Kathryn's Direction Chapter 14: Spring Break, a glee fanfic

It was Friday, but that wasn't the interesting part. School was almost over and we were in Glee club. The interesting part was spring break was almost here. I really hoped that no one would decide to sing something so we could just leave. Faith and Jessa had invited me to the latter's beach house. Cara, Daisy, and Sadie were also going to be there. It would be my first time going to the beach in a long time. I could use a tan. I didn't get the nickname porcelain because I was delicate and breakable. It was because of my very white skin.

Unfortunately, Rachel decided to sing something. Didn't she know that some of us had places to go. At least we weren't going to miss our flight. I wasn't even why Rachel even chose to sing that song.

Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you dragged me down but that was then and this is now

Now look at me

This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and stones, throw your bombs and bones, but you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no

Now look at me I'm sparkling, a firework, a dancing flame
You won't ever put me out again, I'm glowing
So you can keep the diamond ring, it don't mean nothing anyway
In fact you can keep everything except for me

After she was done, pretty much everyone was out the door. I was packed. I was nervous about going to the beach because I was pretty sure that there would be hot guys. I didn't know how my body would react to hot guys. I mean I wouldn't cheat on Blaine, but there were still other issues that could come from it. I did really want to go to the beach with everyone else.

I needed to talk to my dad before I left. This was going to be the first time that I was going on a trip without him. I was a little bit scared, but part of becoming an adult meant doing things without your parents. I had to understand that he wouldn't always be around.

"So are you alright to go on this trip?" He asked.

"I think so." I answered. "I like having friends that I can do stuff with."

"What about Blaine?" He questioned.

"It sucks that Blaine isn't going to be there, but I don't need to be around him all of the time." I replied. "One thing that all couples need to know is how they spend time apart. Plus, this will be good practice for when I go away to college."

"Well if you're sure about this." He declared. "Are you still going to get the procedure in a few weeks?"

"I am." I confirmed. "It's probably going to be after my NYADA audition. I love you."

I gave him a hug before I was out the door. We were going to be taking Jessa's family's private jet. It must have been nice to have that much money. I hoped that I would be that rich someday.

I was riding with Blaine to the airport since it made more sense than leaving my car there and it would give me a chance to say goodbye to him.

"So are you going to be okay with me leaving?" I asked him.

"Yeah I'll be fine." He declared as he sang along to the song on the radio." Blaine replied.

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive

Cause every time we touch I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast I want this to last
Need you by my side
Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you feel my heart beat slow I can't let you go

Yours arm are my castle, your heart is my sky
You wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

"Blaine, I'm just going to be gone for a week." I reminded him. "I'll make sure to call you when we get there."

I was impressed with the jet, but that wasn't too hard considering that I had only ever been on commercial flights. There was a bed in it which Cara was going to use. I really wasn't all that tired and I didn't know if I could sleep at such high altitude. It wasn't going to be too long of a flight anyway.

Jessa's beach house was really nice, but I assumed that all beach houses were nice. I still didn't know what I was going to do on the beach. After a quick call to Blaine, I stood on the balcony where Faith found me.

"So are you going to wear a bikini on the beach?" She asked.

"I don't know. I've never worn one before and I don't know how everything will work." I replied.

"Well I've seen you in panties and I didn't notice anything." She pointed out.

"Yeah, but I didn't have to deal with hot shirtless guys and possibility of having an erection in a bikini." I remarked.

"Can that happen?" She asked me.

"I don't even know. I don't have a lot of experience around shirtless guys." I admitted.

"How about you just wear a towel around your waist at first and you can see what happens?" She suggested. I supposed it could work.

I ended up wearing a red bikini with a red sarong wrapped around my waist. I knew that there was a chance of impotence as a result of hormones, but I still wanted to be safe. Of course, none of the guys were too hot that I was turned on just by looking at them.

"So, how do you feel?" Faith asked.

"You know it's not as bad as I thought it would be." I replied. I didn't know what I was expecting.

"Maybe it's because you're not really attracted to anyone but Blaine?" Faith suggested. I wasn't sure if that was a factor or if it wasn't.

"Well I do know one thing." I responded before I began to sing a John Mayer song.

This is a call to the colorblind
This is an IOU
I'm standing behind the horizon line
Tied up in something true

Yes I'm grounded got my wings clipped, I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle while I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly, someday I'll soar, someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines and it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame, if the flame's what it takes to remember my name
To remember my name, oh

That night we got invited to a beach party. It was actually a different party in that it was an LGBT party. I felt a little bad for Sadie because she didn't qualify as any of those…unless she was bisexual, but she wasn't to my knowledge. I wore a black and white plaid shirt and jeans with black sneakers. Faith and I were hanging out while Jessa was in the bathroom.

"So are you two together?" A girl asked. She had long brown hair and was taller than me wearing a white bikini top and black bottom with black flip-flops.

'No, I'm straight." I replied.

"Then what are you doing here?" She responded.

"I'm kind of a T." I answered with a blush. I didn't know why I was so nervous about it.

"Really? Me to." The girl replied with a big smile. "How long have you been transitioning?"

"Since this summer." I replied. It was kind of nice to meet someone like me. Maybe that was why Dr. Roberts wanted me to meet with them. "I'm Kathryn."

"Delilah." She stated. "So have you worn a bikini yet?"

Before I could respond, I noticed that Sadie had started singing. It looked like she had had too much to drink. She was still surprisingly in key.

I make the most of all this stress, I try to live without regrets
But I'm about to break a sweat, I'm freaking out
It's like a poison in my brain, it's like a fog that blurs the sane
It's like a vine you can't untangle, I'm freaking out

Every time I turn around something just don't feel right

Just might be paranoid, I'm avoiding the lines cause they just might slip
Could someone stop the noise I don't know what it is but it just don't fit
Consider me destroyed I don't know how to act cause I lost my head
I must be paranoid I never thought it would come to this I'm paranoid

Stuck in a room of staring faces, caught in a nightmare can't wake up
Can you hear me cry running through her street, I'm about to freak come on rescue me

When came time for the trip to end, Faith decided that we should do one of those scenes from the movie where we all go to the beach and look at the sunrise.

"You maybe we should see if we can find time once a year to see if we can do something like this again." She suggested. I didn't know if it was realistic to try to expect something like that. I liked being friends with them, but I didn't know if I could keep it up.

"This seems like a scene like a bad movie." Cara remarked. I didn't understand why it had to be a bad movie. Lots of good movies had scenes like that.

"What's wrong with a friendship scene?" Faith challenged. "There's nothing wrong with trying to stay connected with your friends. Well can make this last beyond high school and stay in touch. And since this is like a movie, it needs a cheesy credits song."

Uh oh, there you go again talking cinematic
Yeah you! You're charming, got everybody star struck
I know how you always seem to go
For the obvious instead of me but get a ticket and you'll see

If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing, watching the sunset
Fade to black, show the names, play the happy song, yeah

Wish I could tell you there's a twist, some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together, it's for real, now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss like something more than in my mind
I see it could be amazing

"So who's in?' Faith asked. Jessa was the first person to walk forward.

"Well, I obviously am, but that's not really a friendship thing." She remarked as she put her hand in.

"I guess I'm in too." Sadie replied. It still was more of a sister-in-law thing.

"I'll do it." I agreed as I walked over. It was worth a try.

"Why not?" Daisy stated as she joined us and that left only Cara.

"I'm not gonna do it." The blonde remarked.

"Come on, you know you want to." Faith urged. Cara let out a sigh.

"I can't believe that I'm doing this." She said before she walked over and put her hand on ours.

So Kathryn finally met somebody else like her. Delilah is played by Shailene Woodley. The songs are "Part of Me" by Katy Perry, 'Everytime We Touch" by Cascada, "Bigger Than My Body" by John Mayer, "Paranoid" by the Jonas Brothers and "If We Were A Movie" by Hannah Montana. Please don't forget to review.