As the afternoon slowly turned into the evening Ronnie sat alone. With only herself in the flat she felt lonely,and the place felt cold without Danielle there. Her eyes stung from crying and had formed big black circles,her hair loosely tied up not bothering with herself. Ronnie wanted to help her baby,do anything in her power to make her feel happy and normal,seeing Danielle smile was the best feeling in the world. Had she hurt her too much? Was the past ever going to truly go away and leave them to be happy? Ronnie wasn't so sure,it seemed anything positive was instantly washed away by something bad. Danielle was visibly and emotionally broken,Ronnie being the only person to make things right,make it all go away. She deserved happiness,she deserved Danielle in her life.
Ronnie's eyes danced around her flat,nothing had any meaning or purpose without her child,nothing mattered. Letting out a long sigh she glanced over at the window,the sky began to darken and Ronnie had no idea what to do. All she could think about was the terrible argument from earlier,how Danielle firmly told her not to go after her. Ronnie picked up her phone maybe hoping Danielle had text her,no of course she wouldn't contact her,why should she? Yet again she had messed things up,caused Danielle to dis trust her,to leave.
Ronnie unscrewed the vodka and poured herself a large stiff drink. What was Danielle doing right now? Was she upset? Happy to be away from her? Ronnie hated not knowing if her baby was ok,she wanted to know Danielle needed her more than anyone else in the world. The tears once again formed in her eyes and she knocked back the drink,wincing as the strong liquid hit the back of her throat. Slamming the glass on the table she once again picked her phone up,she scrolled down her contacts and reached Danielle's name. Her finger stroking the keypad as she contemplated on ringing her,just to hear her voice and check she was ok. A loud knock on the door made Ronnie jump to her feet in hopes it would be Danielle. "Im coming!" she shouted running across the landing and unbolting the door. Ronnie's smile and hope fell simultaneously. "Roxy?" she frowned.
Roxy grinned and barged past Ronnie,she walked straight through into the living room equipped with several bags. "Where is she then? Right I got two films because I wasn't sure what you and Dan wanted to watch..and I got some chocolate and popcorn plus I got a couple of bottles of wine from the Minute Mart" she reeled off already unpacking her goodies on the coffee table.
Ronnie slowly began loosing all patience,she didnt want to see Roxy. She didnt want to see anyone that wasn't Danielle. As her sister started to chat about Amy and Jack,Ronnie walked into the kitchen and busied herself with washing up. She let the hot water fill the sink,she picked up Danielle's mug. Ronnie couldn't help but smile as she remembered Danielle insisting to wash up but Ronnie had shooed her away from the sink,she wanted to be the mum. All she could hear was her sisters annoying muffled voice as she began to wash up plates and glasses,every now and again she heard the word Amy.
"I was thinking we could have a proper duvet night,is Dan in the bathroom because I could really do with having a quick wee" Roxy frowned with her hands on her hips wondering why Danielle was no where to be seen. "Ronnie" Roxy spoke to her sisters back watching her stack plates on the draining board. "Ron!" she shouted walking into the kitchen.
Ronnie turned off the water and dried her hands on a tea towel. "Danielle isn't here" she announced leaning against the kitchen units. "She's gone" she said bluntly throwing the tea towel on the kitchen table. Sighing she ran her hands up and down her face,"I made her leave".
Roxy's brow creased,"What do you mean? I thought you two were ok? You seemed ok earlier,whats happened?" she asked peering around the corner of the room not quite believing she would have just gone. Roxy had made a truly fantastic bond with Danielle,most of the time they talked about Amy or Ronnie but the love was there. An easy friendship and Danielle felt more than comfortable around her aunt.
Ronnie grabbed the vodka bottle and glass and poured herself another drink,"You know the councilor I see? Well I thought it would be good if Danielle was to talk to him you know,help her with whatever problems she's having" she explained turning her back and fetching another glass for Roxy. "Well I made an appointment and Danielle found out and went ballistic" she handed the drink to her sister.
Roxy took the glass and knocked it back,"Why did you go and do that for? Surely Danielle can make her own mind up Ronnie?" she frowned. "Danielle isn't a baby anymore,shes an adult you cant just go around making every decision for her" she explained.
"She's my baby" Ronnie corrected necking her drink quickly. "I wanna help her Rox I dont wanna sit back and watch her suffer!" she snapped with an annoyed sigh. "Everything I do is wrong,she wont let me in and when she does I mess things up,i ruin it!" Ronnie shook her head reaching for the bottle again.
Roxy took the bottle of vodka and placed it behind her out of reach,"You think drowning you sorrows is gonna help eh? Why aint you over there making things right?" she asked.
Ronnie pulled out a kitchen chair and sat down,"Because she doesn't wanna see me,she told me not to go after her so what am I suppose to do!?" she rubbed her temples trying to shift a headache. "You should have seen her Rox,the way she looked at me..".
"Listen to me Ronnie you..your a brilliant mum ok?" Roxy took her sisters hand. "Danielle loves you more than anything and she knows how much you care about her. Your not gonna get things right all the time,she will come around just let her cool off" Roxy squeezed Ronnie's hands tightly. Things between the pair of them had gotten alot better since Danielle,Ronnie was alot more forgiving and began to let Roxy back into her life again. "You have got a moody teenager,just think ive got all this to come with Amy yet" Roxy joked trying to lighten the situation and make Ronnie smile.
"Well if shes anything like you your gonna have your hands full" Ronnie joked forming a small but genuine smile.
Roxy laughed moving her chair closer,"I mean it,Danielle is lucky to have you" she whispered wrapping her arm around her sister. "She'll come around you'll see" Roxy promised knowing the two couldn't be apart for more than a few hours let alone days.
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