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Alice sees!

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POV: Nadira

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School was really different, now that Logan and Taylan had imprinted, they spent as much time together as they could, which was harder for Logan with Romy being a senior. I must admit that I do miss hanging out with Taylan, luckily Fathiya and I get along great, so I still see him often, we all sat together at lunch too.

The three new wolves phased last week were allowed back to school today, so they joined us at our lunch table, were they didn't have to be so careful what they said. Unfair as it sounded to me, both Romy and Fathiya were already completely up to date and new everything about the wolves and even imprinting.

When I asked Embry about it, he said the problem with us was the age difference and the fact that I had been through so much already, that they were reluctant to add to it. Imprinting was kept even longer so I wouldn't feel pushed onto Embry who was already waiting for me, so that ant guilt I felt wouldn't influence my decision.

Yeah, because what he did was so much better, waiting for me to find out on my own, wasn't hard for me at all, right. Embry and me were having problems, ever since the week of the birthday party, well actually I was treating him terrible, pulling him close, pushing him away. He doesn't understand, it's not his fault, it's mine of course, no this isn't some guilt trip it really is my fault.

"Nadira, hello! Are you in there?" Fathiya's hand was waving in front of me.

"Hmm, oh sorry" I had spaced off, while she was talking to me.

"That's ok, you seem, how do I say this, conflicted, are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, don't worry about it"

"Now, Nadira, how do you expect us to be friends if you won't talk to me" she said in a disapproving manner.

"Just thinking about Embry" it wasn't a lie.

"You should be looking a lot happier while thinking about your boyfriend" she disagreed.

"We haven't been doing so great lately"

"I don't understand, you're his imprint right, he would want to make you happy right"

"It's not him that's causing problems, it's me, he doesn't know what I want"

"Well, why don't you tell him then?" Fathiya was clearly wondering what my problem was.

"It's not that easy. Ok, the first few weeks we were together things were really great, until I was making myself uncomfortable with worrying about moving too fast, so I asked him to slow down" he really was trying to accommodate me. "But after a while I did want to move forward a little…" I was cut off by Taylan.

"Ow, gross Nady, I don't want to hear that!" my mouth snapped closed.

"Now, you listen to me, keep talking like this and we'll never move forward!" her hand moving between the two of them. "If you don't want to hear it, I suggest you go somewhere else, cause she's gonna talk about it and I'm gonna listen!" wow, look at her go.

"Never mind, I'll stay" he muttered.

"Were were we, oh right, moving forward" she gestured me to continue.

"A little yes, but he being the perfect gentleman that he is, pulls away when things get a little heated, the only thing we have done so far is kiss!" before Fathiya could answer.

"What, are you kidding me, the guy is 24 and all you do is kiss?!" Taylan interrupted again.

"You're not getting it doofus! It's about her not him, she's only 17 remember! Will you stop intruding on our conversation!" she was so not the timid girl I had her pegged for.

"So, if you find it difficult to tell him, why don't you initiate it"

"That's just it, I did, at the birthday party, I practically jumped him, but he questioned my motives. What was I supposed to tell him, yeah sweetie I'm so afraid of losing you, I wanna be close to you"

"Are you afraid of losing him?"

"Yeah, I didn't initially, but after seeing Taylan get hurt, I realized it could happen to Embry too" that's where I lost her, her attention was now fully on Taylan.

"Getting hurt, what does she mean by that?!" a mixture of concern and anger was in her voice.

"it was nothing really, there were some leeches…" he was explaining her what had happened.

My mind wondered again, never would I be able to tell him I wanted more, I would be so ashamed, old values placed in my head by that stupid chauvinistic Arab I had for a father, were still there. I didn't even want to admit it to myself, but that was part of the reason I wanted to wait for my wedding night, while the other part of me absolutely didn't, which made me ashamed of myself all over again.

The bell rang and we got up to get to class, Fathiya grabbed me quickly and pulled me aside.

"Sorry for that, but I just wanted to say, don't jump him next time, be subtle!" then she ran off to her next class.

Would that work? Well it was worth a shot.

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When I came home from after school Leah was in the kitchen, making dinner.

"Leah, I'm supposed to do that!"

"Nadira, you have to stop this, I'm perfectly capable of cooking, Emily won't let me work and I have to do something!" I stood next to her and let my head lean against her shoulder, we have gotten so close, she feels like a mother to me.

"You're not sick or tired or anything?" wanting to make sure she was ok.

"I'm fine sweetie, stop worrying" she threw an arm around me and I gently put my hand on her growing bump. Her morning sickness had disappeared, like Carlisle predicted, which resulted in her looking healthy again and although she wasn't even 4 months along, she was really starting to show, with two babies growing in there her belly would get big a lot faster than with one.

We spent the afternoon together in the kitchen, chatting and cooking, when Tom came home we had a lovely dinner together. I was closer with Leah than with Tom, but I always felt safe and at ease around him, that was quite a lot for me. After dinner I went to my room, since it was Friday, Embry probably would come over tonight, he usually did on Friday.

My phone rang, so I started going through my bag, as usual I couldn't find it. Follow the sound, follow the sound, yes there it was!

"Hello?" no time to check caller ID.

"Nadira, where are you?!" Embry's voice sounded urgently through the speaker.

"I'm home, why?" he sighed in relief.

"Stay there, I'll be there in a minute" then he hung up, he had me worried now, so I hurried down the stairs to wait by the front door, I was pacing the hallway back and forth for ten minutes when I heard a car pulling up the driveway.

So I opened the door and walked outside, well that was obviously a mistake. Instead of the reassuring hug I was expecting, it resulted in him calling me irresponsible and questioning me about for whom I would open the door. That I might as well stand outside with a sign pointing towards me inviting bad guys to take me away.

"What?" my jaw dropped, to baffled to get angry.

"Just get inside" not that I had a choice or anything, he had flung me over his shoulder and was carrying me inside. He walked straight to the kitchen, knowing that Leah and Tom would be there, that's where he finally allowed me to stand on my own two feet.

"Now explain yourself!" I was glaring at him angrily.

"Sorry, Nady, I didn't mean to scare you"

"You didn't scare me, you were talking nonsense!"

"You're right, I should tell you, that's why I came over"

Apparently he had come straight from the Cullen's, where the pack just had a meeting, because Alice had a vision about the vampires that were coming. Motivation was still unclear, although the vampire initiating the attack seemed somewhat familiar, the decision had been made, so she could see them coming, although she couldn't see when they would be here.

What was the greatest cause for concern, was that they knew about the existence of the pack but not about the Cullen family, for the first time an attack was coming not due to one of their family, but one of ours.

They would be training with the Cullen's, the young wolves had were too inexperienced to deal with a full blown leech attack, let alone one with a substantial amount of newborns. Also the Cullen's would call on other vampire's for assistance, Jacob and the pack were a priority for them especially with Jacob being Nessie's mate.

The vampires that came didn't only come with the goal to exterminate all the wolves, but they were also looking for something, Alice couldn't see what it was, but she would keep looking. Tonight the first training session would take place, my stomach clenched with fear, I realized now that I would have to tell him somehow.

"Can I come?" everybody turned to me.

"I don't know Nady" Embry bit his lip in doubt.

"Nessie will be there right?" I knew she would not let Jacob and her family go without her being there.

"Yeah, but that's different" he had a point of course.

"Please let me come" practically begging now "that way I can see for myself that you can take care of yourself and worry so much on the day of the fight"

"Nady, you don't have to be worried about me, you know that right?" that's when I couldn't hold my tears anymore.

"Nadira, what's wrong sweetie?" he asked while putting his arms around me, but I just kept crying.

"Maybe you should take her upstairs" Leah told him. He gathered me in his arms and held me close, he walked up the stairs up to my room, where he put me down on the bed.

"Are you really so worried something will happen to me?" I nodded.

"Listen to me, I've been a wolf for almost 7 years and I've always managed to keep myself from getting hurt"

"When I found out that you shifted into a wolf I was ok, one of the reasons was learning that you had superhuman strength. For me that translated into you being indestructible, that nothing could ever harm you. But then I saw Taylan banged up so bad that we were afraid of losing him all together. That's when I realized that something could happen to you as well, you could even get killed" everything that had been pent up inside me for almost a month.

"That's what has been going on, that's why you've been acting so strange" the link was formed almost visibly " Nady I've been in a battle like this before, I will be fine, trust me on this, you really do not have to worry"

"You have?" nobody had told me that there had been a fight like that.

"Yes, an army of newborns were coming to kill Bella when she was still human, but we trained as we will this time, and defeated them without any casualties on our side" he had managed to subdue my heart crushing fear to a fairly normal amount of concern. Still I had a nagging feeling that something would go wrong, but I pushed it away.

"Well if you will promise me that you will not take any unnecessary risks, I will be ok I guess"

"Of course I wouldn't do that, I have a good reason for wanting to survive you know" he looked into my eyes and kissed me softly.

Even though it was a gentle kiss, the sensation of it overpowered me, he poured so much love into it that I felt my insides turn to mush. I pushed myself up to my knees to reach him better and pushed myself to him, I expected that my desire for him would simmer down now that my issues were pretty much resolved, but instead it only seemed stronger now.

My hands grabbed his short hair as tightly as I could to deepen the kiss, my tongue ran over his bottom lip to ask permission for entering his mouth. His lips parted to my request his hands snaked around my back to pull me even closer, his hands continued upwards and fisted into my hair.

Feeling his hands in my hair, pulling it slightly, send shivers down my spine and made me bit down on his lip. A groan escaped him, it felt good to be able to do that to him, his lips moved down to my neck, nibbling and sucking his way to the sensitive skin behind my ear where he placed wet kisses before catching my earlobe between his teeth.

"Hmmm" the sound didn't startle me this time, but it brought him out of his daze and he started pulling away as usual.

This time I wouldn't let him, just when his lips lost contact I placed my hands on his face and pulled him to my mouth, moving so that I was straddling him. He got the message and didn't pull away this time, but sucked in my bottom lip and released it, I gasped into his mouth. He was playing with my lips and tongue in a way I didn't know could bring so much pleasure and I let my hands slide down his chest to start pulling the hem of his shirt.

He released me to lift his arms up so that I could lift his shirt off him, I threw it on the floor without looking, before letting my hands roam the strong muscles under his warm smooth skin. He let me explore and leaned backward onto the headboard of my bed, he closed his eyes enjoying the feel of my hands on his skin.

Wanting to feel my skin against his I removed my hands from his chest to lift take off my own shirt, his eyes opened when my touch had suddenly gone missing, his eyes widened when he saw me in just my bra, but he didn't move. I leaned back and gasped at the electricity that ran over the parts of skin that were touching his.

My mouth attacked his neck trailing openmouthed kisses down to his collarbone, his hands were on my bare back sliding up and down while his lips moved over my shoulder. The knots in my stomach were tying tighter and tighter, searching for release. Straddling him, with my body pressed so tightly to his, I could feel the arousal growing in his pants. Following my body's needs, I rubbed myself to his hardness, sparks shot al through my body. I shifted to repeat the movement but that's when Embry lifted me off him and placed me on the bed while getting up.

"Wow, Nadira" he breathed. My head fell in shame when I realized what I had done, he had done nothing wrong, but I had acted like some hormonally crazed teenager, ok honestly that's kinda what I was, but still.

Obviously he didn't want me like that and I had pushed myself on him even though he had never encouraged me in any way.

"I'm sorry" I muttered barely audible.

"No no, please don't feel bad!" he rushed back to me, lifting my head, but I refused to look at him.

"Clearly you don't want me in that way"

"Please look at me" he pleaded, reluctantly my eyes met his.

He opened his mouth to speak, but closed it again, eventually he said "I wanna get this right, so I don't hurt you again, please hear me out" he waited for me to acknowledge, when I nodded he continued.

"First of all, of course I want you like that, you're beautiful and you're the sexiest creature I've ever seen, so don't let a weird idea like me not wanting you, ever get into that pretty little head of yours. Secondly, I would really like to know where the sudden urge to move so fast came from, simply because I'm worried that you might regret it later. Third and last, if I didn't stop you there it was a real possibility that I wouldn't be able to let you take the lead and push you to do something you aren't ready for" when he was done he waited for me to say something.

"Well, uhm, first I would like to say that I'm really glad you feel that way, because I feel the same way. Second, since I'm no longer as scared of you getting hurt as I was before you explained about your experience in fighting vampires, I don't think I have my motives for wanting to move things along a bit are of the wrong kind, I just have a need to be close to you. Last, I don't mind if you take control, if you're moving too fast I'll stop you, actually it might be nice since I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing" I looked at him to see if he was satisfied with my answer.

"Are you absolutely, one hundred percent sure?" he asked me.

"Will you take a ninety five?" I laughed at him.

"Yeah that'll do" he chuckled.

"Great, now, would you mind handing me my shirt?"

"Why would I do that, I'm kinda enjoying the view" he said eying me up and down, which made me feel very self conscious.

"Because I feel a bit weird sitting here like this"

"Ok ok, here you go" he handed me the shirt that had somehow ended up on the other side of my room.

"So, what time does the training start?" I cocked an eyebrow in question.

"Do you still want to go? I thought you were no longer worried?"

"I said I'm no longer frightened, of course I'm still worried, that won't change until I have you safely back in my arms afterwards. Being there will ease my worries a little bit, so I think it's only logical that you take me with you"

"Uhm well ok then. We should leave then, because I won't be able to run as fast while carrying you"

"Will I slow you down?" I asked surprised, I really wasn't that heavy. He laughed loudly at my question, when he composed himself he finally answered me.

"No not like that, but if I would run at full speed, I would risk injuring you, what if you were unable to hold on, I don't have a wolf seat you know!" he grabbed his shirt, but instead of putting it on he threw it on the bed and took of his socks and shoes as well.

"You're gonna go in wolf form?"

"Of course I will, you're finally gonna have a wolf riding experience" he really was enjoying the idea of me on his back while he was a wolf, it was clearly visible in his twinkling eyes.

Once we were outside, he phased behind some trees and came back with his sweats tied to his hind leg. He laid down flat on his belly so I was able to climb on, once I had grabbed onto his thick fur he rose to his full height, my legs slid to his side to make sure I was secure on his back.

Then he moved, first he walked, but he picked up the pace and within seconds he was running so fast that I couldn't see the trees anymore. Wind blew my hair back and I lowered myself pressing myself into his warm grey fur, so that I was lying rather than sitting. It felt great, strangely liberating, so enjoyed every minute of it and decided that we would be doing this again very soon.

He slowed down to a trot and we came into a huge clearing in the middle of the woods, he walked over to Nessie and plopped onto the ground next to her, I slid of his back and sat down next to her. Glancing around I concluded that most wolves were already here the Cullen's were all accounted for, then I noticed Alice looking strangely at me, Edward was next to her in a flash, looking at me in the same manner she was.

Embry noticed it too and was growling at them, Edward and Alice were now talking with the rest of their family, which resulted in them all staring at me intently. This was starting to freak me out, I slid closer to Embry grabbing onto him, trying to submerge myself in his thick coat. When they came towards us, Jacob came forward, tilting his head to the side as if asking a question and sat down between me and Nessie.

"Alice now knows why she recognized the unidentified vampire" Edward said.

"I'll get to that if you would let me finish, replying to a question Jacob had asked in his mind"

"The vampire looked familiar to Alice, but she couldn't place him, now that she has seen Nadira again, she is positive that she knows who it is and after seeing what she saw I have to agree. By the similarity in appearance we can draw no other conclusion than identifying the vampire in question as Nadira's father"

AN: Hope you liked it!