Chapter 13:

I want you to make love to me. Relena couldn't believe her own ears when she said those words. Sure she wanted to and would be willing to, but she was still engaged to another man and she knew she shouldn't have even been kissing Heero.

She had no idea what she was going to do about Quinn. He was such a sweet guy and handsome too. He'd never done anything to hurt her and had always wanted the best for her. Did she love him? Yes, in a way she did love him but it was different than what she felt for Heero. What she felt for Heero was soul wrenching and she knew that no matter how much time passed, she was never going to feel that way about another man.

All know Heero was enthralled with kissing her neck he still knew she was distracted because he asked, "What are you thinking? Cause it's obviously not about what's about to happen."

Relena sighed. She was about to turn him down and she knew that it was for the best. She did it because she wasn't a bad person and knew that she wouldn't want someone to do this to her.

"I'm sorry, Heero. I know what I said and I meant it. I just don't think it should be right now. I'm still engaged and Quinn has no idea that I'm in love with you. I shouldn't have even let you kiss me and I shouldn't have kissed you back." Relena stepped out of his embrace.

"So what if he doesn't? You're going to end things with him as soon as he gets back anyways." When Relena didn't automatically respond Heero got suspicious. "Right?"

"I know that I need to. But I just don't know how without hurting him. He's been very sweet to me the entire time we've been together. And he doesn't deserve to be hurt." Relena said when she sat on the edge of the bed.

"We'll tell him together. We'll tell him that we've been in love since our teen years and that it's never faded. We'll tell him the truth and if he's a big enough person then he'll move on." Heero shrugged like it was something that could just be swept up under a rug, someplace in a corner, and just forgotten about.

That made Relena mad. "You don't have the slightest clue as to what type of person he is. You don't know him like I do. You haven't spent time with him like I have. And I know that when this comes out in the open it's going to crush him and he's going to be devastated. He loves me and I know what it feels like to have someone you love leave you."

"Relena, look, I'm sorry." Heero knelt in front of her and took her hands in his. Trying to give what little comfort he could.

"I just know how he is. And I'm scared that he's going to take it really, really hard and try and do something stupid." Relena just looked at the floor. She just couldn't meet Heero's eyes.

"I don't think he'll do anything dramatic. He's too refined for that. I think he'll be fine. He'll move on and find someone else who's willing to give him what he needs." Heero was trying to be considerate but all he seemed to be doing was digging himself into a deeper hole by the minute.

"What do you mean, "someone who's willing to give him what he needs"? I think I would've done just fine if you hadn't shown up. Things were going smoothly and I was learning to be happy again. I could actually smile and laugh again." Relena yanked her hands from his so fast even his reflexes couldn't catch up.

"Believe me I know." Heero stood and moved across to look out the balcony doors.

Relena looked confused. "What do you mean you know?"

He leaned against the door frame and sighed. "I saw you with him. It was a few months ago. You two were at a cottage and you'd gone outside looking for something and came up behind you and surprised you. Then… then I saw him kiss you. You guys fell on the ground and he told you he loved you and you said you did too. Then he proposed."

"Oh…" Relena didn't know what to say. She was stunned that he'd even been there. Then it all settled in and she was enraged. "You were there and you didn't come out and let me know? How could you? What were you thinking? Did you think that if you spied on me you'd get what you were looking for? And what on earth were you doing there anyways?"

"Trust me, I didn't get what I was looking for. Instead I got an eye full of the woman who's supposed to be mine all over another guy. Imagined how I felt about that." Heero turned to face her and crossed his arms over his chest.

"Oh, the nerve you have. What was I supposed to do? Sit at home and worry constantly about whether or not you were alive? Whether or not you were coming back? I don't think so buddy. I did what any girl would've done way before I did." Relena stood too. To make sure he knew that he couldn't intimidate her.

"What was that? Whoring yourself to another guy? Classic." Heero sneered.

Relena gasped and felt the prick of tears at the back of her eyes. She couldn't believe Heero just said that to her. She never thought he'd ever be so cruel to her. She didn't know what to do. All she knew was that she wanted him out of her room.

Relena pointed at the bedroom door that led into the hallway and whispered, "Get out."

Heero realized his mistake and kicked himself mentally for it. She wasn't a whore and he knew that. He was just angry that he hadn't been there for her. "Look, Relena, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it."

In a monotone voice she repeated, "Get out."

"Relena, please, forgive me for…" Heero didn't even get to finish his sentence.

"I said, GET OUT!" Relena had actually screamed at him. He couldn't believe it. So he did what he was told and left her room quietly.

Relena flung herself on her bed. She couldn't believe he'd actually had the nerve to say something like that to her. The tears started to trickle out of the corners of her eyes. She was angry, hurt, and disappointed all at the same time. She couldn't believe he'd been so cruel.

Relena cried herself to sleep and her last thought was, Well if he wants me to be a whore to another man…

So be it!