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EPOV

I couldn't just wait until school to see her, I needed to make sure she was okay. I drove quickly to her house. Chief Swan wasn't there so I ran to the door.

"Bella!" She didn't answer. I pounded on the door but I heard nothing. I had a horrible feeling so I went around to her window. It was open so I just climbed through, I scanned her room and saw a note on her Debussy CD. I opened the note and saw it was for me.

Dear Edward,

When you read this, I'll be gone. I hate my life Edward. Before I met you, everyday I always wanted to die. But I couldn't just kill myself. When I met you, I finally thought one day I would be okay. Then you said you loved me and then stabbed my heart. So, I'm no more-and you are a bastard, a cheating bastard who I'll always love.

Goodbye Edward.

The first thing I thought was "If she loved me why would she leave me?" Then I realized what she said at the beginning of her letter.

When you read this, I'll be gone.

"Holy hell...Bella!" I yelled and went down the stairs.

I looked around for her and saw nothing. I went to the kitchen praying she was there, alive. I walked in and saw something I never wanted to see in my life.

BPOV (half an hour before Edward came)

I looked out my window to see Charlie leaving. The next time he saw me, he'd be watching my dead body on a stretcher. "He would be really happy to see me dead". Then I thought again. "No, actually, he would be pissed because now he'd have to find someone else to fuck!" I ran downstairs without stumbling, and went into the kitchen and thought.

"How am I going to do this?" I muttered to myself, I looked around.

Knife? No I hate blood no need to leave a mess for everyone. I saw a rope

Hang myself? no I suck at tying knots. I looked around and saw all of Charlie's alcohol, then I knew what to do.

"Okay first I need some pills." I muttered, I looked around and saw Charlie's pills they were for high blood pressure or something. I grabbed them and a bottle of vodka and sat down on the floor.

"Should I do this now?" I asked myself. I looked around and thought about my life, nothing but pain and torture. I knew if I lived it would only get worse. I opened up the bottle and took a lot of pills then I drank the vodka.

Each time I'd drink or take the pills I'd think about Edward.

He wouldn't care, he'd laugh with Lauren and Jessica about that boring, bipolar bitch Bella.

That just made me drink more, I suddenly started feeling faint but I wouldn't faint.

Then I could barley breath, I saw I was out of pills and there was barley any vodka left in that bottle. I started sweating and feeling really cold the I heard pounding. Feet coming down the stairs.

"Bella!" I heard Edward yell. My eyes started closing.

"Edward" I whispered before my eyes closed forever.

Never to open them again.

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