It had been three days since Ciel had been off tranquilizers. His life had become so emty without Sebastian. Hed lay in bed for hours simply missing him. He wouldnt cry. No one could know that he belonged to Sebastian or hed be locked in an institution. Alois had come by a few times to try to cheer him up, but it was useless. Nothing would ever give him the happieness that Sebastian had.
He sighed for the hundreth time and felt suddenly inclined to stare at his switch blade. He flipped it open and stared longinly at the blade. Hed come to find his own reflection a stranger. He ran his fingers down the blade and gasped a little as it broke through.. An accident yes, but it felt so good.. He expierimentaly pulled up his sleeve and drew a long gash.. The pain in his wrist was a good distraction from his emotions ripping him apart on the inside.
"Sebastian." It was only a whisper, but it caused his chest to tighten. His thoat suddenly constricted and he felt the hot tears coming. But he shook it off.
"Cry if you have to Ciel. Dont keep it bottled up." It was his mother walking past the door but she paused to check on him.
"Im fine mom." He turned and she sighed closing his door and walking away. She tried so hard to get the boy to talk about things.. Maby it would do him some good. But he was uninterested in talking.
Ciel opened his window. The roof was his own private retreat when he needed to think.. And this was one of those nights. He needed it .. and he couldnt stand being cooped up any longer.
"I miss you...I need you Sebastian." He knew the demon wouldnt come, but he called him anyway..
He shakily stood. He didnt want to live his life miserable like this. He wanted to be wherever Sebastian was.
Switch still in hand he pressed the blade to his neck and leaned into the wind. He could feel himself falling and he finaly let the tears fall jerking his hand back to cut his own throat.
Sebastian stepped out into the cool night air. He had found a house for him and his love.. All that was left was a new identity for the both of them and an occupation for Sebastian.
However, something wasnt right. He could feel it strongly. Ciel needed him. He was in danger and Sebastian was quick to move on his feelings. He wouldnt take the chance of finding CIel injured or worse.
Ciel screamed in defience when he felt the arms pull him back up and hold his hand from cutting his throat.
Ciels screaming wouldnt cease and the boy turned lashing out at Sebastian and stabbing him. He managed to knife him several times before Sebastian got a hold of his hands and Ciel realized who he was really fighting and collapsed onto him sobbing and smearing blood all over his face.
"Sebastian." Ciel choked out and embraced the demon tightly. "Sebastian Sebastian Sebastian." The demon tilted Ciels chin up to look in his eyes.
"You know that hurt more than expected." Ciel blinked and slipped the knife out of his indestructable lovers chest and let it clatter to the ground.
"Youre alive." Ciel was hyperventalating. His lips were captured in a rough and passionate kiss.
"I missed you love." Sebastian lifted him up and cradled him in his arms.
"Sebastian I love you dont ever do that to me again." He didnt miss that Sebastian was completly in demon form."
"You havent eaten.."
"No but that hardly matters.."
"My mom is in her bedroom... She wont fight back much Im sure.."
"Stop Ciel dont think like that. Shes your mother."
"Fine. This time were telling them though. They thought I was dead once.. Theyve been through enough."
"That can be arranged."
Ciel kissed him again.
"Good Im glad." Sebastian was left only to smile at him. Maby happieness really wasnt eluding Ciel.