Satoshi

Zinzolin has been agitated with Ghetsis lately. I have caught him mouthing off and having outbursts behind Ghetsis's back. His tantrums are always about Ghetsis's decisions on special situations as of late. Zin is lucky he hasn't said anything too treacherous.

It doesn't matter. I am getting close to revealing the true Zin to Ghetsis. If only my lord didn't hold him so high on his list, I would have done so already. I'm just waiting for him to say the right thing, at the wrong time. Coward.

Colress is another one that I want to do away with. I think murdering him would be the perfect option. He is a freak in every sense of the word. And not only does he have a brilliant mind, he also has a disgusting one. What has this pedophile done, truly, to win the Plasma lord over?

Enough of the analyzing. I don't write in this thing to analyze my supposed superiors.

I caught Ghetsis in a very vulnerable state tonight. Well, some may call it vulnerable since he wasn't in the right state of mind. He had been drinking. Heavily, I might add. But that didn't make him vulnerable. It only made him even more dangerous.

We were on the Plasma Frigate at the time, and I felt it necessary to check on him. He had been acting weird. He wasn't his usual, mean and sarcastic self. He was even meaner. Earlier today he beat up a female grunt so bad she had to be sent to the hospital. I later found out that she died. He beat her up right in one of the hallways of base A. And he had absolutely no reason for doing so. That is how I know something's up with him. I know him too well.

I checked his Frigate chambers first. No luck there. I was worried for a moment; I will not lie. Only because I heard him make the comment "I deserve to die," earlier today. But alas, I found him in his study, surrounded by fuzzy white security screens with a bottle of scotch by his side. He was so close to being wasted.

He commanded me to leave the moment he saw me. I refused. I knew he wasn't in his right mind. I had to protect him.

When I disobeyed him he didn't push further. He must not have had the energy to urge me to leave.

I knelt down in front of him beside his desk. I pledged my loyalty to him and begged for his forgiveness, all while slowly moving the lowball glass of scotch away from his reach, and then shortly after, the entire bottle. He didn't protest. Instead he kept staring into my eyes.

I asked him what was troubling him, and he responds with "I hurt her."

I knew he was referring to Touko and not the poor female he sent to the hospital to die.

It didn't seem right to me. Why did he care so much for her? She deserved her freeze torture and she deserved to be slammed against the wall.

I asked him this same question and made it clear that she deserved her torture, simply because she had something to do with Reshiram's escape.

He screamed at me "No!" and that she didn't deserve to be slammed against the wall or frozen! And then he proceeds to tell me that she will be my queen one day, and that I must accept her. But what if I don't want to? I have to. He is my master and he saved my life. I vow to agree with him and to protect him and even protect that wretch, Touko, if that is what he desires.

He then continued on with how special she is. That she is even more special than N. Why? Is it because she is so beautiful and young? Sometimes I wish he would just fuck her and be done with it. No. I have a feeling he is in love with her. He is blinded by her beauty and power over the Legendary. Sure enough, I find out that I am right.

I find this out after Ghetsis makes me promise to never allow him to hurt her again. I am supposed to be present when he is near her, and I have been commanded to restrain him if he loses control again.

I reluctantly agree. And then he threatened my life. That part didn't bother me. He threatened my brothers and I all the time.

He promised me tonight that he wasn't beyond help and he would remember our little heart to heart. It didn't matter to me if he remembered it or not. I would still follow through with his request and pray I wouldn't get killed for knocking him on his ass after he wanted to strangle the little bitch.

And then finally, right before I leave, he says it. He asks me to help him make her see. To make her see that he loves her.

How on earth am I going to help her see such a thing?

He was drunk.