Jacob
I couldn't handle the pain anymore. Her incessantly pushing me away then pulling me back in. I had to walk away and I needed to walk away for good. I could run away again but that wouldn't be permanent. I needed to make a plan to leave, one that wouldn't be temporary. I wasn't ready to go home, I couldn't face my dad and his questions. I needed to talk to someone who understood this heart ache. Someone who understood because they have experienced it, I needed Leah.
I went to her house and Seth answered the door. He looked at me the same way everyone had been looking at me as of late, with worry and sadness in their eyes. I asked for Leah and quickly his look turned to shock. Leah wasn't one of my favorite people in the world, but I knew where her bitterness came from. She was hurt by the man she loved and now has to see him in love with someone else. Leah came into the living room and I asked her if we could take a walk. She was a little apprehensive but she obliged and we left the house. We walked in silence for a while and then Leah spoke.
"Is this about Bella and how you have been feeling?"
I looked at her and said, "Yes, how'd you know?"
"Jacob, we all feel your emotions and can see inside your head. We know you are going through hell. Plus, I know you probably want to talk to me because I've been in a similar situation."
"Yea, you're right. I don't know what to do or how to move on. I want to run away and hope that one day I'll forget about her."
"Running won't solved anything, you'll still think about her."
"How do you do it? How do you see Sam everyday knowing he chose someone else over you?"
"It's like dying a thousand deaths everyday. However, I have to keep living my life. If I break, he wins and I lose. I've already lost him, I refuse to lose anything else."
"So what should I do? How do I cope?"
"For starters, you need to really tell yourself that you won't go back. Realize that this isn't healthy for you and you deserve better. Once you realize that, find ways to keep your mind busy. Don't run Jake. You're stronger than that."
"I don't know if I am strong enough. It's like my heart is ripped out over and over."
"I know and it'll still hurt for a while but I promise it'll get easier."
"Thanks Leah, I'm glad I came to you."
I went home after walking through the woods for a while. It was starting to get late and by the time I got home my dad was sleeping in the living with the tv on. I could smell a vampire in the area. Immediately my guard went up and I prepared myself for a fight. I opened the door and there stood Edward.
"What are you doing here," I growled.
"Relax Jacob, I'm not here to fight. I needed to talk to you about Bella. Do you know where she is?"
"No, I thought she was with you."
"She was with me and then she said she had to see you and I haven't seen her since."
"We met at La Push for a few minutes but then I left."
"What did you meet about?"
"That's none of your business."
"It is my business when she's missing."
"Maybe she just wanted a break from you breathing down her neck."
"Did you hurt her?"
I became enraged, "how dare you? I would never hurt Bella. We talked, I left, that's it. She was safe on La Push, we are patrolling and no vampire has crossed the border. I've always protected her."
"Well I'm back now and I'll be protecting her. I love her and I won't stop fighting for her."
"So is that what this is about? You're questioning me because you think Bella chose me. Well she didn't."
"She didn't," he said with an incredulous look on his face, "I thought she…"
"I'll look for her and then I'm done fighting this fight with you."
I turned and walked out of the house to phase. I asked the pack to help me find Bella. Leah screamed into my head, "no Jacob, this has to end. Let the leeches look for her."
"Leah, back off. She's missing and…"
"It doesn't matter Jake, this happens all the time. You try to distance yourself and then she puts herself in danger and you go running."
"I can't just…"
"Let us look for her, you stay out of it."
"No Leah, I have towards La Push to try and follow her scent.