Edited as of 8/11/16 (I've basically rewritten this entire chapter. Hopefully I've made it better.)

*WARNING* Mature themes ahead!

FOURTEEN

~Deviant Desires~

Bryan watched as a fellow officer empty the locker. It belonged to his old partner. Its contents were to be returned to her family. Perfume, various books, a few shirts, a blouse, make-up, a mirror… That was all that remained. All of it tucked away inside a little box. Her body was already flown back to the States and was being prepared for the burial. Sadly, he won't be able to attend the funeral. Lei wouldn't allow it. But, in all honesty, he wasn't sure if he wanted to go. He never met them, but the thought of facing her family made him uncomfortable. Especially since he blamed himself for her death.

The officer shut the locker and quickly wrapped the box with packaging tape. He picked it up and gave Bryan a nod before he left. Bryan sighed wearily as he leaned against the wall across from the row of lockers. His eyes felt heavy and dry. He haven't slept for days. He couldn't. Nightmares haunt him of that fateful day his partner drew her last breath. But somehow, a small part of him still couldn't believe that she is gone.

He slowly walked towards the locker. He placed his hand on the door. He hesitated before opening it. He wondered if it would be better to leave it close and pretend her things were still there. He thought about it, but quickly shook his head in defiance. It was wrong to do that… Even worse… it was weak. He couldn't walk around and believe everything is fine; to believe she is still there. He had to face the truth.

He quickly opened the door and when he did, he was greeted with her scent. Her essence still lingered, but it will eventually dissipate and fade away. A wave of sorrow course throughout his body as he peered into the empty and barren locker. Soon he will have nothing… nothing to remember her by.

He sighed as he passed a hand through his hair. He was about to close the door, but stopped when something caught his eye. There was something resting at the bottom of the locker. His eyes widened when he realized what it was. He bent down and picked up a bright, red ribbon. It belonged to her. He looked at it wantonly as his thumb caressed its silky texture. Fond memories quickly came to mind. Ever since the day they met, she had used that ribbon to tie her raven hair into a ponytail.

He wished he had one more chance… One more chance to see her again, but he can't. That realization infuriated him. He growled and gritted his teeth as he repeatedly punched the locker next to him; unleashing his anger. He punched until his hand was bloody. His blows left dents on the frail, metal door. It angered him knowing that her killer is still lurking around somewhere. He secretly vowed to get vengeance. He will find the bastard and kill him.

Bryan breathed heavily as his eyes quickly opened. He silently cursed when he realized he was dreaming about the past again. He thought it was strange. It seem like he is revisiting these old memories more frequently. It was odd, but knew the reason why.

He turned to look at Nina. She was still asleep with her head resting against his wounded shoulder. Her eyes, her lips, her nose… He thought they looked similar except that Nina was a blonde. What was more disturbing is that their personalities were near identical.

Bryan breathed solemnly as his fingers anxiously drummed against his thigh. After years of wanting to forget, those distant and foreign emotions were resurfacing again. He began to question fate.

What are odds of meeting someone almost exactly like her? Was he cursed to face his past or was this a blessing in disguise? He wondered, but had no answer. It seemed as though that dream he had was a prophetic one. It was as if he was standing in front of that locker all over again. He quietly wondered if he should he just pretend or should he face reality?

Nina stirred from her sleep and yawned as she slowly sat up. She noticed Bryan was looking at her. His expression was… different. He looked somewhat somber, but there was something else. Something that made her heart race.

"Are you…alright?" She said uneasily.

He looked away, but said nothing. She could tell something was troubling him. He seemed conflicted. She had to admit that she kind of felt the same way.

At first she felt very repulsed by him. He didn't fit the mold of what she thought good man should look or behave like. But over time, she began to care about him and she secretly enjoyed his company. Despite the few bumps in the beginning, she thought it was amazing how well they got along. As much as she wanted to deny it, she was beginning to believe her feelings went beyond mutual camaraderie. The thought both worried and excited her.

"I'm fine." Bryan muttered quietly as he opened a bottle of water and took a sip.

"Oh." She mumbled. She knew he was lying and was disappointed by his answer.

Not wanting to question him further, Nina sighed dismissively as she focused her attention on her hair. Her ponytail was messy and loose strands were falling in her face. She removed her purple hair tie and combed her fingers through her golden locks.

Bryan breathed uneasily as he watched her from the corner of his eyes. He was trying his best to resist his urges, but a certain desire grew within him and he knew he couldn't suppress it any longer.

Without giving it a second thought, he grabbed the woman by the arm and pulled her towards him. Nina let out a short yelp in surprise as she was yanked. She dropped her hair tie; leaving her hair to fall freely and gently framed her face. Bryan swiftly pressed his lips against hers. His tongue slipped past her lips.

Nina quickly pulled away and smacked him hard across his face. She was in complete and utter shock. She couldn't believe the man had stolen a kiss from her. She breathed nervously as she gently rested her fingers on her lips. What he did was wrong… but a part of her shamefully wanted more. Her face was red with embarrassment.

Bryan rubbed his wounded check and began to smile. He done the same thing to his partner many years ago and she reacted the same way. He thought it was amusing. He couldn't believe it. He chuckled. "This has to be some sick fuckin' joke." He said before bawling out in laughter.

Nina was very baffled by his response. She didn't understand what he found so amusing, but at the moment she didn't care. She quickly crawled into his lap; her legs straddled his hips. Bryan immediately halted his laughter and looked at her curiously. She bent down and kissed him; her tongue gently brushed against his before pulling away and giving his bottom lip a playful bite.

Her actions left him speechless. He looked at her and she looked back. Her bright, blue eyes examined his features as he did the same. He suddenly felt morose as he slowly lifted and cupped his hand against her cheek. His thumb gently brushed against her soft lips before passing his fingers through her golden hair. Nina's face flickered with concern when she noticed his more sobered expression.

"Why—" He said but quickly stopped himself. He wanted to know why she looked and behaved so much like her. But his question was only rhetorical. There was no answer she could possibly give. He had to figure it out himself, but he wasn't sure of what to do. His question mulled about his mind once more. Should he face reality or not? Forget his past or embrace it? He humored himself in wondering if it's possible to do both.

Nina wondered what he was going to say. He clearly had something on his mind. She was curious, but at the same time she kind of knew. It was that woman; the name he occasionally called her by. She didn't fully understand why, but she knew that she often reminded him of her. The thought disturbed her. Did he want to be with her? Or did he want to be with 'her' again?

Before she could ponder her question, Bryan pulled her in close and kissed her. Nina breathed as their tongues entwined. A foreign yet familiar sensation was slowly growing at the pit of her stomach. Bryan gently glided a hand down the contours of her body until it rested on her backside. He gently squeeze it causing her to let out a soft moan. His touch sent shivers down her spine as her concerns quickly ebbed and faded away.

Nina kissed and playfully bit around his neck. Bryan smiled at the woman's kinky behavior. He felt his pants begin to tighten.

Nina let out a small gasp when she knew he was aroused. She felt him as she straddled his lap. She lifted her head to look at him. She couldn't remember the last time she felt like this. It has been a while since she had been with a man. Even though she wasn't sure if he wanted her or the woman he used to be with, she decided to forget her concerns for the time being and simply enjoy the moment for what it was.

Bryan gazed back at the woman. He was a little surprised. Her expression was something he thought he would never see from her. Her lips were parted and her eyes were half-lidded and filled with lust. He licked his lips and smiled when she began to shift in his lap and press her body closer to his.

She kissed him again. It was slow and languid. Nina enjoyed every second of it as he held her and slowly laid on the ground. Bryan's hard, chiseled frame rested above her. She moaned as she felt his hands roamed over her body and cupped her breast.

Her cries of pleasure excited him. Bryan bent down and gently bite her nipple through the spandex fabric. Nina let out a moan as she wrapped her hands around his neck. Her fingers gently combed through his hair.

Bryan claimed her lips again as he began to disrobe her. Nina breathed eagerly as their tongues entwined. He slowly unbuckled each belt. When they were all undone, he slipped his hand underneath her spandex suit and grabbed her bare. Nina bit his lip hard as she felt his rough hand squeezed her soft breast.

Bryan grunted and immediately pulled away and kneeled in front of her. He was surprised by the woman's eagerness. She had bit hard enough to pierce his skin. He chuckled softly as he wiped some of the blood away with hit his hand.

Nina's breathed anxiously as the man sat above her. A thin layer of sweat caused his body to sheen in the sunlight. Her eyes roamed as the light illuminated and defined his scarred body. She admired his arms, chest, abdominals and those 'V' lines.

She quickly sat up and began to undo his belt buckle as she kissed him again. Her tongue stroked his wounded lip; sampling the rusted, metallic taste of his blood. Bryan groaned as her small hands brushed against the most sensitive part of his body.

Bryan eagerly pulled off her top the moment she unbuttoned his pants. He couldn't wait any longer. He took in a breath when he saw her bare and delicate skin. He laid her back down as his tongue teased one of her nipples. He quickly pulled off the woman's boots and began to tug on her pants; wanting them of as soon as possible. Nina raised her hips; allowing him to take them off along with her underwear.

Bryan eagerly removed the rest of his clothing. He laid on top of her and they both softly moaned as their skin touched. He kissed her eagerly as he reached down and guided himself inside her. Nina moaned as their bodies connected in the most intimate of ways.

His movements were slow at first; allowing her time to adjust to their intimacy. She pulled him in close and he felt her breath brush against his ear as she panted in ecstasy. Bryan closed his eyes and began to breathe heavily as he felt her small, soft hands glide up his back.

Images flashed in his mind as he quickened his pace. Images of the woman he once knew. He remembered the last time he made love to her. It was similar to this very moment. He imagined her beneath him with her sable hair spread out on the sheets.

"Bryan."

He quickly opened his eyes upon hearing the woman passionately whisper his name. Her voice was different from the one he fondly remembers. Perhaps that's where their similarities end. He looked at her and felt conflicted. Nina… Caroline… They are different people, but at the same time, they are so much alike. He didn't know what to make of it. He couldn't make sense of his own feelings.

Nina sensed he was distracted. She quickly pulled him close and kissed him; bringing him back to her. Bryan moaned as his desire grew in the pit of his stomach. All of his concerns were quickly put aside as she wrapped her legs around his back; allowing him to go deeper.

Her invitation excited him. Bryan quickened his pace. His sharp thrusts was almost too much for her to bare. It was just the way she liked it. Nina panted and moaned as a foreign sensation began grow within her. She was close... She knew it. She had a feeling Bryan wasn't too far behind either.

She held him close; her fingernails raked against his back as she felt her climax quickly approaching. The pain made Bryan groaned in pleasure. He moved faster as he sensed his end was near.

He suddenly heard Nina cry out as she finally reached her climax. Bryan panted as he felt her body shivered beneath him. Moments later, his body stiffened. He groaned as he finally met his end. His energy was spent. He gave her a kiss before quickly pulling out. Nina winced in pain by his sudden exit.

Bryan lazily laid beside her to catch his breath. He suddenly felt a pang of guilt as his mind began to clear. He turned his head to look at Nina. She turned around to face him. Her lips were curled in a very subtle smile. Bryan slowly looked away. He looked outside the cave and wondered what he just done.