He cannot remember how he got here, but he cannot recall that this means that he is dreaming, and he is eighteen and terrified with his back pressed against a wall that does not exist.
Yes he will serve, yes he will bend his will to that of the screaming man before him, yes yes yes because this - this is his duty, but this baffling mixture of chaos and order cannot filter through his senses and something in him recalls that he was not this frightened when this happened, but for some reason he cannot feel right in this memory -
When he wakes, he deciphers his own fears and tells himself over and over not to worry: he will never have to go back to before.