I was stabbing at my eggs with my fork, while my other hand held my head up. There was an arm wrapped around my back, Kendall's arm, and it comforted me, but not by alot. I couldn't look at him so the thought of him touching me, hurt. How could I tell him I let Logan kiss me not once, but twice? Once I told him, he woud either break up with me on the spot, or break Logan's face, like Will from last night. Neither scenerio was gold in my head. "Why are you so quiet?" I looked over to my best friend quickly and shook my head at her hoping she could read it in my eyes, we'd talk later. "Babe you've barely eaten." Her voice sonded concerned and I smiled leaning into her close. I closed my eyes and breathed out harshly as I whispered.
"Logan kissed me twice and I don't know how to tell Kendall." I pulled away and quickly shoved eggs into my mouth looking up at the half circle booth we were sittign in. My eyes fell on Logan, who ever since we got in his car, hasn't stopped lookign at me, smiling. I hated him. Every ounce of my body yearned for his stupid smug smile to get punched off his stupid smug face. A little hearsh? Probably but he deserved it. When he saw me looking at him, he leaned forward on the table and laughed quietly to himself taking a sip of his juice.
"So? How do you guys think the game is gonna go?" Kendall's soft voice made my whole core shake and sit back into his arm. I coudl tell Logan was still watching me so to be a bitch, and because it was something Mandy told me to do a long time ago, I decided to rub it in his face, I wasn't his.
"And you care all of the sudden?" I turned to James who gave a weird look to Kendall who laughed and opened his mouth to respond, but i beat him to it. I leaned up and forward and crashed my lips into his hard. His arm aroudn my back wrapped tight aorund me, instinctively, pulling me up on him. I set my hands on his neck and tried to deepen the kiss without any success. He pushed me back quick and when I opened my eyes I saw his cheeks flushed and his eyes darting aorund our tabel of friends. "Fuck dude. What did you do to her?" I blushed hard and looked down in my lap corssing my legs. One of Mandy's hands patted my thigh as if to say, atta girl. I swallowed hard and dared to look up. Logan was staring right at me, smile gone. I wish I had the guts to say something, but nothing came out. And instead of anyone else saying anything, Logan did. Because of course.
"You know what I miss the msot about Emma?" I felt Kendall, immedietly tense next to me and set a hand on his thigh. "How I knew no matter what guy came around her, she would never wander, because at the end of the day, I was the only dick she ever had, so why would she look else where?" My cheeks felt as if I coudl literally fry an egg on them and tried to sink down deepper into Kendall's side. "I guess thats why its so easy to get her back." He paused and turned his head slightly to Kendall. "I guess that's why it was so easy to get in her room and kiss her. Twice." Every head snapped to me. Except one. Kendall's. As I turned to look at him all he was looking at was Logan. "That look on your face tells me, she didnt tell you we made out a little in her room while you were gone. Of course, you got to wonder why? Maybe because she didn't stop me?"
"You are such a prick you know that?" Mandy's strong pissed off voice helped me look away from Kendall down to my plate and hope I could melt into my eggs and french toast. "Do you honestly think anyone belives you?"
"I don't need just anyone to belive me. Just one. And it looks like he does." Logan stood up fast pulling out his wallet and set down some bills. I watched him pull his grey sweater on as he left the diner and walked out, slamming the door behind him.
"Fucking asshole. James go kill him. Carlos help." I turned and saw James giving me a weird, alomst disappointed look, but turned away to see Carlos sliding out of the booth. "Come on...lets go cool down Logan and let them talk." Her voice was small as she pushed on James broad shoulder forcing him out of the booth. As James stood up, and so did Carlos, Kendall started tt move after him. Mandy saw and turned to me.
"Kendall...talk to me." My voice was pathetic and quiet, Kendall either not hearing, or caring. "Kendall..."
"I don't need to talk to you." The way he said you, didn't hit me until I saw him brush past Carlos who wasn't quick enough to stop him. He meant he needed to talk to someone, just not me.
"Kendall stop!" I leapt out of the booth and just like Kendall, I shoved past Carlos. However by the time I made it out of the diner, I was too late. Kendall shoved Logan hard makign him run inot his car. Logan turned quick and swung hard. I heard bones hit onto bones as Kendall fell holding onto his face. I heard the ding from the diner door, and hurried footsteps but they weren't fast enough. Kendall got back up and swung, hitting Logan at about the same force, and in the same area as he got hit. Logan fell to the ground just as James and Carlos got between them. Carlos knelt doww next to Logan as James tried to touch Kendall's bleeding nose. Kendall shoved him away and turned aorund huffing, putting his hands on his hips staring directly at me. I was crying but wasnt sure why.
"Do you still have feelings for him?" I sobbed out a little and moved forward but Kendall seemed unfazed. "DO you still have feelings for him!?" He shouted which made me jump and look down. "I'm going to take your silence as a yes." I heard footsteps and looked up to my horror to seem him walking away.
"I love you Kendall!" I yelled as loud as I could which made him stop. He put his hands down at his sides and turned to me shaking his head.
"That's not what I asked Emma." His voice was calmer and quieter. Before I could say anything Logan got in front of me blocking Kendall and I.
"You can't except the fact that I had her before you. You can't get over that I was the first guy to take her on her first date or feel inside her." I blushed seeing Carlos, James and Mandy circling the three of us cautiously. "You dont care about the fact that her last boyfrined broke her heart. All you care about, and have cared about since oyu found out she was single, was she was a virgin." Everyone went quiet and I peered aorund Logan at Kendall who seemed to have calmed down. "She isn't anythign more than a prize to you. Another notch in your belt. You want only one thing from her. And the more I try to win her back, foils your plan."
"You have no idea how I feel about her. And you don't know jack shit about me." Logan laughed and something he told me earlier crept in my head. He was goign to find out that Kendall wasnt mister perfect. Had he already?
"Hey Emma, has Kendall ever told you about a girlfriend he left in sunny California?" I swallowed hard and stepped forward lookign at Kendall who if I didnt know better was starting to look worried. "Casue I was curious. Those pictures he use to carry in his wallet of those girls? At first I thought he was trying to show off to us guys. But I heard from his dad, who fixed my car for me that Kendall here was practicually dragged my his little sister to live out here. All because Kendall didnt want to leave his trophy girlfriends on the beach. And the main reason he wanted to stay was because of his latest endevour. Jo Taylor." I saw Kendall swallow hard and look at the gorund as I stepped in front of Logan, two feet from Kendall. "Your mom really liked her. But she knew your game because she met plenty of other Jo Taylor's you brougth to meet her. Your mom told your dad, who seemed to just open up to me, that Jo was happy you were leaving. Because the nigth before you left, you tried to focre her to have sex with you. Sound familiar?" I felt my stomach turn into a billion flips as Kendall dared to glance at me. I wasn't crying anymore because i wasnt sad or scared to loose Kendall. I was mad.
"Kendall?" My voice was quiet, but surprisingly strong. "You told me you were a virgin." He wiped at the blood tryign to go in his mouth and felt like throwing up. "Don't come near me again." I turned fast, not remebering Logan was behind me and ran into him. He set his hands on my arms gently but I shoved at him hard. "If you honestly think finding out about all that would make me take you back, your an idiot." I walked past him and pulled my phone out of my jacket dialign my brother quick.
"Emma?" I didn't look at Mandy as she stood next to me at the diner entrance.
"I want to be alone. I'm having Matt pick me up." She turned fast and went to Logan's car getting in quietly. I heard Matt's voice on the other end of the phone and shivered in the cold. "Can you pick me up? I'm at that diner down the street from Mandy's house."
"Where is Kendall? Or James?"
"I'll explain later." I felt my lip quiver as I cried out a little and closed my eyes shaking my head. "Can you please jsut pick me up?"
"Of course. Be there in 5." I hung up my phone fast and looked at my group of friends and two ex boyfriends staring at me.
"We have to go to the game guys..." Carlos gently hit James who gave me a sad smile but i shook him off. I smield small and whispered good luck before turning away. I didnt want him to see me cry cause he would have stayed, and football is eveyrthign to him. I waited to turn aorund until I heard the engine start and the car pull away. When I did turn, i was left alone. I kicked a rock as I walked to a bench and sat down hard. I was mad, and i was sad, but mostly i just wanted to sleep. I wanted to forget about the entire morning and fall asleep. I naively thoguht if i woke up later, maybe i would find out that all this was a bad dream. But it wasn't. Because I shoudl have seen the signs. Kendall didn't move slow at first. We were physical right off the bat. Maybe he was trying to find out if I had alot of experience and how far i'd let him go. Or maybe he was just super inot me. But what if all those things Logan was saying, were true? That Kendall was just trying to get the v card form me. How could i have been so stupid?
Our drive back to the house was quiet. Matt asked me waht happened but I told I didn't want to talk abot it. If we did he'd killd Kendall. And I necaessarly didnt want that yet. But again, all I wanted was sleep. I didnt want to think, feel or talk. Just sleep. When we got home I hurried out of his truck quick and into the house. I left the door open and rushed up the stairs hearing him sigh as he shut the door. As soon I was in my room, door shut but not locked, I kicked off my shoes, pulled off my pants and crawled on my bed. I pulled my blankets back and got under, incuding my head, squeezing my eyes shut hard. My sleep came quick, not realizing that in the last 24 hours, I hadn't got a lot of sleep and been through a bit. I fell asleep fast and hard, without another thought of it.