Disclaimer: still just own the twins. . . the rest I am just borrowing

A/N: Okay, so I know that some of the views that I have Rory express are not going to be completely in-line with how other people think of Rory's thoughts on growing up/Chilton/Yale; but as I watched the series, it was how I felt in those different times of her life and this is my story. .. . so that is what I wrote. I also tried to answer the reasoning behind some of the decisions in earlier chapters that some reviews had asked about, where the Rory of this story's head is at, why she was making certain decisions, etc. Also, you can probably expect Lorelai to appear around chapter 16, but I will tell you now if you haven't figured it out yet, she is the antagonist of the story; Rory doesn't hate her, she never could, but there will be conflict between those characters throughout the story; after all, what fun is a story where everyone is happy and loves each other and no one ever fights ;) also, the LDB members will make an appearance as well, I am still thinking through the shenanigans they will bring, but you can expect to see them in the Bachelor Party which will be in a yet to be determined chapter.

Anyways, here is chapter 14, enjoy! and as always PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE review :D

Chapter 14

"Where do you want me to begin?" She asked him with a bit of a smile to her voice.

"How about you just start from the beginning and go, in true Gilmore fashion. I will interject if I have any questions or want to expound on any topics. How does that sound?" He continued to rub her feet and reached over and kissed her again; he wasn't sure he was going to be able to go too long between kisses, having been deprived of them for six months.

"Okay. . .here it goes. You sure you are ready?" She looked over at him and he nodded. "Okay, so after that night at the Inn in New Hampshire, which coincidentally and completely unplanned is where I am staying during this trip, I decided to settle into life in Stars Hollow; I was working at the Stars Hollow Gazette as the editor but it just wasn't satisfying me, I still felt like I was lost; I thought writing the book would help and I wrote several chapters in one sitting while I was in my grandfather's study. I hadn't been feeling well but I thought it was just the stress of everything going on in my life wearing me down; then I started noticing more and more signs of pregnancy but I was in denial so I just tried to blame them on something else; then I started thinking and I realized that I hadn't had a period in a really long time, like so long that I couldn't even remember when it was, so I went over to Hartford and bought a pregnancy test and I took it in my mom's bathroom." She took a deep breath and then Logan interjected.

"Wait a second, you drove to Hartford to get the test just to turn around and go back to Stars Hollow? Why?" He asked with a perplexed look on his face, that was a lot of driving and he was sure they had pregnancy tests in Stars Hollow.

"Because, if I would have bought a test in Stars Hollow, it would have been all around town before I got the results of the test. They are a bunch of gossips there, you know that." She gave him a look,/lb smiled then continued on.

"Anyways, where was I, oh yeah so I took the test in my mom's bathroom. I completely freaked out and then I took like 5 more and they all said positive. I called Lane freaking out, actually convinced myself for a second that I had cancer, don't ask, and then she convinced me to calm down and make a doctors appointment. By the time I went to the doctor I was around 3 months; I did the mental math and realized I had gotten pregnant the night of our 'final goodbye'. I told Grandma first; she reacted completely different than I thought she would and was actually very supportive. I also asked her if I could move into her house in Hartford since she had moved to Nantucket and she quickly agreed, even went shopping with me to get some new furniture." Logan interrupted her once again.

"Wait a second, you live in Hartford now? In Richard and Emily's house? All by yourself?" He asked incredulously; he couldn't believe that Rory had not only moved into the Gilmore Mansion but that she had consciously made the decision to do so; a lot of things had changed since they had last seen each other for sure.

"Well not by myself, I have two maids and a cook; and once the babies come I will have a nanny. I just knew I wanted a better life for my babies, that they were Huntzbergers, Gilmores, and Haydens; I couldn't imagine keeping all of that away from them. I loved my life with my mom growing up, but it was hard; we struggled a lot when we didn't have to, all so she could prove that she could do it on her own, prove to Grandma and Grandpa that she didn't need them or their money or their expectations. That was her decision, and she is happy with her choices; but I see how unhappy Grandma is, how much it weighs on her to have her daughter disrespect her and exclude her from her life at every turn and mock everything about her life and character; and it makes me angry, it makes me angry and upset that she treats her mom that way and that I was raised in a way that at times I did the same." She took a deep breath; the conversation had side tracked quickly, but it was something that she had really been digging into in therapy and she decided to get the rest of it out, it felt good to say the words outside of therapy. "The first 15 years of my life she kept me from society, only visiting my grandparents once or twice a year, yet insisted that I would go to Harvard one day, which by the way I am pretty sure she did simply because Grandpa had went to Yale. Then, my freshman she put me in Chilton, which was full of society kids, but refused to let Grandma buy me any extra uniforms or the special socks, or the backpack or the nice jacket, all the things the other kids had and she couldn't afford, but didn't want my grandparents paying for. She instead just stated that I didn't need those things, she never asked me, never consulted me, nothing; and I would have felt bad if I had told her that I wanted those things, so I just pretended I didn't want or need them just like she had said; but really, if I am being honest with myself, I did want them, I did want to fit in better, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings or have her upset at me, so I just went along with what she said. She was so adamant I was in this world, yet every single time I started to conform to it, she fought against it. Once I went to Yale and met you, she never approved, she never liked that I was falling for a society guy, someone with money and obligations who lived in the world she ran away from; and it took a toll on our relationship, slowly but surely it did. Then you were there for the whole ordeal leading up to my 21st birthday; that was terrible! She didn't agree with my decisions so she just shut me out, and that really hurt; anyways, the reason for that little tirade is that when I told her I was pregnant and you were the father and that I was moving to Hartford and working for grandpa's insurance company, it was like I was 20 years old all over again. I haven't spoken to her since I told her, she hasn't tried to get ahold of me she hasn't texted me to see how the pregnancy is going, unless she has gotten updates from someone else such as grandma or Lane, she probably doesn't even know I am having twins." A tear slid down her cheek, it felt good to get all of that off of her chest, and Logan knew all the history so he really understood why this was so hard for her.

Logan reached over and wiped the tears from her face and then pulled her in for a kiss. "I'm sorry Ror, that has to be so hard on you. I know how close the two of you have always been; but, you are a grown woman, you are allowed to make your own decisions in your life that are best for you and you don't need her permission or her approval. I know it would be nice to have it, but I can tell you that I will never leave society or my family business; it is a part of who I am and while I plan on raising our children differently than the way I was raised, I couldn't imagine depriving them of all the privileges that come from centuries of hard work in my family. I know that trust fund kids can get a bad reputation as spoiled brats, and there was more than one time that I fit that to a T; but, I won't deprive our children of their birth right just because your mom chose to throw hers in the face of her parents." Logan looked over at her and was more than a little nervous, this was the most honest he had ever been with her about how he felt about raising their children. In college they had discussed it once or twice in hypothetical form, but he had never really felt comfortable enough to speak his true feelings.

"I know Logan, and I feel the same way; which is why I have been taking the steps that I have been taking. I want them to have a better life than I did; I want them to be able to go to the best schools and fit in with all the kids their age. The worst part of my teenage and college years was feeling like I had one foot in and one foot out and feeling guilty for enjoying the high society life because my mother never approved. I know our son is going to be expected to take over HPG, just like you are expected to take over from your dad, and I am okay with that; it is the way we deliver that expectation that we have control over." She felt like she was getting lighter by the minute, there was so much she had been holding in over the years and it felt so good to get it out. "But anyway, back to the last six months, huh? So after I left my mom's house that day is when I tried to call you, I had been trying to get the courage to call you since the moment I found out, but something about that fight just drove me to call you and let you know; but your phone was disconnected. I had also heard from grandma that you and Odette had called of the engagement and why; but I hadn't heard you were moving back to the states. Just based off the timing, I would say you moved back within days of me finding out I was pregnant. I wanted to get ahold of you, and I knew that all it took was one phone call from grandma to find out where you were; but I thought that maybe it was possible that you had changed your number so that I couldn't get ahold of you, that you had finally and fully moved on, and I just wasn't ready for that type of rejection; so I just kept putting it off and putting it off. I am sure that eventually grandma would have insisted I get ahold of you or done some of her intervention tactics to ensure we ran into each other one way or the other; I mean she has been amazing and so supportive through all of this, but she can only hold her meddling in so long you know?" She laughed and smiled a true smile when she thought of her grandmother, ever since Rory had fully embraced society life, her and Emily had gotten so much closer; it made her sad that she didn't have more of this through her life, that she always sort of kept her at arms length or begrudgingly agreed to her shenanigans which were always followed by a verbal assault from Lorelai. Looking back, she can see that everything her grandmother did was done out of love and out of a desire to get her grandchild back into the world which she felt she belonged in; and she did belong in this world, it was comfortable to her, way more comfortable than she ever thought it would be.

Logan just sat there stunned; he could hardly believe how much had changed in the last six months, but he couldn't say he was disappointed. As much as he wanted to marry Rory and spend his life with her and raise a family together, he had always sort of dreaded the inevitable conflict over being a part of the society world; it wasn't for the faint of heart, it could be cruel and cut throat, but it was all he knew and he was comfortable there, and he had his best friends who he hoped eventually would settle down and get married and have kids, then their kids could all grow up together. "Rory, I love you, we will make this work and we will figure it all out together. First I am going to say, I am so so so sorry that I changed my number and never gave you the new one. I pulled up your contact more times than I can count, I drafted a thousand different text messages; but just like you, I was scared of rejection. I was scared that even though I was single and available and willing to make a real go at us, that you wouldn't want it; that you wouldn't want the society life, that it would always be a sore spot between us, so I am not going to lie, I am extremely happy that you are fully embracing being a Gilmore and everything that comes with it. If you want to continue to work at your grandfather's insurance company and live in that house in Hartford, once I get this paper up and running efficiently, I will ask my dad to transfer me to someplace closer and we can live there together once we are married; conversely, if you don't want to work and you want to stay at home with our kids and attend DAR meetings, and go to luncheons and everything else that goes with being a society wife, I will support that too. If you want out of Hartford, we can live here, just far enough away that my family won't be right up in our business all the time, but close enough that it is just a morning drive to visit; and it only adds about 30 minutes onto the drive to Emily in Nantucket. The world is your oyster Rory, I am willing to do what it takes to make sure we work, but I need to know that you are as well. I need to know you aren't going to run when it gets hard; because it is going to get hard, between being newlyweds and new parents to twins, that is a lot of adjusting. We are both going to have to compromise and figure this out together. Are you willing to do that?" His pleading and honest eyes met her glistening blue eyes and they just stared at each other. He saw the answer in her eyes before the words ever came out of her mouth.

"Yes Logan, I am willing to stay by your side. I am willing to compromise and communicate and make this work. I love you, I always have and I always will. I know that everything happens for a reason, and we should never regret decisions and choices we make because they make us who we are; but I think that the single biggest mistake I have ever made in my life was saying no when you asked me to marry you. The decade since then has been nothing but emotional pitfalls; but we also never would have had this type of conversation, this raw conversation where we are addressing issues that have needed to be discussed even before we broke up that first time. I also think that knowing what it was like to live a life apart from each other and how miserable it was, lets both of us know without a doubt that this is right, and I don't want to live another day of our lives apart. We may or may not get the 50 years that my grandparents got together, but I think aspiring to have a marriage like theirs is pretty grand."

"I couldn't agree more. I love you Lorelai Leigh Gilmore; but now, we have to call Mitchum and Shira and give them the news."

With a heavy sigh, she agreed. "I know we do. I am sure they will want us to be married before the baby gets here, and I know grandma will jump right on board. Her and Shira have been frenemies for years, and I am sure that this wedding will serve to bring the two of them back into good terms. Do you think your mother is going to be upset that you ended up with me after all?" She had to admit, she was nervous; things had gotten better between her and Logan's parents by the end and she even thought that they had finally accepted her; she just wasn't sure that a shotgun wedding was going to be a great way to re-acquaint her with his family. Speaking of shotgun weddings…"shit! I still haven't told my dad I am pregnant!"