The Abused

Chapter Fourteen

I stared out at the endless blue I was captured by and sighed. It was better then the horrid deteriorating world I had walked across in my dreams the day before. I opened my eyes and looked around. Such a familiar blue. Soothing.

"Sasuke."

I looked back to see Naruto. My eyes widened. "Naruto!" He... He's there! Why is this a dream? Why isn't it real!

He reached his hand towards me smiling. I want him back, I want Naruto back already!

I reached out and grabbed as his hand and he suddenly began to dissolve. I stared in horror at him. "Naruto... Naruto! Don't fucking leave me you son of a bitch!" Tears fell from my eyes. Why? Why! Give him back to me! "NARUTOOO!" I sat up and sat in horror as I stared at the tile floor beneath me. Where am I? I got drunk last night... Then I... I... I looked up, more white. I died? I had been getting drunk and waking up in very odd places a lot recently, even woke up in the woods at one point. I looked over at a bed that had the form of someone looking out the window. My eyes widened. I'm in the hospital and... And. My mouth opened but no words came out. I'm still sleeping...

The form looked at me and smiled. "Oh, you're awake... You were laying there thrashing on the ground... I was kind of worried."

I managed to get off the ground and stepped towards the blonde. "O-Oi... Are... You really, real?" I said reaching towards him then my hand froze. No... I cant... I can't touch him, he'll leave again. I sat on the bed and looked at him. "I'm so glad... You're awake."

He smiled. "Thank you, I am glad to be awake." He scratched his cheek. "I um... Don't want to be... Rude or anything but, who are you?"

My eyes widened. Ah... I see. I looked down. This is how it is, this is proof, we definitely do not belong together. I closed my eyes and smiled. "We're friends but... We fight a lot." I looked at him and smiled. "You remember your name?"

He thought for a moment. "Um..." He thought hard then gave me an unsure look. "Naruto?"

I smiled. "That's right."

He smiled. "Ah, I remember that name because a person kept saying it, whispering it in such a loving voice. I couldn't see their face though. They talked a lot when I was sitting in the darkness. About such silly things." He smiled. "I wish I knew who it was."

I looked away. "Who knows." I lied then stood up. "I'm going to get a doctor." I walked out the door and dialed a phone number and held it to my ear.

"Hello?" A familiar voice said.

I leaned against the wall. "R-Raven... He's... He's awake, he's really..." I began to sob uncontrollably. "Why? Why don't he remember me! What does the world have against me being with him!"

"What? Sasuke? Are you okay? I'm coming over there! J-Just... Don't do anything stupid." Click.

I stared at my blurry phone and whimpered. I'm a wreck. I stuck my foot out purposely tripping a Doctor. I blame these sadist bitches, they could probably help him but they won't! I glared at the man who stood up and looked at me. My eyes widened as I stared at him. Beautiful...

He gasped. "I am so sorry! I didn't hurt you did I, are you crying? Please tell me what's wrong! He looked around frantically. "I-I'm new here so I don't know what I should do!" Suddenly he cupped my cheeks and smiled as he used his thumbs to wipe away my tears. "Can you tell me what is wrong?" He had long medium length brown hair and beautiful purple eyes. Rare and captivating.

I whimpered. "H-he forgot me..." I sputtered before I found myself crying again. "That usuratonkatchi forgot me!"

He blinked. "Usura... Huh? Who?"

I whimpered. "Naruto, I love him so much yet he... He totally forgot about me!" I pushed the man away. "J-just leave me alone..."

"Sasuke!"

I looked over at Raven and Konan who immediately pulled me into her arms. "Oh Sasuke, please don't cry!"

"Naruto Uzumaki, right?"

Raven nodded as he spoke to the doctor. I didn't care enough to even listen. I rubbed my eyes and stood up. "I'm going... Home."

Raven grabbed my arm and dragged me back to Naruto's room.

I pulled at my arm. "Let me go! I-I can't! Don't make me do this!" I stood there staring into confused blue eyes. "Haa, please... Raven... Please... I can't."

Naruto's eyes widened and his hand reached out. "D-don't go!"

I stopped and stared at him, I was shocked with his reaction. I pulled my hand away from Raven and walked over to Naruto's bed.

His eyes widened and he pulled his hand to his chest. "I-I just... It suddenly... Out of nowhere I felt... Abandoned... I..."

I wrapped my arms around him. "It's fine... I'm always... Here, Naruto." I threw it all away, all my emotions went dead, me expressions were gone, I was the empty shell of my former self. I changed so I could carry his pain. He had no memories of anyone. We were all forgotten. This is true proof, memories are... Meaningless. All I have now is empty forgotten memories. Memories I shared with my lover that he had no longer remembered... All... Worthless.

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I laid awake with my back facing the blonde. I tried moving back in with Itachi but he forced me to stay here, and Naruto refused to let me sleep on the couch... What an idiot. I rolled over on my back and looked over at Naruto who sleeping peacefully. I reached my hand out and touched his scarred cheek, causing my heart to quicken. Naruto... This is torture... I sat up and crawled on top of him, I touched his cheek and lightly kissed him licking his lower lip. I clenched my teeth and began to slither my fingers up his shirt... I want more of him... I miss my Naruto. He needs to come back to me...

Beautiful azure irises stared up at me and his pink lips curled into a smile. "Ahh, I'm having that dream again..." He said staring up at me. "It's a bit awkward because I know this dream is slightly twisted, I mean... Two guys together... It's not right, you know? But with you it seems so... Right." He rubbed his eyes. "Nnn... What am I saying...? Why are you stopping?" He turned his head to the side. "I'm... So confused... I don't even know who I am." He looked up at me. "Just who... Am I?"

I sat on his stomach and sighed. "Usuratonkatchi... You're Uzumaki Naruto, your favorite color is orange, your favorite food is ramen, you love playing Halo even though you suck at it and you're a great cook even though you usually make a horrible mess, when you smile you light up an entire room, and you're a goddamn sex addict, that's my opinion anyways." I touched his face. "You're my best friend... Every time my world came crashing down you put it back together with that stupid smile... You're my..." The image of him shattering before me appeared in my mind. "You're essential to my happiness. I... Can't smile when you're sad." I cupped his face and pressed my lips against his. I just want to hold him forever. Is that so wrong? Is that so terribly wrong!

"Nnn... Sasuke... Then what are you to me?" His hand gently reached up and tangled his fingers into my hair. "I mean... These dreams... Where you are in my arms... They feel so real. Are we..."

"Shut up already..." I don't want him to come back to me just because... I want him to come back to me because he is in love with me... Is he even in love with me? I ran my fingers through his hair. "Naruto..." My Naruto...

He reached up and traced the scar above my eye. "This scar it... Makes me really sad for some reason. I keep thinking 'how dare they hurt him'..." His fingers traced my scars, his eyes began to water. "I couldn't save you... It's playing in my mind... Over and over... 'I'm useless I couldn't protect him'. Who did this to you?"

I looked away. "My father did..." I laughed. "It's fine though."

He stared up at me. "How is it fine? You're constantly reminded... Of being beaten."

I glared at him. "Stop talking about it Usuratonkatchi!" I gritted my teeth and looked away as I got off his stomach. "Che, not even worth it you won't shut-" I was suddenly tackled and pinned to the bed. "What are you doing?"

He glared at me. "Fuck off this is my dream! I can do what I want! You- You! TEME!"

I ran my fingers through my hair. This dumb ass still thinks he is asleep? I dug my finger into the bed and tried to get away from him. "Nng! Let me go!"

My eyes widened as he suddenly grabbed my hair. "Ahh! Fucker! That hurts!" I whimpered and tightly clutched the sheets.

He growled. "You're avoiding my question! How the fuck is it fine?" He's... Still the same idiot.

I closed my eyes. "Let me go..."

He let me go and glared at me. "It's not fine." He muttered.

I laid there and buried my face into the sheets. "I can't stand this body okay? I hate it... And yet... You..." I whimpered. He's the only who has seen this horridly scarred body and did not turn away. He looked at me... And told me I... Was beautiful. I closed my eyes. "It's not fine. You're right. I look at myself and remember that I am the stain my father tried to dispose of. I'm a disease."

Suddenly Naruto flipped me over and pinned my hands above my head. "Y-You're not a disease! I think you're beautiful even with those scars!"

My eyes widened and I laughed. "You never change do you? You can't even remember anything, but you're still the same idiot. But you're a liar."

He scoffed. "Shut up, you're a liar, I definitely am telling the truth." He suddenly pressed his lips against mine.

I moaned as his knee went between my legs. "Nnn, stop already."

He laughed. "That's no good Sasuke... Usually you're more violent."

I whimpered. "Haa, pervert... I don't want to know the weird dreams you have about me." I squirmed as he sucked my neck. "Na... Ru... Nn."

"Sasuke! Where is the chip di- Er..." Kiba stood there in shock. "Am I... Interrupting something?" He said dropping a controller, chips, the remote and fudge bar...? He's eating all junk food!

Naruto looked at Kiba confused. "Eh? This dream is getting weird..."

I groaned and punched Naruto then rolled out of the bed. I forgot all about Kiba... Damn dog breath... He is so annoying!

"Teme! That hur-" His eyes widened. "Ah... That. Hurt..." He gasped. "I'm not sleeping?"

I ran my fingers through my hair and looked at Kiba who looked completely confused. I sighed. "He attacked me in his sleep, damn freak." I then walked away leaving Kiba even more confused and an angry Naruto. I covered my eye. "Fuck..." I suddely ran into Raven who looked like... Well there is no nice way to put it, he looked like shit. "What's wrong with you?"

His eye twitched. "That... Damn dog boy made me pull two all-nighters in a fucking row because he wanted to play Halo... I hate Halo now! And I hate dogs!" He sighed and patted me on the head. "What about you... You look pretty rough yourself. Is it because Naruto?"

"Sasuke!"

I sighed. "Hold that thought. It seems he is PMS'ing and I need to run away." I looked back at Naruto who was running down the stairs and strait at me. I jumped over the couch and ran into the kitchen and stood behind the island.

"I'll kill you!"

I stuck out my tongue. "Fuck you, I didn't do shit!" I put my hand on my hip. "I should be mad at you! Molester!"

His face flustered. "T-That's your fault! You should have said something! You fucking bastard!" He pulled his hair. "Come here! I'm going to strangle you!"

I laughed and darted off. "Yeah you want to strangle my dick with your mouth!" I said laughing.

Suddenly Raven grabbed me by the ear and Naruto by the shirt. "Quit running around like you are children! What am I your referee?" He glared at me. "Sasuke. For gods sake you know Naruto is an Idiot! Be more clear with him and Naruto! Sasuke is an asshole! Accept it!"

We both groaned and looked away. This is just like it was back then... Before we were together. I'm fine with things this way... They don't have to move forward anymore... I'm completely fine with this.

I stared at the roof as Naruto and Kiba yelled at each other about who was a better gamer. I sighed. "You both suck."

"Fuck you!" They both sad then went back to yelling at each other.

I closed my eyes and sighed. You're an idiot... My eyes widened and I looked over at Raven who was glaring at me. I let out a faint laugh and put my hand over my eyes. "I know..." I muttered.

"Sasuke!"

I looked at Naruto who was pouting. "Is what Kiba said true?"

I groaned. "What did he say?"

"We're lovers..."

I looked up at the roof. "Do I look like your lover to you, Dobe..."

Kiba growled. "You're such a liar! You two loved each other!"

I held my hand over Kiba's head and slammed my fist down. "Shut up idiot."

Naruto stared at me. "Is it... Really a lie?"

I rolled over on the extremely soft couch facing my back towards him. "Who knows."

Raven suddenly stood up. "Sasuke."

I winced when his voice hit my ears, he is pissed off. "What...?" I muttered weakly. I know what he is going to say. I know what he wants but I don't want it.

He grinned. "Lets put it this way Sasuke... If you don't just be honest, I'll fuck him right in front of you."

My eyes widened and I rolled over.. "Wh-" I fell off the couch and stared up at him. What? I definitely did not expect that!"No way! You wouldn't!" I said as I stared up at him in horror. "H-He's mine!"

Raven looked at Naruto. "Is that clear enough for you or do you want him to say he wants to rape you senseless?" He asked as he put his hand on his hip.

Naruto sat there staring at me wide eyed.

I sat up. "Forget it! You do that so easily anyways!" I clenched my teeth, jumped over the poor abused couch, walked out to the front door and sat down on the patio. Fuck! Stupid Raven! I punched the ground. I don't want him back! But... I can't stand anyone touching him... I just can't take him back... It's obvious we are not suppose to be together. Why can't I accept it though? I cupped my hand over the bite mark. "Naruto..."

"Are you okay?"

My eyes widened and I looked away. "Get away from me."

Naruto sighed. "Raven said you're angry because I forgot you... You know... It wasn't just you I forgot... I forgot everyone that was precious to me." He ran his fingers through his hair. "All I've been thinking since I've woken up is 'how should I act?' I can't remember who I am... I hate this... You don't even know... How scary it was to be lost in that darkness... I kept calling to someone. I-I can't even remember who!" He sighed. "I... Wish I could remember though."

I stared up at the sky. "Hey... When I was talking to you... Could you... Seriously hear me?"

He closed his eyes and smiled. "So that really was you? I heard it... You know... You got issues. Seriously..."

I looked at him and saw he was lighting a cigarette. "Ah, what are you-" He looked at me and shoved the cigarette in my mouth.

He pulled another one out of the pack for himself and lit it. "I supposedly quit... But I don't think I did. I just have a killer urge to smoke." He inhaled and exhaled as he stared up at the sky. He closed his eyes. "Mmm... Bittersweet taste of a shortened lifespan." He laughed.

I inhaled the oh so fucking delicious nicotine. Oh fuck me I love cigarettes, why the hell did I quit? Oh yeah. I looked over at Naruto. "For you." I muttered.

He looked at me as tears fell from his eyes. "Hey Sasuke, I feel like I'm still stuck in a nightmare."

My eyes widened. "W-what are you saying?"

He grabbed a lock of my hair and sighed. "You don't love me anymore?"

My eyes widened. "W-what? Of course I-"

"Then why? Why are you... Pushing me away? Why do you not want me to remember you?" He looked away. "Did I change? Am I no good?"

I put my hand over my face. "It's not anything you did. It's my stupidity... I keep telling myself that you forgetting me... Is proof I should just give up. Every time I have you something rips you from my arms! I-It's not fair! I can't do it anymore. I love you! Love you so much but I can't lose you again! Over and over! It's like I can't be happy! I'm not allowed to be happy! My whole life, beaten, lied to, used, abandoned, unloved and tortured! Tortured because I couldn't be with you!" I took a puff of the cigarette to calm me slightly. I looked down. "I know... I'm being selfish. But, it's for you too... You could always find someone better."

He put out his cigarette and looked at me. "Sasuke..."

I looked over at him. "Wha-" My eyes widened as his lips gently pressed against mine. "Nnn." Tears fell from my eyes. I'm an idiot. I tangled my fingers into his hair. He's still the same... I kept telling myself that. I kept thinking that he wouldn't change... I was... Wrong.

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