CHAPTER 13 True Connection

I heard the howl of a wolf. I felt the longing it was trying to express.

"Jacob. My Jacob." I whispered with longing, too.

I heard a knock from the door I tried hard to stop the tears flowing from my eyes. I wiped my face to dismiss evidence that I cried.

"Love? It's dad."
"Are you okay?"

I sniffed and stood up still trying to suppress what I was feeling. When I decided I could handle it, I opened the door.

"Oh, love. You don't have to pretend in front of me," dad said and pulled me in a hug.

I was wrong. I couldn't handle it. I broke down and the tears were coming again. And dad witnessed me crying.

"I'm sorry dad,"

"You didn't do anything wrong, Nessie. Hush now,"

When I was calmer. Mom arrived from a meeting with a certain J. Jenks. They said it was for me to e able to go to school. It was their gift for me. Mom just arranged it. Maybe they'll let me go after some more years of studying under momma Esme and mom- all I have to know like normal students in high school.

My head was on my arms that were crossed on the tale when mom and dad embraced like they didn't see each other for a long time though mom was just gone for half the day.

"Is something wrong, Renesmee?" mom asked when she saw me.

"Love, we need to tell her," dad said.

"About what, Edward?" mom was confused.

"Jacob."

A sword slashed through me when I heard his name. I tried to control it. Mom was with us and I don't want her to get worried as usual.

"You don't need to hide your feeling, Renesmee. Hiding them just makes us more worried, love," dad said and again I almost roke. I it my lips which started to tremble.

"What is this about, Edward?" mom asked getting more worried by the second.

Dad sighed and held mine and mom's hands together.

"You can show her, Renesmee," this was the first time dad asked me to show something to someone and this time it was mom.

"What is it?" she continued asking.

"Go on, Nessie," dad persuaded me.

"But dad..."

"Do as I say, Renesmee." I felt the authority when he said that - the authority that he was my parent, my father and I must do as he says.

I gulped and took a deep breath. I felt weary but showed her the past week. Tara and Jacob and how I acted and why I wanted to be alone.

"He's hurting you?" mom asked through her teeth.

I looked down and shook my head once. He didn't do it on purpose. It's just me, I thought.

"Edward?" mom looked at him.

"She feels it but she doesn't know what it is,"

Both mom and me were looking for answers to our questions that the confusion of dad's words were giving us. We both looked at him and waited.

"You're his girl, Nessie," he finally said after a confusing moment.

I suddenly remembered Jacob delivering those lines "You're my girl, Renesmee and no one can ever replace you."

"Yes, he's telling the truth," dad told me like he was submitting himself as witness that I shouldn't doubt Jacob.

I shook my head. I couldn't understand what they meant.

"What do you mean, Edward? She's just 12," mom became anxious adding to the suddenly awkward and emotional atmosphere in our little cottage.

"13 Bella and Carlisle told me his new theory that her emotions are now matured enough to know..." dad trailed off.

"And?" mom asked.

I didn't understand what they were talking about. Why wouldn't just go straight to the point. And then I remembered that dad could hear my thoughts so I looked down embarrassed for thinking of such.

"He's just not your best friend or big brother, Nessie. What you're feeling is more than that,"

Mom grabbed dad's arm to get his attention to let him see she still couldn't get what he wanted to happen.

"It's time for us to let her decide about this thing, love," he told mom.
"Like you and me they deserve to show their feelings to each other freely," dad continued.

"Dad, what..."

"You're jealous of Tara, Nessie," dad continued still.

"Are you on Jacob's side now, Edward?" mom asked. She was obviously surprised of dad talking to me about the real feelings I was having.

"We can't hide the truth, love. I know it. I understand it," he pulled mom to an embrace to calm her down.

I know I am a jealous friend but I gave him time to find new ones. I don't want to be selfish and because I don't want Jacob hurt. There's a wide world that's opening its hands to him and it included Tara. Thinking about it, tears started welling up in my eyes. I looked up to prevent it from spilling.

"You're not just his friend. Not just a sister to him. You were already tied to him since you were born. The moment he first saw you was all he needed to tell him that you're the only one he needed in this world," I was shocked with dad's words. A father telling his daughter about love.

"I know this is awkward, Nessie but..." he sighed.
"I don't want to see you hurt anymore because you're confused."

"Okay," mom finally spoke again and then let out a deep breath like she was trying to take all in.
"You can be with him but still you need to go home at night here or in the big house. DO the same things like the usual and we still decide for you about other things because still you're 13," mom said in rush.

"You're still our child, Renesmee," dad supported mom's words.
"And one more thing, I know about your sleeping habits in the big house."

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