Shawn felt like jumping in the ocean, or pulling his motorcycle out of the garage and riding till the sun came up. He decided to run, to just run away from his dad, from Kate, from Jules, just leave it all behind. He started to run when he realized two things: 1. He hated running, and 2. He was still wearing footie pajamas. As he slowed, Shawn heard the only voice that had a chance of calming him down.
"Shawn, wait!" Juliet yelled and he heard her start jogging towards him.
He started to turn toward her, but stopped short, realizing he couldn't face her as he said what he needed to say. "Jules, you lied to me." As he spoke the words, he realized the irony in it. He had lied to her for years and while he thought he understood how much he'd hurt her—he hadn't come close. Juliet was the most honest person he knew and she lied to him. "And don't say you didn't, because we established that a lie of omission is still a lie. How could you do that?"
He could hear the hurt in her voice, but he wasn't sure that he cared at the moment. "Shawn, I never meant to—I had come to tell you about—but then the case and the pillow fight—I just…" She left off lamely and the two just stood for a moment. "Shawn, look at me."
It wasn't so much a command as a plea and Shawn turned. He first saw her golden hair, stray hairs and feathers sticking out from a messy bun. Unable to look at her face her still he looked at her feet, covered by Snoopy and Woodstock, who he followed up to her waist where she had tied the top half of her pajamas, revealing a yellow tank top—the one he had picked for her this morning because there was a pineapple on the tag. Finally he locked his eyes on hers—star blue and brimming with tears she'd been trying to hold back and he felt one escape from his own eye.
"Shawn, I'm so sorry that I didn't come to you, that I got the DNA test behind your back. I just—I wanted to be sure before I said anything. I'm sorry sweetheart…for all of it."
He turned again, unable to hold back the tears. He knew she meant it. She was trying to protect him from this, from knowing his father cheated—a one-night stand that brought a child into the world. "I'm sorry too Jules. For lying for all those years, for accusing you, for…everything…"
He felt her hand on his back and he turned abruptly and took her mouth in his, wrapping his arms around her and pulling her close. Because this was real. It didn't matter that his dad had cheated or he had a sister because he loved her and she loved him and that was fact. Even as his world caved in, she was there, standing strong and loving him. He tried to convey just how much he loved her—how much she had truly saved him—how much he couldn't live without her—in that kiss and when they came up for air he kept holding her close, unwilling to let the only thing that mattered to him go. "I love you Juliet O'Hara." He whispered into her ear as she nestled her head under his chin, knowing that that was the truest thing he'd ever said.
"I love you too Shawn Spencer." Juliet said softly into Shawn's neck. She did. So incredibly much. She'd seen him more broken today than in the nearly eight years she'd known him, and while she hoped to never seem him like that again, it was in those moments she realized how strong their love was. She loved him and he loved her and that was fact. She stood, wrapped in his fuzzy, SpongeBob covered arms and was happier than she'd been in a really long time. She felt fuller, more content, than she ever knew she could.
After a moment, Shawn spoke, still holding her close. "So what about the kid…Kate…my sister…Do you think she knew?"
She pulled back, only slightly so she could look into his eyes—a brilliant green with a golden sunburst around the pupil. "No, sweetie, I don't think she did. Look at her." She moved so she was to his side, each had one arm on the other's waist. She had left Kate by the cars with Gus, who seemed to be doing his best to console her. "She's as shocked as you, and terrified that you're going to hate her forever."
"I don't hate her." He seemed to be surprised that he was saying it. "You're right, thinking back I can see she was just as shocked when she saw my dad—then even more so when it was confirmed. She's the innocent one here. The victim." He paused for a moment, then said tonelessly, "I hate my dad. For what he did to mom and to her. I hate him."
She squeezed his side, unable to think of anything to say. He didn't hate Kate, which was a start. Henry and Shawn were the only family she had, and Shawn and Kate would be good for each other. As for Henry, she didn't know what to think. She believed he didn't know about Kate, but she also knew Shawn wouldn't hear anything past his father's infidelity. She'd have to work on that over time, but for now she'd stay quiet.
"You wanna get a smoothie. You, me, Gus, and Kate? She told us about a place with mango-pineapple smoothies and I have a hunch I know which place she was talking about."
"Mmm, smoothies sound delicious. You buying?" She was glad he could think of food and that he wanted to get to know Kate.
"If by me, you mean me with Gus's card, then yes." She laughed and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek. He was still the Shawn she always loved.
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You lucky ducks got two chapters in one day! They need to be together though, and I didn't want a Super Long chapter...Also, woo...I just edited-sorry for any of you early readers...and can anyone guess where they're getting the smoothies?
Shootingstars...I'm abbreviating your name, but you know who I mean! Footie pajamas are definitely the bomb-it takes self control every time I pass them in a store... :)
Frodo..also an abbreviation. I'm so glad you like it! And as you wish. (emoticon pineapple if you can tell me the reference)
Fanwarrioress...you're new and I don't know how to abbreviate that... I'm so glad you like it! My goal is to keep it authentic so that was seriously a huge compliment you paid me! Thank you! I hope you like these chapters as well-not as funny, but sometimes the serious moments in Psych are my favorites.
PoC...you get an abbreviation too :) The reveal kind of just evolved as I wrote it, but I think it kind of works and I hope you like everyone's reactions here!
Cupcake...your name is short enough to be written out :). I'm glad you love the story! I can see reviews for 10 and 11, but idk. I always appreciate your reviews!
And to anyone who cared to read this far down in author's notes...I really hope you like how this double-feature went. Did everyone like the Shules moment? I can put cute fluffy bits in too, but as I said before, I kinda like the serious moments. But, if you request warm and fuzzy feelings, I can definitely add those! (hopefully you get what I mean, early morning and whatnot). So, that was the reveal-how was it for you? I promise we're heading back toward the whole crime thing and also Lassie and Marlowe will not be dangling on a cliff of wonderment forever! Anyway, you guys are great, I broke 1000 views and it's amazing for me to be able to write something people can read and enjoy. :D
