I felt like my old self again. I wasn't wearing the same clothes or acting the same way. I never showed any cleavage or a lot of skin. I usually wore t-shirts and jeans and now that it was still winter I was wearing a lot of coats. Life seemed easier now that Amber was gone, I could openly flirt with Sirius if I wanted to. But I didn't, I mean occasionally we would flirt and joke around but nothing major. I liked him, I liked him a lot. I just didn't want him knowing that. We had played another school and we were kicking butt. At Quidditch practice the coach was working with Derek and James leaving me to talk to Sirius freely. We were both sitting on the grass playing with the blades.
"Ash?" He said.
"Hmm?" I said trying to blow between two pieces of grass. Drew knew how to do it right to make it whistle, I just never learned and I hated that he could do something that I couldn't.
"Are you going to the Easter ball?" He asked me. I shrugged still playing with the grass.
"Haven't really thought about it." I said finally giving up on my sorry attempt of making noise. He was watching me; he had a small twinkle in his eye that made him look cute.
"Would you go with me?" He asked after what seemed like a long silence. I knew that's where this was leading.
"Sure." I shrugged trying not to look too happy.
"Don't jump up too fast now." He said laughing.
"Black! Hewitt! Get over here!" The coach yelled. We ran over there with our brooms and practice for us was starting. While I was trying to play I kept looking toward Sirius. I was happy that I was going out with him but I didn't want him to expect for me to kiss him. I couldn't kiss him or anyone just yet, I wasn't ready. The coach pushed us long and hard, it hurt just to walk. In the common room we all just collapsed on the nearest couch. I was sitting halfway on Sirius' lap and leaning on Drew.
"I'm tired." I stated, rubbing my eyes and groaning. They just nodded.
"Man, she wore you guys out." Lily said sitting next to James. They made such a cute couple. I was glad that they were finally together. This year was just weird; it was unusual for neither Drew nor me to be single. In our old school we were the playboys there. I looked at Sirius, I had always imagined him as the playboy type. I wonder how long Stacy had her claws in him. How long has it been since he was even allowed to look at another girl?
"Hey Sirius?" I said. Everyone had left the common room except us.
"Yeah?" He said without opening his eyes.
"How long did Stacy blackmail you into being her boyfriend?" I asked him.
"Since the end of last year." He said opening his eyes looking at me.
"And let me guess, before that you were the playboy of the school?" I asked him. He smiled and looked down.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that." He said.
"How many girls have you gone out with?" I asked him.
"I don't know." He shrugged.
"Ball park it." I said. He looked at me with confusion.
"Give an estimate." I said in non-American terms.
"I would say almost every girl in our year, 6th year and a few 7th and 4th years too." He said. When he saw the look on my face he held up his hands.
"Hey you asked." He said innocently
"I didn't think it would be that much." I said rolling my eyes.
"How about you?" He asked me.
"Probably about the same." I said.
"You're kidding me right?" He said.
"No, i'm not. What its ok for you to have that many but not me?" I said challengingly.
"Well, yeah… I mean it's just not normal to meet someone who has…." He couldn't finish. I was getting so mad at him for even thinking that way.
"You mean someone who is like you? If i'm a whore then you're a whore." I said.
"I didn't say you were a whore, I just said that it wasn't normal for a girl to…" He stopped.
"Screw you Sirius." I said leaving him there with his mouth open. I hated when people thought that way. It was ok for guys to go out with tons and tons of girls but far be it that a girl goes out with more than one or two guys. Guys would be considered cool while girls were considered easy and sluts. God, what a hypocrite! I thought as I slammed the dorm door waking almost everyone up.
Sirius' POV
"You're kidding me right?" I said. That was a little weird. I usually didn't meet a girl who had gone out with as many guys as I have girls.
"No, i'm not. What its ok for you to have that many but not me?" she said challenging me. I had to say something but I didn't know how to form it in words.
"Well, yeah… I mean it's just not normal to meet someone who has…." I couldn't finish. I was so screwed just for opening my mouth. Why did she have to bring this up. Not many girls like the idea that I have been around the block and back a few times.
"Someone who is like you? If I'm a whore then you're a whore." She said. I didn't know what to say. I didn't think she was a whore, that's for sure. I thought she was the most stunning person I have ever met.
"I didn't say you were a whore, I just said that it wasn't normal for a girl to…" I stopped. I should have just shut up and not said anything! I'm so stupid.
"Screw you Sirius." She said leaving me there with my mouth open. Great, just great. The one girl I actually have real feelings for is now mad at me and probably hates my guts. Although I would hate my guts too. But I didn't call her a whore she was putting words into my mouth. I hated when people did that and she was doing just that. Maybe she wasn't as perfect as I thought.
I got up and walked to my dorm, I was so tired I could probably sleep for weeks. And it felt like I had when I woke up in mid afternoon. Oh, man I must have missed my classes, I thought until I realized that it was Saturday and I didn't have any. When I finally decided to get up and get dressed so did James who looked just as bad as I felt.
"Come on Prongs, I'm hungry." I said pulling him away form his bed. We entered the common room and I caught sight of Ashleigh, I wanted to apologize to her for last night.
"Ash, wait!" I yelled before she left the common room. She turned and glared at me.
"What?" She asked. It sounded like she was shooting venom at me.
"I wanted to say I was sorry about last night." I said.
Ashleigh's POV
He was saying sorry to me, and I knew that I should be the one apologizing because I blew it all out of proportion. But I still felt as if I was right for saying that I did. He was being a hypocrite and that just pissed me off. James slipped past us and grabbed Lily before I could say anything. Even though I was mad at him I felt as if I was partially responsible because I had asked and started this whole thing.
"No, don't. Its my fault…" I said.
"No, I shouldn't have said what I did. I was think…."
"No, I started the whole…"
"God, would you let me apologize? I'm trying to be a gentleman." He said getting irritated. I could tell he was getting mad but I was just trying to clear things up.
"I was just trying to tell you that…." I started.
"I can't even say i'm sorry. This is crazy." He said shaking his head.
"What ever happened to that instant chemistry we had?" I asked because it was all gone. Ever since he told me that he wanted to break things off with me when Amber was still around, all we did was fight about stupid things. About Quidditch, classes, charms, everything.
"I don't know. Maybe it's not such a good idea going to the ball with each other. We'll probably fight all night anyway." He said running his hand through his hair.
"You're so right. I'll see you." I said leaving him. I still liked him but I didn't want to admit it to him. He was probably just going to make me one of his conquests. Go after me, use me and then move on to the next person. And I didn't want to do that anymore, I couldn't do that anymore. I needed to find someone who would or could fall in love with me. At lunch I didn't eat much because I was feeling sick, I wanted to throw up but nothing was coming up.
"Are feeling alright?" Remus asked me. I looked up and smiled.
"Yeah, I think I'm coming down with the flu though." I said pushing my sausage around in a circle on my plate.
"Are you sure its not because of…." But he couldn't finish that sentence because the urge to throw up was too strong. I got up and ran out of the hall with my hand over my mouth. I couldn't make it to the nearest bathroom if I wanted to. I ended up throwing up in the hall instead. Drew was right behind me rubbing my back.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I think I have the flu." I said sniffling.
"I'll take you to the hospital wing." He said, I shook my head no. all I wanted to do was lay in my bed and rest.
"No, I just want to rest." I said. He understood so he helped me up and escorted me to the dorms. He led me up to his though.
"I want to be able to keep an eye on you. And since those stupid stairs leading to your dorm are going to prevent that. You can sleep in my bed." He said. I shrugged, I didn't care. I just wanted to fall asleep, get away from these cramps. I placed my head on his pillow an instantly fell asleep.
The living room was bare and I didn't know why everything was gone. Mom had prided herself on the furniture she picked out. She was an interior designer. Was she redecorating? I heard the slam of the front screen and two kids ran in. A small girl with bright green hair and brown eyes was running from a boy who had black hair and blue eyes.
"You can't catch me!" She yelled jumping up and levitating into the air.
"I can too!" The boy yelled jumping up too, he tapped her and lowered himself back to the ground. He ran back out of the house and the girl chased him.
"You guys, what have I told you about levitating in the house?" A familiar voice said coming from the kitchen. I felt myself being drawn there and inside was mom, dad, and a few other people. One of the people around the table was Dumbledore.
"I hoped I would never see the day when the Order would have to assemble." I heard my father say to Dumbledore.
"So did I, its not urgent now, the minister isn't even concerned about it right now. He just passed the job to us. We have to find out who is killing all these muggles. Pender thinks it's a new terrorist group." Dumbledore said. He looked exactly the same.
"Mommmmmmmmy!" My little voice rang out from the front yard. I remembered everything now, this was when Drew broke his arm and our mom decided to fix it the muggle way to teach a lesson about levitating. We never did levitate again, we forgot all about that particular power. And what was this thing that my dad called the Order. A secret society maybe. I knew that my dad had grown up in England and he came here to go to muggle college and that was where he met my mom. They fell in love instantly he said. The chemistry was too strong to ignore.
I was jerked awake suddenly. Drew was standing in front of me trying to wake me up.
"What?" I asked groggily.
"You were talking in your sleep. You yelled mommy. Woke up everyone here." He said feeling my forehead. I hated when people did that, its not like they know my eact temperature.
"Oh yeah, I was having a bit of a dream" I said, I looked around and all 4 boys were standing around the bed, Drew was stepping on what looked like a sleeping bag. He was sleeping on the floor letting me sleep in his bed.
"The one where I broke my arm?" He asked.
"How did you know?" I asked him. This freaky twin thing happened often but it always caught me by surprise.
"I dreamed it too." He said quietly.
"I want to go to my room, or at least the common room. I don't want to be here." I said looking up at all the faces.
"ok." Drew said and I left the room, once we were in to common room I turned to look at him.
"Did you see Dumbledore?" I asked.
"Yeah. And what is this Order thing?" He asked me. I shrugged, I had no idea what it was.
"Why did that memory seem to come up. We weren't even near the kitchen in that memory. Are we just seeing the past or something?" I asked him.
"I don't know but its weird. Maybe we should get some sleep. Talk about it in the morning." He said. I realized that I had slept all afternoon and almost all night.
"OK, goodnight." I said going to bed, though I had tons of sleep already I was tired.