Chapter 14 – Unusual Talks

Kane looked around and realized that she had already left. He felt slightly guilty for being so in the ice-cream thingy that he forgot when she left.

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It hurt me, it hurt me more than anyone would know…I cannot stop, but just run, just run, taking turns fiercely and rashly at each turn. Afraid to stop, I feel I am losing myself. I don't want these pains, please stop this already! Why can't we be friends, why can't we be more than that, what's not right about being us? I just don't understand, I can't stand seeing you with anyone please, stop this….

There were heavy sobs within her when she felt her heart plummeting every instant that she cannot stop. It wasn't any instant crush but truly developed affection.

I don't have any more longing for anyone, but just being so at distances and being flawless for this confession when you are falling for someone else hurts. Seeing you leave me might be less painful, but seeing you leaving me for someone else is more painful. I regret, the chances I didn't take, Why can't I be that old Salima when I was selfish, cared just for my team mates and never felt this way. I need space for myself, I don't want to long for anyone, I hate this yearning, I don't understand why am freaking, I don't want anyone, yet I want just you, just you, just you, just you.

Ray, please understand my feelings before it gets too late. I wish I could just hunch this wistful somber tenderness. I don't care where I run, how my heart feels like it would burst out of plummets and throbbing beats. I want to run away from all the pain that you have inflicted on me unknowingly. I can't see clear anymore even when my eyes are closed…I don't care how my hair flip on my cheek making them red in wound. All I know is that I long, longed, will long forever if I will be…Every step that I take is another mistake I feel. I took steps to make myself down.

Slowly, steadily, gently, descending were her heartbeats when she found herself being decelerating and actually ceasing to run. She cogitated with that weird unreadable face, hovering uncontrollably and felt the thick air around her. She paced slowly when she returned to the riverside where they were a few hours ago…

And then I felt myself at the utmost peace and tranquility. Knowingly I allowed my hairs of pure red to swing all around punishing me with all the flips that hurt me….Did it mattered? When life was already so painful…I felt I was out from all the people who ever made me sad, the gibberish, the rubbish ones- who are the reasons of my state now…I know this is wrong, they aren't all responsible for this, it's just Ray and. . . Not' Mariah'.

She felt the sky fading its colors, the sun was almost gone as if, and the edgy air around being merciful for her…

She thought to sit on the green fluttering grass and felt almost being deserted here. But this is the most things you want when you need yourself, when you want to find yourself…She felt vibration around her thigh and she picked per cell and swiped it and there were a few quotes texted by someone. She thought to ignore it but when she saw that it was Kane, she promptly opened it, Kane accustomed to write quotes but each one was so worth to read twice or more than that and he never allowed anyone to read his quote book, he seldom recited a few quotes and those were heart touching ones.

When she opened, there was a single quote that was written in bold italics on a picturesque, it were the waterfalls and the different shades of them latitudinal. On this were the gold words- "Be with someone, who won't stay mad at you, who can't stand not talking to you and who is afraid of losing you..."

She pondered on the words deeply and stood numb. Every part of her was unwanted of all the pain. She sighed slowly and typed with her trembling fingers. "Beautiful!" And then she pushed it in her pocket and headed forward, onto downstairs that would lead her to get a better image of the multi colored magnificent river shades.

She saw someone she hadn't expected, a capped boy, a blader, a champ, a teen who was in love, who was the one perhaps she would confide in- Tyson Granger…..

She slowly paced towards him and almost shocked him. The capped was sitting with one leg feely stretched, the other leg on which his chin carefully landed on, his hands folded and places around his stomach gently, the guy was seemed to be in the pounders and away from the world. He turned softly to see her, and before he would say anything she simply took a seat beside him keeping a formal space. She resembled like Hilary because she sat like her, her both legs hugged around her body and the chin placed on them. She wasn't planning to have any conversation with him but just deep down, analyzing whatever she felt and what she will be doing, perceiving all that might happen and preparing to take all the pain forthcoming. He simply turned back to original position and continued his stare at the shaded river.

It was beautiful, truly. The water flowed smoothly with ripples and glided smoothly.

"So, what brings you here?" he asked softly almost his eyes shifting from the river. She didn't answer instead kept her gaze fixated where they were. After the air was like she won't say anything, she uttered.

"Pain."

He stared at her simply for few moments thinking about it but then he figured.

"Teen emotions, huh?" he said almost as he laughed.

"Yah!" she exclaimed out of control.

"So what you all did since then?" he asked as he rested himself on his palms behind him.

"Huh? Oh! Nothing much."

"Uhm…"

"We went aside river and chatted for some time and passed it, few bladed and then we..."

He shrugged in style- signal for continue.

"We went to ice cream parlor and they had that funny cold fight..." she tried to laugh

" 'They?'"

" Hmm …whatever, cold fight."

"Ray and … . . . . Mariah . . .?"

"Yeah!" that was sarcastic.

"But why are you here, huh, had your ice cream early huh?"

"Yeah"

She could feel that the air was colder than before, the wind that passed by was less than breeze; the sky was grayish orange and the beautiful diamonds of the sky already there, faintly.

She had her hairs of pure red less fluttering and the already thick air that was confined around.

I know, that I'm not going to be okay, I know I'm not fine to face what will happen, I hate being weak for such foolish teen stuff. I hate this all! Everything- There are voices that wanted to be heard so much to mention that I can't find the words. I want to love my life. Thank you god for giving me such a beautiful life and forgive me if I don't love it. All I know is I just want to move on without a pause, and this pause will be the worst part of my life, there will be no resume further. Sure darling, be what you want, do what you like, long for what you want and I will just be feeble on the flow I am off to. Let me make you feel how this damn breeze chills out my spine tonight. 'Cause tonight there's gonna be blast, I'm off…Just watch the ferocious self-shatter deed…Let the beats end till I reach the sky. And your hand will not sensitize the palpitations…

Her hands clenched into fists! They slid past less and had the blood flow almost stopped within, her fingers could be seen like gonna be freaked broken ending up in fragments. She smirked slightly when she felt a hot sensitivity on her check, what?

Tear.

She wondered how it had fallen before she knew, she winked at the stars and smiled sarcastically while Tyson was thinking about the worsening relationships around, this freaky feelings, get dammit…why these captivations, why this longed soul still longing, hey go away, I can burn you out in the darkness, speaking in silence and playing like siren. Let me deal this, because I know I can't!

He would see the various things and magnificent attractions of nature bestowing on them, but he felt incomplete, really missing something, no not Hilary, of course he did, something apart from that, he felt like their ought to be something else for such strong emotion he was in besides he felt it for blading, but the truth was that it was nothing. It was just the compelled perception

He pulled back his hands that rested on the grass and placed on his lap now sitting with folded legs and clearing his hair below the cap. It was calmer for some time, the seasons and the climate was deceiving, changed like clothes. They sat quiet, with awkward quietness and she slowly turned left to face him, though she turned she couldn't meet his deep profound maroon eyes, but with much courage turned and her eyes landed merely on his hands.

"I'm suffering."

The navy blader turned startled and faced strongly as always he dared, the trend, his magnificent enrapture.

He slightly bent his head to ask her what she was.

"From?"

"It's a disease, which is unknown; its treatment is never there."

"What are you exactly saying?"

She sighed as she was about to clear up the perplexed states.

"I know there's no cure of it." she inhaled deeper the fresh air and slowed down for what she was going to say. "I don't know why is it like this but it's just like this and I never will know if I like it but because it is, I'm just…"..She met his eyes that were meticulously reading hers and faced him and got the courage she been feeling lately. "I am in love with your friend, he who has his tiger sheath sheathing his strong feelings."

Tyson's eyes which were softer reading hers had widened slightly with slightly lips unordered out of mere truth shock. He blinked twice while she was now facing him strongly. Tiger thing was sure understandable, she waited strongly for his reaction, while her fist tightened growing colder yet she didn't dared to shiver. She brought her legs closer for warmth. He slowly smiled and closed his eyes and tuned to the sea fading colors and perfected his gaze while she simply looked at his mesmerizing expressions.

"Ray…" he said softly with that look and pondered deep.

"Salima, this is why you ran off from there, ah, right?" he turned quickly at her.

"Yeah." she mumbled while she lowered her eyes breaking the eye contact.

"I know, I know, I know all this…emotions, hurt and the various damn love sick ailing that make you, arghhh!"

"What it exactly makes you Tyson?" she asked with an influence tough.

"Ah, wha-"

"It doesn't concern you with any ailing, I know you, when I met you yesterday, it's not that tough, you see from your perspective, you are such on the bright favored side after all…Am I right? I hope so. I am two years older than you, just hope dint miss any making out." she said strongly. Tyson gaped and was dumbstruck for a moment.

"How h-ow—di-d y-y-oo-u know anything about me?"

"Well, it's just an ability, it was a well surmise out of good sense of reading."

"Okay, fine. I see, you knew…well leave it."

"Hmm fine, not here to embarrass you anyway."

Ray, never thought you could be loved so much by someone. Salima never knew you could, well, why she can, but just I'm jealous perhaps, if I would have her just like her. I hope Ray you find it before it gets late. Live your life beautiful, it's just the beautiful relation being not defined by the better understandings between two but how we avoid the misunderstandings. Let not the mind control our souls, let them be free driven by the longing of hearts. . .

"I hope you find happiness of your love soon." he smiled that made her blush.

"Hope Hil loves you more than I would ever to Ray." she spoke purely counter blushing him.

She got up with her numb cold legs and started toward off back, somewhere near the beach lonelier, the night seemed to be growing old and cold, with one thousand lonely stars hiding in the cold, all the subways creating a great sound. The calmness, tranquility didn't break the soft music around.

She started pacing slowly with her heart filled heavy with fear and tears, the warm tears that already began to fall free on her cold cheeks, her frozen legs treading each reluctant pace, her free fingers shivering to hold the weapon against her life soon. The streets of Tokyo were silent and no one could be seen passing by, she feared if she lifted her head that was lowered that anyone would see her and she would be the prey of unanswerable questions.

In the quiet streets, it were her sole pace echoing that were heard, the moonlight was faded, the streetlights were switched on, and the bushes around had its leaves dropped more than they should have.

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