Sayuri sat by Kagomes side In the enchanted room, concerned look on her face. The heat that had overtaken her Musume was unnatural and strong, perhaps caused by stress? She wiped Kagomes forehead with another damp rag, hoping her Musume wasn't in too much pain. Kagome had lost a lot of blood after this started and was very weak, her body was racked with cramps and waves of hot sweat. Sayuri didn't know what to do, there was no medicine for anything like this, and there was no explanation to why it had came on so strong, or at all after so long. In order to get to the bottom of this, she would have to ask her Musume some awkward questions when she finally awoke.
2 days ago, past Sesshoumaru had arrived home from his 2 day border patrol of the western lands. As soon as he had gotten near the castle, all he could smell was heat, and her. The second the sweet smell entered his nose all of his senses went ballistic and he couldn't hold on. He ran off in the opposite direction and after quite a few miles, began tearing everything apart to sate the hunger of his inner beast, practically screaming to get out. After some time, he reached a clearing where everything had already been torn apart. This confused him, until he ran into the familiar aura of his future self, standing amass a pile of bodies and trees, soaked in blood, hair and all.
He saw future Sesshoumaru look up and acknowledge him. He flinched at the pure power and intensity in the stare from his older self. 'Will I really become this way?' He wondered, but broken out of his musings as older Sesshoumaru lunged at him with his toxic claws, narrowly missing a dazed version of his younger self.
He lashed out again and again with his poison whip at younger Sesshoumaru, making contact and breaking his skin. Young Sesshoumaru hissed in displeasure as he was struck more than he could strike.
Future Sesshoumaru smirked internally. 'It seems he, I, have far to go until he is a seasoned veteran such as myself.' He thought, sending one final blow of his whip right across past Sesshoumaru's arm.
Past Sesshoumaru's eyes bled red and he lunged back at his future self, viciously swiping with his claws. His future self blocked but past Sesshoumaru quickly caught him in a sucker punch to the jaw. Future Sesshoumaru scowled and stared at his past self, who was baring his teeth at him. His future self sighed and turned to walk away. Annoyed at this sudden attack, past Sesshoumaru jumped to block his way.
"Why did you attack this Sesshoumaru?" He growled at his future self, expression cold and seething.
His future self continued to walk until he was stopped by his past selfs tail catching his leg like a whip. Future Sesshoumaru stopped and turned to face his younger self.
Expression cold and eyes sharp enough to kill a hundred men, he stood tall, staring down at his younger self.
"It is because of your stupidity that I am now trapped here until that girl is mated by a Sesshoumaru. She is everything I stand against and as I recall she was once a filthy ningen that followed my half breed brother around the country side in garments less than a prostitute would wear. I barely know her and quite frankly do not wish to know her and then I am told she is going to be my mate in future? I will not stand for this" he barked bitterly at his younger self, who stood there wide eyed at this statement.
His past self quickly collected himself and scowled at his future self. "Hnn" was all he could muster before turning and walking away, calmed down and side tracked from thoughts of Kagome thanks to himself, literally.
Unknowingly to both Sesshoumaru's, a dark slender figure with no aura whatsoever had been hiding in the nearest tree, channeling the whole ordeal telepathically to Kagome. The figure snickered evilly, and mocked Kagome, who had just been shown future Sesshoumaru badmouthing her. The figure broke out in fits of laughter. 'Never going to break your curse now, are you?' And with that, it slipped into the dark shadows of the night and dissipated.
Kagome felt like she was seeing from the point of view of another, and she witnessed both Sesshoumaru fighting, and then future Sesshoumaru's outburst. She felt like a knife had just been pushed through her chest. 'Is that really how he thinks of me?' She thought inside, mixed feelings of sadness, betrayal, hurt, anguish building up inside of her like a raging vortex. 'I knew I wasn't good enough for him but basically hearing him say it is so wounding' she squeaked inside, not knowing what to do anymore. She knew she was supposed to "mate" him and break the curse, but if he felt this way how would she ever change it? Neither him or his past self would accept her. Kagome opened her eyes to see she was alone, and for now the pain was not so bad. She turned over in her futon and sighed. It was time to push her feelings for Sesshoumaru into a dark corner of her mind and lock them up there until they were gone.
Memories of future Sesshoumaru's lips on her sprung to mind and she grabbed her head and cradled it as hot tears spilled down her cheeks and into her hair.
'What should I do?' Was her main thought, as she pondered all possibilities. 'I don't want to have a mate, or a husband. Sesshoumaru is way to good for me, Inuyasha left me. I can't stay here with this other Sesshoumaru either, and Sayuri is mated to Inutaisho, I can't demand all her attention for my own selfish needs.' She mused, constantly on the verge of tears. 'I will just sneak away, then future Sesshoumaru can return to the feudal era and everyone can get on with their lives. I just have no place anywhere anymore.. At least not one I can get back to.' She thought quietly. She closed her eyes and let her mind flood with memories of her real world. Her moms cooking, grandpa and his anti demon charms, her younger brother Sota and his girlfriend Hitomi, who she and Inuyasha had helped work things out, and after all this time they were still together. She missed her own home, and her friends at school. She wiped a tear away from her eye. 'God fucking damn it Kagome, why did you chose this world? WHY? It was such a mistake to pick Inuyasha, even he left me with nothing but pain, when he was supposed to be by my side and protect me forever. He even said he was born for me. Where they just lies aswell?'
Kagomes mind was a swirling vortex of dangerous emotions. She wanted to leave, but if she did in her current state, she would be easy pray for anything with a decent nose. Not to mention Sayuri probably wouldn't even let her go that far. Kagomes happy and cheerful spirit had died out, and she was starting to become permanently miserable. It was just something after another always happening to her, and she couldn't deal being around those two rollercoaster Sesshoumaru's anymore. One minuted they hated her, and the next they were kissing her! She scowled. They were men, they probably just wanted one thing. She obviously wasn't good enough for a partner but something else however. She growled slightly and sat up. What was she going to do? The question rang around her head like a bell.
After thinking of a few scenarios, she decided the best would be to leave the castle after she had recovered from this heat / period thing, and never come back. All she had to do was bide her time and wait for the perfect moment.
As Kagome lay in the bed suffering, she felt a wierd sensation in her body. Like her strength was slowly being sucked out of her. She was used to being ill but this was completely different, and her gut feeling was jumping all over the place. She pulled herself up into a sitting position and rested her head on her knees. She really had just enough of everything, and all she could do was curse herself for deciding to come and stay with Inuyasha when he was immature and unstable. She cursed herself again for being blinded by love. She grit her teeth and stifled the tears that were coming. All she could think of in her despair was just a manta of 'why me why me why me why me', her misery getting deeper as each little bit of her happiness was pushed out of her soul and the darkness she was enshrouded in slowly but surely consumed her.
Future Sesshoumaru lay outside against a cherry tree. He scowled at the sky, constantly pondering his current situation. It was getting to the point where he thought he was starting to hate this woman for trapping him like this. Maybe he should just go back and let his past self deal with this. He let out a depressed sigh. 'Get back how?' He thought, suddenly overwhelmed with grief. He closed his eyes as the midnight moon washed over his still, regal form, beauty radiating from him. As he drifted into darkness, he decided. Something would be done about her soon, and he could go back to where he really belonged.
Sayuri was on her way back to Kagomes temporary room as she stopped and looked out of the window, appreciating the silky white light of the full moon. Her comfort was short lived as she turned and continued to her Musume. This Illness was concerning Sayuri, she had to do something about it. She increased her pace. 'Musume, you must live on. Not because you are forced, but because you should want to' she thought sadly, reaching the door and entering into the still blackness.