I'm BAAAACK *shot*. Well if you thought I died, I did not.*shot, shot* I was going through the most horrendous writer's block that I ever had in my life. Any chocolate chip cookies, ladies and few male population *cough**cough* Jesse and Kyle *cough* *cough* I present to you Perfection chapter thirteen.
A note slides through the bottom of the door, and shake. I try to control my wheezing and I slowly reach for the note. I open it and my breath catches while I read it.
"Dear Shit head,
If you get this letter then that means the man didn't get you. Damn what a drag. Anyway if you thought that you have escaped us then you got another thing coming. Wait until we get our hands you and you won't have to worry about killing yourself. We'll do it for you! Do you know why? Cuz you deserve to die! Now why don't you be a good little slut of a boy and come to the forest at nine o'clock next week Friday night. If you tell anyone where you are going you are so screwed homo.
Justin and Mark"
I let out a loud scream and crumple up the paper. Crap I shouldn't have screamed. My breath hitches and my throat tightens more painfully. I cough loudly and I try to catch my breath. Mr. Kumajiro whines and gently paws at my leg. I hear running coming to the front foyer where I am and my lungs continue to beg for air. As coordinated as I can I shove the note into my pocket and tears fall down my face from the horrible pain.
"What the bloody hell is going on?" Dad yells at me. His face showing a frustrated look but that immediately changes when he sees the gasping mess that is me.
"Oh my god, Matthew! Ah I'll be right back," he says in a panic. He runs to the kitchen and I hear more voices joining in. Then I hear a loud 'move the bloody hell out of my way' and dad appears in front of me. He puts my emergency inhaler in my mouth and he sprays the medicine into my mouth. Deja vu moment right now only it's with dad instead of Alfred.
When I'm able to catch my breath I push the inhaler out of my mouth and try to stop the shaking in my body. Kuma climbs onto my lap and tries to comfort me but I don't take notice of him. Who the heck was that and why did Mark and Justin send him to me? Somebody yells at me and shakes me gently. I kind of snap out of my daze and look to see a worried dad in my field of view.
"Matthew are you alright lad? What happened for you to have an asthma attack? Also why did you scream?" Dad asks me. I don't answer and just try to figure out why this is happening to me. I stare at him with probably a dumb and lost look because he screams for papa. Instantly everyone appears and papa rushes towards dad and I.
"What's wrong mon cher?" Papa asks in a fright.
"He won't respond Francis. He's just staring off! Francis!" Dad screams at papa. He starts to cry and his body begins to shake like mine. Papa gingerly takes me out of dad's arms and he gently touches my cheek. Kuma cries out but dad carefully picks up the distressed polar bear.
"Mon petit it's papa. Your scaring dad right now so I want you to at least shake your head or do something," Papa says as calm as he can. My mind stops and black dots dance in my vision. I try to blink them away but they stay and grow bigger by the second. Something in the back of my head tells me that I'm going to pass out. So I gratefully allow myself to black out.
XXoXXo
I shiver and sit up. I sit up to fast and the world spins around. Maple I need to stop doing that! After the feeling disappears I look around to see that I am in my bedroom. The sun shines softly through my open window and a gently but cool late spring breeze blows. I shudder and look at my Ipod docking station. The time says eleven thirty nine AM, also the date says Monday. What? The last thing I remember is that it was Saturday! I reach forward to my Ipod and play it. Big girls don't cry by Fergie plays quietly. Her voice fills my room and I decide to have this song on repeat.
I sigh and slowly ease myself out of my bed, and walk over to my window. I seat myself on top of the window bench seat and look out in the backyard. My parents beautiful garden colours the bright grass canvas. Bright reds, soft blues, untameable oranges, royal purples bends and sways with the wind. A slight urge to paint nags at me but I swiftly dismiss the idea because my art box is still locked. I bring my legs up, pull them close to my chest, and I lean my head on my knees. The cute little pond in the corner shimmers and gleams from the sun and I see a couple little ducklings swim on its smooth surface causing tiny ripples. I let out a sigh.
I let one hand reach towards the glass and I spread out my fingers on the cool see through object. I strong wind blows and my hair whips gently around my face. I sigh softly and slowly sing along with Fergie. My voice starts off quietly and then as I grow more comfortable my voice builds. I haven't singed since I was a kid but I'm in the mood to sing. As the song slowly dies down so does my voice. I walked over to my docking station and change the song to instrumental and let the music fill my senses. I sit down back the window bench and resume my previous position. I close my eyes slowly and let the song take me on a journey.
I walk in a beautiful clearing and I try to remember where I have seen this field. I shake it off and look around until I see younger me looking up at me and I gasp. He smiles gently at me and hugs Mr. Kumajiro. Wait, what I just found Kuma how can younger me have him. Also where is Kuma I didn't see him earlier. I stop myself from over thinking and I just look at mini me. He outstretches his hand and I reach for it and take it. We begin to walk and before I know it we're flying in the air. I gasp as I watch colours soar below us and never ending blue rockets above us. I take in the beauty that surrounds us while mini me guides us. We begin to slow down and I see dad and papa smiling at us. They wave at us and point forward. I give them a puzzled look while smaller me nods his head and heads in the direction they pointed at. We fly in that direction until I see four speckles.
We then pass Feliciano, Ludwig, Lovino, and Antonio waving at us. I smile and wave back at them as well. They point a bit to the left and waves goodbye. Smaller me changes the direction to where the four instructed and we fly. The air whips around me and I reach my hand up into the air and pretend to touch a cloud. I look back down just in time to see Elizaveta and Roderich. I wave at them and they wave back, they point to the right and mini me and I readjust our course. I look back and wave goodbye. They smile and wave goodbye as well. When I can't see them anymore I look back forward. I see us approach a forest and we fly above the trees. I gasp at how pretty the view is and I unconsciously reach down. My hand touches the top of a tree and I let out a giggle as the leaves tickles my hand. Mini me smiles and we slowly start to descend into a field filled with flowers. As we land butterflies flutters around us as we discover their hiding spots. I chuckle but immediately stop as I see a figure in the distance. He slowly walks to mini me and I. My heart begins to beat faster as I recognize the hair and eyes, but mostly his smile that he gives when he's a bit nervous. Perfection stops in front of me.
Mini me gently tug at my hand and I look at myself. He gives me an encouraging smile and lets go of my hand. He holds Kuma with both hands and he waves farewell. I give him a shock look and then I gulp. I wave goodbye and watch as he flies away leaving me with him. I slowly turn and my breath hitches. Perfection's beautiful blonde hair blows with the wind along with his white clothes. He looks like an angel. He closes the gap between us and he cups my face. Silky smooth voice exits his mouth and charges my senses.
"My Mattie you look stunning in this dress. You look like an angel." Excuse me did he just say dress? I look down at myself to see that I am indeed wearing a flowy white dress. I blush. I'm not much of a cross dresser but I have to admit the dress hugs me in all the right places. As I contemplate this is my head I am pulled away from my train of thought as I feel soft lips come in contact with my forehead. I look up and touch the place where he kissed me.
"Matthew your hair is beautiful wheat colour. Your eyes are like sparkling lavender jewels. Your skin is so soft and smooth. Your body is beautiful. Everything about you is breath taking but what really get me is your loving heart. Matthew I love everything about you. I love the air around you, but most importantly," he recites to me. So much love is in his eyes and my heart beats rapidly. He leans in gently and as the words come out of his mouth he grows closer to my lips.
"Most importantly Mattie, I love you," the confession gets quieter as his lips come into close contact with mine. Our lips finally touch and my heart explodes. I let out a pathetic cry and I reach and run my hand through Alfred's hair. He pulls me closer and wraps his arms around my waist. I feel tears run down my face but I dismiss them.
He does love me.
In English class with Alfred who is asleep also
I taste a bit of Mattie's tears enter our kiss. His delicious plump lips makes me shiver from the need that I feel to have more. When we pull away I see pure happiness and love in his eyes. He looks absolutely amazing in the dress. It had spaghetti straps and it hugs Mattie's body, showing off his slightly feminine body. It flows elegantly whenever the wind blows. Am I awesome at dreaming up awesome outfits or what? I silently thank the younger me for guiding me to this field but it's kind of weird that younger Matthew led Mattie here.
"Do you really love me Alfred?" He asks in his usual quiet and frail sounding voice. I smile and bring him once again closer to my body.
"More than anything, I would give up my life if I ever loose you," I tell him. An adorable blush creeps onto his porcelain like skin. My heart races as I find myself falling harder for my little brother. I hug Mattie as tightly yet at the same time as gently as I can
"I love you Mattie and I'll protect you with my life," I tell him. I hear a quiet sigh from him and a hum.
"I love you so much as well Alfred. I loved you for so long that I've yearned for this day, for this confession. I'm so glad I didn't die or else I wouldn't have heard this or tell you that I love you more than a big brother," he says quietly. I blush but since I'm the hero I force it away.
"I'm glad as well," I whisper in his ear. He leans forward and his eyes close. Oh shit he's going to kiss me this time. I lean forward to meet him halfway. Our lips are almost touching-
"Alfred Franklin Kirkland-Bonnefoy get up or else I'll send you to the office! Damn kids these days have no respect for their elders. If you're so smart why don't you answer the question?" Mr. Bradley yells at me.
"Um sixty nine?" I guess. Mr. Bradley scowls.
"Your twin brother is so gifted yet you're an idiot. I wish the young wasn't so sick. I hope you learn from your brother. He's a prime example of a perfect student," I tune Mr. Bradley out. Bastard how dare you interrupt Mattie about to kiss me. I huff out a breath. Mattie people recognize you it's just you don't apply yourself. People do like you. I look out the window.
Mattie are still asleep? Are you okay? What happened on Saturday night?
I'm alive and I feel better! Yay! Oh ya I'm cockblocking Jess and Ky-ky because they've been ignoring me for three weeks so that they can have some "alone time" in other words devour each other. So this would have been up two weeks ago if I wasn't experiencing the worst writer's block ever. Inspiration me after I got bullied. Wait a sec rewind.
Two weeks ago I auditioned for my school fashion. Yesterday I found out that I made the cut and I'm a performer/model. Sooo today a friend of mine came rushing towards me and asks me to follow her to the girls bathroom. So I gave her a weird look and follow her to the bathroom. She showed me the bathroom stall door and I felt my heart jump in my throat and I felt like throwing up.
On the stall in my ex bully's ex best friend who was also my bully handwriting was the following:
"I can't believe that Jace made the fashion show cut and not me. Don't they see that shes an ugly b**** I am way more prettier and smarter than that idiot. When she committed suicide her homo idiot of friends shouldn't have saved her. That skank is lucky that the teachers are so f*****g stupid. Oh yes Jace if you reading this I hope when you try to kill yourself I hope you seriously die this time. Cuz I know you're going to rot in hell! ; )"
...I'm actually crying while typing right now, so this is taking longer than I want it to. For people who don't know Jace is one of my nicknames because Jesse got Jay. Well after I read this my friend took a picture of it (That was why I was able to write the message word for word and probably how the teachers, Kyle and Jesse found out) and she asked me if I was okay. I ran out of the bathroom to nearly bump into Kyle and Jesse who were waiting outside the bathroom. I ran outside as fast as I can (Which is fast because I'm on the track team) and cried. I was thirty minutes late for class and so were Kyle and Jesse because they were looking for me and when they found me they were comforting me.
Why are people so mean? I did nothing to her but she still hurts me. I just hope that whatever pain that she's going through or reason that she's bullying me for she can find happiness. I just want her to be happy but not by breaking me. So no, I'm not going to go kill myself, because I now know that life is precious. I want to offer the world some happiness before I die and make it a better place. And me killing myself now isn't going to accomplish anything. I'm stronger now and I know that I have people to stand by me. So my bully I hope the pain you feel leaves and that you can find happiness, because happiness is the most amazing feeling.
So ya that was lovely day and inspiration. So Sorry this is late I hope you can forgive me, also thank you for all the kind comments. Also Kyle got smacked ten thousand times by me because I was so confused when people started to comment that they want to read my other story. When I read the previous chapter (yes Kyle doesn't have the most amazing English mark) I saw his note. Ya so I smacked him alot. *Sigh* I guess I have no choice but to put it up. I'll sign up for fan press and put up the story, but not now I'm trying to catch up with all my stories
Anyway bye people I'm going to figure out life.