14 AYTOFM

Colette's POV

I was walking along the pavement in the middle of the night. My mum has booked me plane tickets because she wasn't able to pick me up. I didn't want to call a cab, and my flight wasn't due for about 3 hours so I decided to walk.

I really am a mess of a girl. I really did treat Carlos like shit when he really didn't deserve it. Why do I always push away the good things and cling on to the bad?

I made my way across the road, thinking about all the good things that happened during my stay in LA... How I got my tattoo done with Kendall and how adorable he was. All the romantic nights we spent together... I was starting to tear up again. Why am I doing this to myself? It's over. It was clearly never meant to be.

I had switched my phone off because I didn't want to talk to anyone at the moment.

It took me a while to reach the airport, but I don't even remember half the journey because I was so deep in thought.

The lady at the airport gave me a sympathetic look and smiled at me. I looked a mess right now. And my make up was probably all over the place.

"Having a rough time, sweetie?" She said in her high voice.

"I guess LA is not for me." I replied back. I tried to smile but I probably looked even scarier.

"Sadly not all dreams come true... Mine didn't." She said as she typed things into her computer.

"Oh, but it's not like that. It's a boy." I said looking down at hands.

"I wanted to be an actress but it didn't work out! So here I am! Don't worry sweetie, you're a beautiful girl! Chin up, it's his loss!" She's smiled at me as she gave me back my passport.

"Thank you so much." I told her, smiled then walked over to one of the seats and waited for my flight to be called.

So many things happened in such a short space of time. I regret coming here. The happy times weren't worth the things I was suffering right now.

I kept looking at the entrance. I was hoping for Kendall to run through the door and tell me that he loves me. I don't know who I was kidding he obviously doesn't even care.

Then there's Carlos... I'm such a cow. I should have treated him better. No wonder he doesn't want me. I wouldn't want myself if I was in his position.

I lost all hope now. I wish I could just die. Yeah dying sounds nice right now. Maybe I could stop causing pain for everyone. No one would even miss me. There is no point in living anyway...

I'm a no one.

"Can passengers of Flight 527 to Houston, Texas please go to the boarding area." I heard a woman's voice in the speakers.

This was my flight. My way back home. My last time in LA.

As I picked up my hand luggage and made my way towards the boarding area, I couldn't help but take one last look at entrance. No one.

I tried to stop the tears coming but I couldn't help it. It was final. I was heading home. No one was going to save me.

As I was seated on the plane, i plugged in my earphones and tried to forget about the world. Forget about my life.

I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on the music as the plane was taking off...

"Miss? The plane has just landed." I heard someone say, and a hand was shaking my shoulder.

I blinked my eyes open and looked at the flight attendant.

"Sorry I uh fell asleep!" I said getting out of my seat and getting my hand luggage out.

"That is fine. We have just landed. Hope you have a safe ride home!" She said cheerfully to me.

I smiled at her and walked out of the plane.

How can people be so cheerful all the time? I feel so depressed nearly all the time...

My their life is worth something.

I went to collect my suitcases and and then went to find my mum.

I noticed her from a long distance. The minute she saw me she started running towards me and was smiling like mad.

"Colette! Baby! How are you doing?! I've missed you so much!" She said as she hugged me.

"I've missed you so much mum!" I let go of my bags and hugged my mum as close as I could.

"Where did this sudden decision come from?" She asked me as she let me go.

"I will tell you later, I'm really tired and want to go to sleep." I said as I picked my bags up.

"That's fine, I'm just glad you're home!" She said.

Mum helped me to carry the bags to the parking lot, into the car.

The sun was just starting to rise. The sight was beautiful.

Mum switched the radio on and hummed softly in the background while I tried to sleep. I wasn't really sleepy. I just didn't want to explain everything to her.

I finally fell asleep but it only seemed like a couple of minutes later mum woke me up to tell me we are home.

"I'm working today, I actually have to leave in about 5 minutes so I'm not late! Is that okay?" She said as she set my bag down in my old bedroom.

"Yeah sure that's fine. Thanks mum. Thanks for everything that you have done for me. I love you so much!" I said as I hugged her, for probably the last time.

"I love you too baby! We will have a chat when I get back! Phone me if you need anything!" She said and waved at me while walking out the door.

I sat on my bed and waited until I heard the front door slam.

I made my way to the bathroom and switched the water on in the bathroom.

When the bath was nearly full I switched it off and went to the medicine cabinet to get a bottle of pills.

When I got them I went into the bath fully clothed and opened the bottle. I swallowed about 9 tablets with drinking any water. I just didn't have the energy anymore.

When I started feeling dizzy, I took out the razor blades and started to open the cuts on my arms.

The cuts on my arms were nearly fresh and it didn't take long until the water was a light red colour.

I didn't even feel the pain anymore. I was too much.

When I was done I dropped the razor on the floor and closed my eyes, waiting.

"I guess you weren't the one for me..." I murmured to myself as the darkest overtook me, and I went into the painless world.

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