A/n: this chapter is continued from chapter 11 in Blaine's POV so don't get confused! The song used in this chapter is Who knew by Pink.
Chapter 12B
I woke up the next morning feeling like someone ran over me. I realized that I still didn't have my car, and cringed. Any thought of him hurt. I called Sam,Sam was surprised because I hadn't been talking to him but he agreed. I got ready for school. I didn't care what I wore, I just wanted this day to be over.
Sam beeped his horn and I ran out quickly so I would avoid him. I stayed quiet but Sam looked restless.
"Dude I'm so sorry about Quinn." He said quickly.
"It's fine." I snapped.
"Are you alright?" Sam said concered.
" Yeah." I muttered, I didn't want to talk.
"We can go out this weekend and find some hot girls to get you out of this funk." Same said enthusiastically.
"I'm gay."
There it was, out in the open.
"What?" Sam said astonishedly.
"I said I like cock." I snapped angrily.
"When-" I cut Sam off.
"It doesn't matter when I started, just thought you should know. That's why I didn't kick your ass when you slept with Quinn." I sighed.
"Oh my god." Sam said.
"And since we're clearing the air, I also cheated on her-" I paused. "with a man." I emphasized. " go on, tell everyone you know." I snapped.
"I Won't!" Sam yelled. "You're my best friend Blaine."
We smiled and same headed toward our usual parking space and I shuddered as I saw the familiar Navigator.
I would see him today whether I liked it or not.
I held my breath as I saw his car. Flashbacks of when we were together. What we did together before we broke up. I silently cried but quickly wiped the tears. He didn't deserve them.
"I don't know what happened to you, but are you sure you're okay?" Sam said to me. I nodded silently. "Oh look, there's Kurt." He smiled and waved. I didn't dare to look up.
"I'm going to class." I quickly ran the opposite way.
•–•
I sat with my friends from the team as they tried to cheer me up. Most of them were understanding and the others were telling me to stop being a pussy. I just rolled my eyes and stared at my untouched food. I felt him before I even looked up. I tensed and looked up. Our eyes met, and everything slammed into me like a brick wall. I felt the tears coming. I gasped and looked at my food.
Sam looked at me and back at Kurt who was running away. He grabbed my arm. "Let's go outside."
I nodded and followed Sam to the choir room. We sat in silence as we waited for glee club to start. I felt like a zombie. Soon everyone was walking into the choir room.
"I don't understand why Kurt left! We have to practice!" Rachel complained.
"Hey guys!" Mr. Shue smiled.
I raised my hand up. "Can I sing something?"
Sam looked at me in question. "Sure Blaine." said questionly.
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
I thought about all our times together from the beginning. We were meant to be.
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
I thought about how I thought Kurt was perfect it then I realized I loved him for all his flaws too.
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
I knew that if he came in here, I'd forgive him and bring him into my arms.
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew
Everyone in the choir room was quiet as my sobs slowly filled the room. When they finally ceased I talked.
"I'm gay." Some gaped while other understood. But I finally felt free.
I answered all their questions minus the ones of my private life.
•–•
The rest of the day I felt dead. Sam stayed with me in between classes. He didn't talk talk, but it helped dodging other peoples questions.
He finally spoke as he dropped me off at home with Puck.
"We'll all go out this weekend." Sam beamed.
I smiled tightly and started to get out of the car. Puck grabbed something from his bag and handed it to me. "I'm giving this to you as your friend. If anything goes down, call us." I nodded as I took the bottle of whiskey. "Eat before you drink." Puck smiled.
I got out of the car. "Thanks but I don't think I need this." I tried to hand it back.
"Keep it." He said and drove away.
I looked up and there he was. Staring at me. I looked down at the bottle and glared at him. I walked inside.
•–•
I woke up to my mothers voice.
"Blaine, get dressed. We're having dinner with the Hummels."
I shook my head into my pillow. "I'd rather starve."
"They're coming in an hour in a half. I expect you to be dressed." She snapped.
I groaned and eyed the bottle of whiskey on my dresser. "Fuck it." I took a swig. I put on sweatpants and a shirt. I took a couple of more swigs and giggled at the heat in my throat.
The doorbell ran and I took two more swigs before looking at it. Less then half was left.
"BLAINE!" My mother yelled.
I laughed as I went downstairs. I stumbled at the last step and giggled.
"Hello Hummels!" I giggled again.
"Blaine are you alright?" Burt looked at me and grabbed my shoulder.
I moved away from him and went to Kurt. "Kurt!" I grabbed him and he cringed. I glared and pushed him away and scoffed.
"Are you drunk?" My mother hissed angrily to me as the Hummels went to the dining room.
"Psht, no." I whispered back.
"The foods on the table." My mother looked passive.
She sat Kurt across from me, dinner was quiet.
"So how was school?" My mother broke the awkward silence.
I ignored his voice so it wouldn't hurt. His voice was one of the greatest things in the world for me.
Suddenly my mothers voice brought me back down from my thinking. "What about you honey?" My mother looked at me expectantly.
I snorted and laughed. "As if you care home wrecker."
"Blaine!" My mother said astonished.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY? THAT IT WAS FINE? THAT I WAS PUTTING A SMILE ON MY FACE AS I FOUGHT THE TEARS EVERYTIME I SAW KURT?" I yelled. "Well mom, it sucked. I had to see his face after he fucked me and broke up with me." The tears rolled down my face. "I'm going out." I got up.
"You're drunk,Blaine." Kurt said quietly.
"Now you talk to me?" I yelled. "FUCK YOU I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK."
"Calm down. My mother grabbed my arm.
I pulled away from her. "YOU RUINED ME!" I yelled at my mom and Burt. "YOU TOOK AWAY THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY!" I cried and then poked at Kurt. "AND YOU LET THEM RUIN US." I cried harder. "Don't expect me to come home." I walked out.
•-•
The next morning I woke up at a house that wasn't mine. But then I realized it was Sam's house.
I rasped out. "How'd I get here?"
"He told me to pick you up. He was scared you were going to hurt yourself." Sam sighed. "I found you outside Scandals with some guy."
I nodded. I didn't need to know who he was. I knew it was Kurt.
"Your mom was scared shitless." Sam laughed.
"Good." I snapped.
"I heard from Ku-" Sam paused when I cringed at his name. "You gave a show at dinner." I nodded as he laughed. "Blaine, what happened?"
I sighed and I started to talk. I couldn't stop. It was like throwing up. I told him from the beginning. When I first saw him. When I realized I liked Kurt, when I loved him. It felt free to let it all out. I cringed as I got to the end of us. Being ripped apart from our parents, that it hurt that I didn't want to be near any of them any more.
"He loves you, you know. He won't be able to fight it." Sam said as I finished.
I shook my head. "It's over." I teared up. "He's my everything."
Same hugged me. "It'll work out."
I cried into his shoulder. "It won't. What will I do seeing him everyday when he's at dinner?"
"I think it'll be worse once he moves in." Sam said quietly.
I gasped and cried harder. "I hadn't even thought of that yet!" I croaked.
•–•
"Are you sure you're going to be okay?" Sam smiled as we stopped in my driveway.
"I'll be fine." I smiled. "See ya Monday."
I walked into my house and sighed as I realized no one was at my house. I fell asleep quickly with the smell of Kurt on my pillow.