Once Cody had calmed down Anna drove them back to her apartment.

The moment Cody got inside he walked over to her couch and sat down. He had red eyes with dark circles underneath. He bent over, putting his elbows on his legs, and put his face in his hands, "What a waste of time," He mumbled.

Anna walked over and sat beside him, gently rubbing his back, "You had to try."

He lifted his head and sighed, "I should have listened to you and Zack," He said as he stared straight ahead.

"You did what you felt needed to be done."

"The nightmares are gonna start coming back again. They had stopped for a little while, but I know they'll be back."

"And I'll be here if they do."

They were both silent for a moment as they thought about what had happened earlier that day. After a couple of minutes Cody broke the silence, "I'm sorry," He said in a whispered tone.

"What for?"

Still looking straight ahead Cody began to explain, "I broke down. I was weak. I couldn't keep it professional."

"You are kidding, right?"

Cody shook his head, "No."

"Look at me Cody," Anna said softly. When Cody didn't respond she placed her hand on his chin and comfortingly turned his head for him, "As far as I'm concerned no one in this world is as brave as you," She moved her hand off of his face and placed it on his leg, "You walked into a room with a man who both emotionally and physically abused you and your brother. You asked him questions about a case and..." Ann sighed, "What I'm trying to say is, you kept it more professional then anyone I know. Most people would have broken down right in that room... If they would have even gone in. But you, you kept calm for as long as you could, and when you couldn't any more-"

"You mean when I yelled at him?" Cody interrupted.

Anna nodded, "Yeah... I'm pretty sure you scared him a little."

Cody rolled his eyes, "Yeah right."

"I'm serious. I mean, I could only see the back of his head, but I could tell. I'm good at reading people... Well criminals," She corrected as she thought about Walter, "And I could tell by a slight change in his tone that he was surprised."

Cody stood up and walked over to the medium sized window in Anna's living room, "Even if that's true, which I'm not sure it is, we still didn't learn anything about our serial killer."

Zack leaned his head over to rest on the steering wheel. He had just pulled into the parking lot at his apartment. He closed his eyes and began to think back to the day he and Cody were kidnapped.

"I can't wait to get back to the Tipton! I have so many pranks planned that will drive Mosbey insane! It's gonna be epic! This Christmas break will be awesome."

"Uh-huh," Cody replied, not fully listening to what Zack was saying.

"Like this one where I turn off the heat and..."

Cody cut him off, "Zack, don't you think you should stop all this pranking? I mean we're sixteen years old. It's kinda immature."

"No way! Who cares if it's immature? It's fun."

"I just think..."

Zack waited for Cody to finish the sentence, when he didn't, Zack turned around, "You just think wha... Oh my God!"

He opened his eyes,raised his head from the steering wheel, and stared out the windshield. He hadn't thought about that horrible week for years. Cody was always the one thinking about it. No one could blame him, Cody had been through the worst part. Sure the emotional abuse was horrible, but Zack knew it was nothing compared to what Cody had to go through. But now, since seeing James again, all Zack could think about was that week.

"You know," James said, "I was gonna go easy on you for a while, but now, I don't think so. So while you sit in here and think about what you tried to do, I'm going to take Cody into the room next door and teach you both a lesson. You can sit and listen to him scream and beg for mercy."

"No. No! Don't hurt him, "Zack cried out, "Take me. Take me instead."

"Nope. He's gonna pay for your mistake. Come on Cody."

James grabbed Cody's arm and began leading him out of the room. A tear fell from Cody's face as he looked back at his brother.

"Please take me! Please!" Zack continued to cry out, even after the door was shut and locked.

A tear escaped Zack's eye. The memories were flooding through his mind. He was even surprised at how perfectly he remembered everything. He had placed the memories in the back of his mind for so long that he hoped he could forget alot of it... But he hadn't.

As soon as James left the room Zack crawled over to Cody.

"Oh my God!" He said in shock as he saw the blood on Cody's boxers. It was the only thing Cody had on.

"Cody, what did he do to you?" He asked as he slowly helped Cody turn over.

Cody didn't reply. He just stared at his brother as tears fell down the sides of his face.

"I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have tried to hurt him. If I wouldn't have done anything then he wouldn't have hurt you! I'm so sorry!" Zack cried as he looked at his helpless brother.

"Don't be sorry," Cody whispered, "It wasn't your fault. You were trying to get us out of here."

"I won't let him do that to you again, Cody. I swear, I won't let him hurt you again."

Zack always regretted making that swear.

"One!" James said with a smile as the whip neared Cody's back.

"AH!" Cody yelled.

"Two!"

"NO!"

"Three!"

"Stop!"

"Four!"

"Please!"

"Five!"

He remembered Cody falling to the ground. He remembered trying to scream but no sound could be heard through the tape that covered his mouth. He hadn't felt the pain of the whip as Cody had, but he felt the pain of guilt. Guilt that he had sworn to his brother that he wouldn't get hurt again, yet not being able to do anything to stop it.

Zack tried to wipe the memories away. He tried to stop thinking about it, but he couldn't.

"Zack," Cody whispered.

Zack gasped when he heard him speak, "What is it Cody?"

"I don't think... I'm gonna make it."

Those words... Those words made Zack feel as if his heart had been struck by lightning. He could remember exactly how Cody sounded. It was right after Cody had been raped for a second time.

Even after they had been rescued there were some days where Zack had wished they both would have just died. Cody had to stay in the hospital for such a long time. There were so many surgeries, so many nightmares, so much pain. Carey was always there for both Zack and Cody, but sometimes Zack didn't want her there. He didn't want her to pat his back or to try and be comforting. He just wanted to be left alone.

And Cody... Cody wouldn't let anyone touch him for the longest time. Anytime Carey even tried to hold his hand, or touch his shoulder for comfort, he would jerk away. Eventually he got to where Carey could hug him and he would flinch too much, but it took a while.

There were days where one second Cody would be laughing on the couch watching a movie, and the next second he would be crying his eyes out. There were days were Cody would go to get a shower and thirty minutes later the water would still be running so Zack would have to go check on him and Cody would be sitting on the shower floor, soaking wet with his boxers still on, crying.

There were times where Zack would be walking down the street and someone would simply raise a hand, not even directed at him, but Zack would gasp and have a sudden fear that he was going to be hit. Of course neither Zack or Cody were allowed to walk the street by themselves so they were always with Carey or someone that Carey approved of, but nonetheless, Zack was afraid.

Or he would hear a man saying certain words like "pay" or "fun" and he would automatically think James was around, even if the man didn't sound like James.

When Zack snapped out of all of his horrible memories he realized that his face was covered in dried, and fresh, tears. He wiped them away, even though more immediately took their place, and he looked at the clock in his car. He realized he had been sitting in his car for over an hour.

But right now he couldn't go into his apartment. He couldn't be around Ella and Cassie. He pulled out of the parking lot and left the apartment complex. He didn't know where he was going, but he just needed to go. He needed to drive. He needed to be alone.

First of all: I am going on vacation on Thursday and I won't be back for a week. I will try my best to post one more chapter before I leave.
Second: My reason for writing this chapter is because #1: I had never really shown Zack's emotions, just Cody's. In Shattered I wrote little bits and pieces about Zack, but never anything in depth. #2: Because I skipped so many years between Survival and Shattered I never really said (not in details anyway) about how it was like for them for about the first 6-9 months after being rescued. I wanted to go into that a little bit more, and instead of doing it through Cody, I decided on Zack. I think it worked... I hope you agree! Let me know what you think.