A/N: So on Saturday, Sam and Freddie broke up, then on Sunday night, almost exactly 24 hours later, my boyfriend broke up with me. Here's an angry songfic that gets my shitty weekend off my chest. -_-
I Hate Everything About You
By Three Days Grace
Freddie's POV
Every time we lie awake,
After every hit we take,
Every feeling that I get,
But I haven't missed you yet.
God, I hate you. All these things that you make me feel… The anger, the frustration, the embarrassment… and yet on top of that, I feel the love, the endearment, the attraction.
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make,
All the feelings that I get,
But I still don't miss you yet.
I know we don't belong together. We shouldn't want to be together; this was our worst nightmare for all those years, before we grew up and got… those emotions.
We agreed we'd break up at midnight, so instead of being a little bitch and whining about it, I use that anger for how much I love you and throw you against the wall of the elevator and capture your mouth with mine. I can't deny how fucking hot I find you. I mean, I'm a guy. I'm not oblivious to how perfect your curves are… NO! This is why I can't stand you and your manipulation. You make me so confused.
Only when I stop to think about it…I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
Sam Puckett, I always hated you, and a big part of me still does. But I realized I'm mature enough to accept who you are and I could learn to love you despite it. And that's what I did. Now here you are, telling me it's over between us because you don't think we "click." Yeah, I put on the sweet "I just want you to be happy" face and say bullshit like "Feels like it" when you ask if we just broke up, but on the inside, I want to die. I don't know who I'm angrier at: you for giving up on us, or me for getting so attached.
Every time we lie awake,
After every hit we take,
Every feeling that I get,
But I haven't missed you yet.
All those times we shared… the laughs, the smiles, the secret gazes that said so much that nobody else can understand: did they mean nothing to you? We are perfect together. Just because we were friends first doesn't mean we're trying to force our connection into a romantic relationship. You're just nervous about my mom and the kids at school and Carly and Spencer and what they all think. That's not ending it for our benefit; that's being a coward.
I hitch one of your legs around my hip, pulling you closer to me. You moan and wrap your arms tighter around my neck. I only have an hour and a half left; gotta make the best of it. I'll make sure you miss me late at night when you don't have someone to make you feel like this. Maybe you don't think we "click," but I definitely have some use if you're enjoying my hands and mouth so much.
Only when I stop to think about it…
I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
… I said I love you. I wasn't lying, but why oh why did I say it? And right after we broke up? I'm an idiot apparently. And then you said it back, and as happy as I was to hear it, it broke my heart at the same time, because come midnight, we'll be broken up officially and I'll be so desperately in love with you still and I'll know you love me too, but I won't be able to do anything.
Only when I stop to think about you
I know.
Only when you stop to think about me
Do you know?
I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me.
Why do you love me?
I may or may not have just ripped your shirt a little bit trying to bite at your neck. It could have been worse; I could have ripped it off entirely like I want to do with every fiber of my being. Imagine explaining that to Carly. For the remaining hour and a half of this day, you're still my sexy-as-hell girlfriend, and I will make the most of it before I remember how much I hate you for giving up on us.
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me.
I hate everything about you.
Why do I love you?
I hate you, Sam Puckett. But damn it if I don't love you even more.