A/N:Don't own Twilight but I so wish I did because if I then I would be doing really wouldn't I? Sorry about the delay in updating holidays and then well lots of real life getting in the way. Spent december depressed but im better now. Bella put her self on the line last chapter lets see what happens shall we...Now turn the page. ;)

Chapter 14 Rising through the Ashes.

BPOV

I am such a coward, a big fucking coward. I ran from the club and hid in the basement of the house Rose built for me so that no one would know I was here. I kept my cell off, much to Lance's disappoinment and informed Ana and Rob to tell anyone looking for me they had no idea where I was, well everyone but Lance.I made him promise the same thing. See I'm a coward.

"Bella, dear, can we talk for a few minutes?" Ana asked as she walked into the room with a tray of food.

"Sure. What's up?" I asked as I looked up from the book I was reading.

"Well, Love, Its you. You're running away from love. How long do you think youcan hide from it? It will find you, whether you want it to or not."

"Ana," I sighed, "I konw, I guess I'm scared. I love Edward so much, but I had prepared myself to let him marry Angela but now I'm not so sure what to do. Angela broke off their engagement."

"Well isn't that what you wanted?"

"I came back to make sure everyone was ok. I came here thinking Edward had died. I was shocked to find out he was very much alive. Before you say anything I seriously thought I was hallucinating when I seen him with Alice and Jasper at my New Years show. Then to realize he hardly remembered me let alone the things we shared was overwhelming. Now my heart doesn't know what to feel."

"No offense, but this isn't the Bella I know and love. The Bella I know would go after what she wants no matter what. This Bella..." she said waving her hands at me like I was a prize in a game show, "I don't know her. My Bella would never hide."

"I don't know who I am anymore. This has shaken me. What do I do Ana?"

"Maybe talk to Dr. Vullen next door. He might be able to explain Edward's condition to you and help you see his side. Once you know maybe you can decide what to do. I konw you love him or you wouldn't have cast his doppleganger in that video of yours. Bella, dear, just open your heart back up. You have kept it closed for so long. Just open up dear let someone else in. Let Edward and the gang back in. You deserve to be happy. You've been miserable for so long. Let Charlie and Renee in, they are a part of you that you need to know." She said as she hugged me tight. "Don't be mad at me for speaking my mind but I have seen you mope way too long."

"I could never be mad at you Ana."

I sat there staring at the tv screen lost in thought. I decided I would call Dr. Cullen before I came out of my self imposed isolation. I looked at the clock to check the time. Damn Midnight. The day has so slipped away.

-TFL-

"Hello Dr. Cullen speaking."

"Hi Dr. Cullen. It's Bella, Bella Swan. How are you today? Do you have time to talk to me for a few minutes?" I rushed out without breathing.

"Breathe Bella. I was beginning to wonder if you were going to call at all."

"Huh?" smooth Bella.

"I heard you were back in town. I hoped to hear from you sooner. I'm just glad you actually called."

"Oh..Ok. Anyways if I'm bothering you I'll call back another time." See my coward is showing herself again.

"No no you are fine. I'm assuming you want to talk about Edward?"

"Yes. Why can he remember everything but our time together? I don't understand that."

"It's a lot to take in I'm sure. I understand you believed he was deceased from the time you left til you returned?"

"Yes."

"I'm sorry about that. If we had a way to contact you we would have. Anyways, back to Edward and his condition. Everyone's body handles things differently than the next person. You handled your issues with nightmares, drugs and alcohol. Edwards body chose amnesia. Selective Amnesia to be more exact. He forgot everything related to the pain. Since you've came back, he's remembering and healing a little faster than before. Emmett is healing too. He reaaly doesn't blame you. He just doesn't want to realize that it wasn't anyone's fault Edward got shot. If anything it was his persistence Edward wear the vest that saved Edward's life. Does that answer your questions?"

"Yes sir, it does...I...Thank you ."

"Please Bella call me are family dear. Esme and I can't wait to see you again."

"Thank you Carlisle." I hung up and just sat at the bar in the kitchen. I had finally ventured upstairs for the first time in the month since I had ran of f the stage and out of the club. The doorbell rang and I ran and hid where I could still hear as Ana answered the door. See coward has reappeared. It was just a delivery guy.

"Bella, you have a package. It's from Edward."

"What is it?"

"I don't know. Come open it."

I came and took the box from Ana and sat it on the bar. The box wasn't very big and was very light. I pulled off the tapeand pulled back the flaps. I removed the tissue paper packing and revealed a small book. There was a note taped to the cover of the book.

Dearest Bella

I read this book recently and was blown away at how much the heroine of the story reminded me of you. The girl faced her demons head on and won despite the odds she never gave up. No matter what was in her way, she never gave up. I hope you will open your heart to me, I know we both have some healing to do so let's help each other heal. On the back page I have taped a surprise for you. I found it in my laptops memory. I can't believe I couldn't see then what I see now. Just don't look until you read the story maybe then you will understand. The song you sang was incredible and very haunting. Someone recorded your performance and placed it on youtube. Almost everyone commented on how they could feel your pain and heartbreak. I miss you Bella and I can honestly say I miss us. I've started to remember more and more of us everyday.

Love Always:

Edward

The book 'Facing Demons' was staring back at me and believe me I was tempted to turn to the back page and see what he was talking about but didn't. I grabbed a soda out of the fridge and picked up the book. I walked over to the sofa and started to read. I was still reading several hours later when Ana brought me a sandwich and tea for lunch. I was reading the last page when she brought me dinner.

"This is a really good book, Ana. Josie faced her parents murderer, a back stabbing best friend and a psychopathic ex boyfriend and didn't let it stop her from finding true love with the detective that helped her through the whole ordeal. Wait what's this?"

I turned the very last page in the book and there staring back at me was a picture someone had taken of Edward and I back in LA. We were sitting side by side just staring at each other but I could see the love in his eyes mirrored in my own. On the back he simply wrote 'Can you see it?'

Tears filled my eyes as I looked at Ana. "Well, I know what I need to do."

"About time love. It's about time."

"What is today?"

"Wednesday."

"Well then I have an appointment with Dr. Cullen tomorrow. Better get cleaned up." I said as I winked at her.

I finished dinner and helped Ana clean up the dishes. I showered and shaved all vital parts and managed to fall asleep around midnight. I awoke around 8 feeling refreshed and energized for the first time in years. I kept myself busy by heading to the workout room until around ten. I took a shower and dressed in my ripped skinny jeans, blue destructed t-shirt and knee high converse tennis shoes, threw on my black pea coat, grabbed my phone, license and credit card and stuck them in my back pocket. I grabbed my keys and headed out.

"Hi welcome to Cullen Family Practice. How may I help you?" The blonde bimbo behind the counter said between chomps on her chewing gum. I swear this chick is half cow.

"I need to speak to Dr. Cullen please."

"Dr. Edward or Dr. Carlisle?"

"Edward, please?"

"Do you have an appointment?" she asked as she studied her nails.

"No this is important."

"You'll have to make an appointment. We have next friday at three thirty. Is that good for you?" Oh hell no she didn't just go there. I swear the bitch smirked at me.

"I really need to talk to him now. This is personal and important."

"I'm sure, but he's booked up til next friday."

"What's your name?"

"Lauren Johnson."

"Well Lauren if you want to tick me off keep it up, but if you want to make me go away go and get Edward."

"I don't take kindly to threats ma'am." She practically yelled giving me the bitch brow.

I was almost over the counter and ripping her hair out by the ratty excuse for a dye job pony tail when I heard Carlisle.

"Bella, dear, what do I owe the pleasure?"

"I came to talk to Edward but super bitch here kept putting me off til next friday. That's just not a good idea if you get my drift."

"No, I don't think it is. Come with me. Lauren I will deal with you later." I could tell by the look on his face that she was in trouble. She could too. "This is Edward's office. He's in with his last patient til after lunch now. He will come straight here. I'm going to let this be a surprise to him. Now to deal with a soon to be ex-employee. You never talk to family the way she talked to you. I heard the last part. I just wanted to make sure it was you." He hugged me and left me to wait for Edward. Twenty minutes later I heard Edward outside the door.

"Thanks dad. I'll see you at two." he said as the door knob turned. I rose from the chair I had been sitting in and straightened my shirt.

"Hello Edward."

"Bella!"