Chapter 14

Ciel's life had turned upside down since he started college. He had been forced to question his whole being; to reach inside to the very core of who he was. The safe platform he had stood on his entire life was shaking and crumbling under his feet and he felt like he was losing his mind.

Everything that had happened over the past months between him and Alois made his stomach twist and turn in the most uncomfortable of ways, but at the same time it made his chest flutter at the mere thought. The blonde had been absolutely maddening at first, but he had still found his way into Ciel's life and crushed everything he knew to be true about himself.

The events that took place a few days ago had proven without a doubt that he not only felt something more than just friendly feelings towards Alois and that he probably had for quite a while, but it also made it very clear that he was utterly terrified.

He was afraid of the feelings he was experiencing because they made him question who he was; the picture he had of himself was slowly disappearing and being replaced with a new one.

For two days he had locked himself up in his room, refusing to talk to anyone. Finny had been bugging him on occasion, but after Ciel had gotten so fed-up that he almost managed to throw a book in his face, his friend had finally let him be. Sebastian had tried calling him a few times and had even sent a couple of worried texts since Ciel never told him why he cancelled their plans on his birthday. Sure, Finny had told his brother about the breakup but it seemed as if Sebastian wanted to hear the story from Ciel's own lips.

Not that he would ever tell anyone the true reason why he needed this.

He would never tell anyone that the reason he needed to be alone was to figure out what he wanted to do about his feelings for Alois rather than his breakup with Lizzy.

He had no idea what to do.

Should I go to him? Should I talk to him? Should I… kiss him?

No.

Yes?

Ciel banged his head on the door hard enough to bruise and squeezed his eyes completely shut. He had his palms pressed firmly against the rough wood, trying to decide if he should stay or if he should grab the handle and head out.

Alois had tried calling him a few times but Ciel had ignored his calls too. If there was someone he absolutely hadn't had any desire to talk to during these past few days, it was him; not when it was he who was the cause of all of this. Alois had stormed into his life and changed everything. Alois had changed him.

Ciel wasn't even certain of what exactly it was that he felt for the blonde. He could conclude that he felt a strong urge to touch him, to feel his skin under his fingers. Ciel had to admit to himself that the desire had been there from the start. No matter how much he had tried pushing it away, he was constantly reminded, either through dreams or when he was in close proximity of the older boy. Alois always made him feel this rush of… something.

Ciel was afraid to even think about what would happen if he went to Alois' dorm, but he knew that he wanted to go there. That was all he felt; a raging desire to go to him. To be with him.

As he stood leaning against the door, thinking about Alois for what felt like the thousandth time in two days, he finally understood what he needed to do. He realized that he didn't need all the answers; he didn't have to know everything. In all of his confusion he found that there was one thing that he was absolutely sure of; he was certain of the fact that he without a doubt in his mind wanted nothing more than to be close to Alois.

I want to be near him. That's the only thing that really matters, right?

With that conclusion in mind, Ciel left, and walked all the way to Alois' dorm without hesitating even once and banged on the door. He had no idea what to expect or what he would do once he entered, he just knew that he needed to be in there with him. His heart was pounding so hard in his chest that his head began spinning and his vision became blurry. Several seconds passed before he realized that a voice was calling out to him from inside the room.

Accepting the invitation, Ciel grabbed the handle and pushed the door open. Alois was laying stomach down on his bed, with his feet in the air. The blonde was wearing nothing but a pair of black pajama bottoms, his chest bare against the soft sheets. A laptop was placed in front of him and his eyes never left the screen to see who had come inside, instead he just muttered, "I fucking told you I was busy…"

"Too busy for me?" Ciel asked in a low voice, still standing in the doorway.

Alois flew up from the bed and looked at the younger boy with big eyes. "Ciel! What are you doing here? You haven't answered any of my calls, I thought—"

"I just needed some time to think… and I have been thinking. A lot."

"About what?"

"It doesn't matter… because I don't want to think anymore," Ciel stated and walked over to Alois, grabbing hold of his shoulders.

Perplexed eyes looked back at him, painted with a wide range of unidentifiable emotions. Even if Ciel would have wanted to have access to his brain at that moment it would have been impossible. He got hopelessly lost in that blue sky staring down at him and suddenly everything else in the world disappeared. It was just the two of them, alone in their own little universe.

Ciel let his hands slide up to tangle in Alois' blonde mess of hair and the air seemed to stand still for a moment. Ciel's heart was thrumming so hard in his chest that he thought it might fall out. It was him… It was him that he wanted, it couldn't be clearer, and with a sudden rush of emotions he pulled Alois closer and pressed his lips against his. Alois immediately slid his tongue inside his mouth and folded his arms around Ciel's torso, pushing the younger boy flush against his larger frame. The kiss quickly became feverish and zealous, as if they both had a sort of hunger controlling them.

Heated moans and muffled grunts filled the small room as exploring hands began clawing desperately at the fabric covering their bodies. Hot puffs of air and slippery saliva met the delicate skin on Ciel's chest as his shirt fell apart when the last button was forcefully tugged open. Ciel barely had any grasp on reality but he knew that he wanted the older boy currently fondling his growing need. They both wanted each other badly, that much was clear.

Before long Ciel found himself lying with his torso bare on top of Alois in the bed with his lips moving hungrily against his. The blonde's soft, experienced tongue danced along with his own, eliciting aroused noises from the both of them. Ciel's head was spinning and he barely knew up from down. All he knew was the body writhing underneath him; the only person who'd managed to make his entire being tremble.

Ciel still had trouble admitting it to himself, but he had to realize that this felt so damn good. Finally, finally, he had followed his desires. Fuck, I fucking want him. That idiot… how did he manage to get to me like this?

Fingernails were roughly being dug into the hot skin on the younger boy's back by the blonde underneath him as Alois breathed, "Mine…" into the kiss. The taller boy's lips curved up into a satisfied smile—Ciel was finally giving in to him, just like the blonde knew he would. He's on top of me. He wants me. God, he's perfect.

Alois had his slim legs hooked around Ciel's waist, holding the smaller boy firmly in place as he titled his hips and rubbed up against him. The friction made Ciel's breath hitch against Alois' lips and he pushed back, rolling his hips slowly against the other, making the older boy whimper softly with every puff of air escaping him.

Alois finally broke the heated kiss and gazed up at Ciel with glossy eyes and slightly flushed cheeks. The younger boy looked down at him while breathing heavily as he continued moving his body against his. Alois suddenly grabbed hold of Ciel's hair and tugged his head to the side, giving him easy access to the smaller boy's neck. Using his tongue, he elicited a delicious grunt from Ciel as he dragged the sleek muscle over the sweat-covered skin. The blonde hummed in satisfaction when Ciel let out another lust-filled sound as Alois' experienced tongue kept painting his sensitive neck with slippery saliva.

The older boy gave him a playful, sharp nip and glanced up, searching for any signs of disapproval in Ciel's expression. With his eyes shut tight and his mouth slightly open, the smaller boy's face showed nothing but sheer arousal which caused Alois to instinctively run his tongue over his lips. Wetness once again met the other's skin when the older boy flicked the soft muscle over the visible pulse with a tiny smile before biting down roughly while tightening his grip in Ciel's hair.

Ciel gasped at the sudden flash of pain shooting through him. It hurt, but at the same time felt good, and the mix of pain and pleasure had him trembling and grunting like an animal in heat. A shaky sigh escaped him when Alois sunk his teeth into him again, this time right above his collarbone. The younger boy could feel himself grow achingly hard at the treatment, causing some discomfort due to him still wearing pants.

"Take off your slacks," Alois breathed against his chest as if he could read his mind. Ciel quickly sat up on his knees and began unbuttoning them with shivering hands. Feeling the need to be hasty, he awkwardly snaked out of the unwanted garment, tossing them away somewhere on the floor.

As Ciel had worked to get loose of his pants, Alois had released himself of his pajama bottoms and was now lying in only his underwear on the bed with his thighs spread slightly. The stiff bulge between his legs was impossible to miss and reminded Ciel of his own erection straining in his underwear which caused him to squirm and huddle.

Alois' chest was heaving as he stared at Ciel with enthralled eyes, and nothing in his face showed any signs that he took any notice of Ciel's predicament. Ciel began blushing fiercely and he had to avert his gaze, but he couldn't look away for too long. His eyes travelled back to Alois almost instantly; seeing him in this state, almost completely naked and waiting for him with need written all over his features made Ciel almost desperate to touch him. He completely forgot about his embarrassment and crawled back between Alois' legs, leaning in to catch his lips once again. Sloppy kisses were exchanged as their hands roamed, fingers playing blindly over pale skin.

Ciel broke away from the kiss, feeling the need to explore more of the boy underneath him. He was astounded by his own desire and by how right all of this felt. He might have been nervous and slightly abashed, but that couldn't keep him from letting all of his built up emotions free. He had wanted this for much longer than he initially had been willing to admit, and his entire being was burning with an uncontrollable need for the breathtaking young man sprawled out below him.

Ciel's lips found their way to Alois' chest and he delivered wet kisses and soft bites to the tender skin. He flicked his tongue over one of Alois' pert nipples and with a loud gasp the older boy arched his back and grabbed hold of Ciel's head, pressing him closer.

Internally, Alois smiled.

He was determined not to take much lead in this, immensely curious about how far Ciel was prepared to take this on his own. The younger boy always let his stubbornness and pride stand in the way of him fully letting go and enjoying himself truly and completely, but Alois could feel the desperation in Ciel's shivering hands as he explored his male form. He could sense the want burning in Ciel as the other gazed down at him with those engrossing and ravenous, mismatched eyes.

Alois' heart kept pounding viciously in his ribcage, both from intense arousal and the raging emotions exploding inside of him, filling up every tiny part of him because finally, he had that little runt where he had wanted him for so long—and there was one little fact that made the experience that much more exciting.

Ciel had come to him.

The younger boy's hands kept roaming over every inch of the blonde's upper body until they found their way to the hem of his underwear. At this point Ciel was so completely aroused that he without hesitation began pulling them down over the older boy's hips. He released the hard, pink nub and pulled the offending garment down Alois' long, slender legs. The blonde whimpered and panted and reached his arms out to pull him close again, but Ciel didn't move a muscle. Instead, he stared down at Alois with wide eyes, in complete amazement.

Alois was beautiful.

The picture on display before him was incredibly erotic: half-lidded icy eyes clouded with lust, angelic, blonde hair disheveled against the pillow, scarlet cheeks and swollen, rosy lips—all stunning details showing off every ounce of their passion for each other. Although, the most breathtaking of all was without a doubt seeing Alois' slim form sprawled out on the soft sheets, craving nothing more than him.

He felt so unbelievably drawn to Alois at that moment, and he was overwhelmed by the want he was experiencing. I want him, I fucking need him.

Strong hands grasped Ciel, who let out a low growl as the two boys once again embraced each other and began exploding sweaty skin with greedy hands. Fumbling fingers played and roamed fervently until Ciel suddenly stopped in his movements when he realized where he was heading. Ciel let his hand hover over the hard length for several seconds while he was trying to figure out what he should do.

Alois noticed his hesitation and gave him a reassuring smile. He grabbed Ciel's hand and gently lowered it down onto his erect member and the younger boy's heart was pounding so hard in his chest that he was sure that Alois could hear it. He was about to touch another mans…

Ciel's breath got caught in his throat when he felt the tight skin against his damp palm. Carefully, he wrapped his fingers around the shaft and held it like that for a few seconds before he slowly started moving his hand back and forth, just like he would do to himself. It didn't feel nearly as weird as he thought it would.

Alois moaned and writhed under him as he curiously tried stroking him faster and Ciel's breathing became even heavier when the pleasured sounds reached his ears. Ciel was just about to kiss the other's neck when the blonde's fingers tangled in his mussed hair and tried to push him down. Ciel's heart sped up once more and he began trembling nervously. Does he really expect me to…?

Alois wanted to laugh when he felt how the smaller boy shivered against him, carelessly refusing his attempt to encourage him. Ciel was barely resisting, and the blonde could hardly contain his own curiosity. Admittedly, he had no idea if Ciel would go through with it or not, and it was extremely titillating to test his limits.

Ciel was close to panicking, but at the same time he felt this burning need coursing through him and he had already concluded that he wanted to do this with Alois. He had just never allowed himself to imagine the specific activities that he might be engaging in if they were to end up in this situation.

Get a grip, Ciel. This is what two guys do in bed.

With his heartbeat thrumming in his ears, he let himself get pushed down until he was lying between Alois' legs with his face only inches from his cock. He still felt hesitant for a few short moments before Alois let out a breathy moan that sent a jolt straight down to his own strained member, causing it to twitch.

Arousal shook Ciel and he stopped moving his hand as he looked up at the older boy who was panting and gazing down at him through heavy lids with an odd sort of satisfaction glimmering in his eyes. Ciel took a deep breath before he gave the head an experimental lick and Alois responded with a faint gasp. I can do this. Ciel proceeded by tracing his tongue over the hot skin several times, until Alois' length was glistening with saliva and the older boy was writhing and whimpering desperately. The blonde's grip on his hair tightened increasingly and he tried to push him closer, causing Ciel to let out a shaky, nervous breath.

"Nnn… Ciel… m-more."

Okay, here goes nothing. Ciel lowered his head and took the tip of Alois' sizable cock in his mouth and slowly swallowed more and more of the length until he couldn't fit anymore, and all the while his body quivered with anxious shivers.

Hesitantly, he began bobbing his head slowly, but as Alois began squirming and bucking his hips he increased his speed. His own member began to throb as more noises of pleasure escaped the older boy's lips and he completely lost himself in his task, utterly overtaken by a greedy desire to hear more of those sounds. His mind was so thoroughly dazed that he didn't even realize that he was letting out small moans around Alois' length until he heard the blonde's voice coming from the top of the bed.

"C-ciel—nn! You… ah… r-really like this, huh?"

Ciel's face instantly lit up with a burning blush and he let Alois' member slide right out of his mouth to flop down onto his stomach as he was completely mortified.

"D-don't be embarrassed. It's a good thing, right?" Alois panted and raised his upper body slowly until he was sitting upright. "You're doing really well, you know," he assured him and snickered softly at Ciel's expression before he reached over to the drawer on his bedside table and pulled out a small bottle and a condom. Ciel's eyes went wide and his heart sped up again, as he was reminded of the fact that he had no idea how this how this was going to play out.

"I—I… h-how…" Ciel stammered, almost starting to regret this whole thing.

Alois let out a faint chuckle, thoroughly enjoying Ciel's flustered state. "Just relax. I'm not going to pound your ass tonight—it's your first time. But considering the state you're in…" he smirked while gazing down at Ciel's impossibly hard bulge. "…I'm pretty sure you wouldn't mind pounding mine."

Alois slid down on the sheets until he was lying down again and looked over at Ciel, who was staring at him with his lips slightly parted. To say that the younger boy was in a complete state of apprehension would have been an understatement, and millions of thoughts raced through his mind as he considered the blonde's words. He had of course imagined them doing that, but being this close to actually going through with it had him thoroughly tremulous. But he knew that he wanted to do it; there was no way to deny that fact. The mere thought had his mouth watering and his cock twitching in its restraints.

"Get your nervous ass over here," Alois commanded in a surprisingly calming tone.

Ciel didn't have a say in the matter, because despite his feelings of consternation, his body wanted nothing more than to feel Alois' skin against his. Shivering limbs moved on their own accord until he once again was lying on top of Alois, who grabbed his hand and poured the cold liquid over his fingers.

"Just start with one at first," Alois instructed him as he guided his hand in between his legs and Ciel was beginning to fear that he might faint from sheer nervousness. He was actually pretty amazed with how his dick could keep standing through all of this.

Okay, okay... calm down. This is what you wanted, remember?

Ciel stared at Alois for a moment before he let one of his fingers brush over his entrance. Alois gasped at the cold sensation, but nodded reassuringly when he saw the concern in the smaller boy's eyes. Ciel took a deep breath and forced himself to relax before he carefully slid one of his fingers into the tight opening. The thought of him performing such a lewd act was both a little unnerving as well as oddly thrilling to Ciel, who shook his head to gain some sensebefore he started thrusting his finger back and forth in a cautious pace, reveling in the tight heat that engulfed him.

They never broke eye contact as Ciel prepared Alois, and he slowly began losing himself in the sounds and movements of the older boy. The blonde was panting by the time a second finger was being pushed in and he let out a satisfied moan when Ciel tried wiggling his fingers around. When Alois finally could accommodate a third one, the older boy reached down and pulled Ciel's fingers from his slick entrance.

"I need you to fuck me, Ciel," the blonde breathed as a shiver shook his body.

Ciel was trembling with arousal and hearing Alois say those words… He rose up on his knees, ready to discard of the remaining fabric covering his body but when he reached for his underwear he froze up.

"I'm…" he started but he wasn't sure what he wanted to say.

Alois chuckled softly before giving Ciel a teasing grin. "You're too cute when you're nervous. Let me take care of those nerves for you," he purred before maneuvering himself so that he was standing on all fours in front of Ciel with his face only inches from his clothed erection. The blonde let his tongue slide over his upper lip before he put his salacious mouth over the hard flesh and began sucking lightly through the fabric. Ciel immediately reached for Alois' tousled hair as a needy moan flew past his lips, gripping the blonde strands roughly.

"Alo—Alois…" the younger boy breathed as the blonde grazed his teeth over the hot bulge with a hungry look on his face. Alois raised one hand to the hem of the garment, pulling them down slowly to rest around Ciel's knees, listening to the other's beautiful, hitching breaths as he did so. The achingly hard length sprung free and the head fell perfectly on Alois' lips, who smiled contentedly before parting them to take Ciel's cock in his mouth.

Ciel whimpered and tightened his grip in the older boy's locks, unable to focus on anything other than the wet feeling of Alois' hot tongue against his member. Ciel tilted his head back as the blonde slurped and swallowed around the tight skin, causing the younger boy to moan softly with every breath escaping him. The blonde's tongue rode up and down the underside of his shaft as he bobbed his head while stroking his balls softly with his hand. Ciel soon found himself panting, already feeling that familiar heat beginning to pool in his gut.

Alois suddenly pulled away and Ciel stared as the other opened the condom with his teeth before he lowered it onto Ciel's member. The blonde proceeded by slicking him up with lube, looking up at Ciel while he did so.

"There, you're all done. Now fuck me," Alois demanded both playfully and harshly as he lay back, spreading his legs invitingly.

The sight of the wanton blonde mixed with the throbbing of his cock was enough to snap Ciel out of all the nervousness he still felt and with one quick movement, he was on top of Alois again.

"Should I just…?"

"Just stick it in, pretty boy."

Ciel ignored the nickname and leaned in to press his lips against Alois' in a sloppy, hungry kiss. He ran his hands up and down he blonde's thighs before taking his own slicked up member in his hand, rubbing the tip against Alois' stretched opening. The blonde panted against Ciel's lips and he moaned as the younger boy experimentally rolled his hips, causing the head of his cock to push against the tight entrance.

"Stop… teasing and... fuck me already," Alois commanded between heavy breaths and threw his arms around the smaller boy's neck. Ciel did his best to oblige and pushed in slowly at the same time as he caught Alois' lips in another kiss. The blonde whimpered and panted as he eased himself in further and Ciel's eyes shot open when he felt the other's inner walls squeeze around his member.

"H-holy… hhaah…" Ciel moaned and shook all over. Alois grunted beneath him and locked his legs behind his back, pushing himself up against Ciel so that his entire length was buried to the hilt in his tight, scorching hole.

"Oh fuck…" Alois groaned as his head flew back against the pillow, brutally digging his fingernails into the younger boy's shoulders. Ciel hissed at the pain, but he didn't complain. Instead he began rocking his hips carefully, eliciting a series of delicious sounds from the blonde. This only egged him on and he thrust in with more force, slowly beginning to lose all control as intense pleasure started coursing through his body. He set a cautious pace, worried that he might hurt Alois if he went as fast as he really wanted to. He was trembling with need but he continued forcing himself to take it easy when the blonde suddenly latched on to him and groaned loudly.

"M-more… aah, I need… harder…" Alois huffed, desperately jerking his lower body upwards to get him to speed up.

Ciel let out several loud moans when Alois moved against him, clenching around his member with every rock of his hips, and there was no way he could say no to his plea. "Nnnn… yes…" he breathed and suddenly a daunting fire lit up inside of him.

In that moment it was as if something that had been buried deep inside of him this whole time just got released for the first time and he held nothing back as he started pounding into Alois without mercy. Lewd sounds filled the small room as their bodies collided time and time again.

"A-alois… G-god… you feel… ngh," Ciel mumbled between thrusts, eyes pressed shut and every inch of his teenage body burning. His hard cock kept sliding in and out of the blonde's hole in a fast pace, the pleasure making him dizzy and unfocused.

Alois suddenly pulled him closer, shoving his wet tongue in his ear before he moaned a command, "Hahh. Fuck me like you mean it—ugh! F-fuck—fucking break me!"

Looking up under sweaty bangs, Ciel seized his movements, roughly grabbing onto Alois' hips and raising them higher before sharply jerking his hips forward, slamming his member in deep inside of the other. Ciel's eyes were beaming as he kept pounding into the older boy in a ruthless manner and he couldn't hold back a satisfied smile when Alois' eyes shot open and the blonde practically screamed out in pleasure. Alois arched his back and began tossing and turning as Ciel's thrusts became more frantic.

"A-aah—G-god—ah! Don't f-fucking stop, Ciel—aah, shit!" Alois panted and gasped, and his frame quivered under Ciel's firm grip on his hips. The sounds escaping Alois' lips sent shivers throughout Ciel's entire body and it quickly became evident that he wouldn't be able to hold out for much longer. Caught in the moment and lost in pleasure, he didn't hesitate when he wrapped his fingers around the blonde's hard cock and began pumping it in time with his thrusts.

"Ngh—FUCK!" Alois practically wailed while clawing at the sheets, and it didn't take long before his breathing became ragged and his body tensed up completely. "I'm gonna come… I'm—a-ahh!" The blonde's shaft throbbed in the younger boy's hand as pearls of white liquid poured out of him, landing on his stomach and chest. Soft whimpers rolled on Alois' vocal cords as he pursed his lips and squeezed his eyes shut as the last blissful sensations went through him.

Ciel thought he had a few more seconds but when Alois reached his peak he squeezed down on Ciel's cock mercilessly to the point where he was seeing stars. He felt his own climax crash over him in mind-blowing waves of intense pleasure and Alois kept tightening and releasing around his impossibly hard cock, milking him of every drop from the inside. Moaning faintly, he rode out his orgasm with weak thrusts before completely collapsing of exhaustion on top of Alois.

They were both panting intensely in the blissful aftershocks of their activities, completely spent and unable to move. The laid like that for a few minutes until their breathing began returning to normal. Alois reached up to pet Ciel's head affectionately before he pressed his lips against his damp and disheveled hair.

"Ciel…" he whispered. "Are you alright?"

There was no answer, and when he tilted his head to look at his face he discovered that the younger boy had fallen asleep against his chest. Alois smiled in adoration and wrapped his arms around Ciel's smaller frame in a tight hug before shaking him slightly by his shoulders. When he didn't respond he used more force but the boy lying on top of him still didn't move a muscle. With an amused smile on his lips he sighed and muttered, "Damn virgins…"