Anime: Prince of Tennis

Summary: In my three years in Middle School, never have i hated him for being so Perfect. I respected him, admired him and aspired to be him. But was that all i felt for that stoic man?

Disclaimer: I don't own Prince of Tennis and any of it characters.

Attention: In this chapter, there are some few spoilers in the OVA of Prince of Tennis. For those who haven't reached Episode 20 of Prince of Tennis OVA, I am really sorry but I have added a short spoiler. It was hard to avoid because, the story is set at the time when the nationals was occurring.

Fears and Unwritten Emotions

Tezuka POV

I don't exactly know why I chose to stay in Fuji's place for the night. One thing is I was just thinking about the safety of Amasawa that I actually forgot that Fuji was one of the causes why I chose to forget about her. I knew that at least if Amasawa was under a roof, she would be fine. I forgot about who she's going to be with because this whole time I thought it was me who was going to be with her. But... I forgot that the house I chose was Fuji's.

This is a mistake I have to suffer on my own. At the very least, Amasawa chose to stay in Yanagi's place.

I looked at the hand that Amasawa held. I liked the feeling of holding on to her hand. It was something different but... I liked it. Damn it, I'm thinking of gay thoughts.

The door opened and Fuji came in. "Sorry if I had to let you use Yuuta's room. It's quite messed up but I hope it's good enough."

"Yeah, it's fine."

"Where's Amasawa? You said she was joining you."

"She said she wanted to stay with Yanagi for the night."

"Hmm, Yanagi Renji? Her best friend. It's hard to believe that they are close friends. Their personalities just don't match but..." He grinned, "I think I could match up with Amasawa, what do you think Tezuka?"

This made me twitch. What did he mean by that? Is he trying to start a fight? Fuji just seemed so different. There's something wrong here. And... Why didn't Amasawa want to stay with Fuji. Wasn't there something going on between them?

"Fuji"

"Hm?"

"What's going on between you and Amasawa-san?"

"Nothing, I just told her I like her." I was shocked. What? When did this happen, "I think she liked it, Tezuka. What do you think?

If I could just scream for him to shut up, I would gladly do it. But how come I can't say anything. How come all I did was just nod? Why am I like this!

"Are you very sure I could take her?"

And as if my body moved on its own, I nodded.

Amai's POV

"That idiot kissed me."

"Fuji Syuusuke did? It doesn't seem like him to do so." Renji said.

"Yes, are you sure you weren't dreaming?" Sadaharu asked through the speaker phone.

"Sadaharu, use your brain, do you think I was dreaming? I wouldn't be crying out this loud if I was dreaming!" I yelled at the phone.

"But well, other than pretending to forget that he confessed to you, what else have you done to him?" Renji asked.

"I tried very hard to get away from him and run away from him but all the tactics there are in the world are useless. One thing is he's my classmates, he's Sadaharu's teammate and he sticks to me like glue."

"Sticks to you like glue?" Renji said, "Why don't you just tell him you hate him?"

"Well, saying hate is hard just tell him you don't accept the confession." Sadaharu added

"I've wanted to say that but I've been thinking that maybe our friendship would disappear if that happens."

"Why should you think about friendship? I'm sure with someone who has a personality like his, he would just smile and agree with you. Right now, because he has no idea what's going on inside your head, he'll continue playing with you." Renji said as he closed the window of the room.

"That's right, Renji. Not only that, you do know that Fuji can't just ignore you so suddenly, Amai. You do realize that even if you get into a fight with Fuji, nothing will happen because he can get over it within a second. I still need to understand how he got such a personality." Sadaharu said.

"So, when I see him school, I'm just supposed to tell him that I can't accept his feeling?"

Renji nodded and Sadaharu said "Yes"

The lightning striked. "Ok! Can we get to sleep now! The lightning is killing me!!"

"I wonder how many more fears you have under your sleeve, Amai" Renji said.

"I agree, she shouts at everything. Well, then, I shall leave you too. Good night!" Sadaharu finally said

"NIGHT!!" I screamed unconsciously as another strike of lightning hit.

Sadaharu hung the phone up and Renji and I were alone again. "Can I stay beside you tonight?" I asked with the cute puppy eyed look that I can make. Well, I've slept beside these guys since we were kids. What's the problem of doing that now?

"Don't start dreaming that I'm a pervert." Renji said.

I smile and nodded. He pulled up the blanket and allowed me to go inside. "Night, Renji-kun"

"Night Amai-chan"

I closed my eyes then Renji suddenly spoke up. "What were those other fears? Uh, moths, bees, lizards, horror movies, lightning, being late for school, stage-fright, heights, fire, thun—"

"Oh shut up, just let me sleep." I said, interrupting him.

"Sure"

The night passed quietly... and the next thing I knew was that I was dreaming.

Tezuka's POV

I stared at the ceiling of Yuuta's room. I can't believe that this room never obtained a single cobweb. It maybe messy but it's still a room. But that's not what I'm concerned about. I'm just wondering how I ended up here. How did I end up in this messy life. It's a good thing I still haven't lost my respect for Amasawa Amai. If I never actually brought her home at that time, I wonder if I ever had the chance to talk to her. It's all thanks to her mom that I had the chance to have a short talk with her.

Yeah, I still remember. It was a talk about our career. She said she wanted to be a doctor even though she's an excellent writer. Which reminds me, what happened to that story she was writing about?

I remember, I used to wait for the school paper to come out just because I wanted to read her short one-shots. That was stupid of me. But ever since her corner of the school paper was deleted, I just noticed how much more interesting the other corners were. I wonder what I saw in her stories that made me not realize the existence of the much more interesting news in the paper.

I looked at my wrist watch and noticed that it was already 10 PM. I don't really know how long I've been day dreaming (if that's what you want to call it) but I think I need to sleep. A long run under the rain can make me feel real dizzy. And that was one of the longest times that I didn't wear my glasses (that excluded the time that I sleep.) Amasawa can make me do the dumbest things.

Respect?

I think she still deserves my respect. She's someone different, indeed.

I sat up and walked to the closest window. It was still raining hard and the lightning still kept on going. It seems as if rainstorms are mine and Amasawa's favorite. It always seems to be the weather when something occurs between us.

I heard a knock on the door. "Tezuka, are you still awake?" Fuji asked.

"Yes," I answered, "Come in"

I wonder what he wants at this time of night.

"I just thought about you and Amasawa." Fuji started. He sat on the bed and looked at me. "Have you ever wondered what had happened in the past month?"

"I had no time to think about her. Weren't we busy training for the nationals? Now that we've defeated Shitenhouji, I haven't wasted any time." I explained

"So, shall I give you a summary of what had happened in the past month?" He asked with a grin in his face.

"What good shall it give to me?"

"Maybe a peace of mind. Haven't you been wondering what has she been up to?"

He was right. Even while I was training for the Nationals, there were times when I thought about her. I still wondered if she would still go up to the rooftop to read her books. I still wondered if she was still writing her stories. Up till now, I still wonder what had happened between her and Fuji.

"Silence means yes, to my vocabulary."

I looked at him. But I didn't say a word.

"You're a man of few words, Tezuka." He grinned again, "So let me start."

I faced to look at the dark sky. It was raining really hard. The sounds of thunder can be heard and it sounded like giants stomping on earth. I wonder what's Amasawa doing at this moment.

"Amasawa hasn't changed much. After that small argument you had with her, she came to school still with a huge smile on her face. She had the same schedule everyday. Go to school at 730, study and wait till classes start. At lunch time, she still eats together with her classmates, and then runs to the rooftop. Then, when classes end, she stays in the classroom for another hour since she was busy writing her novel. It seems to me like she has finally finished it. I heard it's being passes around in class. A lot of our classmates like it. I'm still going to read it after four more people." He stopped, "Well, that was her everyday life."

"Is there anymore you want to add? If there is none, you can leave." I said

"Actually there is one more thing." He stayed silent. "What will you do if I told you that I stole her first kiss?" he chuckled softly.

I furrowed my eyebrows. I don't know, but I felt like I wanted to punch Fuji's face. But why? It was only respect that I felt, it's not like I like her. But... damn it... forget it.

"What does that kiss have to do with me?" I asked in reply

"Well, nothing. I was just thinking maybe," He stopped, I heard footsteps walk up behind me, "you were jealous?"

Then I snapped. I couldn't help myself. I held on to his shirt, pushed him to the wall behind me, and rested my right arm on his neck. I snapped and I still don't know why.

"Tezuka, what's the meaning of this?" He said, trying to breath from my grip.

I didn't have an answer.

"You really are jealous." He made a small smirk.

I pushed him harder against the wall and forced my arm on his neck.

"Then what's with the reaction, Tezuka?"

I let go slowly and never took my eyes of him.

"Don't give me that glare, Tezuka?" He walked to the door and finally said, "Maybe you should realize the feelings you have for her. If not, I'll really steal her from you, whether you like it or not."

This time, I just really wanted to punch him harder. But... these things shouldn't be happening.

"Good Night, Tezuka"

"Yes"

He closed the door and I heard footsteps going back to his room. Yes, these things shouldn't be happening at all. If I want to concentrate on the Nationals, we have to work as a team. If things don't get controlled between me and Fuji, I don't know what I can do.

My feelings for her? Do I even have any?

I lied down on the bed and closed my eyes. This time, I finally fell asleep.

A/n... uh... please review!