Chapter 14

Mikan's pov

What the hell was I saying? Im fine with not being with him! I hate him. " Im not lying one bit, I just... Missed used my words a bit." I told her.

"Your lying." She said straight up. " Im sorry... I ruined it for you and him... If it wasnt for me, you two would have still been together." She muttered. I know what she is trying to say. I know she's sorry. Thats why I forgive her.

" You didnt ruin anything Hotaru... Realtionships dont always work out." I said.

She bit her lower lip. " Like me and Ruka?" She said softly. I looked at her. " He did Love...You, Hotaru." I said. She smiled a bit.

"But I didnt love him." She said. " Not one bit... Thats why its good that he has Amnesia... He can finally start fresh.. Without any of us in his life." She finished. She had to have some feeling for him? You cant just stay with a guy as nice as him and not have a little feeling for him.. I guess knowing Hotaru, Any thing is really possibal.

I heard her sigh. " Mikan, Im happy that I could finally talk to you and not cry... But... We need to go on with on with our lives... We cant be friends anymore, Im going to America and your going somewhere else... And I cant be your friend again knowing what I did." She said.

I got up from her bed and hugged her. " Stop being like that... This isnt the Hotaru I know." I said. " I forgive you... Im not mad one bit." I said. I broke the hug and smiled at her. Her face was surprisingly not pale anymore.

She looked at me. " If you forgive me, You forgive Natsume." She said. I was about to choke. " Why?" I said.

" Because he did something bad too, You forgive me you can forgive him." She said. I dont know if I want to see him. Last time I saw him was when I went to go see Ruka..

" Why would I forgive him! He's the one who was having sex... He didnt have too! he had a choice! What if Ruka cheated on you? Would you forgive him?" I asked. She smiled. " I wouldnt care... Because I dont love him one bit.." She said.

" Maybe we should just forget about the species of Man and move on with our lives." I said. Hotaru sighed. " Stop... You really cant change the fact that your still in love." She said.

She thinks Im still in love.. Honestly, I really dont think I am. " Whatever." I muttered.

Now the only thing running threw my mind was... Do I have my best friend back? I looked at Hotaru. " Are you still leaving?" I asked her. " Yes." She said.

" But why? And whats the point of leaving so early? We were suppose to walk together on graduation day... And... Your just gonna leave?" I said.

"Do you want me to leave?" She asked.

" No!" I exclaimed. " Not at all!" Hotaru sighed. " I have to go Mikan... Its such a good collage." She said. I looked at her with desperation. " Wich one?" I asked her. Hotaru brushed her hair back with her fingers. " Yale." She said. ( A/N: Thats the main collage I know xD)

" Arent we friends again?" I asked her.

" Mikan... We cant, I dont want to hurt you again." She said. I was looking at her with disbelief. Even if I forgive her, She will never forgive herself. I sighed.

" Mikan... Do you love Natsume?" She asked once more.

No... I didnt. I looked at her straight in the eyes. " No, I dont." I said. She smiled. " Your lying... Once again." She said.

" How did it go?" My mom asked. I sighed. " Great." I said. I dont know if I was lying or if I was telling the truth, I guess its both.

" Really? Thats great." She said.

In my house, all alone but me and my mother.. We cant even come up with a good conversation.

After about ten minutes someone knocked on the door. " Ill get it!" My mom and I both said. I laughed. " I got it." I said. I walked over to the door and opened it not even caring to say " who it it"

To my surprise it was Ruka. He was holding a basket full of fruits. " R-Ruka?" I said stunned. He rolled his eyes and handed me the basket. " Here." He said.

" Why are you giving me a basket? Im the one who should be giving you a basket." I said. He rolled his eyes once again. " My father thought it would be a good idea.. I dont know why though..." He said.

I gently took it. " Thanks." I said.

" Yeah , Whatever... I have a to leave... Im in a hurry, Natsume's got the car running." He said. Honestly, I hate his attitude. " Natsume?" I blurted out.

He looked at me. " Yeah... He took me here.. To this... House." He said it in a way to insult my home! I frowned.

" Mikan right? Well, I guess I will see you later.." He said. I frowned once again. " Wait." I said. He turned to me. " Are you leaving?" I asked. He looked surprised.

" Something like that." He said. I new it, He was going away to start fresh... Because he'll never get his memory back... He'll never be his old self. I think its best if I just left him alone with it.

"Oh... Have fun.. Then." I said. I closed the door before he could say anything else. I walked over to the kitchen and set the basket down. I saw my mother coming my way.

"Was that Ruka?" She asked me. I nodded. " You listened, didnt you?" I asked her. She laughed.

" Whats in the basket?" She asked.

"Uh... Obviosly fruit.. And... A card?" I said. I never noticed before. I ripped off the plastic and took out the card in the basket.

My eyes grew wide of what I read.

Ruka's pov

Did she just shut the door? God thats rude.

The only reason why I gave her the stupid basket was because Natsume just had to write her a note. That guy is so in love. I walked back to the car and smirked.

" Let me drive." I said.

Natsume looked at me surprised. " You remember?" He asked. I raised an eyebrow. " Remember what?" I asked him.

" Nothing." He muttered.

I rolled my eyes. " Fine, I will sit on the side." I said. I got in the car and looked at Natsume. " You okay? You looked kind of spooked man." He said. He ignored what I said and began driving.

" What happened between you two?" I said straight up. He looked at me and sighed.

" If only you could remember." He said.

Yeah... If only