Chapter 12:-What have I done?

I groaned as I sat up and found myself on a bed in the hospital wing. My head was throbbing very painfully and I winced. My body was also aching I noticed that someone was seated next to me and he was holding my hand. His hair fell to his shoulders and he was snoring softly.

"Sirius?"

I shook him. He didn't stir so I thought he must be tired. I smiled at his sleeping form. He looked so peaceful when he slept. I wanted to sit up straighter so I moved without disturbing him, but let out a groan as pain rushed to my head. Sirius was up in an instant and began checking my forehead "Are you okay, love? Does it hurt? Madam Pomfrey! She's awake!" He asked me. I took his hands and put them down, "I'm fine Pads, it was just my head." He smiled at me.

"Tell me, why am I-?" Before I could ask him, I was cut off by Madam Pomfrey.

'Artemis! You're awake! Oh thank goodness!" She bustled around me. Checking my pulse, forehead and making me drink tonics that tasted like goblin piss. I almost threw them up.

"You seem to appear fine. How are you feeling?"

"Like I got hit by a truck." I groaned. It literally seemed so, my whole body was aching and my head was throbbing with pain.

"Will she be okay, Poppy?" Sirius asked her with genuine concern in his eyes. He looked tired, must've been with me for hours. Why did he stay with me for so long? Didn't he get any rest?" And more importantly, why the hell am I in the hospital wing?!

"Yes she'll be fine, Mr Black. These are just the after-effects of the stunning spell."

Stunning spell?! What the hell were they talking about!?

"Wait, what do you mean? Why was I hit by a stunning spell?!" I demanded off them. They shared worried glances and that was enough to state the fact that something bad had happened.

"Sirius, what the hell is going on?" I asked him. He nervously looked at the ground.

I looked at Madam Pomfrey who was also wearing a worried expression.

"WHAT HAS HAPPENED?! SOMEONE TELL ME, DAMN IT!" I shouted at them while shaking Sirius.

Suddenly, I heard a scream. "No, no please no!" Madam Pomfrey rushed to a bed on the other side of the room, where a girl was lying, screaming her head off. I looked at her with confusion. Upon closer look I saw that it was Harker, she was in Slytherin house. What's happened to her? Suddenly, it hit me on the head.

Hard.

I was in the transfiguration classroom, then she said something about me and I lost control and I tortured her. I gave her nightmares. I lost control of my powers and then McGonagall stunned me…

I lost control…

Again

And this time, I hurt someone….

What have I done?

WHAT HAVE I DONE?!

I opened my mouth in horror and tears started flowing freely. Sirius saw me and hugged me tightly, "Arte, hey, it's not your fault. It's okay. You're fine.'

I cried and tears were coming non-stop. I cried rarely but when I did, I cried without stopping. Sirius stroked my hair, in order to calm me down, "It's not okay, Sirius it's not! Look at what I've done! I'm a monster!"

He made me face him and wiped my tears, "Listen to me Artemis, you're not a monster. Never say that again."

I shook my head and a new set of tears came out. I pushed away from his grasp and ran out of the hospital wing. Sirius and Madam Pomfrey called after me but I didn't care. I ran and ran endlessly, tears still falling. I have to get away… I can't hurt people anymore.

What have I done?