Da… Damon?" Rachel stuttered, she was completely surprised to see Damon Salvatore in all his gorgeous self standing in her front door. "What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to talk to you, can I come in?" he asked, Rachel nodded and let him in.

"How did you know I was here?"

"I overheard Caroline, Stefan and Bonnie talking to you on the phone, they thought I wasn't home so that's why they called and as soon as I knew you were here I got on the road and I came to see you"

"What do you want?"

"I want to talk Rachel, we need to talk about what happened if we want to fix this" Damon said

"There's nothing to talk about"

"Rachel, I love you so much and I don't want a stupid mistake to ruin the most amazing relationship I've ever have"

"It's not just a stupid mistake, Damon, you cheated on me and I don't know how I am going to forgive you for that" Rachel said

"We can fix it because we love each other; our love is too big to just let it go"

"I don't know, Damon" Rachel said "You really hurt me"

"I know I did, Rachel and I'm really sorry about it, that's my biggest regret" Damon said "I never wanted to do what I did, I know that it's lame to blame it on the alcohol but it's true I was too drunk to know what I was doing and when I woke up the next morning I didn't even remembered what had happen. I was shocked to see Rose next to me" he took her hands in his and looked straight into her eyes "I'm really sorry and I'll never forgive myself for what I did to you" he brushed her cheek with his thumb "I hate myself for hurting you like that, Rachel. Do you think you could ever forgive me?" She looked up and saw his eyes shining, filled with tears just like hers and she just couldn't find the strength to keep him away, to not forgive him, not when she was seeing him like this in such a vulnerable state but she couldn't forgive him so easily, she had to try.

"I don't know Damon… I need some time to think, that's why I came to Lima, I needed some time away" she looked down trying to avoid looking to his eyes again because she knew that if she did, she would lose herself in his eyes and it would be her perdition.

"Okay, if you need time alone, I'll leave you alone" Damon said but instead of living he pulled her close and took her face in his hands making her face him. "But just know that I'm really sorry for everything and that I love you more than anything in the world. I promise you I'll be waiting patiently for the day you forgive me and let me have you in my arms again" He leaned and kissed her forehead, Rachel closed her eyes leaning into his touch "I love you, Rach. I'll always love you" he gave her a quick peck on the lips and left.

A/N2: So what did you think about this chapter? was is good, just okay or bad?

What about Rachel's nightmare, I think it was Rachel's subconsciousness showing her her worst fears and insecurites but what do you think about it?

And what about that last part, Rachel's and Damon's conversation, it wasn't supposed to be in this chapter, it was supposed to be in the next one but just because I felt bad for making you wait so long I added it for all my dear Salvaberry shippers because I think it was about time Damon really got a chance to apologize and talk to Rachel about it. I feel everything has been about Rachel and her feelings and everyone protecting her from Damon that he haven't been really able to apologize and tell her how much he loves her so here it was. what did you think about it? Was it good or bad? Also I was thinking about making a chapter from Damon's point of view of this situation, everything is about Rachel now how much she's suffering and struggling with her feelings and this situation but we haven't really see Damon so what do you think? Wanna see how Damon is really dealing with this?

Review please and tell me what you think! This is important guys because in the last chapter only a few reviews were really about this chapter and the other were you telling me to update soon, I want to update this as much as I can but I can't do it without your feedback so please review!

Also I just realized we're so close to the 100 reviews so I'm going to do something, a kind of contest! Of all the people who review this chapter I'm going to randomly choose one and make him or her a character in this story, depending of what I need for the chapter I'm writing maybe you'll be a human, a vampire or a werewolf we'll see ;) I'll contact the winner and ask a few questions so the character have at least a part of you in it! :) So all you have to do is review and one of you will be the lucky one to be a character here and interact with the amazing characters! Good luck! :)