It could have been, minutes, hours or maybe even days before we broke apart, but when we did I wish we hadn't .His face looked like a bludger had hit him. I couldn't believe what had just happened. I had kissed James Potter. Why did I do that? Maybe it was because of the imminent futures that lay ahead of me, or maybe, deep down, I had wanted to kiss him. Before I was deliriously tired. But now, now I was wide awake once again. I got up too leave, I could see my lipstick covered over his mouth and I looked away, ashamed. He just followed my silhouette as I walked slowly and slightly dumbfounded as towards the portrait hole.

"Aren't we going to talk about what just happened?" he asked, from a distance. I looked at him sadly as I walked through the hole and into the common room. Becca was there already with her boyfriend, she was happy. She looked over in my direction as I entered. I walked slowly, and I saw her follow my eyes.

"Lily? Are you okay?" she asked, getting up. I nodded and took off my shrug and hung it over an armchair. I nodded solemnly and she walked over to me. "Do you want to talk about it?" she asked again. I nodded and I walked up the stairs . I felt kind of dead inside. Why? What had possessed me too? I thought.

"Becca, I'll meet you downstairs in 10 minutes." I said

"Why where are we going?" she asked.

"The Prefects bathroom." I muttered and I left her in the deserted dormitory.

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James' POV

It had been better than I had ever imagined. And I had imagined that happening a lot. But when we broke apart, her face looked confused, as if the world now was sitting on her wand. She got up gracefully and she walked slowly away. I couldn't tell what she was thinking, she looked abnormally lost. I needed to hear her voice. Just once. Before she went back to hating me; "Aren't we going to talk about what just happened?" I asked hopefully .But Lily being Lily, didn't say anything. She just walked on into the common room. I couldn't believe what had just happened. I had just kissed Lily Evans. And she actually responded, I couldn't believe my luck. Well it was luck before she got up and remained silent. If I could just be in her head for those seconds, I stood up and briskly went into the common room. Sirius was sitting on his own, his mouth covered in lipstick.

"Hey, hey Prongsie, looks like somebody got lucky tonight! Who was it?" he asked crouching on the mini sofa like a predator. He really didn't need to know. I just shook my head and sat down next to him. "Ooh, being a gentleman now are we?" I just glared at him. As if to say, please change the subject;" Okay then… So never guess what. Lily just walked in about 5 minutes ago. She looked like a bludger had hit her over the head and Becca has gone to talk to her." I really didn't want to talk about Lily at the moment. So I took my chance to change the subject.

"So, you and Becca then? Things are getting pretty serious between you two?" I asked tiredly.

"Yep, she could be the one," he whispered. We were silent for a while after that. I was focusing on the flames dancing in front of my eyes. At some point I heard some voices above our heads.

"Are you sure that you want to do this there, what if we get caught?" I nervous voice said, in the distance

"Oh we'll be fine, you don't think they'll question us, do you?" another voice said, they were getting nearer now and I could feel the bubbling in my stomach rise.

"Oh fine then, but we didn't really need to bring-" The other started. They were at the foot of the stairs and she stopped talking. Becca and Lily were standing there with some bags at their sides and in their pyjamas with dressing gowns over it by the look of things. Where were they going? I thought

"Where are you two going?" Sirius asked, I could hear the smile in his voice.

"Wouldn't you like to know?" Becca teased, walking over to the hole that led to the outside corridors. Lily kept her eyes firmly affixed to the floor. Her red hair, hanging over her shoulders.

"okay, enough said, but Lily, I couldn't help noticing you were a bit side tracked when you came in." her head shot up " Don't worry, you give me a name, and Prongs and I will cheerfully beat him up for you." He said, putting his arm around my shoulders. Lily smiled. If only Padfoot knew he would be beating me up.

"Nope, its okay Sirius, it was a mutual thing really, well if you'll excuse us, we have sorrows to drown, so see you later Sirius." She looked as though she was going to say something more directed at me but she only said:" And, uh, you James. Uh yeah." And she gave me a nod not looking directly in my eyes. And she led Becca out of the room. Unfortunately, somebody had noticed the tension.

"No, freaking way!" Sirius said as soon as they had left.

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Lily POV

"So let me get this straight," Becca said, taking a swig of firewhisky and floating on her back in the water." you were walking back to the common room, and one thing led to another and you kissed James?" she said. We had been talking for over 10 minutes and Becca had already gone through 2 bottles of firewhisky.

"Yes," I replied, floating on my back too.

"And you liked it?" she said, taking another swig

"Yes,"

"And you didn't want it too end?"

"No,"

"Then I don't see what the problem is. Go after him." She replied, finishing off the bottle in one breath

"You don't see the problem? This is James, James Potter, the arrogant fool who has more than on one occasion tried to get me to fall for him." I said, I was slightly tipsy.

"Yes, but how do you know he hasn't changed for real?" Becca persisted.

"What just because he decides to act like a decent human being for once in his life, does it mean that I have to fall for the hazel eyed man?" I continued, taking another drink from the bottle.

"Okay, lets address that sentence .One you called him a decent human being, that's kind of self explanatory. Second you said Hazel eyed, which means that either A) you've been gazing into them, Number B) you've noticed the colour or third you have imagined little red haired babies with his eyes." She murmured the last bit; she was so intoxicated that it wasn't even funny. I didn't bother to tell her that I had done all of those things, because she interrupted me. "And finally, you called him a man, which means you've been looking at him in a new way that you never have done before." I just looked at her, "oh yes I can be deep. Now tell me what you are going to do?" she said, making her way over to the edge.

"I am hoping that you aren't hung over tomorrow morning." She stared at me. "Now thank you for your help but now I have to get back and go to bed. Come on my little drinker, it's time to go."

"Lily, you haven't answered my question," she replied, slightly slurred.

"I know, now lets get you back to Sirius" I whispered, hauling her out onto the side.

"Lily, I won't forget,"

"I know," I whispered.

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James' POV

"Padfoot, shut up!" I whispered

"Oh Merlin! I can't believe it! You and-and Evans!" he laughed.

"Oh yes padfoot it was hilarious, it was just so incredibly funny that I have never felt so vulnerable in my life." I snapped

"Prongsie and Lily sitting in a tree, doing something they shouldn't be, starts with an S ends with an X oh Merlin they're having-"

"Stop it padfoot, just stop it. I didn't go on about you and Becca did I? And I don't even know about me and Lily." I said sorrowfully

"Things will work out with you two. You have had too much crap in your life not to have something good happen to you and if Lily Evans is your cure, then so be it." He mumbled.

"Well, I don't even know about Lily, she just kind of zombified afterwards." I muttered, Sirius sniggered

"That bad at it are you Prongsie."

"You wish! You know that all the girls want to get a piece of me,"

"Except Evans,"

"Except Evans," I agreed.

"Speak of the devil and she will appear," Sirius said. Two figures appeared in the doorway, one was being supported and the other dragging her along.

"I don't care how fucking drunk you are Bec's I am not doing that with Sirius," She saw us in the doorway. "Oh, um, hey Sirius,"

"Hey lily, so what were you going to do with me?" he smirked.

"Never you mind, I have to drop your girlfriend off to her bed, I feel like I am a bad influence on her, but the others would be way too nosy,"

"About what?" he asked

"Night, Sirius," Becca mumbled.

"Oh I love her when she's drunk." He said

"Well you would, you are a male, Night boys," she shot me a look quickly then walked up the steps, struggling with Becca.

"You're a shoe in prongs, she actually cares about others, unlike some people I could mention." Padfoot whispered.

"Yes, I suppose," I was just focused on her Shadow slowly disappearing from view.