Chika arranged for me to go back too Shigure's until Keesa and Minori completed their own therapy. Which Kyo was more than unhappy to see me as I was to be there.
I was just starting my own therapy. I also found it was going to be difficult for the Kobiyashi's to adopt me as Hanako and Allen held on to their parental rights to me. Which upset me, Keesa and Minori.
When I was released from the hospital Hatori took be back to Shigure's. I really didn't want to be there and he knew that.
"Jade...I know you don't want to be here, it was either here or at the main house and I know you aren't fond of the main house, so here you can keep Shigure in line, and I'll keep you posted on your grandparents" he told me.
I nodded my thanks. "Hatori...I'm scared...what if I never get to see my grandparents again?" I asked him.
He shrugged. "I don't know, they were hurt pretty bad by your biological parents Jade...I can't make any promises" he said.
I sighed. "I hate them...I hate them for what they've done to me, for what they've done to my grandparents and for what they're doing to Keesa and Minori" I stated full of angry and hurt.
He patted my head and left. Tohru welcomed me back with open arms and took me back to her room. I sat there for a long while not saying anything to her.
"Jade you know this isn't forever right? It's just for a little while" she said softly.
I shrugged and hugged Kuma Tater-Tot before laying down. I noticed she left the room and I cried. Not very loud mind you. It wasn't fair, I just get where I was comfortable enough with someone and once again I'm yanked out and plopped in a place I couldn't stand. Tohru and Yuki weren't bad, it was that damn 'cat' Kyo and the pervert Shigure. I hate my life.
On days Tohru didn't have to work and days Yuki didn't have his student council meetings and with both of their help. I got the hang of the language. Reading, writing, and speaking it. They were both a big help to me. Hatori came by daily to take me to see Eri and Ayumu.
"Ayu, this is Hanako's daughter, our granddaughter Jade" Eri told him.
He looked at me with soft kind eyes and patted the bed for me to sit on. I sat next to him.
"I'm sorry mom didn't tell me about you guys, I would've love to come and visited you. I knew there was a big hole in my life and now I know why...don't leave me" I said to him softly.
He petted my hair softly and smiled. "Child I'm sure your grandma has told you we won't be around forever" he said as he looked to Hari. "Take a picture of me and my granddaughter, then one of my wife and Jade"
Hatori nodded and took our picture. I went to Eri and climbed on the bed beside her. He took my picture again.
"Now you'll have a memory of both of them" he said.
I didn't want to let them go and I knew they were only holding on because I wanted them to. "Don't go yet grams" I told her.
I slid off the bed and got on to Ayumu's bed. "Gramps, I'm sorry I didn't meet you before now...I wish I could've, I love you...good-bye" I said softly hugging him.
I heard the monitors beep as he flatlined and Hatori turned it off. I placed a kiss on his cheek. I slid off the bed and went to Eri and laid next to her.
"I'm so very happy to have met you. Thank you for being my grandmother, even though I just met you and we haven't gotten to do a lot of things together, I'm still happy to have met you...I love you Grams, go join Gramps" I told her kissing her cheek and laying next to her.
Hatori turned off her monitor as well. "Jade, we need to go now...you can hug Tohru and your bear when you get to Shigure's" he said taking hold of my shoulder gently.
"I don't want to leave, not yet" I said clinging to Eri's arm. "I'm not ready...I want Keesa.."
He nodded and went to call her and told her what happened. I ended up falling asleep and when I woke again Tohru and Keesa were there.
Tohru hugged me and told me she understood what I was going through, but I really don't think she does. Keesa helped me off the bed and we sat on the really uncomfortable couch and she held me. I cried. I watched as Tohru paid her respects to my grandparents.
"Come on Jade...you've done a great justice to them by letting them go, they will watch over and guide you through out your life. And Hatori gave me pictures of them that he took and a will for you from Eri" Keesa told me. "The pictures you can keep and I'm sure we can find some of them when they were younger so you can see then to now"
Tohru nodded. "That's right, I only know my grandfather on my father's side (A/N: please don't hurt me if that's not right but I think it is) and he is the sweetest man I could've ever asked for for a grandparent, I didn't know my other grandparents, so you see...I do understand" she told me softly.
I went and hugged her. "Tohru...can we go back home with Keesa and she can help me look over this will to see what Grams left me?" I asked.
She nodded. "Of course"
"You can't come back to the house yet Jade...Minori is really upset with you for leaving, but what you said was true, we have things to work on before you come home...but we can go get whatever you want to eat or drink and talk about it" Keesa told me.
"I'm sorry...but I didn't like the fighting and agruing you were doing...that's how it always started. I disrupt peoples lives and they end up cursing my name because apparently a child of the devil" I said. "Don't deny it...it's been said for every foster family I've lived with"
"Why didn't you tell us sooner? We would've started therapy sooner"
"I did and neither of you listened to me. Funny how it takes me running away for people to actually hear what I have to say...I hate that, it's unfair to me, let's just go to the cafe across the street and get something light and a drink" I said starting to walk away.
Tohru followed me and Keesa followed her. We went to the cafe across from the hospital and found a booth to sit in. I sat next to Tohru. I saw the hurt on Keesa's face when I didn't sit next to her. I wasn't really one to show my emotions but today was different, my grandparents just died. The server came to take our order. I ordered fries and a chocolate milk, Tohru and Keesa ordered a tea.
We talked about the will. Since I had known them a short time, everything was left to me. It got changed from Hanako getting anything to me, house and everything. I'm sure Eri told Hanako and it just pissed her off to know she wouldn't be getting the house. Maybe that's why she beat us? Maybe she'll be charged with manslaughter or something.
Our order came and asked the server for paper and pen and she went off to get it. Before long she came back with what I asked. I wrote a letter to Hanako and Allen stating how much I hated them for everything they did to me and how much they ruined my life.
"I don't think you should write that" Keesa told me.
"Are you in therapy with me? Do you go with me? NO! Yuki does, he takes me and brings me home and MY therapist told me I needed to write my feelings out about my parents and that's why I'm doing, who are YOU to tell me I shouldn't write this?!" I snapped near tears again.
She was taken aback by my anger. At least I didn't swear. Keesa paid for all of stuff and left. I grabbed my stuff and Tohru to let's go.
Keesa hadn't got far from the cafe. "Mama, wait..I'm sorry...I'm just upset, I didn't mean it" I told her.
She turned and looked at me. "Do you really want to be a part of my family?" she asked.
I nodded. "You know I do, you've already seen me through a difficult time with finding out that I'm allergic to pitted fruits and eggs...I'm sorry I'm such a bother but if you really don't want me...I'll just go somewhere else, all I really want is to be your daughter and to be loved and not be so hurt all the time...please accept my apology" I said bowing to her.
"You need to continue therapy...you need to quit having so many outbursts like this. It makes it difficult for us to know if you are happy or sad, or ready to punch us...and I'm sorry for telling you, you shouldn't write tht letter to Hanako and Allen, you should get your feelings out one way or another. Do you need another journal? I can give it to Minori to give to Tohru or Yuki" she said hugging me.
I held her tight. "School isn't going to be the same without seeing her...what am I going to do?" I asked.
"I'll tell Minori that you need to make an announcement to the school" she told me. "We'll see you soon Jade, be good okay?" she questined.
I nodded and hugged again. She walked away and we went towards Shigure's.
"Tohru..I need to give this to Hanako and Allen, can we stop by the jail?" I wondered.
"Not tonight, it's late and I would want Yuki and Kyo here with us" she told me.
"Okay...I'll finish it and send it" I told her.
She nodded. "That's a wonderful idea Jade, don't forget to write something about Eri" she said gently.
Before we could even start walking home Yuki showed up.
"Miss Honda, are you alright? We were getting worried about you. Miss Jade, how are you? Hatori told us what happened. I'm sorry you had to go through that" he said softly taking my hand.
I turned and hugged him. When I did I heard a pop. Where did that keep coming from. When I looked Tohru had Yuki's clothes in her arms and was holding a rat.
"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" I said. "Where's Yuki?" I asked.
She shrugged and started walking home with me and this rat. Why do I ruin everything with everybody? Am I doomed to be alone and living at Shigure's for life. I hope not. I know I hurt Keesa with my attitude but I doubt she'll understand what I'm going through. My mouth often over rides my ass and as a result I push people I care for away. (A/N: My mom often says that)
Once we get back to Shigure's I got straight to Tohru's room and curl up with Kuma. I release the tears that have been there all night. I end up crying myself to sleep.
Yes, this chapter is sad and I debated over this. I didn't want Eri or her husband to die but with all the internal problems they were having it was better for Jade to release them so there was no pain. I promise soon she'll be with Keesa and Minori. See you all in the next chapter!