Perfect. He thought as he started to carve her name into his skin in bold english letters. That looked something like,
UZU HATAKE, and even carved a little heart into the bloody skin under the name. Yes, that was perfect. He liked the fact that she had his last name now. He would be calling her Hatake with an almost giddy joy, just to see what she did. After checking his work with a small compact mirror, he then turned to Uzu, who had watched him with open curiousity, and now her face looked something along the lines of furious. "Dont you dare." she hissed.
It was'nt bad enough that he had mated them together, but now he was going through the steps of soul, and life force binding. She would kill him first. He gave her a devious smile as he straddled her hips, and placed the blade against the soft, smooth skin of her stomach. "I have too." He said as he applied a little bressure breaking the skin. She jerked her wrists, in an effort to get free.
"I'll fucking kill you, Kakashi. Dont you dare do it." He paused and looked at her. He had never heard that tone before. She sounded like she really would kill him. Why would she do that? Why would she want to stop him so much? They were already mated, this was just the next logical step. He was confused, she could see it clearly when he stared her in the eyes.
"Why are you-" He started to ask, his mis matched eyes pleading for her to understand that he needed to do this. He could'nt stop himself, he no longer had the will to stop himself.
"Because your not giving me a choice! I should have a choice in this, should'nt I!" Uzu cried as she tried to sit up, tried to throw him off of her. He lay the blade on the table beside the bed and went over everything that had happened since he had met her. Was that why she had run from him? Because she had'nt had a choice? He suddenly felt sick, what was he doing? She was his mate, that should be enough, but it was'nt.
His heart clenched painfully and he started crying. He could'nt help it. It had never been his intention to hurt her, to take her choices from her and yet that was exactly what he was trying to do. What was wrong with him? Why would he hurt her so much when he loved her more than his own life. He didn't understand.
"I dont know what's wrong with me. I did'nt mean to hurt you. I just cant seem to control myself. I've waited for you.....for so long. It hurts. It hurts, I didn't think it would hurt this much. I dont know what to do. What should I do?" He yelled as he flung himself across the room. Uzu watched him sink to the floor sobbing, his arms wraped around himself. Kakashi.... Uzu thought as he cried. Her heart ached, she was'nt mad about being mated to him anymore, she was far too worried about his health to care about her own.
He kept saying that he loved her, that he had waited for so long, it had'nt really made any sence to her until now. Had waiting for her to find him finally broken him? Or had something else broken him long ago, and he was looking to her to heal him? Damn it. She didn't know what to do. She wanted to help him, but she was begining to think that she would only make him worse.
"Kakashi, look at me." she said, trying to keep her voice from shaking. He looked, tears slipping down his cheeks as his eyes met hers.
She gave him a wane smile, "I'm not mad. I dont mind, being your mate. But I need to get to know you, and you need to get to know me. Please untie me, and I'll hold you until you feel better. Okay?" He nodded and slowly moved back to the bed. Picking up the knife he cut the silk scarves, and then stepped back, anticipating an attack as she sat up. She rubbed the feeling back in her wrists, and then held her arms out to him. He didn't say a word, he just sank to his knees in front of her and put his arms around her waist and buried his face against her skin.
Uzu combed her fingers through his hair, and hummed softly. She needed him calm or he might become a danger to himself, and her. When she ran out of songs to hum, she started singing. The sound of her voice, cupled with her fingers combing through his hair, giving him a measure of comfort that he had never felt before, and eventually lulled him to sleep.
Uzu was'nt sure how long she sang to him, even as he slept, but he did seem much calmer now. He had slept the rest of the night and half of the day, before waking up sprawled on the bed, and started looking for her when he noticed the bedroom door was open. He narrowed his eyes as cold rage seeped into him mind. Had she run away from him again? He got up, pulled on a pair of sweat pants and went walking through the apartment. Systematically checking them for her, until he found her in the kitchen. He sighed in releif as he watched her cook.
He stood there studying her movements for almost ten minutes before she turned and nearly dropped the plate of food that she had just put together in suprise. "Jesus H. Christ, are you trying to kill me?" She asked as she put her hand over her heart and leaned back against one of the counters.
He gave her a bemused look and raised a brow, at what she was wearing. She had gone through his stuff, and pulled out a long sleeved black shirt that hung almost to her knees. He already knew that she was'nt wearing any panties under it, but he could'nt help but wonder why she had chosen that to wear, of all things.
"Did you sleep okay?" Uzu asked as she set his breakfast down on the kitchen table. He nodded and eyed the food. It looked good, but what if she had poisoned it? She must have caught the dark look on his face because she walked over to his plate and picked up the fork and ate several bites of everything.
He watched her put her hand over her mouth, as she turned to him and spoke around the food. "Sit down and eat damn it."
He bit the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing at her muffled words and sat down and started to eat. He had been wrong about the poison. But right about it looking good. And it was, he could'nt remember the last time someone had cooked for him outside a resteraunt, that is. Uzu joined him a second later with her own plate and two cups of orange juice. He looked up at her as she sat his cup down, and gave her a gratful look.
"Thank you." He said after wolfing everything down, and sat back to study her while drinking his juice. Something had changed in her since he had let her go last night night. But he could'nt quiet figure out what. She blushed and picked at her food. Having someone like him watching you while you ate made one self concious about their eating habits. Uzu was no exception to this, she often ate like a starving animal.
Wolfing down everything in sight and then some. Sarutobi had told her more than once while eating with her, that he was afraid to reach for seconds out of fear that she would chew off his hand or something. She had always told him he was an idiot, but now she was'nt so sure. What if she really could strip the human hand of it's flesh in under five seconds flat? Kakashi saw the comical expression on her face and wondered what she was thinking as she pushed the plate away and drank her juice.
"Are you alright?" He asked as he put his half empty cup down and started to stand up so that he could walk around the table and check her for any signs of illness, or injury. She squeeked and jumped ot her feet knocking over her chair.
"No, no, no! I mean, yes I'm fine. Dont worry, I'm fine, I'm just not hungry any more thats all." She said with a nervous laugh. She's a lousy liar. He thought as he watched her pick up the chair and put back upright before sitting back down again.
"Are you okay? I mean after you broke down last night, you really had me worried." Uzu said as she reached out and placed her hand on top of his. Was he okay? He felt alright. But he never really knew what he was doing until it was too late. Maybe he needed a doctor, or a theropist? No, he was fine. He just needed the woman across from him, she was more essental to him than the air he breathed. Seh was all that mattered, and she had requested that she be courted by him.
It was'nt the easiest task she could have given him, but he respected it, and her, and he would do his damnest to do as she had asked him or he would die trying. I wanna touch! His inner child whined. Who knew that having his mate wearing one of his shirts would get him so hot? Gods he was going to die from this courting period. He just knew it.
"I'm fine. Much better now." He said as he lay his other hand down on top of hers, and closed his eyes, savoring the slight contact as his body roared to life. Training, today they had team training. Damn it he wanted to play hooky!
Before they had left his apartment Kakashi had told Uzu to shower, and gone out for a bit and gotten her some new clothes to wear since her other clothes were ruined beyond recognition. He had then stood out side his bedroom bathroom (since the other one was unusable for the moment) waiting for her to come out.
When she did, he had nearly pounced on her. She looked so cute with her long hair twisted up and one of his tiny towels wrapped half way around her. Her skin flushed from the heat. He had actually whimpered and tried to think of things that were'nt sexy. Drown kittens. Headless chickens spurting blood. The third Hokage wearing a thong and bending over. Whew, he felt better now. That last thought had totally killed his sex drive.
Thrusting the bag of clothes into her hands he then quickly exited the room to give her some privacy. Once she was dressed, and her hair was pulled back they left the apartment and walked together to the bridge.