14

One week later

Callie's POV
I haven't talked or seen Arizona in over 3 weeks, not since my date with Erica. It's like she's a ghost, sometimes I find an empty coffee cup or laundry drying to know that she's been home, other then that no sign at all. Next to Erica I haven't talked to anyone yet, and I don't count the visits of Christina since she refuses to talk about anything else then surgeries. I still find it nice that she stops by every other day, she told me for example that Jackson applied for Trauma instead of Ortho. He told her he only wants to be taught by me, which is flattering of course but I do feel sorry for the kid. One more reason to remember the past, but as the days pass by I lose hope. What if I'll never remember? I ask myself as I clean up the kitchen. I stumble upon a crumbled piece of paper of which I recognize the handwriting immediately from.

''Calliope! =D I hope you've slept well! I'm starting work again today, but if you need ANYTHING you should page me! I mean it! =D Oh! And I wanted to say that ''

She apparently stopped writing. What did she want to tell me? I figured she'd be at the hospital… She probably has a lot of catching up to do, but why didn't she finish her note? And then it hits me, Erica! She probably ran into Erica and assumed that… I had the idea that she and Erica didn't get along, but I still wondered why Arizona would be mad if she ran in to Erica that morning. I decide to go down to the hospital and talk about this with her, I mean we're roommates, she can't avoid me forever right?

Just outside the hospital I bump into Mark.

''Have you seen Arizona?'' I ask him.

''You mean you haven't heard? Then what are you doing here?'' he asks me confused.

''I'm here to talk to Arizona, she's been avoiding me for almost 3 weeks now'' I explain to him.

His expression changes to one I can't quite place. ''Let's talk inside'' he says while already walking towards the entrance of the hospital.

It's starting to rain so I have really no objections to going inside, although I'd really like to know what the hell is going on to make Mark acting this strange. Mark led me into an on call room and sat me down on the bed before taking a chair and sitting down in front of him.

''There's no easy way to say this so I'm just going to say it'' he begins. ''Arizona had an emergency surgery last week, she spend the two days in the ICU but she's doing alright now.''

I stared at him in disbelief, my mouth opening and closing several times.

''What kind of surgery?'' I asked him after a few minutes.

Mark looks a bit uneasy before answering me ''she had an out of uterus pregnancy… Addison was able to remove the fetus without damaging her uterus or ovaries.'' Again I fall silent, and here I was thinking that Arizona was gay.

''Was… I mean does this have anything to do with her fiancée?'' I ask him.

''No not really, but… well I'll let Arizona explain that to you. But before you go in you should know that she didn't know she was pregnant in the first place. I mean it was an abdominal EUG so most of the time'' he stops his train of thought when his pager goes off.

''Oh, and you might want to avoid the 'father' subject'' he says to me while standing up. ''Are you coming?'' he asks me when I'm not following him towards the door.

''First you're going to tell me what's up with Erica and everyone else. Arizona is been avoiding me for about 3 weeks and you went all psycho on us when we walked in. Which was the last time I saw Lexie by the way. I want to know what I did wrong before I face her Mark.'' I tell him, tears prickling in my eyes.

He sighs before sitting next to me on the bed.

''Listen to me Torres, I never tell you who to date or who not to date and I'm not about to change that'' I want to argue but he interrupts me. ''However, I don't want to see you make the same mistake twice... She really hurt you badly once Callie.'' And he told me about my short but apparently eventful relationship with Erica Hahn.

Teddy was sitting next to her, they were laughing, which is a good sign I think to myself. I had to gather all my courage to walk into the room and when I finally did I couldn't speak.

''I'll leave you two for a while'' Teddy says as she stood up to leave.

''No that's alright, you can stay. It doesn't look like Callie has much to say anyway.'' Arizona said. Okay that hurt, I don't know why but it did.

''I'm…I'm sorry for you'' I managed to get out before turning around and leaving again.

That didn't go well, that didn't go well at all. But I guess she has a right to be angry, from what Mark told me she and him had to work really hard to 'mend' me after the Erica 'thing'. And with everything that's happened in the past few weeks, after everything they've done for me, I seek out… I don't know 'something' with Erica. I could've asked either one of them out to thank them for everything they've done for me. But instead I believed Erica when she told me they needed 'Callie free time'.

I walk through the hospital, not really knowing what to do or who to turn to when I bump into Bailey.

''Torres! Can't you see I'm standing here?'' she tells me off, but when she sees the tears in my eyes she pushes me into the nearest on call room.

Seriously what is it with these people and on call rooms?

''When you'll remember me you'll remember that I don't do this'' she points back and forth between the two of us. ''Talk'' she explains when she sees my confused look.

''I mean I talk, I just don't talk about anyone's personal life. Because I'm a professional, so I'd rather spend my time talking about patients and how to safe them. Just for now I'll make an exception, but don't you go telling people I'm a great listener because I'm not. You get that?'' she asks me a bit stern, I nod my head 'yes'.

''Good now you have 14 minutes, go'' she checked her watch and positioned herself so she sits a bit more comfortable.

I looked at her, a bit stunned actually, she tapped her index finger on her watch implying time was running out. So I just start talking, I tell her everything. From the moment I just woke up to Erica, to Arizona who just sort of kicked me out of her room. When I finish I'm emotionally drained, but I feel relieved as well, I guess talking really does help then.

''Torres you listen to me and you listen good. Dr Hahn is nothing but trouble, don't go there because you'll end up getting hurt. As for Arizona, I really can't tell you anything until you remember your past. But what I can tell you is that she's a good person and a great friend. I'm sure she's emotional and pissed off right now but she'll turn around. Keep bugging her and give her a stuffed animal and she'll be perky and sunshine in no time. But if you don't want to be her friend then just go, pack your stuff and find another place to live. She doesn't need a roommate who'll take advantage of her'' she tells me.

''I would never do that!'' I defend myself.

''I'm just saying, we love you and we want to help you with everything, especially Arizona. But after everything she's been through… She can't handle your love life drama as well'' she says while standing up.

''Find your trigger Torres, find your trigger and you'll find your memories'' and with that she leaves the room.

Arizona's POV
I was telling Teddy to stop making me laugh because it hurts to much when Calliope walked in. She stood there, not saying anything, she looked like a goldfish actually. But she was the most beautiful goldfish I've ever seen. Teddy said something about leaving but I didn't want to be left alone with Calliope in the same room, so I practically ordered her to stay. Okay, I might've made a stupid comment about Callie, but I really didn't want her here.

''I'm… I'm really sorry for you'' she blurs out before leaving the room.

As soon as she leaves the room Teddy turns around and faces me again.

''Was that really necessary Arizona?'' she asks me a bit annoyed.

I didn't answer her ''Zona!'' I choose to ignore her still. ''Robbins! It's not Callie's fault that she got stabbed and hit her head on a side walk which made her forget your life together before that!''

''Of course not Teddy! I'm not blaming her!'' I reply.

''Really? Then why are you sending her away?'' she snapped back.

''Because! I told you about Erica!''

''She doesn't remember Zona! She doesn't have a clue what's going on around her. Erica was probably being nice to her and didn't look at her as if she saw a ghost!''

''How the hell am I supposed to act when her ex girlfriend is spending a night with her, MY fiancée?''

''Talk to her! Or me! Or Addy or anyone! You do realize that you have some sort of PTSD right? Can you tell your therapist what happened?'' she asks me, but I don't respond, I stay quiet. ''You've got to be kidding me Arizona!'' she yells at me.

''What? I've been busy Teddy!'' I yell back at her. She stops in her tracks and looks at me.

''That's what you and Addison were talking about… you're planning to leave'' she looks at me like I just killed her favorite dog, I can't stand it so I look down.

''I'm right aren't I?'' she asks me, but I still don't answer her. ''Dr Arizona Marie Robbins, are you or are you not planning on moving to L.A.?'' she goes all G.I. Jane on me, so I have to answer her.

''Yes'' I reply feeling guilty.

It stays quiet for a really, really, really long time. When I finally have enough courage to look up, I can see tears in her eyes.

''I whish you good luck then'' she says before turning around to leave.

She's already in the doorway when I stop her ''please Ted wait, can't we talk about this?''

She looks at me and closes the door again.

''What do you want me to say? I flew half way around the world for you and you've been giving me crap ever since! I told myself it was because of what happened and that you'd turn around, but you won't let me help you! You don't talk to me Zona! And now you're moving away because of what? Because she still doesn't remember you? Because you where raped and got pregnant? What the hell Zona! You used to be able to talk about everything with me! We used to drive Callie crazy because of the amount of time that we spend together and now your treating me like I'm just another colleague.''

She waited for me to say something but I couldn't talk anymore. She was right, I became a selfish bitch and I threw her away like garbage on the street because I couldn't handle it anymore. She turned around when she stood in the doorway.

''Your father would be very ashamed of you right now Robbins. This'' she points up and down my body ''is not a good man in a storm, you let me down'' and with that she slammed the door shut, and let me alone in my room. Crying like there's no tomorrow.