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Hell

I was officially in my own personal hell. I never thought he would be the one to do this to me. I hate him for what he has done to me but god help me I love him so fucking much that it hurts. It has been two months since I signed those damn papers. I have not been able to be around him without breaking down and especially looking at him. If it wasn't for Wilbur god know where I would be. He has been my rock in all of this keeping my head above water.

I can't believe I agreed to this. Fucking Alice being able to talk me into anything. Here I stand outside of Edward's house for a game night with the group that I would usually look forward to hang out with. However, it is not like a really had a choice. We have been doing this as long as I can remember right before Christmas we would meet up for a game night at Edward's. Sure through out the years the games have changed but it was always fun.

I found myself sitting beside Emmet and Jasper, which was great. Everyone knew about Edward and my break up but that is all they know. Of course, the world being against me and everything Edward had the seat right in front of me.

"Okay lets get started what are we playing." I asked wanting to get this over with as soon as possible.

"Belly it is my turn so I thought we could play I never but instead of us saying I never I thought we could right questions down on paper so what do you all say?" Em said.

Everyone nodded. We got a piece of paper, wrote questions, and put them in a fish bowl.

"Hey babe since it is your game and all you start." Rose said.

"Ok. First question. I never had sex at school?" Em said.

I drank, Ali, Jasper, James, Ang, Tanya, Eli, and Edward also drank.

"Mike, Jess, Lauren, Rose, and Em you whores." Ali said causing us all to laugh.

Rose got next question, "I've never cheated on a test?" We all drank. Hey, don't judge we were in high school and you know everyone has cheated one way or another some just will admit it and others won't.

Alice, "I've never drove drunk?" No one drank on that one.

We went around and around and most were already shit faced I was not lucky enough to be one of them.

It was my turn again, "I've never had my heart broken?" I took a double shot noticing Edward did the same. Yeah-right fucker.

Ali was up again, "I've never been in love?" We all took a drink.

"I've never been married or divorced?" Edward said I just about died what the fuck was he doing. He took a drink keeping his eyes on me and I did the same. Thank goodness, no one noticed.

"Guys last question, I've never did something I wish I could change." Ang said. Everyone took a drink.

"Hold the fuck up did you and Edward drink a shot when the married question was asked?" Alice was starring daggers at me.

"Yes Alice but drop it, it is over with now and we can both go our separate ways." I said.

"No you better fucking explain." Rose said.

"When we went to Vegas we got drunk and don't even remember but we got married. I tried to get Edward to get it annulled but the son of a bitch wouldn't but after homecoming I was served with divorce papers after I told him I loved him and am in love with him. But, that is the past please just let it be. I can't think about it." I said as the tears started to fall.

"Oh my god Bella I am sorry." Alice was shocked.

"Sorry guys I got to go." I ran out the door knowing I couldn't drive I decided to walk home. I made it to the end of Edward's driveway before the sobs overtook my body. I sat down on the log by the mailbox letting the tears fall. I felt two arms wrap around me and I hated what he did to me.

"Don't!" I screamed.

"Bella calm down please." Edward said in a shaky voice.

"Please just go."

"Why?"

"Why? Are you fucking kidding me? I gave you everything I let all of my walls down and you shattered me. I fucking hate what you did to me. I hate you! Fuck, I love you so damn much it eats me alive that you will not let me show you. I fucking love you with everything I am and it is killing me. I can't do this." I stood up and ran into the woods Edward right on my heels. I ran until I couldn't run anymore.

"Bella I did what I did for you. I fucking love you and everything about you. But I am such a mess and that day I know I scared you." Edward had tears streaming down his face.

"Just stop. You are not making since. I asked you if this is what you wanted and you said yes. So don't you dare say you 'love me' and did this for me. You didn't even ask if this is what I wanted but you got what you wanted so just shut your fucking mouth and go back home." I said. I was getting tired of this leaning against a tree.

Edward stepped to me trapping me with his body to the tree.

"Edward please don't"

Edward leaned in and kissed me with such passion I felt the electricity flow through us. Wrapping my arms around his neck pulling him closer causing me to sigh. I licked his bottom lip deepening the kiss my tongue caressed his as his thumb rubbed soothing circles on my hip. Slowly pulling away catching our breath.

"Fuck, Edward I can't do this now."

"If that is what you want then it is fine. When you want to talk I will be waiting." Edward released me and I walked home.

My life is so fucking confusing. Why do these things always happen to me? I am living in my own personal hell that I could have just got out of but no, I have to follow my brain instead of my fucking heart. Edward is going to be the end of me one way or another.

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