James couldn't have stoped even if he wanted to, Lily was driving him crazy, he had never felt like this and he let her guide him throught the small cabin to the bed.
James let out a low moan as Lily bit his lower lip playfully, he couldn't beleive he was doing this least of all with Lily Evans he's supposedly sworn enemy!
Lily's and James's kiss broke apart for a few seconds as Lily pulled James's shirt over his head, then James quickly found Lily's lips again and started kissing her passionately, James found his way around Lily's blouse buttons, becoming desperate with them he broke quite a few of them.
James's hands seemed to know his way around Lily even though it was the first time he had done this, all his feelings burst. Love. Hate. Anger. Happiness. Loneliness. Jealousy. Confussion. Guilt. Joy. Shame........All of them burst together to only turn into desire, the desire he had for Lily now, that he could not get rid of.
James's lungs were filled with a unfamiliar scent, his eyes oppened to indentify the source of it, and he smiled sheepishly as he saw the curtain of red hair that was scattered around his chest and pillows, he remembered every detail about last night, and he was having trouble beleiving wether it had been a dream or not.
Then with suffocating panic his mind started to race, WHAT HAD REALLY HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!?
Lily surely would hate him for this, she was drugged he should have stopped her! But how could he when he was driven by such emotions as he had been driven by last night?
It had raced across his mind last night to stop it, he thought it was clearly wrong, but he couldnt. He was caught up in it too much, and enjoyed so very much that he wouldn't have stopped, his hormones wouldn't have let him, and neither would have Lily.
James got out of bed carefully, careful not to wake Lily up.He put his pants on quietly and saw that the button was broken, and he remembered when Lily had yanked his pants off last night, he smiled despite the fact that he was still feeling panicky.
He moved to the sofa, he thought it would be better if Lily awoke all y herself in that bed and not with him by her side
Lily awoke slowly, she felt very weird and a little buzed...she stood up a bit shakily only to notice that she was only wearing a bra and panties, she quickly covered herself with a blanket and searched around for her pants. She put her pants on and then searched for her blouse, she noticed it was missing quite a few buttons, she ran to her book bag and acquiered a fresh shirt, which she put hastily on wondering what had happened last night.....
SHe shook his arm lightly and his eyes oppened slowly, she smiled at him, and James found hilself smiling back at her.
"James what happened last night?" she asked him wonderingly, James looked at her in the eys he was ready to reach for her face, and tell her it had been the best night of his life.
"God I can't remember anything..." she said and trailed off.....James's face fell, she didn't remember how yesterday had been so emotional, so passionate, how she had offered him her virginity but he had declined knowing that Lily wasn'y fully in her senses.
"well, nothing really happened, I mean you got some pixie dust thrown at you, the whole fever thing and then we came here......thats about it....." he didn't look at her in the eyes, he kept his head down......
"ummmm, do you know what happened to my shirt? It's kind of missing a few buttons....." she was trying to catch James's eyes, but he kept his face down.
"Well, I had to bring you back flying, so that was a bit hard, that's....that's when you lost your buttons" he said very quickly.
"Ok James, ummm thanks, you know for er.... taking care of me" she said that and walked to the cabinet for some food.
James couldn't quite explain the mixture of feelings he was experiencing right now, He was disappointed because even though he had tried not to a part of him had been expecting Lily to greet him with a warm smile and hug him, and kiss him, and repeat evrything they had done last night and maybe more....And he also felt stupid, he should have known.....but he couldn't bear with the strange feeling that haunted him....And then he realized that he had been stupid all this time.
He had liked Lily for long now, he always had. He never just wanted to admit it, he loved her and he knew it, they way she'd be nice to evryone but not to the point of being stupid, the way she stood up to him no matter what his threats where, the way she punched, and now that he had experienced it, the way she kissed him, the flavor of her lips and the smell of her hair, it was all Lily and he loved it all. He had denied all of it just to prove that his grandma was wrong, that she hadn't found him his perfect match (not that he thought it was right now that he noticed she had), and now he just haed his granma with more passion that he had evet hated her.....she had ruined everything, like she always did.
what was wrong with James? he had been perfectly fine and then looked gloomy afterwards, mood swings, she didn't know James was one of those people.......
"James are you ok?" asked Lily walking over to him.
"Yeah, Im just fine" he said in an over hearty voice that made him feel sick.
"You sure? you don't look so good, maybe some of that pixie dust rubbed off on you" she said it and reached for his fore head to see if he had some temperature, James winced at her touch, it was electrical.
"Yeah, Im sure, I'll just go and fly a little.... I'll be ok" he added when he saw the look of concern in Lily's eyes at his sudden dessicion.
at least she cares.......
Thanks to all the reviewrs.....Sorry it took so long, but i have been busy with school.....high school takes time to get used to......