~N: So here is one more short chapter and 13th at that...

Chapter 13. Everything will be okay

Those 6 months after our Okinawa concert were no doubt the best since the day of my launch. I couldn't but smile all the time, feeling kind of euphoric, I even tried to pin Gakupo to the walls in some narrow hallways making him lose control, like he used to do to me. Naturally, we drove a lot of people and vocaloids mad… doing things in all kind of places.

For some time Gakupo kept avoiding the rest of the family just out of habit… well I'd prefer he continued doing that.
All the problems started because vocaloids are generally very nice and friendly by default.
Like, Gumi could remind him about a song recording in the eveining, and Gakupo jumped to hug her. Or Rin could make some plushie toy and give him as a present feeling proud of herself, and only Len could drag Gakupo from her.

"Would you please calm your lover-boy already!"

It was first time I heard something so unflattering about Gakupo from Luka, and I barely avoided insulting her then. Only Meiko who came along and confirmed her words stopped me.

Well, I rushed to clear things, of course. And it was not easy... While searching for Gakupo in the huge building for about an hour, scaring people with my angry face… I thought they all were looking at me, smiling sarcastically as if it was really funny that I finally learned about my boyfriend's affairs. Maybe they wanted a show with me as a lead?
They had fun? Well, I definitely didn't.

No, honestly, I, of course, didn't believe Luka. I kept thinking it was some poor joke; not that I didn't get worried, still feeling somewhat bad deep inside.
Whatever happened, it was only because of that error. He could not be at fault.

But when I finally found him, what I saw… was him trying to, as to my conservative estimate, kiss squirming and struggling Miku; I froze for a second. The decision which had been delayed for so long seemed obvious then.

To push him away from Miku, to hug her and whisper a few calming words, to look him in the eyes… Shock, confusion, uncertainty, as if he could not understand... Why I cannot read his thoughts?

"Kaito…" he moved forward, but I cast a warning glance and he backed away.
"Keep quiet. It's better…" come on, say it now! "We are going to Yumi."

Finally he understood.
"But I am still not done with…"
"With what?!" I raised my voice to a shout, and Miku flinched in fear.
"F-fine…" Gakupo rubbed his neck as if confused. "That will… do, I guess."
What was he talking about..?
Miku, I think I will need to see Meiko soon. Will you tell her? In a second this thought became irrelevant.

All the short way to Yumi Gakupo was trying to tell me something, prove or make me understand. But honestly, I could not hear him. I was just trying to figure it out what I should do.
Maybe it's not too late to stop this? No! I knew all along that this was going to happen sooner or later. I just kept saying to myself all over again that it was nothing too bad until it became a mess.
Why his error was not corrected from the start? Because I didn't want it. Oh my…
Damn, it was all my fault…
I felt a horrible urge to take my anger out somehow, hitting something at least. But the program might not let me do it, of course. I shook my head. I just don't care anymore!
I hit the wall with my fist like mad; ignoring Gakupo, I kept on walking.
I don't know what I am going to do if Yumi is not there… Oh but what am I worrying about? I'll just get someone else. Restart is really an effective and kind of healthy operation, the company would not mind at all if his memory is cleared from needless things.
"Yumi, are you busy?"
She is not stupid at all, she got it right away, jumped from her seat, arranging the devices under my heavy stare. Or maybe it's that she heard about those rumors.

Gakupo hesitates. Why now? Who always tries to prove me that memories mean nothing? Now what?
"Hey, please don't make such a face," he walks those few steps towards me in Yumi's small room.

Somewhat reassuringly he puts his hands on my shoulders, smiles and ruffles my hair, and I close my eyes out of habit. For a second I think he will kiss me. Just like Miku now, right?
As if reading my thoughts Gakupo still a stupid smile on his lips, gives me only a hug.
"You look like I am about to die," he sighs.

It might be even worse than death. I cannot see his face. Is he still smiling?
"It's just memories. Kaito is much better than memories," Gakupo chuckles trying to convince me.
He is scared, right? I always feel a bit scared in this room, where erasing someone's life is not a big deal.
"Only please, don't cry, okay?"
I did give a sob, and a loud one at that. Is he trying to make me feel sorry? I am, I am!..
"Everything will be okay. Later please say to everybody that I am sorry. I really never wanted anything like that to happen."
My hands are shaking?.. I try to keep some of his warmth and grab his clothes; Gakupo chuckles.
"Don't worry, I love you."
No, please don't go…
It doesn't matter anymore, whatever he is doing because of his error. I just know too well what is going to happen when he will close his eyes.
It looks like Yumi is done preparing, because Gakupo gently moves me away, freezes for a second hesitating, looks at me and suddenly pulls my ear as if waking me out of trance.

It is Gakupo. If he promised, then everything will be okay.
I don't want to look at him any longer, I just cannot. I run out slamming the door and sink down the wall, not paying attention to humans around.
Fine, I'll try to believe him.
I'll have to say sorry to everybody, as he asked. Miku might hit him a couple of times but then she will calm down and forgive everything.
And I'm finishing off my ice cream stash, if only I stop biting my lips. Not going to share with anyone. Well, maybe with Gakupo. Don't you dare complain when I turn on air conditioning on the coldest!.. Maybe I'll finally get some luck, too? I heard they are upgrading us, Meiko and me. I calm down a bit and smile.
New voice - unbelievable… Sales might go up? What if they change my appearance? It would be too bad to give up my muffler. Well, I am sure they will let me keep it. My trademark, isn't it... Then, I am sure Gakupo will get upgrade too. His voice is already so nice, what am I going to do if it becomes even better?
But what if it won't work? What if Yumi won't be able to do anything? Do I start again with greetings? What do I say then? That I am his older brother? Or get straight to the point - his lover?

It seems I am getting crazy…
No, he said, everything will be okay…

Deep in my thoughts I barely noticed the door open. Yumi came out, looked at me weirdly and left, probably to fill out documents...
I smile stupidly, cannot help it.

"Hi, who are you?" Gakupo is out after Yumi and looks at me, in a totally different way than he used to...

Nobody... I guess.

tbc