Chapter 13: I Love You

Bellefluer, Oregon

8:07 PM

Mulder's motel room.

He is lying on his bed looking at the files that Teresa Hoese gave them. He looks up at a knock on his door.

MULDER: Who is it?

SCULLY: (outside) It's me.

He opens the door. Scully stands in the doorway shaking, he looks at her concerned.

MULDER: What's wrong, Scully? You look sick.

SCULLY: I don't know what's wrong.

MULDER: Come in.

He draws her into the room and she sits huddled, shivering, on the bed. He closes the door and goes to her.

SCULLY: I, um... I was starting to get ready for bed and I started to feel really dizzy- vertigo or something- and then I just... I started to get chills.

He turns down the sheets and blankets on his bed.

MULDER: You want me to call a doctor?

SCULLY: No, I just... I just want to get warm.

She climbs onto the bed, pausing as Mulder takes off her shoes and drops them to the floor. She gets under the covers and he tucks her in, then lies behind her and embraces her in a spooning cuddle.

SCULLY: Thank you.

MULDER: It's not worth it, Scully.

SCULLY: What?

MULDER: I want you to go home.

SCULLY: Oh, Mulder, I'm going to be fine.

MULDER: No, I've been thinking about it. Looking at you tonight, holding that baby... knowing everything that's been taken away from you. A chance for motherhood and your health and that baby. I think that... I don't know, maybe they're right.

SCULLY: Who's right?

MULDER: The FBI. Maybe what they say is true, though for all the wrong reasons. It's the personal costs that are too high.

She begins to cry silently. He whispers gently into her ear.

MULDER: There so much more you need to do with your life. There's so much more than this.

He gently strokes her face as she cries.

MULDER: (whispering) There has to be an end, Scully.

He softly kisses her cheek and leans his head on her shoulder. She clasps his hand and holds it near her mouth.

SCULLY: (whispering) I know what you saying is true but I won't leave you alone.

MULDER: Then stay here tonight, I wanna make sure you're ok.

She nods agreeing and closes her eyes with a sigh.

SCULLY: Thank you Mulder

MULDER: Don't thank me honey

She smiles and turns to look at him, he has his eyes closed and a serious expression, she moves a little more laying in her full back for look at him better, he has his arm over her chest and finally opens his eyes looking straight into hers.

MULDER: What?

SCULLY: Honey?

MULDER: Yeah, you don't like it?

SCULLY: Well… I don't know… I think I do, it's just... new.

MULDER: Then honey it is.

She smiles again and turns facing him, he is still looking at her, but her lips, she moves forward and kiss him, putting her hand over his waist pulling him closer, he holds her neck and kiss her slowly, feeling her shaking body close to him, he pulls away looking at her worried.

MULDER: Scully, you are sick

SCULLY: Mulder I will be fine, I'm a doctor

MULDER: Are you sure?

SCULLY: I'm sure

She smiles looking at him with all her love, he pulls her closer making her put her head under his neck, she sighs and holds him tighter.

SCULLY: I love you Mulder

He laughs caressing her hair

SCULLY: What?

MULDER: Finally

She smiles and try to say something but he talks first.

MULDER: I know you said it before but you were drunk.

SCULLY: I mean it that time too.

He kisses her head and smiles, she loves him, that's all he always wanted, his heart aches with pain, she loves him.

MULDER: I love you too honey, now go to sleep, I'm here.