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Author: MellonninEstel

Beta: Imaginigma

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Chapter 14 – And beyond (Legolas´ real POV)

The stars twinkle in the sky, but I do not see them. The trees around us whisper, but I do not hear them. The fire is nearly dying, but I do not mind it. The snow is melting under us, but I do not sense it.

Because all that I see and hear and mind about and sense, is you. You Estel. You, meleth nin. My Estel. My hope.

Oh, for such a long time have I waited for you. Waited for you to see me like I see you. You know, my love, when I look at you, your beautiful body, so well shaped and strong, yet at the same time fragile and tender. Sweet and simple. Your dark hair that shines in the sunlight like velvet and in the moonlight it carries the stars in it, your hands that are used to hold a sword, but that can make me tremble under their touch. Your voice that is commanding when needed, despite your young age, and that can soothe me like nothing else can. And your eyes, oh, your gray eyes that are so full of life, of passion and understanding. Oh, when I look at all that, I think that I have already gone over the sea and to Valinor. Because you are all that I have ever dreamed about.

And now, my dream has come true.

I can feel you shiver under my touch. Oh, your skin on my own, your hands on my back and on my….oh, you touch me deep inside, my love. So deep. Never have I known that I could feel that way. So well, so passionate, so……loved.

Your hair tingles my neck and I have to suppress my chuckle. Oh, my love, how do you know where to touch me? It seems you already know all the spots on my body that make my skin tingle and my heart beat faster. Oh, Estel, our touch is so warm, so strong. Please, touch me.

Oh, and you do. Your hand resumes its gentle strokes and they become faster as you begin to feel and to enjoy what I am doing…..inside of you. I just knew you would like that. You feel so good, my friend. I feel my breathing quicken as my fingers do their work on their own. Oh, this is so good. I want to feel you. I want you to feel me. Soon. Soon……

The moan that you utter goes strait down my body and settles where your hand still rests. It is as if your voice alone, your moan of pleasure, opens the gates that have kept my desire inside. Oh Estel. I just cannot wait any longer. I love you so much. Since such a long time. I cannot wait any longer.

But I will if you need more time.

Oh meleth, I would give you all the time you needed and even if I would have to wait until the day that arda would be freed from the ever growing shadow….I would wait. Because you are worth waiting for. You have always been. I would not have waited all these long years if I had not thought that you were.

All these years. All these years I had been too afraid to just ask you. To show you. To let you feel my natural love and affection for you. Oh, how I regret it now. We have been together so many times. Have hunted together, joked with each other, defended one another. And all the time it could have been just you and me. Estel and Legolas. Not only two friends, but two lovers.

But alas, perhaps it was better this way. You needed the time. I know that, deep inside. But now, I know we are both ready. And we will finish what had been begun only a few days ago. Here and now. Because, meleth, I cannot wait any longer and I am unwilling to.

When I pull my fingers out you moan again and a sweet shiver raced down my spine. Oh, Estel, how could you….it is almost more than I can bear. Estel, you…. oh you make me feel like I have never felt before.

Your hand presses at my back and we come even closer. I just have to kiss you, to taste you. I place my desiring lips on your cheek and oh,…it is almost my undoing. Oh, Estel please, please, …..I love you so much that it would surely shatter my heart if you would reject me. Please Estel, please, we have come so far, oh please, my love.

I can feel you tensing and shifting on my lap. Yes, my lap, and no one else's. It is me who you are kissing, and oh,…..how much I love it. I love it Estel, oh please, here and now, from you and only you.

Your face is at my neck and I want to…..oh…….Estel what, oh this is so….don't stop, please meleth, don't stop. It feels wonderful, perfect, so well, oh, Estel, oh please, don't stop. Your hand has resumed its task and I can feel your own desire through it. And more, I can feel mine through you. Oh, Estel, just a bit more, just a bit more of your touch. Please….please.

And then, when I think that I can stand it no longer, when I think that I will burst from inside with passion and desire, your sweet lips press on mine and we kiss. Oh my friend, you taste so good, so warm.

And in this moment I realize that it does not matter if we do it or not. All I need is you, and it does not matter to me anymore in what way. You are here with me and you….you love me. That is all I need to kiss and our breaths become one. Oh, Estel, your touch on my skin, your hand on my body. Your tongue that strokes mine….Oh please, if this is a dream than don't wake me. Let me sleep and dream until arda is no more. I would be contend with this.

This feeling inside of me, it is as if,…as if suddenly my life is worth living. I feel wonderful, strong and powerful, as if I could lift a mountain and stop a running river with my bare hands. Oh my Estel, suddenly, the world looks brighter, like a….a perfect place. And that is your doing, my love.

Oh yes I know. It is your gift. But never have I thought that this gift could change my own life in this way. Oh, I love you so much, so much, with heart and body and soul.

Our lips part too soon. Oh, too soon. I want to taste you my friend. Oh please, let me taste you. With our noses still touching and our breathing still fast, I look into your eyes. Those stormy gray eyes that sparkle when you laugh and that sparkle even now. Just for me.

And I cannot withhold my question shining in my eyes. You know I would never do anything that you do not want to do and that is why I ask. I need you meleth nin, I want you. But only if you want it to.

And oh, you smile at me. A smile that I have never seen before. Mysterious and sheepish, desiring and lovingly. Oh, and then your lips find mine and that is my undoing. Estel, oh, my love, oh Estel, I love you more than you can guess.

It will only be you and me. Here and now.

Under the stars and the moon, with the trees whispering and the fire burning and our hearts beating in unison.

I lift you up a bit, just a bit. I can feel you tense slightly under my touch, but you relax as soon as my lips find yours again. Aye, that is right, my love. You will love what is to come, as much as I will, I promise.

And when I touch you, you moan in pleasure and you grasp my shoulder tightly. Oh Estel, let me feel you and you feel me.

I love you Estel, have I ever told you that?

Every day I will love you more and more.

I will love you till my dying day and beyond. Beyond the circles of this world.

Because, What does immortality mean if you have to endure it alone and without the love of your life?

End of chapter 14

Tbc, one chapter to go.

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