Chapter 14

Stop & Say You Love me

Hey listen, because I'll only say this once

do you think that you could lose yourself in me?

I could say I want to die by your side one day

but I could never speak the words

because they haven't wrote the words that mean enough to me

so together we can burn this way

Brooke walked into Chris' house and saw Chris with Graham in the kitchen talking. "Hey boys" she said in a chirpy tone. The two boys turned to see a bubbly Brooke.

"Why so happy, Brooke? An hour ago you were crying?" Graham questioned.

"Lets just say Rachel will be mine again soon." She said.

"What Happened Miss Davis…." Chris asked. She gave him a disgusted face.

"Keller, do not call me that. You know I hate it. And what happened is we kissed" Brooke said "And I know she doesn't love Peyton. I know it. She wants me back. You should've seen how nervous she got."

Graham nodded. "Well, don't get your hopes up too high. You never know. She might be too scared of getting hurt again. Or maybe she is falling for this Peyton chick. She might've been nervous but you don't know how she still feels about the whole thing."

"What the hell, Graham." Brooke said to him pissed off. "Aren't you supposed to be a friend and suppose to be positive?"

"Sorry, but a friend also tells the truth. And she saw you and Keller in bed together. It's probably hard to get that image out of her head. Just think about it Brooke. Put yourself in her shoes. When you two were together and if she would've slept with say, Peyton, and you caught them in bed together. Think of what you would've done and how you would've felt."

Brooke didn't say a word. All she did was think back to the time she was with Rachel and of the times she thought Rachel was cheating. She was always wrong. She was the one who always hurt Rachel with her fists and words. Brooke didn't look so happy anymore.

"Sorry, didn't mean to kill your happy buzz…" Graham apologized.

"No…no…it's okay. Don't worry about it. You're right." Brooke said to him. She felt uncomfortable being there. "I'll see you two later. I need to, uh, go"

"Brooke, don't go." Chris said. "Hang out with us."

"I want to be alone, Chris. Thanks though. Bye" Brooke said with a wave and left.

I found a loop hole for us now

it's called redemption of my history

do you think you could look past my fears

tell me now my love

because I will lose it in your eyes, I see firelight in your eyes

I know that things will be better when you are by my side

"Peyton." Rachel called out.

Peyton was sitting at her desk working on a drawing. When she heard Rachel's voice she quickly put her drawing face down on her desk. "Damn it, Rachel. You scared the hell out of me!"

Rachel chuckled, "Sorry. What are you working on?"

"On something…that I'll show you later" she said with a smile. "You're here earlier than I thought you'd be."

"Brooke did most of the work so I didn't have much else to do." Rachel explained. She walked towards Peyton slowly.

"Is everything okay, Rachel? You don't seem yourself." Peyton noticed.

"What? Yeah. I'm fine Peyton. I'm here with you."

"Aw aren't you so sweet" she giggled. "Come here sexy" Peyton said and grabbed a hold of Rachel's jeans belt loop and pulled her close to her and kissed her. Rachel wrapped her arms around Peyton's waist and then they moved things over to the bed. Rachel was on top. She tugged at Peyton's shirt and pulled it over her head. Her hands roamed Peyton's smooth skin. Rachel kissed her shoulder and then the side of her neck and then placed a kiss on her mouth. Peyton pulled Rachel's shirt off of her head. "You look beautiful, Rachel" Peyton and Rachel locked eyes.

Rachel didn't look away. "Peyton…I have to tell you something" Rachel's heart was beating fast. She didn't want to hurt Peyton she had to tell her the truth. She had to tell her what happened with Brooke earlier today. She just had to hope Peyton would forgive her.

"Rach, you can tell me anything. You know that." Peyton smiled.

Rachel took a deep breath. "Okay here goes…" Peyton nodded and waited a few seconds. "I love you"

"What?" Peyton said with a smile.

Rachel couldn't believe what she just said. She was going to tell her about Brooke but the words didn't come out. Did she love Peyton? She thought. She cared about her and they had a lot in common and they got along so well. Peyton treated her so well. She loved spending time with her. Maybe, she did love her.

"I do. I love you, Peyton." Rachel said with a smile.

Peyton sat up while Rachel still rested on her. "I love you too, Rachel. I've wanted to tell you but I was scared you didn't feel the same way about me."

Rachel kissed Peyton hard. They rolled around in the bed. One article of clothing being removed from there bodies one at a time. And eventually having a passionate night of love making.

stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you

stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you

Brooke had sent Rachel a few text messages saying she wanted to talk & asking where she was. And that she loved her and wanted to be with her. She paced her room. She was so anxious and nervous and sad all at the same time. She took a seat on the edge of her bed and looked at her phone hoping to receive a message or call. She got nothing. "Ugh." She exhaled. She got up, grabbed a light sweater and went outside. She needed to get some fresh air. The night was still& she walked the lonely streets alone.

I'm guarded,

I'm fragile,

but if anyone could ever save me now,

you can

Peyton lay on her bed panting. "Oh. My. God. Rachel. That was amazing!" Rachel grinned. Peyton turned over to look at Rachel. "Seriously, that was fucking amazing. You make me feel so good." Peyton grinned.

"I'm glad you enjoyed it, Sawyer." Rachel said. Peyton kissed her.

"I love you so much Rachel. You make me feel wonderful. You're so good to me. Not to mention you're fucking hot and I get turned on by just looking at you."

Rachel's cheeks turned a shade of red. "Thanks Peyton. I love you so much too. I'm so happy we can tell each other that now."

They lay there in silence a few moments. Rachel looked over at Peyton's clock that read 11:30pm. "Shit, Peyt, it's almost midnight. I should be getting home." Rachel got out of bed. Peyton looked at her naked body. She looked at every curve that made her.

"You're beautiful, Rachel. You really are." Peyton said to her.

Rachel slipped on her panties and put her bra on. "Thanks baby. So are you." Rachel finished getting dressed and then sat on the bed. Peyton sat up while covering her naked body with her bed sheet. "Tonight was really great, Peyton." Rachel told her and placed a kiss on her lips.

"Let me know when you get home." Peyton told her and kissed her again. "I love you"

Rachel got up and headed for the door. "I love you too" She locked eyes with her and moments later walked out.

Rachel got in her car and was feeling a wave of all kind of emotions. She sat there not knowing what she let just happened. She went over to tell Peyton about Brooke and instead she told her she loved her and they had sex for the first time. Rachel had to admit the sex was good. And that she did have feelings for Peyton. Was it Love? Maybe. She didn't exactly know yet. But she wanted to find out. She wanted to see what could happen with Peyton now. She was going to keep the Brooke incident to herself and pretend it never happened. Peyton was good for her.

Rachel drove away from Peyton's and headed to her house. When arriving she got out of her Black Tahoe and headed to the front door. Out from the darkness on the porch Rachel saw a shadow figure appear.

"Rachel…" She heard Brooke's voice.

"Brooke?" She came into the light and in fact did see Brooke. "What are you doing here?"

"I'm seriously going crazy without. I miss you. Can't we just talk about it. Like really talk about everything. No yelling, no fighting, just talking."

Rachel saw how bad Brooke wanted this. "Okay." Rachel said. "Let's talk. Come in." Rachel went inside her house and Brooke followed.

are you strong enough? am I enough?

are you strong enough to say you love me?

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