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Chapter 12: L is for Life as O is for Of Course

(Sonny's Diary POV)

K is for Keys as P is for Promises,

Oh, where to start, journal. You know how they say a picture is worth a thousand words? Well, what happens when the canvas is blank? I mean, sure, you could always imagine what you wanted to be on that canvas, but sometimes you just need to let the painter paint the picture to you. But, there are the times when your picture just isn't worth a thousand words, but maybe one thousand and one depending on your mood. So, where I am going with this, is every day of my life is a new picture. One day it could be just a meadow, but days like today are the fairy tale ballroom scene.

Chad woke up who knows when to go and make me all these clues to solve about our past dates and give me keys with each letter. I knew he was hiding something, but just because it was my birthday made it even more suspicious. After endless hours of trying to find all the clues, they all leaded up to the best birthday I've ever had, but mostly just because Chad created it. He threw together this huge party, but one of the best parts, Paramore was there. Yes, that's right…my favorite band, Paramore, was there. Who else can say that their boyfriend got their favorite band to play at her birthday party? Not many.

But the best part of the night is when Chad gave me a promise ring. No, not an engagement ring, but just a ring to symbolize our love at a young age. Sure, we can get married whenever we actually wanted too, but I think we both just want to continue our relationship for a while. I mean, it's Hollywood, you never know what to expect, right?

Chad Dylan Cooper is literally my life, and without him, I have no idea what I would do. I swear, I will marry him one day.

Until then, my lovely,

Allison 'Sonny' Monroe.

(Chad's POV)

K was for Keys and P was for Promises,

So, not to brag or anything, but I really am the best boyfriend. I mean, what other guy would go around at literally three am creating a scavenger hunt for his girlfriend for her birthday? Oh, and who would also buy ten solid silver keys for this adventure? She just can't know of this because…because, well, she's Sonny and she freaks out when you spend more than five dollars on her. Really, why doesn't she ever let me buy her anything? Stupid cute.

Well, it started out with me waking up in the earliest hours of the morning to go around to about six different locations to hide the keys. Then, while I was doing that, I had to coordinate a letter system to find the next clue. Do you have any idea of how long that took me? Chad Dylan Cooper does not do long, but if it's for his girlfriend, then he'd do anything. For once, Sonny actually stayed happy for a longer period of time. I didn't even see her sulk once, which is a step up.

Towards the end of the night, after she got over that Paramore, her favorite band was there, I gave her a promise ring. No, not an engagement ring, but just a simple ring to show that I'm not leaving her, and she is the only one for me. Of course she feels the same way, but I just can't help to think there is something else running through the back of her mind.

But to start thinking positively again, no matter what, she is the only thing running through my mind at every second of every day, and as much as she may think, I love her more than any inanimate object there is, and that even includes my car. You can replace a silly old car, but you can't replace a Sonny. A beautiful, smart, funny, outstanding, gorgeous, talented, and so much more, Sonny.

Until then,

Chad.

For the first time in weeks, I was smiling at my own self for more than a few minutes. I don't know what it is, but no matter what, I love her so much that I just don't know what to do whenever I see her. You could just call it nervous butterflies, but it's something so much more to me. The way she smiles just makes my heart jump out of my chest. Whenever she touches me, I just melt at the touch. When she looks at me, you just can't help but get lost in her eyes.

Honestly, I didn't really think of a date today because yesterday just took so much out of me. So, while Sonny was sleeping, I just decided to go with L is for life. Well, first we have to go to the studio to do our daily round of filming, but I was just thinking we could go to Mackenzie Falls for a low key date. She is still worn out from the past few weeks, but the more she gets into it, the sunnier she becomes.

I quietly chuckled to myself as I saw Sonny come into the kitchen fully dressed in her uniform. "So, Mackenzie, how do I look?" she said while she said while she spun around in her Mackenzie Falls uniform. Yes, that's right, Sonny starts today over at the Falls, and honestly, this is one of the best days of my life. Of course Sonny didn't really want to do this at first, but I think the more and more she learned and watched it, the more she could see herself become her character.

I smiled as I stood up and gently kissed her for a few seconds, "Absolutely amazing," I said as I pecked her on the lips one more time.

She smiled as she sat down at a stool at the island and poured herself a bowl of cereal. You know, I just can't help but smile at the littlest of actions she does. When she pouts when something little goes wrong, or even when she smiles when she sees the outside, I just smile at it. Even though we spent most of our time at Condor Studios apart, I just couldn't help but think of her in every little way even when I was filming. I can't even tell you how many times I have said Sonny instead of Chloe on set.

I laughed a little as I sat down next to her and poured myself a bowl of cereal. She looked over to me with a confused expression, "What?" she asked me with a little laugh.

I smiled back to her, "Aren't you going to ask me what we are doing today?" I asked her.

She shook her head, "No, why?" she asked truly confused now.

I chuckled a bit, "You always ask what we're doing today right as you wake up."

She shrugged her shoulders, "I just thought I would let you surprise me without complaining for once."

I laughed, "I love you," I said as I kissed her forehead.

She lightly blushed, "I love you, too."

I quickly got an idea for what I was going to do for the kissing part today, "Wait, actually I will tell you part of today's date. You know how you say 'of course' without even knowing it? And today's letters are L and O, so O is for of course," I said while she looked over and smiled.

"I hope you know I say that a lot," she said with a little laugh.

I smiled, "I know, and I find it adorable."

She smiled, "Of course," she said as I leaned over and gave her a deep, but short kiss. "I can get used to this," she said while she blushed.

I smiled, "So can I, Sunshine," I said.

She looked back down to her bowl with a small smile playing at the corner of her lips, "So, now that I know what O is for, do I get to know what L is for?" she asked quickly and softly while her spoon played with the cereal in the bowl.

I laughed, "Not a chance," I said as I put my bowl in the sink along with hers right before we headed out. "So, ready for your first day at Mackenzie Falls?" I asked her as I grabbed her hand and started to lead her towards the garage, and, even as a bonus towards her, she gets to drive. "Here," I said before she could answer as I tossed the keys towards her.

She smiled, "I get to drive?" she asked with excitement while I nodded. "Well, honestly, I'm actually nervous. I mean, I've done comedy, but now that I'm doing drama, I just don't know what to expect," she said with a little frown.

I laughed at her a little bit, "Don't worry, Sunshine, they are actually nice people once you get to know them. You know, Portlyn actually loves you. She never stops talking about you, and, she was the once to convince me to talk you onto the show," I said as I got into the passenger seat of the car while watching her start to drive.

She laughed, "I know she does, and I love her too. I'm just worried about the rest of them, your producer, and your director. Honestly, I'm actually afraid that I'm going to ruin the show," she said with a slight blush.

I laughed a little bit while I put my sunglasses down from my hair, "You won't ruin the show, not even a bit. Come on, Sunshine, you know that you are an amazing actress, and maybe even better than me, but you are a girl, and I'm a guy, so it could be different in some ways, but you know what I mean."

She laughed as she rolled her eyes, "Of course," she said right before she slapped her forehead, "Sorry!" she apologized as I leaned over and softly kissed her cheek.

I smiled at her, "Don't apologize for something you can't control."

She smiled, "You know, I never would have thought we would be here. I know it's a bad timing to be talking about this, but just think, who would have thought we would have made it to L? Honestly, I thought one of us was going to cave for good by H, no offense," she said with a small smile.

I laughed, "Don't worry, I was actually planning on caving by letter C, but then I realized that you were absolutely amazing at letter A, that I just couldn't bring myself to do that to you," I said while she pulled into the parking lot and parked right by studio 2.

As soon as she stepped out of the car, she came over towards me and grabbed my hand, "Don't worry, I didn't think I could handle you on letter A, so I guess we are both guilty," she said with a small blush.

I smiled, "And look at where we are now," I said as I kissed her cheek.

As soon as we stepped inside, one of our servants, Jeff, came over and handed both of us a freshly made smoothie, "Thanks," I smiled at him as Sonny said thank you right before we walked towards the mediation room. "When you are a Falls member, you get everything your little heart's desire," I said to her as she smiled a huge smile.

"Hey," I said as we walked in still hand in hand. As soon as they turned around, they smiled. "Hey guys," they all said as they walked over.

"Sonny!" Portlyn screamed as she came over and gave Sonny a huge hug while she let go of my hand. "Portlyn!" she screamed equally as loud.

"Come on, we need to go get hair and makeup done!" she said as she ran off with Sonny while she had a look of worry on her face. As soon as she looked at me, I gave her a reassuring smile while she smiled back while running to keep up with Portlyn.

"Chad," my friends, Skyler and Ferguson, said as they came closer and sat on the couch. "Why don't you sit down with us," they both said as I went to go sit on the love seat opposite to them.

"And this is for?" I asked them in a worried tone.

They laughed, "Don't worry, it's nothing bad, but we do want to talk to you about little miss sunshine," they both said as my eyes narrowed at them. "What about her?" I spat at both of them as they both moved back just a little bit.

"We just wanted to see how your relationship was going. We only see you when we are filming, and now that Sonny is on the show, we just feel like we're going to get left out," Skyler said while he rubbed his arm, a nervous habit of his.

I smiled a little bit, "You guys won't be left out, and you know that. You know, it's just she takes up most of my time, well, because she's my girlfriend," I said as I started to smile.

Ferguson gasped, "He's, he's, he's smiling!" he stuttered while he jumped off of the couch as threw his hands up in the air. "I know," I said but it came out as more of a question.

They both smiled, "We never see you smile!" they both said while they both got up off of the couch and hugged a little bit. As soon as they were done with their moment, they straightened their ties and jackets and sat down with some composure this time.

I laughed, "See what's she's done to me?" I say in a whisper. "But, anyways, she's not replacing you. You two, I love just as if you were my brothers, but she is my girlfriend, and she takes up all of my time because she is the only one that has ever been this close to me."

They both looked at each other while nodding to themselves, "You really like her, huh?" Skyler asked.

I sat there thinking for just a few moments, "Not like, I really love her. It's hard to explain, but it's just something about her that I just can't get enough of. The way she smiles just makes my heart jump out of my chest, or the way her eyes shine while looking at me just make me want to kiss her, or it could even be the way she talks, because every time she does, it comes out as a song, and it just makes me want to hear more no matter how angry I am. I could be totally pissed one moment, and all she has to do is come in, put her arms around my neck and hug me without saying a word, and it's like she just made all of the hurt and anger go away. Even looking at the sun makes me think of her," I poured out to them in a rush, but both of them wound up smiling by the end.

"Quick question, how long have you like her for?" they asked me.

I laughed at the memory, "Well, basically since the first day I met her. Even though she was in a fat suit, her eyes sparkled to me, and for some reason it just felt so right liking a Random. Or, we could go further to when she held her prom. You know, she missed most of it making sure the rest of us had our fun, but she never got to enjoy it for herself, so when everyone went back home, I stayed behind to see if she was okay, and you could just tell she wasn't, and so I decided to be nice and dance with her, and the way her hand fit mine just made my heart stop for what seemed like forever. And then when we went on Gotcha! With Gilroy Smith, I just had to tell her what I was feeling. Sure, I didn't tell her exactly everything, but I just had to tell her that I had more than a friendship feeling for her. I've liked her for two years, and for these last few months, I've loved her more than anything."

Ferguson had a tear in his eye while Skyler was just sitting there with his mouth wide open, "Dude, you are whipped," Skyler said while Ferguson nodded.

I laughed, "For Sonny, it is all worth it," I said while I sat back with my arms behind my head.

"So, are you going to purpose to her anytime soon?" Ferguson asked out of the blue.

As soon as he asked that, my eyes went wide with shock while my mouth gaped open just a little bit, "Pur-pur-purpose? Like marriage?" I finally managed to spit out while he nodded while looking at me like I was crazy. "Uh, we're only eighteen," I said nervously.

They both laughed, "I know, but you know, you should know if you were going to marry her by now," he said while he rolled his eyes.

I rubbed the back of my head, my nervous habit, "Yea, but you know, we're still young, and I'm just not sure if I want to settle down while I'm this young. What would Mackenzie do?" I asked them like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Ask her to marry you," Skyler said atomically.

"Who's marrying who?" Sonny asked while walking back into the mediation room while I breathed a sigh of relief. I smiled as I stood up and walked over to her and gently kissed her while she laughed a little bit. "I didn't say of course," she said while I smiled and lightly kissed her again, "Ah, but now you did," I said as I winked at her.

She blushed as the rest of the cast laughed, "Come on, we should get going to the set," Portlyn said while she grabbed Sonny's hand and pulled her away from me while I chuckled slightly. "Oh how I love that girl," I said while Ferguson and Skyler laughed.

As soon as we all got onto set, the producer, writer, and director were all there sitting in chairs waiting for us. "Chad, Portlyn, Chastity, Ferguson, Skyler, and of course, our beloved Sonny," our director, Tim, said as he got up off of his chair.

"I hope you all made Sonny feel welcome, am I right?" he said to us while Portlyn put on the biggest smile she could and nod her head up and down. "Good," he said as he clapped his hands together and came closer to us, "Now, Sonny, you will be playing Mackenzie's new love interest," he said as I rolled my eyes. As much as I wanted her to play my love interest, I'm sick of him teaching these kids wrong lessons of cheating and dumping.

"Chad, no eye rolling," he said without looking at me while everyone laughed. "Okay, back to Sonny, your character's name is Charlotte, who is from a middle class family," he said while the rest of us gasped. "What?" they both asked.

"It's just, just, that we've never had a character like that on our show," Chastity said while still looking in shock.

"Yes, but we are basing this off of their relationship also, Chastity. But as I was saying, Charlotte wants nothing to do with Mackenzie," he said while I huffed, "Get over yourself, Mack," he said while the rest of the cast laughed. "So, when Mackenzie uses his charm to lure Charlotte into giving him a chance, Devon comes in and charms Charlotte, and we still don't have the rest written, but in the season finale, Mackenzie and Devon will have to fight for her, but we are leaning towards Mackenzie winning," Tim said while we all rolled our eyes except for Sonny who was smiling.

"Now, why don't we do a table run-through, then on Wednesday we can rehearse, because Tuesday is your day off, then on Thursday and Friday we will shoot this. I won't be there for the table run-through, so Chad, you know what to do," he said while I nodded and he walked away.

Portlyn, again, grabbed Sonny's hand and sprinted with her towards our room, and got there about two minutes earlier than any of us. "Okay, you all know what to do, except Sonny, so I expect all of you to help her out, okay? No funny business and they can watch us," I said while pointing up towards the ceiling to where the cameras were.

They all nodded their heads as they took their seats in the appropriate places, as I grabbed Sonny's hand and sat her down right next to me.

For the first cold read, they were all pretty good, and I even have to admit that Sonny was fitting right in.

"But Mackenzie, once fall comes back to the Falls, you know Katie is going to come back," Portlyn said right before she realized what was going to happen. As soon as we all realized what was just said, we all slowly turned our heads towards Sonny and saw her looking down to the table.

"Sonny?" Portlyn asked her as we all hushed her. I gently touched her arm, "Hey," I quietly whispered to her as she looked up with tears in her eyes. "I…I just need to go for a while," she said while she rushed out of the room while I nodded towards Portlyn to go and follow her for now.

"I need to go find her. I also need to go get Katie's name out of the script. You all know what happened, right?" I asked them while they all just simply nodded.

As soon as I walked out into the hallway, I saw Portlyn sitting right next to Sonny with her arm around her shoulders lightly rubbing her back, "I got it, Port, why don't you go talk to the writers and get her name out of the script," I said while Sonny just sobbed harder.

I sat down next to her, not even caring that my clothes were getting ruined, and pulled her as close as I could while she continued to cry, "Shh, Sonny, it's okay, don't worry, I'm here," I whispered over and over into her hair while she wouldn't stop crying.

"You haven't cried in weeks, have you?" I asked her while she shook her head as the tears just kept coming out. "It's okay; we can stay out here for as long as you need to. We can't do the show without you," I said with a small laugh.

After a few minutes, she looked up as tears still came down. I lightly brushed the stray ones off of her face and put my arm back around her shoulders, "I don't know why. I've heard that name almost every day, and just something about today made me cry. I feel like such an idiot," she said while she lightly chuckled and brushed more tears away.

I looked at her seriously, "You are by no means an idiot, Sonny. If you need to cry, go ahead and just cry. How many times do I need to tell you that you can cry around me and no matter what, I will still love you the same? Sonny, I honestly had no idea that the name would be in the script, considering she was just a minor character in the first season, and I have Portlyn going to the writers to get the name out of it," I said with a small smile.

She looked up with a smile, "I know I can cry in front of you, but it must be so hard for you. I mean, I just haven't been myself even since then, and I feel like all of my energy goes towards her, and sometimes I feel as though I'm ignoring you," she said with a small blush.

I looked at her with a sad smile, "You haven't been ignoring me at all. I know that you loved her like she was one of your own, and I understand that. I think of Leah the exact same way, you know. I would do anything for her in a minute, and I just feel bad for you that you have to see someone that is almost like her."

She frowned, "It is hard sometimes, but you know what always helps me? Having a supportive boyfriend to be there by my side no matter how much crying, screaming, or yelling there is. You never let me down once, and you're not afraid to speak the truth to me, and that's what really means a lot to me. Honestly, you are the only person I can think of that has always been there for me, and I've only known you for two years. If I didn't have you, I don't know what I would do," she said while she looked back down to the ground and started to cry again.

I smiled as I lifted her chin with my finger, "I'm always here, and even if I'm only a set away from you, you know I would be there in a heartbeat. You don't have to worry what would have happened if you didn't have me, because all that matters is that you do have me, and I'm not going anywhere anytime soon," I said as I kissed her forehead while she leaned her head on my shoulder.

"I love you," she said while she looked up to me.

I smiled down to her, "I love you, too," I said while I gently kissed her. "Come on, we should get back in there, I bet that they are starting to worry about you," I said while I helped Sonny up while she fixed her skirt, blouse, and tie.

We started to walk back hand in hand while everyone was sitting in their appropriate spot just staying quiet. As soon as they saw us walking back, Portlyn and the writer, John, were just walking back from the writers lounge. "Chad, can I talk to you?" Portlyn said right as we walked back into the room. I simply nodded my head as I walked back out giving Sonny a small smile as she slowly slide down in her chair.

As soon as we were out in the hallway and out of sight or hearing range, Portlyn looked at me with sympathetic eyes. "Are you sure this is a good idea, Chad?" she asked me.

I looked at her in a confused state, "What's not a good idea?" I asked her.

She sighed as she started to pace back and forth in a slow way, "Sonny, Chad, Sonny. I'm just worried about her being on this show. I mean, it's not like she's going to ruin it, I just mean, is she mentally stable to be a part of this show? I mean, we can't tell her not to cry whenever she hears the name Katie, but maybe she should go get her some help, you know? I know that you don't think she needs it, but maybe if she just talks about it even with you, maybe she'll be able to be able to hear the name," she said while looking down the whole time.

I sighed as I looked to her in a calm way, "No, I agree with you actually. You know, I'm trying to make her comfortable here because I know it's stressing her out being over there so much. But she won't talk to someone because she hates having to have people feel sorry for her. I try talking to her, but she just pulls off a smile and acts like it's no big deal. I just think she needs a break from everything for a while. Well, after we finish the run through, I'm just going to take her back out to Mackenzie Falls so she can just relax for a few hours," I said to her while she sadly nodded.

"I feel so bad for her," she said in a whisper while I walked over and put my hand on her shoulder.

"Me too, Portlyn, me too," I said while we started to walk back towards the room.

As soon as we walked back, we noticed that everyone was sitting down just as quiet as last time, "Now, we don't have that many pages left of the script, so why don't we just stop here and call it a day," I said as everyone looked up while smiling.

"Don't worry, Tim will understand," I said as everyone stood up and started to walk out of the room.

As soon as I turned around, I noticed that Sonny was still sitting in her chair, "Come on, Sunshine, let's go," I said while she looked up with a small smile while getting out of her chair as she grabbed my hand.

"How does going to Mackenzie Falls sound to you?" I asked her.

She smiled, "Sounds just about perfect," she said while I kissed her on the cheek.

As soon as we were out of the studio, she immediately headed towards the passenger side of the car. "Don't you want to drive?" I asked her while I laughed a little bit.

She shook her head, "I'm not really in the mood for driving around. I'm sorry," she said while looking down to the ground. I mean, I know it gets harder before it gets better, but I just think she needs to let loose a little bit more. Honestly, if I had to go bungee jumping with her again so I could see her smile, I would.

I quietly walked over to where she was and put my arms around her waist, "Sunshine," I said while I touched my forehead with hers while she put her arms around my neck while doing the same. "You need to stop beating yourself up about this. I know it's hard either way, but you need to know that it wasn't your fault at all. If it was, someone would have told you by now. Now, you have been happier for a few days, but today you just went downhill. Something else has been going on, hasn't it?" I asked her.

I feel as though it's not just Katie's death that has been bothering her. She's told me almost every day that nothing else was going on, but when she just bursts out in tears when she heard her name today, something's just not right.

She slowly nodded her head, "It's everything, Chad. My family has been a total wreck. They lost her little girl, and it sure doesn't help that I'm halfway across the country when they need me. Even my work has been affected by this. I just can't concentrate on anything knowing that I'm letting someone down. It's also affecting our relationship. I mean, if you have to literally hold me back most days, isn't that saying something? All I want to do is just sit in my dressing room and cry. It's not like I can help what I'm feeling, but the more and more I think about her, the most I just let you down. How are you taking this, Chad? Honestly, how are you taking this?" she asked me.

I looked at her with a blank look on my face. I mean, how am I supposed to answer that question? Am I supposed to tell her that nothing has been affected by this, or am I just supposed to tell her that everything has been going wrong? Honestly, it's a little bit of both. It's not her fault that this happened, but maybe if she actually talked about it, she would feel better.

I sighed before I pulled away and answered, "Honestly, you could be doing better by now. It's been almost three weeks, and I know you are never going to get over this, but maybe you could be getting help or just talking to someone about it," I said to her in a whisper while she slowly nodded.

"I want to talk about it with someone, but I just don't know what to say," she answered back.

I smiled a little bit, "Let's go to Mackenzie Falls, and you can tell me anything that you need to. You know me, Sunshine, you could tell me anything and I won't be mad at you. If you need to talk about us, go ahead. If you want to talk about Katie, then go ahead. If you want to talk about So Random, be my guest. You know I'm here to listen to anything you have to say, and I will always tell you exactly what I think," I told her as she nodded throughout this.

"Let's do it," she said while she slid into the passenger seat as I walked back over to the driver's side and got in.

As we were driving, for the first time, it was actually awkward. Neither of us knew what to say, and every time one of us would try to say something, we would just close our mouths and act like nothing happened.

As soon as we got to Mackenzie Falls, I walked over, opened her door, and took her hand while starting to walk up the path. As we went to go sit down by the big oak tree, I saw Sonny smile. "I was just here yesterday," she said while I smiled back at her.

"This was the hardest one to set up, you know. Do you know how hard it is to drive from here, to Disney Land, to our spot, and back to Condor Studios? I think I just spent over two hours driving all over the place," I said with a chuckle.

Sonny sat under the tree, "I love this place more than you know. When I first found this place, I thought that this was probably one of the most beautiful places in California. You know, in Wisconsin, there are just lakes and ponds all over the place. One day, I'm going to take you there just for relaxation. Once you are there, honestly, you are never going to want to come back over here to the smog," she said with a little laugh.

I smiled as I sat right next to here as I put my arm around here shoulder. "Sometimes, on the days that we aren't together, I actually come here just to relax. You're right; California is just a little too much. I never actually wanted to be in acting, you know. Sure, I may act like it is my life, but my parents are the ones that pressured me into doing it. Sure, Chase is actually a really smart boy and has major possibilities, but for some reason, my parents just picked me to have to do everything. It was literally having a five year old make your salary for you. My mom and dad weren't always this nice either. They would just pressure Chase and me to go out and do something with our lives, and then when we finally did, it was never good enough for them.

"It's just like me and dating girls. My mom always wanted me to be with Portlyn, and one time we just dated just to make her happy, and when we broke up, that's when she changed. She never thought anyone was good enough for any of her kids, and that is until she met you. My parents absolutely adore you, you know. My dad thinks the world of you while treating you like you are one of his own. Then, my mom, well, she honestly thinks you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. She wasn't so sure on me dating so young, but once she met you just a few months ago, she fell in love all over again. So, for our date today, I just thought L could be for life. We can talk about anything, do anything you want, and even stay wherever we want. Today is just all about you," I told her while she just looked at me with some tears in the corner of her eyes.

"Thank you," she simply said.

I laughed a little as I looked at her, "For what?" I asked her.

She smiled as she lightly kissed me, "For everything," she said while she smiled just a little bit. "I just haven't been the same ever since she died. I mean, I don't know what I'm feeling. Should I be angry, should I be happy, should I be relieved? What am I supposed to be feeling when I find out that my little sister died at five years old? What am I supposed to do now? All I can ever think about is her, I take out all of my anger on everyone else, and then I even started to result in hurting inanimate objects! I feel so bad talking to anyone about this because I feel that no one really wants to hear about it, and no one wants me to have to take the spotlight from all of this," she said while looking down to her knees the entire time.

"Hey," I whispered as I nudged her shoulder while getting no response. "Sunshine?" I asked her again as she looked up just a little bit. "You know that I'm always here listening to whatever you have to say, and you aren't taking the spotlight for all of this. You just went through a traumatic event and you need someone to talk to. I just feel bad because I haven't really been talking to you about this because I'm just trying to give you your space, but when I find out that you are just scared to talk about it makes me feel even worse," I admitted as she frowned even more.

She sighed as she started talking in a whisper, "Do you remember the prom that I put together?" she asked while I nodded with a small smile on my face. She smiled just a tiny bit before she continued talking, "Well, I felt as though I would find that one person that would finally let me have my happy ending to the perfect night. Disaster after disaster started to happen, and the more I did more for other people, the more I let myself down. Finally, when Marshall came and the dance ended, I thought that it was worse than not being at my prom, but just to find out that you stayed behind because oh what I thought was your rep, juts made me hold to that last glimmer of hope I had for the perfect ending. Then, when you came and danced with me without the music at first, I thought that you were the Prince Charming, but I found out then that you were so much more, Chad. To find out that you stayed longer and actually care made the world to me, if you can believe that. What I'm trying to get at here is that these fairytales start off at an amazing scene, but the more we get into it, the harder it becomes to get out of it," she said.

I looked down towards the ground, "I know exactly what you mean, Sonny. I have a feeling of what you want to say, but you don't want to say it," I said with a sulk.

She simply nodded, "I don't want to break up, even thought that might be the easiest option for us. All I'm saying is that I want you to know what you want before you go on and take care of me. I think I'm doing alright with where I am, but the more I talk about it, the harder it gets."

I laughed, "That's called life, Sunshine."

She chuckled just a little bit, "Of course," she said with an eye roll. I leaned down and gently pressed my lips to hers as my left hand cupped her cheek pulling her face closer towards mine. She kissed back right away as she put her arms around my neck pushing her as close as she could to me.

As soon as we pulled away, she sighed and laid her head on my shoulder. "What are we even doing, Chad?" she asked me.

I sighed as I put my head on top of hers, "Honestly, I have no idea, Sonny. We're teenagers in love, I guess. We have no control over fate, but for once, sometimes I wish we could have dated on our own terms instead of having to do it with letters and bets. I know that if we break it off now, we will get mentally tortured by our casts, no, cast for a long time. Do you have any idea how hard it would be to work on the same show knowing that we broke it off on our own terms? Knowing all of our friends, they would think that we broke up for good and would hate the opposite person, and we just can't do that to them, you know," I said while I could feel her nod from under my head.

"Well, we only have about half of the alphabet left, and then it could just be you and me. Or maybe it's just the timing of it all, you know? Maybe once I get everything out and it becomes easier, our relationship will became easier to handle," she said in a sad sort of tone.

(Flashback)

"Fine!" I screamed at her.

"Fine!" she retorted back.

"Good!" I yelled even louder this time while I watched her stumble back just a little bit.

"Good!" she screamed even louder than I just did.

"Are we good?" I asked her with my famous smirk.

She shook her head, "No, Chad, we aren't. Not at all," she said while she ran down the halls back to So Random! while I could have sworn I saw tears in her eyes right before she left. I mean, psh, she deserved it. No one, and that means no one tells Chad Dylan Cooper what to do. No one tells Chad Dylan Cooper to behave himself, even if it is just when I am by myself. Finally, no one tells Chad Dylan Cooper that his hair is messed up.

As I walked back towards my dressing room, I started to feel just a little bad. Yeah, I know, feeling bad for a Random is a crime in the Mackenzie Falls world, but oh well, people will get over it sooner or later. So what if she just said, "Chad, you're hair is sticking out just a little." I would normally say who cares, but of course little miss sunshine just had to tell me on a horrible day.

So, even though my parents have changed just a little bit, they never stop yelling. All they do is tell me that I could have done better, or even that I was a mistake being in the acting world, and they just pass it off with a laugh while drinking Champagne.

As I started to think back to some of the good times Sonny and I have had, there just aren't that many good ones to tell her exactly how I feel. I mean, there was that one time when we first met and her eyes just simply caught my attention, or there is that one time we had a conversation for more than thirty seconds, but none of them could tell her, "hey, Sonny, guess what? I'm positively, madly, and passionately in love with you!" As much as I need to tell her, I just can't bring myself to liking a Random like that.

As my guilt started to sink in even lower, I decided that since I had a while to kill, I would go back to her and apologize…yes, apologize. So, as I made my round back towards her dressing room, I heard crying from the inside.

"Stupid, Chad, always messing around with my mind playing games with it, always making everything seem like it was my fault," she whispered as I knocked on the door.

As soon as she came up, she answered the door with her arms crossed and her eyes all red and puffy, "What? Did we forget a round of our 'fine,' 'good,' game?" she asked me.

I frowned just a little bit, "No, we didn't. Honestly, I actually just came to apologize to you. I feel bad for yelling at you for you just trying to help me," I said to her honestly, but her eyes told me that she didn't believe me.

She laughed a little, "Chad Dylan Cooper apologizing to a Random? Oh, this is comedy gold!" she said while she continued to laugh.

I sighed as I walked inside of her dressing room, "Look, I don't apologize often, and I certainly don't apologize to one of your kind, so if I were you, I would just accept it, say 'it's okay' and get this whole thing over with. The last thing I need is another person holding a grudge on me!" I yelled while I punched the wall closest to me.

She looked at me in shock, "Another person?" she asked in disbelief.

I mentally slapped myself for telling her that, "Yea, another person. My parents mostly, oh and then my cast, your cast, and now you are even holding a grudge on me. Look, Sonny, I can't believe I'm about to say this, but I like you," I rushed out.

She smiled a little bit, "I like you too I guess," she said as if it were nothing.

I sighed as I walked over, closed the door, lightly grabbed her by the shoulders and forced her to face me, "No, I mean I like, like, you, Sonny. I've liked you since the first day you got here, and somehow you just keeping getting under my skin that I can't help liking you!" I said to her while her jaw dropped just a little bit.

I leaned down and forcefully, but lightly, brushed my lips against hers pulling her closer to me. Surprisingly, she kissed back with the same amount of force while putting her arms around my neck. After seconds, or even minutes, of kissing, we both pulled away panting. "Wow," she said with her huge grin.

I looked at her in horror for a split second, "We never relive this and or speak of this again to another living soul, got it?" I told her while she nodded.

"Deal," she said while she walked back to her closet acting like it was nothing.

As soon as I stepped out of her dressing room, I touched my hand to my lips and smiled, "I just kissed Sonny Munroe," I said while the smile got bigger as I started to walk away. "I actually just kissed Sonny Munroe!" I screamed in a whisper to myself while I leaned against a wall with my hand still touching my lips.

"I'm going to have her as my girlfriend one day. I will make sure of it," I promised myself as I started to walk back towards Studio 3 with the biggest smile I ever smiled.

(End flashback)

The more and more I thought about that day, the more I realized that it was wrong. Not kissing her exactly, but the concept of being with her. I love her more than anything, but nothing could have prepared her for what I was just about to say.

"Sonny, we need to break up," I told her while she looked at me with her mouth wide open, while tears just started to spill out of her eyes.

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