JULY 2009
Song: "Hero/Heroine" Boys Like Girls
They were coming. Alice had seen it again. They were coming today.
They knew about Bridgette, my dear sweet Bridgette. But she didn't know anything. I hadn't told her for fear she would be scared and run away. She should be scared though. I was dangerous to her. Even more because I was so close to her. But I could never hurt her.
I looked into her blue eyes. She didn't know they were coming. She didn't even know who they were. I didn't want her to. The more oblivious she was to the whole situation the better at this point.
"Edward?" She rubbed my stomach. "Are you ok? You look really worried?" I was, but I couldn't tell her.
"Nothing darling, its nothing." I leaned closer to her face. "I love you, so much Bridgette." My forehead rested against hers.
I love it when he says my name like that. "I love you too Edward." More than anything, more than life itself. Oh, how I love you. She nestled closer to me. Never leave me.
I pulled her onto my lap. "I will never leave you." I whispered into her ear. She hugged me and I was perfectly content. I wanted nothing more out of life then to be able to hold her for eternity.
Then there was a knock on the door and I was pulled from my happy state with Aro's thoughts.
It will be so nice to see Carlisle again. But if she has even a hint of what we are. It will be a horrible evening. I hope it doesn't… "Carlisle! Dear friend."
"Aro." Carlisle smiled calmly. Aro gazed around the room until his eyes landed on my Bridgette.
Well she is the pretty one Edward. I tightened my arms around Bridgette.
Should he introduce me? She was looking at me, but I didn't want to take my eyes off Aro and the doorway. He never came alone.
He greeted the family. And then came to Bridgette and me.
Edward. She shook her head. He is being so rude. I'll just introduce…
"Bridgette this is Aro." I knew she would shake his hand, she isn't rude. But I didn't want her to touch him. I didn't want him to be able to see into her mind. There was something I found disgusting about him being able to see into her mind.
Can I touch her? Aro questioned. I kept my hold on Bridgette and my gaze on Aro. I have to know what she knows about us. I gave in and he held out his hand for her.
She took it. "It is nice to meet you."
"My pleasure." He said sickly sweet. How I deplored this man.
He sure is holding my hand long enough. She tried to pull it away, but he held for another second. He was watching our first kiss. He smiled and dropped her hand. I stood up and wrapped my arms tightly around her.
She looked at me confused, questioningly. Obsessive much?
I heard the thoughts of Marcus and Caius, Aro's brothers, approaching the house. Then Marcus' stopped. He had smelt her. And he wanted her now. I stood defensively in front of Bridgette and my family took defensive positions as well, not knowing where danger might come from.
"It is just Marcus and Caius." Aro tried to explain. Then Alice had a vision.
"Get Bridgette out of here!" I shouted. Emmett picked her up and was out the back door, Rosalie, Jasper and Alice following quickly behind as Marcus rushed through the door. I tackled him.
Aro and Caius didn't appreciate this.
"He wants her." I said angrily holding Marcus down. Aro touched his brother.
"A singer." Carlisle, Esme and Caius all understood.
Marcus was struggling against me. She was a singer to him, which meant the call of her blood was stronger than almost anyone else's. His thoughts were rushing around how to get a hold of her.
I couldn't hear her or my siblings' thoughts anymore. But Bridgette's scent was all over the house. She had been almost everywhere.
Carlisle was thinking the same thing. Jasper's room.
I held tightly onto Marcus and ran to Jasper's study. The rest followed. He seemed to calm down when we got into the room. Bridgette had never been in here; therefore her scent would at least be minimal. I couldn't smell her at all in here.
I searched for her thoughts. She must be so scared. I couldn't find her thoughts and suddenly felt such a sense of loss and loneliness I never thought I could experience. I let go of Marcus and walked to the window.
She's safe with your brothers and sisters. Carlisle tried to reassure me. But she knows something now. I doubt Emmett ran at any human pace, especially after the way you yelled.
You miss her. It was Esme. I turned around and nodded slightly to her. I wanted to be with her. To tell her everything would be fine. I didn't know how she could be reacting. What if she wanted me? I wasn't there. I needed to hold her.
Marcus was in control of himself again, he was trying to figure out what happened.
"She is a singer to you." Aro told his brother.
"Yes I realize that. Does she know anything?" Did I tip anything off?
"No, when I looked into her thoughts I didn't see anything. She thinks sometimes Edward can almost read her mind. But she has attributed that to how much he loves her." It is almost sweet, seeing the way she feels for him.
"But she might know something now." Caius said his first words of the evening. Emmett running came into his thoughts.
"Well, we will just have to find out." Aro said simply.
"I am not bringing her back here with him." I glared at Marcus.
Edward, please stay calm. We will keep her safe. Carlisle thought.
"True. It might be best if Marcus was not here. Someone might notice if she was gone." Aro answered.
I would notice. I would, I thought. You might as well take me after her. I can't be without her.
Edward, everything will be alright. We won't let you lose her. Esme wrapped an arm around my shoulder. Her touch wasn't as calming as Bridgette's though. I knew she would be safe. But I wanted her. I missed her touch. I needed it to calm down.
"Marcus," Carlisle said calmly. "We have a big wooded area. Once we find out what direction they went with Bridgette you could walk the opposite. I'm sure your brothers could find you when you were done." It was a good idea. Keep him as far away as possible.
Marcus growled. Send me away? We should just keep her away or better yet, let me kill her. She knows something I'm sure.
I growled back at Marcus.
Edward. Carlisle reprimanded me.
"That is probably a good idea Marcus. We need to find out if she has put anything together yet." Aro responded.
Carlisle pulled out his phone and dialed Alice's number. He spoke quickly and quietly to her.
"They went north. If you go about two miles south you should be far enough away to resist." He told Marcus.
"I'll go get them." I jumped out the window and ran. I needed to see Bridgette. She must be so scared. I followed her scent through the woods. Within two minutes I could hear their voices. Then I could see her. She was the last to look in my direction. Her blue eyes brought me to her and I wrapped my arms around her warm body.
He moves really fast just like the rest of them. I wanted to say, actually faster. But I needed to not let her know anything. She couldn't, Aro would let Marcus have his way with her. I squeezed her tighter.
There is something weird. I mean they all moved so quickly. And they are all so pale. Why did I have to leave?
"Edward, what is going on?" She stared into my eyes searching for an answer.
If you tell her, Aro will want to have her killed. Carlisle might try to convince him to just let us change her.
"No!" Everyone gaped at me. Bridgette's heart rate sped up.
"No, what?" She asked so innocently.
Then what are you going to do? Alice asked. I shrugged answering both, but neither liked my answer.
Why were they moving so fast? It was like I was in a car, except Emmett was carrying me. It was so weird.
"I just had to keep you away from those men. I don't like them. They make me uncomfortable."
"Men? I only saw the one."
"Two more were coming. That is why I wanted you to leave."
"Why?" She asked. "What happened?"
"It just wasn't safe for you." I leaned my forehead against hers. "I promised to never let anyone hurt you again. And I never will." She smiled.
"I know." She put her hands to my face. He is always so cold. I thought it was just his hands.
If we go back now, everything will be fine. Aro won't see that she knows much. Try to get her to think about you guys a lot.
I nodded ever so slightly to Alice. "Ok, let's go back to the house." I set the pace, not going faster then mine and Bridgette's normal walk. At this rate it would still take us almost an hour to get there. But I had to keep her mind on us and not let her think about our speed or my lack of body temperature.
Before we walked into the house I looked at Alice questioningly. She closed her eyes and nodded. I let my siblings go in first. Then I looked to Bridgette. I put my hands on her shoulders.
"I love you more than anything Bridgette." I kissed her warm lips softly. Her lips were always so comforting to me. She pressed her body against mine. I loved the heat she left on me. I pulled away, wanting to resume my position as soon as I did.
"I love you too." I couldn't help but let a smile spread across my face. It stayed until I heard the thoughts of our visitors. I pulled Bridgette closer to me.
He really doesn't like these men. He won't let me leave his side. My knight in shining armor.
"Ah Bridgette, you are back with us. This is my brother, Caius, he arrived shortly after you left." Aro greeted.
I thought Edward said there were two other men. Where is the third?
I held her hand in mine, luckily she got the hint.
"It is nice to meet you." She nodded her head. I could still faintly hear Marcus' thoughts. He was just upset that he couldn't be here. Luckily he hadn't smelt her again.
Well we might as well leave. Then I can shake her hand again.
I didn't want him touching her again, but it was necessary. To keep her mind on me, I slid behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist and resting my head on her shoulder. She leaned back into me. She smelt so nice. I closed my eyes and inhaled.
Get a room. Emmett smirked at me.
"It was nice seeing you all. And it was lovely meeting you Bridgette." Aro walked towards us. I kissed her neck and made her giggle. Her mind was flooded with thoughts of me.
"It was nice meeting you too." She stuck out her hand. He only saw us. Then let go.
Well, I guess she doesn't know anything. He shook his head toward his brother.
So, apparently she isn't that smart, even for a human. Caius smirked. I felt a growl begin rumbling in my chest. Bridgette squeezed my hand. She consumed my thoughts. The Volturi were gone and she was safe.
She is going to ask you about Emmett and us running. Alice said. Her and Jasper were the only ones still in the room. And how we are all so cold. She noticed Emmett's body temperature.
I tapped my wrist.
Tonight I think. You guys are wearing the same outfits. You probably want to talk to Carlisle don't you?
I looked up then down quickly.
"Bridgette I have a few new tops. Will you help me find outfits for them?" She danced over to us.
"Of course. You don't mind do you Edward?" She smiled at me, but was already walking up the stairs to Alice's room. Maybe Alice will tell me something.
"Not at all." She blew me a kiss and I sent one back then watched her walk up the rest of the stairs, following slightly behind. I turned away and walked into Carlisle's office.
"Alice said Bridgette is going to ask about Emmett's speed and my coldness." I informed him.
"What are you going to tell her?" I'm not sure myself.
I shrugged. "I'm afraid to tell her." I dropped my eyes. I had never really been afraid before. But when it came to Bridgette, I was afraid she wouldn't like me, she wouldn't like something I said or did and most of all I was afraid she would leave me.
"Why?"
"What if she gets scared? What if she…" I couldn't say it. "If she ever…I love her…so much." I buried my head in my hands.
You are afraid she will leave you? I nodded slowly. If she loves you as much as you love her I doubt that.
"But what if she does?"
"Love isn't easy." I could hear Alice and Bridgette laughing. I can't answer this for you.
"Edward would love this on you!" Alice squealed.
"I love this on me. Of course he would." My love responded. I could see her through Alice's mind. She was stunning.
"He loves you Bridgette. I've never seen him be so happy before."
Edward? I didn't look at Carlisle, only pointed up. He looked and began listening as well.
"I love him too. And more so then anyone else. Even my mom knows. And if my mom ever said anything bad about a guy, it was downhill from there. But even she can't find anything wrong with Edward. He is perfect. I am so lucky." Alice messed with the dress Bridgette was wearing. "I would never leave him." She said quietly.
If that doesn't solve your dilemma, I don't know what will. Even when you flicker between telling her, the wedding is still there. Alice said.
"I believe that answers your last question." Carlisle smirked. It did, but I was still scared. She would never leave me if I was human like she thought.
"So you want to get married to him?" Alice said cheerily.
"Yes, but we haven't even talked about it. We haven't even been together for a year." Bridgette giggled.
"Sooo."
"Ok, fine, I want to get married to him, have children with him, make a life with him, everything." Children? She wanted children. How could I do this to her? She wanted children and I was never going to be able to give that to her.
"Did you hear that?" I asked Carlisle anxiously.
What? What are you talking about? She wants to marry you. Didn't Alice have a vision about that already?
"Children."
Oh.
"What am I doing to her? By me being with her I'm taking her away from humanity. She won't be a mother, she won't have any normal human experiences if I'm with her."
What are you thinking Edward?
"Edward NO!" Alice shouted. She added something about me trying to get in for Bridgette's sake. I guess I had made a decision.
Don't break up with her. You have never been so happy. It would ruin both of you. At least give her a chance to decide.
"She loves you Edward." We just heard her confessing it to Alice.
"But she doesn't know what that entails. I don't want to take anything away from her."
Then don't leave her. That would be like taking everything from her. Alice responded.
What are you going to do? Carlisle asked as I stood up.
"She is my world." I would tell her. I would hope with every fiber that somehow a miracle would happen and she would still be with me. I couldn't be without my beautiful Bridgette. Every muscle tightened at the thought of not being able to hold her again.
My body ached her. I needed her. She completed me. Without her I was nothing. Her heat and her love made me feel human. Something I never thought possible. I was a monster. But with Bridgette I was a man. She did something to me.
I knocked on Alice's door.
"Can I have my girlfriend back now?" Alice sighed and Bridgette came to the door. She hugged my neck and I held her to me. What if this was the last time she would let me do this?
Good choice. Alice thought. She was right. Bridgette was a great choice. She did love me. And I loved her even more. If I could I would give her kids. I would try. I would do anything she wanted. All she had to do was ask. She rubbed her cheek against my chest.
Always so cold. Then she looked up at me. Her blue eyes were shining. I couldn't resist kissing her. Wow. How does he do that? I just go weak at the knees every time he kisses me. I wonder what it does to him. I wanted to say, the same thing. I bet I could make him go weak at the knees. If only he wasn't so old fashioned. I had to stop that train of thought.
"Did you help Alice pick out good outfits?" I asked, not really caring. But I really had to keep her mind off of that. I almost laughed at her silly human hormones.
"Actually we found a great dress for Bridgette!" Alice almost shrieked.
"I wish I could think of something to wear it to though. I don't really do anything fancy enough for it."
Hint, hint Edward. I shot a look at Alice. She just smiled.
"Well, take it anyway Bridgette. You never know when you might need it." Alice winked at me again.
"Do you want to go for a walk?" I knew she wanted to talk to me. I didn't want my family's thoughts interfering with our conversation. It was going to be hard enough.
"It is a nice day…" she looked outside and frowned. "It is always overcast here." If the sun was shining I wouldn't be able to take her outside. In a few days maybe I would. If everything went well. If she didn't run from me screaming when she found out what I was. "But I love walking with you." She smiled at me. I just love being with you. You are amazing. How did I find someone like you?
"Let's go then." I took her hand and led her out the back door. We walked easily in comfortable silence for half a mile. "I don't mind overcast so much."
"What? I love the sun! If I don't get enough sun I have to go tanning. Otherwise my Vitamin D gets too low and I am continuously tired. It's like an addiction." She giggled. Even though tanning is horrible for you. Most things are. Like too much time with Edward. I never know where the time goes. I'm addicted to him too.
Just like I was to her.
Maybe now would be a good time to ask him. We are away from his family. Though they are just like him. Even though they are all adopted they all have that same pale skin and are all so cold. And I'd bet Esme and Carlisle could run as fast as the rest.
I considered bringing it up then. Might as well get the whole mind reading thing in there too. But that might frighten her too much. Her heart beat accelerated. She was going to ask.
"Edward?"
"Yes, my darling."
"I love you more than anything in the world." She stopped walking and gazed into my eyes. Not what I would have thought to say. Something more like 'what the hell are you?' But Bridgette always surprised me.
"I love you too." I stroked her hair. It still shined, despite the absence of the sun.
"No matter what, I will always love you."
"Forever?"
"Forever." And always. I wanted to be with her for ever. I could. All I had to do was ask. Well, explain to her what I was, hope she didn't leave me, and then a simple bite and she could be mine forever and always. I wanted nothing more.
"Why are you so cold? And your family? And how do you all move so fast?" She sputtered out. "I know it's crazy. But I don't know, there is something different about you all. I can't quite put my finger on it."
I didn't know what to say. She had asked a question, but now she seemed lost in thought.
Cold, fast, kind of hard. Not really soft bodies like a normal person. She looked into my eyes. His eyes change color. Gold to black. He smells wonderful. A smile spread on her face.
"You are all perfect. Like there is a reason for it all. And sometimes I swear you know what I'm thinking. And Alice…I think she knows what is going to happen before it does. But that is specific, back to the big picture. You are something different though aren't you?"
"Yes." I said slowly.
"And I think you are strong, well of course you are. But stronger then you let on. Sometimes when you hold me, I feel like you are holding back. Well, more not…I'm not sure how to explain it. You are being really, really gentle with me. Like you are afraid you'll break me." Superman! "I know, you are like Superman."
"I'm not the good guy Bridgette." I averted my gaze. Why did she have to try so hard to figure it out? But she had to know. She wanted to marry me. And she would have to know the truth, every bit of the truth before she could decide to commit her life to a man. I wasn't even that. I was a vampire, a monster. I didn't deserve her.
"Of course you are a good guy." She placed her hand on my cheek, the warmth felt amazing. "You are a great guy. And you are my guy."
"But I'm not the good guy." I said again.
"Oh." What? Not the good guy. So like the villain? "But you are too good for that." I shook my head. Ok, cold, fast, strong, handsome…maybe that has more to do with it. Like he attracts people for a reason. Eyes changing color. What else? Oh, they don't eat. Yet he is so muscular. Mmm. I love his body.
She was so cute when she was thinking. I wanted to laugh, but this was not the right situation for laughter. She was so close to figuring out what I was. I was terrified of what would happen when she found out. Not of what the Volturi would do, I could handle them. But if she knew and left because of it. I couldn't handle that.
But if they don't eat, how do they live. He is a bad guy. So he lives off something normal people don't? Maybe. He has an obsession with my neck and wrists. I love it when he kisses my neck. His cool lips. Mmm. I want to kiss him. Wait. No, figure this out first. She put a finger to her lip and looked at a tree to the side of us.
They don't spend time around anyone else. Well, Carlisle works at the hospital. But the rest keep to themselves. Except me. So fast, strong, good looking for a reason, avoid people, cold, don't eat food. They go hiking and camping a lot when it's nice out. Actually, I've never seen them when it is sunny out. Hmm…does that have something to do with it?
"This is hard." She said laughing a little. Ok, avoid the sun, avoid people, don't eat, fast, strong. Avoid the sun and people. But he is the bad guy. Attracts people, yet avoids them. People! People? She looked at me questioningly. Then her thoughts came so quickly I could hardly keep up. He eats people. That is why we are all so drawn to him. But wait. Does that mean that I am just a…he isn't going…he loves me. Why hasn't he done it yet?
"Bridgette I would never do that to you. Not you. Never. I do love you." I gazed into her eyes. She wasn't scared though. She was shocked, confused.
"Never do what?"
"Hurt you…like that." I couldn't even bring myself to say it. "Never. You are everything to me. If I lost you…at my own hands." I stared at my palms. "I wouldn't be able to live with myself."
"Edward I am confused how would you hurt me?" I didn't say anything, did I? I don't think I was mumbling to myself.
"You weren't."
"What?" She took a step away from me. I felt it coming. She was getting ready to run. I would let her.
"You weren't mumbling to yourself." I couldn't look at her. She was too beautiful it only made it harder.
"Then…how…you can read my mind!" She accused. "For how long? Can the rest of your family do it? Oh crap. You heard." She hit her forehead. I chuckled.
"My family can't. Only I can. And I don't mind your thoughts." I held her cheeks gently. She smiled.
"Is it just me or can you hear everyone?"
"Everyone."
"Oh, so I'm not the only one that gets embarrassed."
"Sometimes it is just as embarrassing for me." She laughed. "Your laugh is intoxicating." I leaned my forehead against hers.
"Your breath is." She pressed her lips against mine. Her hands moved around my neck, one went down my back. My hand tangled itself in her hair and the other pulled her torso closer to mine.
She knew yet she still kissed me. I didn't want to pull away. This moment was so perfect. It is like she accepted me for who I was. Though I had never really admitted who or what I was. I pulled away and she moaned.
"I wasn't done."
"Do you realize what I am?"
"An amazing kisser?" Lover? Sexy god? Sex god I bet. Oh wait you heard that. I laughed as she buried her head in my chest.
I pulled her away, this was serious. "But do you really know what I am?"
"I think the word for it is vampire."
She was so calm about it. I searched her face for some terror.
"You aren't scared?"
"Of you? Ha!" You are such a pushover when it comes to me. Just ask Emmett.
"Bridgette, I'm supposed drink human blood." Did she not understand?
"But not mine."
"No. I actually don't drink human blood."
"But aren't you supposed to?" She kept her arms around me.
"Yes. But I don't want to be what I am."
"So how do you live?"
"Animal blood. We are kind of vegetarians in our…species." That wasn't the best word to describe what we were.
She should be terrified right now. I just told her what I was. I was the bad guy, I drank human blood. Why was she still smiling with her arms wrapped around a murderer?
"We don't want to be what we are. We try to be better then what we have been doomed too. But it is like trying to completely change your instincts, your core." It was easier for me. I had the second most experience. But even I felt weak sometimes.
"Don't change. I like you just the way you are." She pulled herself closer to me.
"I'm a vampire." I looked into her eyes. She would run away any second now.
She sighed. "Edward, are you waiting for me to leave? To scream and go tell the cops?"
"Well, I would think most people would."
"You are too fast you would catch me." She smiled.
"Not funny." I mumbled.
She huffed. "I love you no matter what. And if you drink animal blood, all the better. Then I don't have to cook for you." Though I would have enjoyed doing that. I love cooking.
"I know you do."
"It is going to take a while to get used to that." I wonder if I was right about Alice. Then she looked at me and smiled. Was I? I nodded. Oh my gosh this is so cool. So now I don't have to actually say anything and you will know. We can have almost secret conversations. Because sometimes I think your family was listening in on us.
"They weren't meaning to."
What? "What?"
"Vampires have really good hearing. We can hear almost everything that is going on in the house. And for a few miles around it if we really listen."
"Wait so they hear us wherever we are?"
"That is why I took you out here to talk to you. I didn't think they needed to listen in on our conversation."
"So not only do I have to watch what I think around you, but I have to watch what I say around your family too?" She said exasperatedly. "Geesh!" She threw her hands in the air.
"I guess. Though, most of the time Alice sees what is going to happen and I hear everyone's thoughts, so there aren't many secrets."
She wrapped her arms around my waist and gazed into my eyes. Once again I was drowning in her ocean eyes. We stayed like that for what seemed like hours, just gazing at each other.
"I love you." She said quietly. More than life itself.
"I love you too Bridgette." I kissed her quickly.
"Tell me more about being a vampire." She pulled her phone out of her pocket then sat down. "I have plenty of time." I sat down facing her.
"You aren't scared?"
"No. I know you would never hurt me. You love me too much." She squeezed my hand.
"I do. I love you way too much." She smiled. "I would do anything for you."
Then tell me about being a vampire. How did it happen? When did it happen? How old are you? Oh. Did you hear all that?
I nodded and she giggled.
"Well, I was seventeen when it happened in nineteen-eighteen, born in nineteen-oh-one."
Oh my gosh. I am like three years older than you! You are younger than my brother.
"In vampire years I guess you would say I am a hundred and eight."
"Yeah go with that." She laughed. "So how did it happen? Did it hurt?"
"Well, Carlisle was the first of us. He is the one that decided to only live off of animal blood. He was trying to find someone who would be a friend to him. But most other vampires didn't like his, well, his lifestyle we will say. It was easier for him to live around humans, but they start asking questions when one doesn't age."
"I guess you do still look seventeen." I wish I could stop aging. I don't want to be his grandma. And yes I do want to spend that long with you.
"Me too." I slid closer to her.
"Sorry, go on."
"So he was working as a doctor in Chicago in 1918 when the Spanish influenza hit. My father was the first to go. Then my mother and I was the last. He thought he would try to 'save' me from death. Though…well, he and I have debates about that. We are doing a biography though not philosophizing. So, he changed me. Then Esme came along. And she became his mate. He changed Rosalie next and she was supposed to be for me what Esme was to Carlisle."
What? She is so pretty and you turned her down?
"She is no where near as pretty as you are." She crawled into my lap and kissed my cheek.
I don't believe you, but you can say it all you want.
"You are more gorgeous then any being to walk the planet. No woman has ever gotten my attention like you did."
"What first caught your attention?"
"Your eyes."
Really? "My eyes. Why though? Like I didn't say anything?"
"No, I had listened to your thoughts but it was mostly about class and work and occasionally Derek."
Jerk.
I smiled. "But then, on the second day of class, you turned around to give me that packet of papers and looked me in the eye. I was stuck. Your eyes pulled me in. It's like I was drowning in an ocean, looking into your eyes. Sometimes I still feel like that."
"I remember that day." I thought you smelt nice.
"Yeah, you said something like that. After that I paid attention to your thoughts. I thought about you constantly. Alice had a vision and asked me a bunch of questions about you. But I couldn't answer because I didn't even know you yet. Then she had this other vision…" We had only been together for 8 months. I didn't want to talk about marriage. Was that something you did?
What was the vision about?
"Just another one about you and me." I tried to leave it at that.
No. "Tell me."
"She didn't tell me the details." I looked away trying to avoid her amazing eyes.
"You probably saw it yourself, mind reader." She sat up more and pulled my face toward hers. "Tell me." She stuck her bottom lip out. "Please."
"I am a pushover aren't I?"
I win. "Yes you are honey. That is why I love you. So tell me."
"I thought you would forget."
"No chance. I want to know. Especially since you are avoiding it so much." I wonder if it was embarrassing. Did she see this happening? Did she see us kissing?
"It was a special event she saw." I said trying to be vague.
Special event? Like a dance?
"Kind of."
"Was I wearing a fancy dress?" All her dresses flew through her mind.
"Yes." A gorgeous dress that did not do her justice.
"The dress I tried on today?" She asked excitedly. Oh! He is going to take me out for something fancy. That is why I need a dress.
Suddenly I knew how I would propose to her. But not yet.
"No, not that dress."
"Well, like what kind of event? Were there a lot of people? Were we somewhere public? I need details!"
"I didn't see people. We were actually in the backyard. There were flowers."
Flowers? Why would there be flowers in the backyard? Were they tiger lilies? She stopped her thoughts there and waited for me to answer.
"Yes." I said slowly not sure what she meant.
"How far away can you still hear people's thoughts?"
"Depends on how attuned I am to their thoughts. But only a few miles at most."
"How attuned are you to my thoughts?"
"Very. I could easily find you within a few miles of here, between your thoughts and your heart beat. I know that sound very well too."
What does my heart beat have to do with anything? Oh, yeah the whole blood thing right? "Is that hard for you? To be around me?"
"Not really. When I'm thirsty it is a little harder. But I just think about how much I love you. It is easier then. Using my human emotions prevents the animal instincts from taking over too much."
"Do people ever try to block their thoughts from you?" She asked. She was trying to not think of anything else.
"Yes. Why are you?"
"I just don't want to think of something when I'm around you."
"Why not?" I pulled her closer. But that seemed to just make it easier for her to concentrate on me.
"Well, you didn't tell me about Alice's vision. So I'm not going to tell you something." Look at Edward. Focus on him. His eyes. Very golden today. So sexy. He is so sexy. God, I wish he wasn't so old fashioned. We haven't even used tongue. Well maybe after…No stop. Not thinking about that. Edward. Trees. Pretty trees. She tilted her head back and looked up, exposing her throat. I could see her pulse beating through her veins. I ran my fingers along her neck and moved my face closer to kiss it. But she quickly snapped her head back and pulled my hand away.
"You can't do that."
"Why not?"
"Because the thought that makes me think of leads to the thing I don't want to think of around you." Alice will probably help me block his thoughts.
"I'm sure she will." I leaned into her neck again and kissed it softly. She sighed. "Please tell me what you are thinking of."
Birds; robins, sea hawks, terns, I think those are birds. They are in crosswords. I haven't done a crossword in a while. Next time I have lunch with Julie I will bring a crossword.
"Your thoughts are too forced. I know you are hiding something."
She just smiled. "I'll get better at it."
"But I don't want you too." I kissed her neck again. I loved the warmth her body had. I kissed her collarbone then pressed my cheek to her chest.
"You like my heart beat?"
"Yes, it is like music." She stroked my other cheek with her hand.
"So you don't mind touching like this?" I wonder if I am really hot to him. He is so cold to me.
"Not at all. I love your warmth, you have no idea how good it feels against my skin." An image of me topless flashed in her mind.
"Sorry." Her jaw clenched.
"It's ok." She laid her head against mine.
"You are just too attractive. And I apparently have an over active imagination."
"I don't mind." She sighed.
Maybe his limitations on our physical relationship are because he is afraid of something?
"Very afraid."
"Of what though?" She pulled my head away from her chest and looked into my eyes.
"You are so fragile to me. I have to be so careful. And if I lost any kind of control around you…I don't want to ever hurt you."
"But how would you hurt me?" I mean, it is supposed to feel good. And granted his hands already feel amazing whatever they do to me. But I am only human.
"I might grab your arm too hard and leave a bruise. Or I might get too wrapped up in a moment and lose control…I don't know. But I have to be careful. And if I lost control of my mind at all. I don't want to think about what would happen then."
She tried to picture it. She saw me on top of her, my lips against her neck and then I opened my mouth and my teeth began to sink into her throat.
"Stop picturing it!" I didn't want to think about it. I would never do that to her.
"What?" Kissing you? That is all I was picturing. She thought it again.
"That isn't what I saw." I looked around the forest and smelt the air. Then let out a breath of relief. "Alice?"
Alice and Jasper appeared out of the woods.
"Hey." She said happily. Sorry, Jasper wanted to go hunting. We were trying to find you guys to avoid you. I just had the vision. Sorry.
"Hi. It is a nice day to spend in the woods isn't it?" Bridgette said.
"We didn't mean to intrude." Jasper said, keeping his distance from Bridgette. He was thirsty and didn't want to push himself.
"It's fine." Bridgette said. I heard a small noise come from her stomach.
"You are hungry." I said looking at Bridgette.
"Just a little." She admitted. "Where did Alice and Jasper go?" She looked around the forest. "Oh. They were hungry too right?" She giggled at herself.
"I guess you can think of it that way." Her stomach growled more. "Really hungry."
She laughed. "Yes. We've been out here awhile."
"We can get back faster." I grinned.
How?
"Can I show you my preferred way of travelling?" I reached out for her hand.
"Sure." She said slowly. My smile spread. I grabbed her hand and pulled her onto my back.
"Hold on." I took off running. Within five minutes we were back at the house. I stopped and unwrapped her arms around my neck. "How was that?"
Her mind was blank and she just stared at me. Did I scare her? I held on to her to make sure she didn't fall.
"That was fun." She said as a smile came to her face making her eyes glow. I kissed her gently. She put her hand on the back of my head to hold me in place. I couldn't resist. This time she was really accepting me. She leaned into my body. I moved my lips to her cheek then down her neck. She sighed. Oh Edward. Her hands tangled into my hair and pulled my face back to hers. She kissed me again, nibbling on my bottom lip. My arms tightened around her back. It was so hard to resist her. She pulled away slightly and said softly, "Edward." I couldn't take it anymore. I gently pushed her away, putting very little space between our bodies.
"You tempt me too much." Her eyes were smoldering.
I want you so much though. She ran her hands along my chest and stomach. Your body is so amazing. And the way you kiss. Wow. Wait. Am I ever going to get to have sex with you? I know right now isn't the right time and all. But seriously. It has been eight months. We are both, well; technically we are both consenting adults.
"You are too breakable." I whispered in her ear.
How do I become unbreakable?
"You won't." I said abruptly, thinking of Alice's vision.
She thought of it too. But I would not take away her life. She would not become like me. I refused to let that happen to my wonderful Bridgette.
"No. It isn't happening." I said with finality.
Is that what you saw in the forest? When you yelled so loudly?
"Yes. Alice saw it."
"Hmmm." She thought of it again.
"No, Bridgette. No."
"But if Alice saw it…"
"Doesn't mean it is going to happen."
"Usually does." Emmett chimed in walking outside. "What are we talking about?"
"Nothing. It is not a discussion." I looked at Bridgette with the last phrase. She took a step away from me.
"You're right. Alice saw it." She said confidently. She was so sexy when she was confident. I couldn't stop the low growl in my throat. She giggled understanding and moved closer to me.
"Gah. I'm hunting." Emmett took off. Oops. I hope she understood. Does she Edward?
"Yes."
See you love birds later than.
"Come on lets get you some food." I led her into the kitchen. "What do you want?" I had become extremely practiced in the kitchen despite my lack of appetite for anything in there.
"Whatcha got?" She looked at me as I opened the fridge.
She pulled out a ready made sandwich and stared at it. Did someone make this? Because wouldn't I be the only one who ate something like this?
I made Bridgette a sandwich, Edward. It is in the fridge. Esme thought.
"Esme did."
"Oh, where is she?"
"Upstairs."
I'll just go tell her thanks. She started moving.
"Just say it. She will hear."
"Thank you Esme." She sang.
"She said you are more than welcome." We sat at the table and Bridgette ate a couple bites.
"I totally thought you were eating all this time. How did you avoid it? You cooked and ate with me all the time."
"I'm quick, remember?" I smirked.
She rolled her eyes and took another bite of her sandwich.
"So, about me becoming a vampire." I was about to say no for the millionth time when Rosalie walked in.
"I bet you would be a cute vampire, almost as cute as me." Alice said you told her and she was ok with it. Is she? I nodded.
"I don't think anyone is as gorgeous as you are Rosalie." Rosalie beamed and walked outside. Only vain thoughts were ever in her mind anyway. And Emmett.
"You are." I reached across the table and held Bridgette's hand.
"I heard that." Rosalie said loud enough for Bridgette to hear. I moved swiftly over to Bridgette's side and whispered so only she heard,
"You are more gorgeous then any woman I have ever seen." I kissed her cheek and she smiled.
"Thank you." I pulled her onto my lap and tucked her head under my chin. "I bet being a vampire is pretty cool." I mean you're fast, strong, good looking, never die. I can't wait to be one. She sighed in happiness.
"You aren't going to be."
"Whatever you say honey."
"How are you okay with this?" I pulled her body away from mine to look into her face.
"With what?"
"With me being a vampire. A horrible monster that sucks human blood."
"You don't though." She looked so calm.
"It would be so easy for me to right now. I am fast and strong. All my abilities are to keep you right here so I can plunge my teeth into your throat." I leaned my head to her neck.
"You wouldn't." I know you wouldn't.
"Aren't you scared I might?"
"You love me. You tell me everyday how much you do. I trust you. You would never hurt me." Am I wrong?
"No. I never would. I would be miserable without you."
She smiled. "Exactly." Her arms rested on my shoulders. "So, my vampire boyfriend, what shall we do tonight?" Shall we head to your bedroom, I want to show you just how much I love you.
"Bridgette." I warned. "That only makes it harder."
Her smile fell. "I'm sorry."
"Don't be." I missed her smile. I needed back on her face. "I love you. I enjoy everything we do. I just can't do all that you want to." I kissed her ardently to prove it. She wrapped her hands around my neck and pulled her body closer to mine. I moved us to the couch then pulled my mouth slightly from hers. "Would you like to watch a movie?"
"Not yet." She pressed her lips back to mine. We eventually put a movie in, though neither we really paying attention.
Oh geesh. I fell asleep. What time is it?
"Eight in the morning."
"Really? Dang." Does he ever sleep?
"No."
"I forgot you can do that." She giggled still a little groggy. "But you guys really don't sleep?" She sat up slightly, looking at me.
"No. It is kind of annoying sometimes, especially in class."
"I know the feeling." I thought we were on the couch downstairs.
"I moved us up here once you fell asleep."
"Ahh." She kissed me quickly and went to pull away but I held her head with my hand. I needed more. It was just reassurance that she accepted me. Ooh. Edward. She molded her body to mine. I moved my lips to her jaw. "Edward." She whispered. I loved how she said my name. She pulled my head back up and kissed me more urgently.
She moved her body on top of me. Her heat was smothering me, but I rejoiced in every bit of it. Her lips travelled to my neck leaving my breath ragged and my throat slightly burning. She would kill me one day.
"I love you." She murmured against my throat. The vibrations added to the fire in my stomach. I trailed my hands down her back causing her to shiver slightly. I stopped at her hips and rubbed my thumbs against her hip bones. She sighed and shifted her lips to my ear. Tell me if this is too much. But I wanted more. I tightened my grip on her hips, ready to push her away. She was testing my limits but I loved it.
She ran her teeth along my ear lobe, my breathing stuttered. Then she gently bit down. I wanted her, I wanted her body, I wanted her blood all in the same second. My body tightened and she froze. I took a slow, deep breath and pushed the monster that wanted her blood away. She quickly kissed my cheek then laid her head on my chest trying to slow her breathing.
Should I move?
"No." There was only a slight warming sensation in my throat. I could handle this. I gently wrapped my arms around her and continued my slow deliberate breathing.
She pulled her head up, "I'm sorry."
I could only smile at her. What did she have to be sorry for? I was the one who couldn't handle what she wanted.
"You are fine." I rubbed her cheek with my thumb. "You did nothing wrong. We just found a boundary." She pushed some hair from my face.
So handsome. There was a little smile on her face. I kissed her forehead and her smile grew.
"So beautiful."
I hadn't hunted in a while. I would have to today if I was going to spend much more time with her. Her pulse was already becoming more apparent.
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