bianca's comin back and i'm really happy about that. and she's bringing a new girlfriend with her, this Reese chick. i dunno, i mean Tamara Braun is beautiful and talented but i'm still not sure. and this tornado that's comin should hurry up. hey, here's a question, who do you want mother nature to take out and why? leave your answers in your reviews!
Nic pov.
My head hurts like hell. I don't wanna get up but I know I need to go though. Kendall's gone outside to tell the girls I'm alright but I'm sittin here. Reggie left a while ago too. I sigh and sit up slowly. I can't believe I broke down like a little punk! That's just...who the hell am I kiddin? I feel so much better now that some of that's outta my system. Bad part is? I feel like I got more left. But I'll worry about that later. I pull my knees up to my chest and rest my head in my hands on them. I sigh.
"Hey ken- are you alright?" I hear. I look up and see a blond girl I've never seen before.
"Who are you?" I ask ignoring her question.
"I'm B-" she's cut off by Bianca.
"Hey Babe, Kendall went to the store really quick." she says. "Oh! Babe, this is Nic. Nic, this is a friend of mine, Babe Chandler." she introduces us. Chandler.
"Oh...hi." I reply dully. She offers me a small smile and wave.
"Hey. And just...well now I've forgotten what I was lookin for Kendall for. I'll see you later I guess Bianca. It was nice meetin you Nic." she says walkin out. I nod and rest my head down again. I feel the air change and know Bianca came closer. She rests a hand on my shoulder and I look up.
"How do ya do it?" I ask. She looks confused. "Wake up every mornin and just keep goin? I'm so worried all the time." I continue. She's somebody I can really open up too. I can open up to Kendall, Greenlee, and Maggie too but Bianca is way easier. She sighs.
"Well, I'm gonna be completely honest. It's not easy. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to..to wake up and keep goin." she says. I nod digestin it. We fall into a comfortable silence but I break it minutes later.
"Ever felt like...like all this aint worth it? Like you could just sit in the tub one night and give up? Forget about everything and just..." I stop not really knowin how to tell her what I'm thinkin. "Like ya wanna die?" I ask. I look at her pleadin with my eyes for her not to think I'm some kinda pussy who gives up at the first sign of trouble.
"Me personally? I can't say that I have. I've... I've wanted to give up on feeling before. It hurts so much sometimes but... I know that in the end I'll just come out stronger than before." she answers. I nod. She doesn't push for anything.
"I have. I've wanted to say, to hell with everything and go play in my dad's gun cabinet." I whisper.
"What stopped you?" she asks. I sit silently tryina figure out if I really feel like tellin her.
"You guys." I say. I glance at her and she looks confused.
"How?" she asks. I take a deep breath.
"Well, you guys are like...you're important to me. I'm startin to get a feelin of what I've been missin. You guys are like my family and I know that if I did die, it'd hurt you guys a lot. I don't want you guys to hurt." I say. She nods.
"We want you to stay around Nic. You're right, we'd be crushed if we lost you, in anyway." she replies. I nod and sigh.
"Kendall comin back soon?" I ask after a few minutes of silence. I really wanna talk to her.
"She should be back in a few minutes." she says. She wraps an arm around my shoulder and squeezes. "If you ever feel like that again, you can talk to one of us. No matter what time it is." she says. I nod. She gets up and walks out and a few minutes later Kendall comes in. She sits down beside me just like Bianca had done before.
"So I'm willin to tell who killed him." I say. I see her nod out the corner of my eye.
"Alright." she says.
"I want you to be there." I put out there. She turns to me with a serious look on her face.
"Are you sure?" she asks. I nod.
"Yeah and..." I trail off when she smiles softly.
"I just want you to know I'm proud of you." she says. I frown confused.
"For what? I haven't done nothin." I reply. She shrugs.
"You're trying." she says. I nod. "So you wanna tell me anything?" she asks. I sit there a few moments contemplatin this. I could just say no and keep everythin bottled up.
"We were like a typical family. Or so I thought." I start. She just wraps her arm around me and I lean on her shoulder. "We had our good moments. Mom would be really nice to me sometimes...but then I'd do somethin stupid and she'd fly off the handle." I swallow hard. "I'm pretty sure I'd prefer the life Greenlee had." I say with a small chuckle which she shares with me.
"I'm sure a lot of people would." she says. I nod.
"Then when he came into the picture, things got way worse. She had money now and...and she could do whatever she wanted. She and my sister were never home. I met our neighbor, Big Mama, when I was around five? Six? Anyway, she was like the neighborhood mom or grandma. She took care of me most of the time. Made sure I bathed, ate, all that stuff. She was a good lady. But she lost her husband a few years later and then she got sick." I say. I miss that lady. "She was moved to a home and I wasn't allowed to go see her cus mom wanted me home a lot." I say. I stop there cus I'm not sure if I wanna get all into that.
"You ever run away?" she asks. I nod.
"Four times." I say. She gives me a kiss on the top of my head but doesn't say anything for a short while.
"Would you maybe like to go see Big Mama one day?" she asks. I sit up and look at her with a surprised look.
"Really?" I ask my mood changin drastically.
"Yeah. She's an important person from your past." she says. I nod happily and hug her.
"Yeah! That'd be...god, that'd be great." I say with a bright smile. She returns it. "I'm really sorry." I say after calmin down. She nods.
"I know. You're still a kid and you...you have to deal with so much." she says. "It's not fair." she adds. "I wish I could help you better." she says quietly. I lay a hand on her shoulder and shrug.
"Nothin else ya can really do. You're bein here, keepin me sane in a weird Kendall sorta way and...that's enough." I say. "Plus ya love me." I say. She nods.
"Yeah. You're a member of my family now." she says. I smile a little.
"Speakin of family," I pause. "Are you gonna adopt me or whatever?" I ask. She smiles.
"Definitely. Wouldn't want you stuck with Lena as a parental figure." she says. I smile then I remember.
"I need to get to the station." I say without emotion. She wordlessly gets up and offers me a hand. She just nods when I'm up on my feet and silently walk out behind her. Greenlee looks up from her paperwork and Kendall looks at me. I shrug and motion for Greenlee to come on which she does.
"C'mon Binks, we'll give ya a ride home." Kendall say. Bianca silently does and we all enter the elevator. We're quiet when we drop off Bianca too. After Bianca's inside the building and calls to let us know she's in the house, apparently Greenlee can't take the silence.
"Alright, so what's up with you two?" she asks turnin to look at Kendall dead on and me from the corner of her eye.
"We're on our way to the police station." I reply. "Wh-" Kendall cuts me off obviously knowin what I'm bout to ask.
"She left with Reggie. I told her you'd call later." she says. I nod. Guess Erica was a little worried.
"Why are we goin to the police station?" Greenlee asks. Kendall doesn't say anythin at first.
"Nic needs to be there." she replies simply. Greenlee gives me a worried look but turns in her seat to look out the window. When we get here to the station, we all sit here for a minute. Greenlee to give me and Kendall time, Kendall cus she said she'd be there, yeah I know she meant it as in a general statement, and me cus I'm bout to do somethin that needs to be done. I'm gonna tell who killed my dad. And I think it might help me feel better. I just hope I don't have nightmares now that all this stuff has been brought to my fresh mind. Silently I open my door and stand here in one spot. Kendall doesn't open her door until I start to walk and I hear hers and Greenlee's door shut. The police station is buzzin I guess you could say, when we enter. Cops runnin here, there, every friggin, where. Kendall rests a calmin hand on my shoulder. I'm scared as hell. Last time I was in here, I was bein booked or whatever you call that process before they sent me to that place. I straighten up and walk confidently, passin by jack on my way deeper in. I can tell Greenlee's hangin back by him and that's cool. She doesn't know what's goin on so she's not sure if I want her around. I really wouldn't mind but right now it's me and Kendall. I approach what I've heard is the police chief or somebody equally as important desk. Derek Frye. He looks up at Kendall then to me.
"Ms. Hart, how can I help you?" he asks all business. I take a deep breath.
"I know who killed Michael Cambias." I say. He stops twirling his pen and leans forward.
"You do? How long have you known?" he asks.
"Since it happened but... I forgot about it." I reply honestly. He looks at me incredulously for a second.
"You forgot you witnessed a murder?" he asks. I nod.
"Yeah, know it sounds stupid and unbelievable but it's true." I reply.
"Sounds pretty far fetched to me."
"Do ya wanna know who did it or not?" I ask. He frowns. Yeah, no respect for authority yada yada, heard it all before. I just don't wanna beat around the bush.
"Of course." he replies.
"Lena Kundera." I say. I hear Kendall gasp but I don't say anything. I just stare at mr. Frye who stares back.
"You know that this is a serious accusation.." I cut him off.
"I should know, I'm accused of killin my mom from here so...yeah, I know it's messed up." I say. I know how it feels to be accused of somethin like that.
"So if you're wrong, it could caus-"
"Look, I'm sure it was her. I was there in the courtroom when it happened and I guess with all the crap goin on with my family I blocked out the fact that I was right there lookin in his eyes when my father was shot!" I reply. He straightens his face and nods.
"Are you willing to testify?" he asks.
"Yeah." I say. He nods.
"I'll have her brought in for questioning." I don't say nothin else cus I know it's all he can do right now. But I'm not gonna let this lady get away with murderin my dad. Even if I did want him dead at times.