Hello there dear readers!
So I've been a little bit under the weather, damn flu got to me and I've been half coherent these past weeks, but I rewatched all the Twilight movies cause I was a little bored and reminiscing about that time when I was fourteen and Twilight came out (THOSE DAYS WERE WILD THO), so anyways, I'm almost done with the first book, very almost done, so yes,
I think you guys know what to do if you want the next chapter ;)
Alex.
Spoiler: We're going AU in New Moon.
My eyes widened and I grinned as he started glistening under the sun and of course there was only one thing that I could appropriately say at the moment.
"Holy shit, Teddy you sparkle!" I said before I started laughing remembering memes upon memes of sparkly vampires.
True there was an ethereal beauty to him, probably how Lady Galadriel had looked like on lord of the rings, shiny, like a diamond, I laughed again as I remembered a Rihanna song that hadn't even come out in this universe.
"Do I even scare you?" Edward asked deflated as he sat next to me sulking, I patted his arm comfortingly.
"Not really, then again few things do scare me, insects and rodents do the trick, if I'm distracted and you jump me I will scream bloody murder and such, but you? Nah, you are lovely though," I said, that didn't seem to help, hell I had probably destroyed his masculinity, poor thing.
I started tracing his arms, and examining the sparkle, he let me, his skin felt even colder under my fingertips, his skin looked like if it was made from thousands or even millions miniature stars that shone under the sunlight, I started tracing patterns of constellations that I knew, the little dipper, the big dipper, Cygnus, Draco.
"What are the patterns?" Edward asked, I smiled, of course he had noticed.
"Stars," I said, he raised an eyebrow at me, "Your skin looks like stars," I said softly.
"That's a new one," he said, I grinned at him.
"I surely hope so, wouldn't want to become dull."
"You could never be dull to me, Bella," he said and I fought away the urge to frown, was he never going to catch on
I sat next to him on the grass, basking in the sunlight. I closed my eyes, enjoying the sounds of nature and Edward's cold presence next to me.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked, I opened my eyes to find his eyes on me, I shrugged.
"Nothing, everything," I answered absent mindedly.
"Do you truly only want to be my friend?" he asked, I smirked at him.
"Yeap, why, is that a problem? Will it be a problem?" I asked looking seriously at him, he didn't hold my gaze, preferring to look away, I sighed.
"Why?" he was almost whining.
"Because I don't really like you that way, I mean I like you, but I don't like like you, nothing personal, you're just not my type," I explained, Edward sighed and nodded.
"Yet you agreed to come with me," he said after a while, I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Excuse me, but friends do hang out Edward" I said firmly he looked at me, almost glaring and I kept my eyebrow raised.
"I could hurt you, this is dangerous," he said, I scoffed.
"I could hurt you, I think I'm doing it right now, because you wanted to date me, whereas because I'm me or because of something else, so which one is it?"
"You're my singer, Carlisle explained it to me when I first met you, your blood calls to me," Edward said and I felt a little sick.
"And because of that you decided that you wanted to date me? Because you have a weird fascination with the way I smell? Edward that's wrong, very wrong, like you really need a psychologist kind of wrong, actually as my friend, best friend, since you know so much about me, you should be trying quite the contrary," I said, he looked at me confused.
"Why? You're my singer," he said, I rolled my eyes.
"But not your mate, don't confuse the terms, God, Teddy, that's a little bit fucked up, I'm sure you'll find a mate like Rosalie and Alice did, like your parents did," I said, Edward seemed to want to say something but decided not to.
"So friends?" he asked, I grinned at him.
"The bestest of friends," I said pinching his cheeks, he smiled at me, mood swing gone, "And remember, humans are friends not food,"
"Right" he said and I laughed and shoved him slightly, he was not expecting it because he faceplanted on the grass and I laughed even louder at the surprised look on his face.
"Tell me about your family, you know so much about me and yet, I know very little of the vampire that is my best friend," I said, he smiled.
"I still can't wrap my head around of the fact that I don't scare you," he said, I smirked.
"Well you should, 'cause it is what it is," I said, he nodded.
We stayed in silence again and I wondered if Edward truly understood that there was a snowball's chance in hell of us actually dating. He was so not my type, and no matter how much I had tried to make myself like him, I couldn't. Like if there was something physically preventing me from doing so. I looked at him and then at the clearing again, Bella had decided that the clearing paled in comparison to Edward, but I thought quite the contrary, the meadow was truly beautiful. I plucked a purple flower from the grass and twirled in my hand admiring the soft looking petals, I smiled as I smelled it, there was something pure about the place and I was thankful to have seen it.
"Hey friend," Edward's quite voice brought me out of my musings, I blinked and looked at him.
"Huh?" It took me a moment to regain my bearings again, but Edward was smiling as if it was the most amusing thing ever, "Yes?"
"We have to start making our way back now," He said as he stood, I kept blinking until Edward's hand was in my line of sight, I took it and he pulled me up.
Once standing I shook my legs, returning the blood flood to them. I stretched like if I had just woken up from a nap and smiled at Edward.
"Do we really have to walk back, cause I'm debating on sleeping here if that means that I don't have to walk," I said and he laughed.
"Well I could always show you how I travel through the forest," he said.
"Magical leuploridons?" I asked without missing a beat.
"What?"
"They'll show you the way Teddy,"
"Bella?"
"Yes?"
"Forget it," he said and I laughed, he looked at me confused.
"But hey, yeah let's see how you travel, what do I do?"
"Do you trust me?" he asked, I had to raise an eyebrow.
"You are a vampire and I'm in the middle of nowhere with you, if that's not trust then I don't know Ted" I said, he rolled his eyes at me.
"Jump on my back," he said crouching a little bit, I smiled.
"It's a good thing you bought me dinner first, aye?" I said before jumping and wrapping my arms and legs around him tightly, "Off we go my fearless stallion."
"Bella, stop," he said laughing before he launched off running.
At first it was pure bliss, the wind in my hair and the sensation of falling as he ran through the forest at a very high speed, until my body caught up with my brain and that sensation of falling really hit me, full force, I let out a shrill scream and Edward had to stop suddenly. I dropped to the floor holding onto the nearest tree and taking deep breaths, I looked up at Edward and he had a very concerned look on his face, I could feel hot tears running down my face and suddenly my knees buckled underneath me.
"Bella," Edward said suddenly kneeling in front of me, my whole body was trembling, "Bella?" he asked again, softly, I was breathing heavily and he pulled me into a hug, "Hey, hey, Bella, you're okay, shhh."
I closed my eyes for a moment trying to get my emotions in order, I was not falling, not falling, not now, not ever, not again, I was okay, I was in the forest with Edward, vampire Edward… I was dead, I had died, I had fallen to my death, but I was okay now, everything was okay, I was good. I gripped Edward's shirt tightly as I grounded myself and then suddenly let go, wiping my tears away harshly. Edward helped me to my feet, I was still trembling, but it was manageable.
"Bella, are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" he asked keeping his voice low and even, I shook my head and held onto his arm as I composed myself.
I looked at him, teary eyed and still trembling, "I'm fine"
"Bella you are having a panic attack, that is not fine," he reprimanded, I tried to glare at him but my body was not cooperating, "Do you need to see a doctor?"
"I don't think so, just give me a moment" I answered and rubbed my eyes as I straightened myself, I let out a nervous laugh as I looked at Edward, "Let's not try that again, like ever"
"Bella, what the hell happened?" he asked, I shrugged.
"Nothing, just stuff, now let's go, I wanna go home now," I said and started walking.
"Bella" said Edward warily, I turned to glare at him, "You're going the wrong way"
I huffed and turned around and continued walking. The walk back to the car was uncomfortable, we didn't really talk anymore, thankfully he didn't ask questions as we reached the car, nor did he say anything about it on the way home.
I watched as the trees became a green blur as Edward drove me home, I was not trembling anymore, but I was still shaken by the whole thing, I had wanted to enjoy vampire speed and in turn a had just had a freaking panic attack in front of the least suggested person to actually have one. I didn't notice when Edward pulled into the driveway, he killed the engine and looked at me.
"Bella, do you want to talk about it now?" he asked softly, I shook my head.
"I'd rather not," I said looking at him, he looked concerned.
"Have you ever fallen from great heights?" he asked, I wanted to shake my head no but I couldn't.
"It was a nightmare" I whispered after a few minutes, Edward frowned, "I was falling and I died I know I did, but then I woke up and I was alive, but I'm dead" I said choking on my words as tears began falling again, I looked at Edward through my tears.
"You're not dead Bella, you're right here," he said cradling my face softly.
"I want to be back," I sobbed, he looked at me confused.
"Back where?"
"Home, I want to go home."